Pairing : DouWata
Disclaimer : ...mine? I wish...
Author's Note : The second part to the fic!
Ienai Kotoba : Watanuki Side
Save me, save me, save me. That's all they know what to tell others to say. Do they know how difficult it is to say those words? It's something only shoujo manga heroines say. After that they wait for their prince to come and save them from the bad guy, sweep them off their feet, kiss and live happily ever after.
Who am I, to do something like that? I'm just a regular guy who goes to a regular high school. Okay, maybe not that regular. I am a god in the kitchen (that Doumeki better admit it) and I see spirits. But still! I'm not a simpering female with beautiful long curly hair (like Himawari-chan), big eyes (like Himawari-chan), slender body (like Himawari-chan), always cheerful…like Himawari-chan…Okay, so she's more likely to be a shoujo manga heroine, not me. Since I'm not a shoujo manga heroine, I can't say those words.
Not only that, do they even know what comes with the "save me"? When you ask someone to save you, it doesn't mean that you're safe from whatever evil it is you need saving from. It just means that you're transferring over that evil to the person who comes to your rescue.
I couldn't do that. It's not a simple evil like a thief or a broken tap or overdue homework. It's evil that cannot be seen, that can take your life without you realizing it. How can I ask someone to take care of it for me? I can't risk their lives in exchange for my own, that's too selfish.
Doumeki, he's always there when I need him, even if Yuuko-san didn't ask it of him. What does he get from this? His life is in danger every time he's near me, and it doesn't look like he's getting anything in return. Yuuko-san's shop, it grants wishes of equivalent price to the payment. If Doumeki's doing all the work whenever she asks, what's he getting out of it? I don't see her paying him anything, and he won't answer if I ask. I must ask Yuuko-san, she better not be using him for free, it's much too dangerous for that.
Alright, I admit it. I feel better knowing he's around. But that doesn't mean that I want him jumping in front of me to take every blow. Both of us are only human, there's only so much we can take from the immaterial. That person, from the beginning he has saved me, like it was natural or something. Doesn't he get it? It hurts to see him get hurt because of me! It's not worth it – I'm not worth it!
And after that, words which come naturally to others, words like "Thank you" don't come easily to me. I haven't had many experiences where someone I barely know, someone I'm not on good terms with, will voluntarily sacrifice themselves to save me.
Anyway, even if I don't say "Save me", that idiot will. So I guess I'll keep making his impossible requests until the day when I can say "Thank you" while looking him straight in the eye arrives.
-Owari-
