A Confusion At Heart

By

kittynboots47834


I watched as the memories of the past flooded my mind . . .

Confusing everything in my heart . . .


Getting off of the bus, I started to rethink about going to his house. He flooded my head, replaying everything that had happened recently. Pain struck me. Flashbacks from a life I used to live poured into my head. But as they flashed like a strobe light in the dark, one replayed over and over. One that I thought was a dream.


He was standing there, in the rain, with his arms wide open. As I ran to him, tears rolled down my face. I felt him embrace me when collapsing into his arms. The warmth of his body enveloped me, protecting me.

" Sesshoumaru . . ." , I cried into his chest, the sound muffled slightly, " I have missed you so much. You don't know how long I have waited to see you. My love hasn't changed for you."

I looked up to gaze at his golden eyes, but they were no longer a golden color. A red tint had taken over. He smiled, stroking my hair.


" You have no idea how long I have been waiting either." He smelled my hair, taking me into his lungs. I tried to run from him, but he had a powerful grip. As I flailed, he pulled my neck closer to his mouth. I felt teeth sink in, crimson liquid rushing down my neck. But as it ran down my neck, I felt his tongue lap the liquid off of my chest. He started to rip my clothes off and rape me, but the darkness took over my vision.

I woke up in a street thirsting for something . . .

The flashback ended. I got up from my bed and realizing the time, I approached the front door ready to leave. My eyes wandered across the house, noticing everything. Once again I rethought everything. I walked out the door, ready for what might happen for I knew what he wanted.

I walked up to his door, my finger shaking as I reached for the doorbell. My hand pulled back as I rethought ever move I was going to make. My thoughts raced around my head. Deciding to go on ahead with it I rang the doorbell.

I heard sudden footsteps, the doorknob turned slowly. My head suddenly filled with memories of my mother, making tears pour from my eyes. A face appeared from behind the door. It was Sesshoumaru's. He pulled me into his arms, stroking my hair. I gazed into his eyes, slowly tinted red like in the memory.

" Kagome," He paused, smiling. " It will be alright."

I couldn't let this happen again, I'm still in love with him. Knowing what was happening, I watched as he struggle to fight his vampiric form.

" Ka---go--me!" He started to warn me. " Run away!"

" No!" I cried into his clothes. " I need you!"

" Run!" He pushed me away from his body. The fear of losing me was there.

" No! I know who you are." I gazed at him. " I know who you are . . . Sesshoumaru."

Struggling, I ran to him wanting to help him through this.

" Sesshoumaru!" I hugged him, trying to let him know that I was there for him, no matter what. " You can stop this all right now! You are stronger then what you think you are!"

He started to change. His hair, nails, face. I watched in pain. Wanting desperately to help, I cried for him. He started to walk towards me, trying to grab my neck.

" Nooooo!" I was pushed against a wall. He was lost.

How could I help him now . . .

He was lost to me . . .

Or was he . . .


AN: Here you go guys! Hope that you enjoyed it! Thanx for the support! Kitty!