Author's Note: This one was nicer when I conceptualised it.

Habit; 18

Maybe it seems otherwise, but I do feel. I need like everyone else; I want; I desire. Do I want what's "right", "good", "normal"? Maybe not.

I heard an American song on the radio, and the words struck a chord: "I am human and I need to be loved… just like everyone else does."

Yes. There are questions of worth. Yes. There is self-loathing. But that, you see, implies emotion, and I am not numb. I wish I was…things would be far simpler if I was, if I could just shut down, close myself off.

But then… I'd be him.