Just To Leave Again
Yeah, okay. It was a huge mistake. Of course, it didn't really hit me that night, but it certainly hit me at 9:32 am the next morning.
I woke up a little after 9:00, blinking furiously at the sunlight streaming through the windows. I turned my head to see Tai, pressed up behind me and holding me to him with a firm grip. He had been so gentle the night before, but intense too. He had missed me, and I could tell.
He still kept fresh flowers in the vase on the table, even though he had complained about the money spent on new ones each week when we were together. I would always hug him and tell him that ambiance was important to me, and he would tell me to stop using big words to try and fool him. But he would let me buy the flowers still. It surprised me that he had kept it up in my absence, though. The thought that he had done it in memory of me made me smile when I saw them last night.
The presence of other little things that I had done, and the fact that they were still there, made it just that much easier to give into Tai the night before. It seemed so easy to just fall back into his life.
I tried to slip out of Tai's arms, but he wouldn't relinquish his hold. After an accidental hit to his jaw with my elbow, he opened his eyes.
"Where are you going?" he asked, traces of worry in his tone.
"I'm going to make us breakfast while you shower," I told him, smiling.
He nodded, and after pulling me close for some kisses, he let me go to the kitchen.
I hummed a happy tune while pulling pans out from the same spots they had always been, and heard the shower turn on. I was surprised, however, to hear someone knock on the apartment door. Tightening Tai's bathrobe around me, I checked the peephole and then opened the door to an unfamiliar woman.
She looked confused to see me, which made me kind of relieved. I didn't want to be the only feeling lost at the moment, after all.
"Can I help you?" I asked.
She was pretty, with long black hair and an adorable top that I made a mental note to find and buy later. She tightened her grip on a bouquet of flowers in her hand, and gave me a fake smile.
"You are Mimi, aren't you?" she asked. I nodded, and she stalked angrily into the apartment.
I followed her in, not really understanding what was going on. Although the look on Tai's face as he stepped out of the bedroom and saw her told me that he had a better idea than I did.
"What are you doing here?" he asked in an upset tone.
"I was going to surprise you by taking you out to breakfast! I thought that we were talking about getting more serious, being exclusive…" she cried.
Tai shook his head. "No, I told you I didn't want that."
"But you didn't tell me because you didn't want it because you were still seeing you ex-fiancée!" She retorted, pointing at me in rage.
And it all clicked at once. Sora telling me about his girlfriend, the woman standing here pointing an accusing finger at me, and the flowers she brought in to replace the almost dead ones in the vase.
The fact that Tai had lied and was dating other people actually wasn't that part that upset me. For some dumb reason it was the flowers. He wasn't even the one buying them! He let this woman I don't know replace the flowers for him.
I started for the bedroom, needing to find my dress so I could leave. Tai followed me in, closing and locking the door so the flower hussy couldn't follow. I didn't even acknowledge him, just throwing off the robe and quickly pulling on my dress.
"Mimi, you need to let me explain. I told you I didn't have a girlfriend because I don't. She doesn't matter to me like you do. I don't want any other girls, I want you!"
I put on one of my shoes that had been lying at the foot of the bed, and started searching for the other.
"Do you hear me, Mimi? I've missed you like crazy! Everyday since you left Japan I've been worrying, trying to get as much info as I can from Sora and Kari. I just need you in my life."
Where was my other damn shoe? I picked it up from under the chair in the corner and slipped it on. I grabbed my purse and started for the door, but Tai was in my way.
"Mimi," he pleaded, looking hurt and sorry.
God, this was even harder than the first time. I hugged him fiercely, and he returned it. When he loosened his grip I made for the door and got through it before he could blink, having unlocked while distracting him with the hug.
He followed me out, yelling, "You can't do this again, please!"
I finally faced him, feeling pain restrict my throat.
"Tai, if you missed me so much, how could you let a woman into your life? Even the thought of dating again hurts me so bad, and now I find out that you are almost seriously dating this woman? Plus, nothing has changed. Late again for the party last night, Tai. You are always a minute too late and a word too short. I need commitment, Tai, not excuses," I said in a surprisingly steady voice.
"I love you still, Mimi," he whispered.
"Love can only get you so far Tai," I replied, and walked out the apartment door.
This was not how I envisioned the trip to Japan. What happened to keeping a clear head and not making any mistakes concerning him? God, I can't tell Sora. She'll flip when she hears I didn't believe her.
Sitting near the fountain in front of Miyako's apartment, I consider Tai. I guess it was nice to know he was handling this just as bad as me. I realize, of course, that I left him so that he could see how much I did for him, how much he should try to do for me. Unfortunately he seemed to have found someone to fill my spot. Somewhat.
He still loves me. He can't move on because of that, but we can't get back together because there will always be girls there, filling in my role, not letting him learn what he needs to.
Maybe that was the best we were ever going to have. Each of us having someone that will commit fully to us, but still be stuck in love with each other. Maybe it was time to fill Tai's spot.
I flipped open my cell phone, and ignoring the two missed calls from him, I dial a number.
"Hello?" Asks a masculine voice.
"Hi Michael. It's Mimi," I reply.
I try not to think of this as running away from the problem again, but it sure feels like it.
AN- I'm just a writing fiend lately. Blame my late night job where I don't have anything to do for eight hours except surf the internet.
This story has gotten really drama based. Its kind of weird to write in this tone, but I kind of like it.
Thank you to all of my reviewers!
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