Authors note:Hi guys, I guess from the lack of reveiws, you guys didn't really like chapter 4... So I'll try to make up for it by writing a little happier of a chapter 5. After all, for all of the sadnesss that I've put kagome through, she deserves a tiny bit of happiness... There might be inuyasha fluff in this chappie, you lucky readers.
Starfire77- Like I said before, she'll have a little happiness from time to time... Thank you for reveiwing!
Be prepared for a little sadness at the beggining of this chapter though, I mean, her grandpa just died! She has to be saud!
Anyway, please read and reveiw!
Kagome rubbed her brothers head as they waited for Mrs. Higurashi to come home from shopping, she heard him sobbing into her lap. Her innermost urges weren't so different from her brothers... Her mind and her soul, told her to cry, and to cry hard...
But she couldn't do it. It wasn't that simple...
She could cry with her brother, and make a horrible sight for her mother when she walked through the door. Or... She could be strong, and comfort her brother.
She chose the second choice. After all, she had done her share of crying...
But then... Two people who were important to her, were dead, gone... Inuyasha was living, but he was dead to her, because she could not find him.
They had patched up her ankle, so she was able to walk with only a slight bit of pain.
"I'm home!" The door opened slowly as both kagome and souta watched their mother step in.
Her mothers happy smile immidiately vanished as a grimace replaced it.
"Whats wrong..? What happened..?" She set the grocery bags down on the floor and looked to kagome.
"Mom... It's grandpa.. he died." Kagome didn't want to see her mother cry, but she couldn't look down, because she knew...
That she had to be strong...
The higurashi family had gone through a time of grieving for the day, while Mrs. Higurashi called to make arrangements for a funeral. Kagome held souta, who could only weep, and say nothing.
It had been a while since grandpa had been loaded into a waiting ambulance, and all of the higurashi family had been in a daze ever since. Kagome was probably the calmest of them all, still refusing to cry, still not weilding to grief.
"Kagome... go to sleep. I'll take care of souta." Her mother scooped up the sleeping little boy into her arms and nodded to kagome, walking up the stairs to souta's room.
She stumbled to her bedroom, clutching her heart...
Life really didn't like her right now...
Opening the door with a heavy sigh, she shrunk back to her floor, hugging her knees to her chest, trying not to cry.
She stretched a little, her foot hitting something...
She looked at it, the box...
Shaky fingers reached for it, wanting to escape, yeah, escape from this world of cares and hurts... If there was such a place.
She opened it, again seeing the objects that she had discovered inside before, but this time... Something else caught her eye.
The dilapitated cover of a book was now noticable in the light her her lamp, it's edge caught on a corner of the box. Kagome raised her eyebrows, and dug the book out, relativly surprised by it's weight.
It was dusty, she noted as she flipped the cover, to reveal pages that were yellow with age.
The page, was inscribed with a small title.. It read.
To kagome...
Her heart began to speed up, as she realized that it was sango's handwriting, she flipped the page again to see a page inscribed with many words.
Kagome, Miroku and I never got a chance to say goodbye to you, as well as shippo. So we decided to leave this book behind for you, both in thanks, and in goobye. You've probably found the objects in the box, just know, that they are given with great warmth and heartfelt love.
Well, to begin with, the letcher and I got married after all. Miroku was extremely happy about it, although the urgency of a child wasn't so urgent, because of naraku's death. As far as I know, we have 5 children, with many on the way. I would draw them, but I haven't much talent in the way of art, so you'll just have to imagine.
As for Inuyasha...
Kagome closed her eyes as she read the words, and held her breath... But looked down once more to read what more sango had to say.
After he dropped you down the well, he came back to the village to check on us. We healed within a day or two... But inuyasha, he was distant, and wouldn't talk. He looked like he had tears in his eyes, but whenever I got a good look, he would turn away. That night, Miroku went out to talk to him, by my request. The monk came back in, saying simply, that inuyasha missed you. Though he later told me, that inuyasha had been sobbing into the sleeves of his haori.
About a week later, inuyasha disappeared without a word. We were about to go looking for him. But before we could go, one of the witches that we fought so hard against, came to us and yelled out a particular poem. She then said that in revenge for her sisters, she had placed a spell on inuyasha, and that her poem was the way to break it.
The poem was this...:
For what blood he once pursued to kill
Now he is chained to with every breath
That blood will free him from his sill
Only to call on him, from death to life
He will only be her destined will.
She then said that it would never break, because she said that she would find the one whom he loved so much so that he would die.
Kagome, If I could be with you to help you with this, I would be. But since I can't be there, you'll have to do this on your own. I know that you can do it, if only for inuyasha.
The witch has been dormant for at least 3 years, so miroku and I are going to look for her. I'm leaving this book to keade to see that somhow, you get it.
Miroku was able to draw pictures of our children, as well as everyone we knew. He said that there was a picture of me in there, but I haven't seen it. So I won't trust him on that one.
Don't get too
depressed over there, I know some things will happen, that I can't
control. But I speak for everyone, that we all want you to be happy.
And, of course, we all know, that you can't think straight when
you're depressed, try to remember that. Okay sis...?
Forever your friend and almost-sister, Sango.
Kagome smiled, as she slowly flipped through the rest of the pages, almost giggling at miroku's well drawn little children. And there WAS a few good pictures of sango. As well as some with shippo in them.
She knew, that being depressed would do her no good. Her mind would have to be clear to actually find inuyasha. Her grandfather, she had loved him. But she had spent enough sadness on inuyasha, and trying not to cry was wrong, She just needed to let it go.
She made a silent promise to her grandfather, though it was not without a few newly shed tears, that she would mourn for him.
But after she had her act together, after she could find inuyasha, only then, would she allow herself the luxury of mourning.
She was not going to sit back and be sad any longer, her friends had taught her that... Strong, thats what she had to be, strong.
And she would be damned if she let a dried up old witch from 500 years ago, keep her from her love.
that she would be...
Authors note: yes! I finally updated!!! I think that you guys are gonna like this chapter, at least I hope so.
Anyway, I'm really tired, so those of you who I missed that have reveiwed. I'll make sure to talk to you in the next chapter.
Okay, thats all I have to say.
Read and reveiw!