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BPOV

Ch. 2 A Car Ride Home

I had a wonderful time tonight. When Edward and I, were on our way back to my house he asked,

"So what do you think about a vampire anniversary?"

"It's like all the normal ones people invite me to."

I was very uncomfortable discussing the anniversary topic with Edward. I wish one day Edward would turn me and we would have one together.

"Bella... what are you thinking about?"

"Nothing." I didn't want Edward to get mad about this subject again.

EPOV

She was holding back. I hate when she keeps things from me.

"Bella... please tell me."

"You would hate me anyways!"

How could she say this? I was guessing she was thinking about me changing her again. I would give anything to change her, but I don't want to damn her to spend the rest of her life like me. What if I would loose control? I hate myself thinking it could happen.

"Wanting me to change you isn't a reason to hate you. You know I would never hate you."

"What can't you change me? Don't say you will loose control. You managed to save me once by tasting my blood. You could do it again."

She started crying. I hated to see her cry. I got to the house and shut of my engine.

"Well... are you going to answer me, Edward?"

I wiped her cheeks never removing my hands from the sides of her face. I wanted to her to hear this.

"I love you so much, Bella. The day you told me you found out I was a vampire..."

"I loved you even more. Not because of your special abilities. It was that you wanted me to stay away from you. You wanted to keep me away, to be safe. It didn't matter then and it doesn't matter now. We both know if we dated other people... we wouldn't give out our whole heart."

She started crying harder when she said "dated other people". I pushed her closer to me. She put her head on my shoulder and I kissed her forehead lightly.

"Bella if that happened... I would never date again. I couldn't live with myself. If the love of my life wasn't going to be with me... how could I live with someone else in my life?"

"Exactly!"

"NO! Don't you want to have kids? Or be able to enjoy the sunshine when and wherever you wanted?"

"Not if it's not with you. I know you cannot give me kids, Edward. It's so far from now."

Doesn't she understand that she has to understand once I bite her there is no going back? If she wants kids at all she must now. I would give anything if I could give her kids. When she saw I wasn't responding she said,

"Edward, do you want to live with me forever? Have a million anniversaries? Jasper and Alice are so lucky!"

"Bella...I...of course... I do. Did Alice say something to you?"

I hugged her even tighter. I never wanted to let her go. I didn't want to go to her funeral! When I went to the party last night I was both jealous and shocked about his speech. I wanted to give that speech someday.

"Alice called me her soon to be sister. I guess it made me sad knowing that it would never happen, unless you changed me. Please don't be angry with Alice I depend on her to much."

Bella giggled at this. It was so nice after so much crying, to hear her laugh.

"I would never get mad at Alice. Did she mention her vision again?" When she didn't respond, I answered for her.

"She did!"

"Yes, she did."

"Well, she is just looking out for me and my happiness. I am so glad you like me family. They all love you... even Rosalie."

She was about to hop out of the car when I pulled her back into my arms. She kissed my forehead. A way of letting me know she was sorry. She let out a sigh and said,

"Will you ever 'consider' thinking about it?"

I knew her all to well. She wouldn't let this drop. I needed to tell her the truth.

"Yes, I will think about it. No let me walk you to the door. You need rest. I will be back later, I promise!" I winked at her making her smile.

"Hey! You can't just tell someone you might change them then leave. Were are you going anyways?"

"I am going to talk to Carslie about something. I will be back tonight."

She kissed me lightly on the lips as I deepened the kiss. I loved it! Then I stopped when she gasped,

"Bella, I am so sorry."

"It's ok. Just remember that humans like me need to breath."

"Ok, Bella. I'll be back soon. I love you."

"I love you too!"

I kissed her again but more softly. I hopped back into the car as soon as I walked her to the door. Charlie was home so she would not be alone. I could not bare it if something happened to her. If James didn't bite her... I would have killed him myself, then and there. I had many things to talk to Carslie about. Not to mention Alice's vision talk to Bella. In a way I am glad she did. If I changed Bella... would she love me... forever? That was something I needed to think about.