Authors note: Most of my news is at the end of the chapter, so all I'm gonna say here, is that I do not own Inuyasha, as well as the song "I'm lost without you" By blink 182.
"C'mon shippo, I show you the place that I talked about." Kagome grabbed shippo's hand, as kilala hung onto his shoulder. Shippo was interested, the thing that his adoptive mother had taken the liberties to tell him about in excrutiating detail. He almost tripped over the bushes, as she walked briskly down the gently sloping hill.
He saw it...
It was just as kagome had described, it was made to look so much like inuyasha. But after his first look, he looked to the woman next to him, watching her look so forlornly at the statue, her lower lip trembling. And inuyasha's words echoed in his head,
"Why do I feel so complete, yet so empty..? Why do I feel like she's my heart..?"
And this statue expressed his sentiment perfectly.. at least, to shippo's point of veiw.
It was cold, constantly cold, where he was.
Outside voices couldn't find him... He was imprisoned, somewhere, he didn't know where. All he knew, was that he was constantly cold, and he heard her voice over and over again, crying out his name.
This prison that trapped him, and had held him for over 500 years, was like a cage.
When he slept, he knew that he called out her name, in tortured pain.
And sometimes, he wondered if she could hear him. Writhing in imaginary pain. His soul was broken out of abuse, he wondered if he was insane. The witches cackling echoed through his head, warping kagome's pure voice.
All he could do, was wait for the time when kagome would need him, and there would never be a time like that, because he wasn't strong enough to protect her. Even though he loved her, god, he loved her so much.
But he could always dream...
"Okaa-san, can I have some more noodles..?" Kagome sighed and turned back to the pot, scooping out some dejected looking noodles, and ladling them into shippo's bowl. Kagome's mother was shocked to find that this kitsune was calling her daughter, "mama". But after kagome told her about shippo, and that he was from the feudal era.
Her daughter simply smiled and sat down, watching shippo eat the ramen, like he hadn't eaten in days.
Mrs. Higurashi sighed and got up to go and tackle the pile od dirty laundry that was waiting for her at the bottom of the stairs.
"Shippo... I just... I don't know where to look, anymore..." Kagome held her head in her hands, noting that her mother was out of earshot.
"Now that I've found you, and kilala... I have to wonder, if he's watching over me, watching me... But all I truly want, is to find him again." Shippo looked up from his bowl, watching his adoptive mother speak from her heart.
"All the things I hear, I just don't know what to think... I loved him so much, and now... it feels like, a part of me is gone, with him..."
He looked back down at the table at a loss for something to say... He wanted to comfort her, but he had no support for her. Not like his otou-san could, not like inuyasha would...
"Well find him, I promise mama, we will." He smiled up at her, putting a reassuring hand on her hunched shoulder.
She smiled half-heartedly and got up.
"Shippo-chan, If you and kilala don't mind, I'm going to be in my room for a little while."
The kitsune nodded and closed his eyes, sitting back and watching his okaa-san walk wearily to her room.
Kagome sat down on her floor, grabbing a pillow and putting it next to her cd player. She pressed the power button, and lay down in front of it. Closing her eyes, as the beginning strains of the song began.
I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day, will end
She hummed along with it, Her fingers patiently tapping out the beat on her pillow.
I will go down as your lover
Your friend
Give me your lips
And with one kiss
we begin...
The soft tones of the singers voice lulled her to sleep, her grip on the real world, seeming to lessen. Until she was asleep, forgetting that the song was even playing. Soft piano, could be heard, as the song entered it's chorus.
Her eyes blinked open, realizing, that she was no longer in her house, but in a meadow. Teaming with birds and wind, playing with the tree's long branches.
It was about the same time as he awoke, laying on a tree branch, the wind playing with his long white hair.
Both of them stood up, seeing the other as a speck in the distance. Inuyasha, leapt down to the ground, landing softly. As kagome hesitantly stepped forward.
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Both of them could faintly hear the music in the background, even as they wandered toward one another, they contemplated what the words were saying.
Kagome blinked, squinting into a distance, and seeing that flash of red and white that he always was.
And her eyes widened, wondering if it was the thought of inuyasha, like it was before. (A.N. Chapter 3, you guys. Remember..?)
He saw her as well but..
He doubted that she was anymore than a dream, though his very soul ached to go toward her. He finally allowed his feet to move, and so he walked toward her, a disbelieving stare on his face.
She walked toward him, her tears welling up in her eyes. Kagome stopped from where she was, suddenly sitting in the tall grass, looking up at him, in crushed hope.
Inuyasha looked to her, and stepped forward, bringing his hands to her face, caressing it as if it were one of the most valuable things on earth.
And to him, she was...
Kagome's eyes locked with his, she wanted to say his name, she wanted to speak to him, but her throught didn't seem to work
He got to his knees, grunting wearily as his knees hit the ground. making it so that he was as close to her as possible.
Kagome's tears fell silently, as she watched the pain conflicting in his golden eyes.
I'll leave my room open till sunrise
for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused
on you
Where are you now
I can hear footsteps
I'm dreaming
And if you will
keep me from waking
to believe this
Kagome reached up, real or not, she couldn't bear him in pain, she brought his head down into her lap. Smiling sadly downat him, softly caressing his cheek, and rubbing her hands through his long silver hair. His golden eyes searched hers, he wanted to say something, but she knew that he couldn't. He wanted so desperately to believe that she was HIS kagome.
He wanted to believe that this was real...
Even if it wasn't, he wanted it to last, because he was afraid that she would leave him again. But she shook her head in understanding, taking her small, pale hand, and intertwining it with his clawed one. Squeezing it in affection...
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am
I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am
I'm lost without you
His heart relaxed, and suddenly, he didn't care if it was real or not. His eyes, began to close, fluttering in resistance. He wanted to see her... just for a little while longer.
But sleep got the better of him, and he closed his eyes, losing himself in her warmth.
It had been so long since he had felt such warmth...
She smiled dow at him, not fully understanding why she was here, with him.
The soft strains of the song, began to fade, in one final lullaby. Simple strokes of the keys of a piano, whispered in an ending sonata.
As the singer, himself, repeated himself once more...
I'm lost without you...
I'm lost without you...
How true it really was...
Authors note: okay! you guys can't say that there is no fluff in this chapter, even if it IS a dream! I was feeling squishy, from watching a disney movie, and listening to the song written about in this chapter.
I really like it, and I think it sounds, and seems like inuyasha is actually singing it. If you have the blink 182 cd, then listen to this song while reading this chapter. I think you'll get what I mean in this chapter...
I also printed out some manga that isn't translated yet... although the website had already translated it.
It was a completely sweet inu/kag moment. that I couldn't help but fall in love with.
Kagome was basically saying, "I'm here for you, I'll stand by you, what do you need..?"
Inuyasha said in reply, "Hold me up, just a little while longer."
If you want to be refered to this website, then tell me so in a review, and I will gladly send it to you.
Anyway, I have to go, because I'm REALLY tired, and need some sleep.
Toodles...
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