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Lockheart016: Okay, I am soooooo sorry..TT..another unexpected thing happened, and it served a a hindrance to my updating…XD
Well okay here it is, what you've been waiting for …
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My Cloud
My Actor…
Tifa put down the phone and locked the doors, just as what Cloud said. She wondered why he was so worried
What's with him? The petite teenager thought and gave out a shrug and ran up to her room, she couldn't help but smile at Cloud's thoughtfulness Maybe he's afraid of burglars Tifa laughed, not knowing there was a deeper motive to Cloud's cautiousness
Hours later…
Cloud laid in his bed thinking of Tifa, he thought of how close they got today, of how gentle she was with him, her kindness, her smile, but no matter how much he tried he couldn't stop thinking of what Sephiroth had said, it was haunting him,with every word he felt a constricting sensation, his rival's voice rang through his head, he got irritated by this, he quickly stood up and went down for a drink, he proceeded to the kitchen, turned on the lights and opened the fridge. He took the pitcher and poured water to his glass, he thought the cold water was soothing as it passed though his throat; he needed that's I had gotten dry from all the thinking. Once done, he got up and walked out to the stairs, he was about to climb on the first step, but he remembered something, he went to the coffee table near the couch and opened the drawer, there a notebook laid; he was about to get it but he had second thoughts. This happened to him more often, he often debated with himself whether to do things or not. Sometimes he'd get frustrated by this, it was as if he was unsure of everything, unsure of every action, but a part of him was glad, at least he thought of his actions now, no longer the reckless Cloud. He reached his hands out to get the notebook, but after some more consideration, he shook his head and closed the drawer. He sloppily walked back to the stairs and continued on to his room.
Damn it Cloud, stop being such an ass he said to himself while opening the door and dropping to his bed. He felt so heavy and guilty, he's been keeping so many things inside of himself, he felt as if the weight was pounding him straight to the ground, and what made it worse was that the person dearest to him was involved. He laid there again, facing the ceiling thinking of the troubles he's got himself into, I felt like he was in a dead end, and he wouldn't be able to make it out alive if he didn't face his enemies. After a while, the thoughts of Sephiroth's words finally cleared his mind and not before long he had fallen into a deep slumber.
The place was crowded, everything seemed to be hazy, there were many familiar faces but he couldn't recognize them, as each face passed by him Cloud got more confused. A part of him felt lost, a part of him was looking for something to hold on to as he was in the middle of a busy site with no one accompanying him he felt so alone and though it seemed to be impractical, he was scared . Not only that, but all the people seemed to fear him everyone would look at him in a scared manner, as if he was some kind of wild beast about to attack it's prey, Cloud didn't have any idea why. Cloud Strife stood in the middle of a crowded perplexing place. He looked around trying to figure out where he was, trying to find someone he truly recognized, he looked around, only to see more blurry faces passing by, finally he saw two figures he's known very well. The figure of a man seemed to be holding the other by the waist. The taller figure was a man with long silver hair and the other was a young lady, young lady with dark silky hair…
Sephiroth…Tifa
It was not before long the two figures looked back at him, the silver-haired man had a smirk on his face, while the other seemed to have sad eyes, sad yet hopeful eyes, they looked as if they were waiting to be rescued
"Tifa" Cloud called out her name, he tried to run to her, but a black smoke started to surround her, Cloud felt so helpless, his very thoughts filled with guilt and regret. He felt that it was his obligation to take care of Tifa but look at her now, the darkness succumbed her and the only words he heard from the girl was "It hurts to lose someone who belonged to you, but Cloud, don't you think it hurts a lot more to lose someone who was never yours but changed your life" these words hit him so hard as if a spear had punctured his very heart, it felt like it damaged his soul; he was about to run towards her again but then she disappeared, she was gone as the black fog dissolved. Cloud's eyes looked angrily at Sephiroth who seemed to enjoy everything that had happened, there was no doubt that he felt triumphant. He hated that person, he was disgusted, Sephiroth's very existence seemed as if it was destined to ruin his life.
Cloud darted up off his bed and his body was wet with trickles of sweat, he was breathing heavily. Only a damn dream. Nightmare...Cloud buried his face in his hands and shook his head I have got to tell her how I feel, before anything else happens…with that he lied back down hoping that that atrocious nightmare would never trouble him again.
The next morning Cloud got up and got ready for school, he took a deep breath and went down for breakfast, after eating his meal; he went back to the drawer and got the blue notebook, the one he failed to take the other night. He slipped it in his bag and went out to fetch his Tifa.
As Cloud approached the Lockheart residence, he saw someone already waiting at the gate, it was Tifa, he had to admit that he felt disappointed seeing her there, what if something happened while she was waiting? Why couldn't she have waited inside like he told her to? Cloud got frustrated but he knew he had no right to; it was his own fault of not telling her anything. Oblivious to what Cloud had been thinking, the beautiful teenager had a warm smile stuck to her face. She immediately walked to Cloud once she saw him coming. She was delighted to see him right there with her, he's always given her a sense of security, he was like her bodyguard, not that she was a weakling or anything, sure Tifa can kick butt, but having Cloud beside her was a different thing.
"Morning" Tifa said, in a very happy tone
"Hey, I told you to wait for me before you go out" Cloud said sternly, not even replying to her greeting
Tifa glared at him "Someone grumpy this morning" she mumbled, but Cloud perfectly understood what she said.
"I'm not, you're just being immature"
"Immature?"
"Yea" Cloud said with a smirk, he wasn't serious anymore; right now he's in 'tease mode'. Tifa just rolled her eyes and walked away fast, but Cloud simply grabbed her hand "Hey sorry" he alleged with a smile
"And that's the -nth time you said sorry?" she said laughing and pulled his hand as they walked to the school. Both were very contented that the days of silence were over and that now, their old relationship was back. Now they're more comfortable with each other, in fact their old relationship wasn't back; it became a new deeper one.
As the two entered the school -hand in hand I might add- people all around started talking and whispers could be heard everywhere. Tifa sensed the anxiety in Cloud's eyes, she gave him a reassuring look "Look, I trust you okay"
Walking farther into the school they met up with Zack and Reno, who wore grins on their faces
"Yo, what's up with you two" Zack said trying to hold his laughter, while looking at the two hands which were tangled with each other. On the other hand Reno was snickering. The pair looked at one another and took their hands off each other; they didn't realize they were holding each other's hand all this time, both felt extremely embarrassed and both couldn't believe that they weren't aware of this. The two of them know things are already bad between them and the school and seeing them together like that would just make instance worse…a lot worse!
Tifa blushed and looked down, while Cloud threw one of his notebooks at Reno and walked to his locker, Tifa followed his pursuit
"Dude, no matter how cute this little fairytale is, Cloud fantasies should stop" Zack said nudging Reno with his elbow
"Yea, he's going to get crushed later on if he doesn't straighten everything up" Reno said watching Cloud and Tifa as they walked together in the hallway.
"It'd be really hard for both of them once she comes back." Zack replied
"Yea, you can see that they're close with eachother already, and though nothing's official you can see they're inlove "
"I can't blame Cloud though, Tifa is pretty hot" Zack said with a smirk, and he looked at Tifa's walking body. Reno hit the back of his head with the notebook Cloud just threw at them "WHAT?"
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Class periods were fine, aside from the gossip and the ridicule the two have been receiving, it was fine. Cloud never paid any attention to the teachers though, he was busy scribbling in his notebook (AN: what the heck is that anyway?)
"No that won't work" Cloud said to himself while erasing some things from his notebook. "Ahhh!" he ran his hands through his head, frustrated. Whatever he was doing, he seemed to be putting a lot of effort in it, and it seemed to be very significant.
After school, Cloud walked Tifa home and soon he went back to his own house.
Tired from all the school activities;Tifa sat on her chair doing her homework, she yawned and continued writing her essay. After a while she accidentally tipped her bag over as she tried to get something out of her drawer, and as she looked down at the dropped objects she saw Cloud's English notebook. Thinking that Cloud might've needed it for his assignments, the raven haired teenager got up from her chair and went outside to bring back her best friend's note pad.
After walking for about ten minutes, she finally reached her destination and she rang the doorbell. Lucrecia, Cloud's mom, stepped out of the door and let Tifa in.
"Good afternoon" she greeted "uhmm, where's Cloud?"
"He's upstairs, I think he's practicing for some play or something" Lucrecia said. Play, we don't have any plays in school? Tifa thought to herself. "He's in his room" she said while picking up the batch of dirty clothes she left on the couch, she probably left it there first before she greeted the guest. Tifa went up the stairs after saying thank you.
Tifa's such a beautiful and kind girl, I definitely want someone like her for my dear Cloud Lucrecia thought as she walked toward the laundry room. Mrs. Strife always had this comfortable feeling with Tifa, aside from knowing her since his son was a young boy, she was also friends with her family. And thought that she was raised well, so Cloud definitely doesn't need too worry about the 'parent issues'
Tifa went up the staircase. "Cloud" she called out several times, but he didn't seem to have heard her, she knocked on the door of his room and opened the door slightly, only wide enough to see a what seemed to be rehearsing Cloud Strife
Cloud was pacing back and forth, in front of the mirror; he looked so troubled, now Tifa is really began to wonder if there was really a play, he looked so serious, this caught Tifa's attention as peeked she moved closer to get a better view.
"Look Tifa" he started, still facing the mirror, he was holding a notebook and he seemed to be reading the lines from it. Tifa recognized the notebook, Cloud had been holding and taking it everywhere, he kept writing on it and she new he was frustrated with it all morning because of the things he'd been trying to write in it, he never showed it to anyone either. Whatever was in there was very important to him, was it that big that he didn't even care to show it to Tifa? This puzzled the young lady very much, but what confused her more was the fact that she was involved with it, and why does Cloud seem to be so nervous. She opened the door a bit more and got a better view of Cloud and right now she could here him more clearly.
Cloud was still pacing back and forth, scratching his head every three seconds or so
"Look Tifa" he started again "I've been acting very stupid lately, so stupid that…DAMN, I'm not doing this right!" Cloud said to himself while scratching his head more violently. He took a deep breath and started gain "Look Tifa, do you know why I've been acting weird lately?...Well probably yes, as you remember I told you about the girl I liked?" Cloud continued. Tifa on the other hand was clenching her hands in anxiousness what the hell is he up to?
Cloud had several tries, several sentences he never got to finish, most of them meant the same but I guess he was looking for the right thing, the exact words he needed to please Tifa.
"The truth is I haven't been all that honest with you" he stated again, he had so much naturalness in his voice. "Look, I-I don't know how to utter this but…" the blond haired lover scratched his head once more… "You may already know that I cut myself from other people because I'm afraid of getting hurt…Afraid of getting shut down like, like before, when we wee kids…and look all I wanted was acceptance and care, and you know what? that's all you've been giving me all these years, you never left, I appreciate that…NO matter how stupid I get, no matter how many mistakes I commit, you've always been by my side…I appreciate that…and you know" he took another deep breath "the-there's also one more thing I want that's: Love…You know, I hate myself, but I think that when I, or any person for that matter hear someone say 'I love you' for the first time you get to like yourself, even just a little bit…ARGGH!" Cloud said again slamming the book to the table. Tifa was still the watching him, feeling her heart beat fast, feeling blood race through her body
What's he doing?
For the third time Cloud took a deep breath and continued "An 'I Love you' is all I've been waiting for…and do you know whose?"
Whose damn it? Whose? Tifa thought to herself, she found herself gritting her teeth because of anxiousness
"It's yours" That was it, Tifa stood there frozen she couldn't breathe, she felt as if her heart was going to jump out of her ribs, like a wild bird trying to break free. But Cloud wasn't done just yet "Remember what you told me: it hurts to lose someone who belonged to you, but it hurts a lot more to lose someone who was never yours but changed your life, Tifa I just had to follow what you said and you know.." By this time tears were swelling up on Tifa's eyes, she couldn't believe it the moment she's longed for is here
"…you know, I don't care if you don't love me back, but if I see you in someone else's arms, that would kill me it would kill me to see you with someone else while you don't even know how I feel..Tifa I love you" Cloud was about to take a step when he felt two arms wrap around him, he felt the warm body against him … that figure, that warmth, that familiar feeling, it could only be one person …Tifa.
Cloud turned to face her, he cupped her face and looked intently into her eyes, his blue orbs staring directly t her "Were you there all along?" he asked while gently wiping the tear that slid out of her eyes. She held his hands, which was still cupped on her face and nodded against it… "Well?" Cloud asked almost desperately…
"I love you too"
Their faces got nearer and nearer to each other's but then….
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CLIFF HANGER ALERT CLIFF HANGER ALERT!
That was the weirdest chapter ever!...gross and cheesy huh?...well, sorry if it sucked..were the descriptions fine? Are you liking it? Anything you want to change! panic this is such I crucial part and I cannot afford to butcher it!
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This one is short but I think it's enough…ne?
