Kurama's Younger Sister, Kurumi
Chapter 17: To End It All
Kurama continued to speak sadly as he caressed Tashi's head. The guilt and pain was soaking deeper into his heart.
"I'm not really a sweet, innocent girl..." Kurama's voice was filled with pain, "Without Kurama I'd be a brat! Like I used to... I used to be snotty and rude, but Kurama changed me... He turned me into something real... And if he were to leave... I..." He broke away from Tashi, but felt his heartbeat skip after realizing he didn't want to tear away. He didn't want to leave Tashi's warmth.
This really is the best for him... And me... He thought. I'm the good guy... So... I must end this...
"Listen Tashi!" Kurama yelled, "If you kill Kurama..." Tears built up in Kurama's eyes and gently rolled down his cheeks. "I'll never forgive you! Murdering is wrong and... sniff... I love my brother! It hurts me every time you talk about killing him! It hurts my heart every time you talk about taking his place! I need my brother more than you! I'm sorry!"
I hope I can clear this up... Kurama gave Tashi one last look and ran off crying. He collapsed in his room, but couldn't stop the tears.
These tears... Are for Tashi... He thought, not being able to stop the tears nor the pain of what he had done. I've never felt so guilty or wicked before.. Why did I lead him on? Why?... Oh Tashi...
Tashi sat, frozen. I hurt her?... I hurt Kurumi... I... I'm a monster! I can't believe what I've done... I shouldn't kill Kurama, no... I won't... If I don't then Kurumi will be happy... she'll love me... And we can be together and raise a family... Then Tashi felt a familiar cold pain in his chest. He groaned lightly and swallowed hard. I must seek revenge... But I want Kurumi... Her red hair and green eyes... Beautiful smile... But... The dark icy feeling grew. The pain was so tight and rich that all Tashi could do was groan and curl up on the ground.
I love her! Too much... I want... Only to be with... her... He couldn't even breathe anymore, the pain was too severe.
Revenge is my first priority... With that thought positive, the pain ceased to continue and gradually left. I'm sorry, Shigan, forgive me for faltering... I will kill Kurama... Then take Kurumi for myself...
Kurama slowly opened his eyes and could only think about the warm way Tashi had held him: so soft and sincere. But... I will only destroy him further... Add more aches in his fragile heart... Kurama flushed at what he said and shook it off. He is the enemy... He will murder millions to get what he wants... And he wants to murder me...
"Oh, Kuru-chan! Get up!" Botan said, walking into his room and shutting the door behind her. "C'mon! You have to cook breakfast! And I have some great news!"
Kurama put on a fake smile and nodded, "Alright, I'll be right out." I don't want her to get involved in this...
Botan grinned and cheered as she left Kurama's room. She's so happy and spunky... Kurama thought, getting to his feet. It's hard not to be depressed right now... He slipped on one of his newest dresses and style his hair a Chinese bun.
Kurama quickly made his way to kitchen and made breakfast. Yusuke, Kurama and Hiei sat and waited for Botan to spill the 'good news'. Botan finished her breakfast and smiled at the group.
"Just spill it already!" Yusuke groaned. Botan grinned and nodded, "I've learned Tashi's weakness..."
TBC Tsuzuku
Notes: About the chapter title, it's focused around Kurama's train of thought about ending Tashi's pain and love for Kurumi.