For the past 2 hours, Ruthie had been in her room thinking about the conversation she had with Martin. When he placed that ever so sweet and gentle kiss on her forehead, Ruthie wanted that moment to last forever. His kiss made her knees go weak and made her heart race so fast that she was sure Martin could hear it pounding. Ruthie had never felt anything like this before, her mind continued to go back to the kiss. Every time she thought about it her stomach felt like it was filled with butterflies and she could hardly catch her breath.

As she lay on her bed smiling at the oh so happy memory of the feel of Martin's lips against her forehead, something popped into sixteen year old Ruthie Camden's head, what if he kissed me on the lips?

Things were going to be hard now; he had to earn her trust again. When Martin told her his feelings, Ruthie felt this rush of joy wash over her body, like she had been standing under a water fall. Hearing the words, I love you Ruthie kept playing over and over in her mind. Why had he waited so long to tell her? He had lied to her all these months, and now he wanted to be with her. As Ruthie laid across her bed she placed her hand to the place where he had kissed her. If only he had kissed me before?

Why God? Why did this have to happen to me? I love him, and now I have to learn to trust him again. What if I take too long? Martin might not wait for me. All these thoughts were rushing through her mind like cars rushing through the traffic on a Sunday morning.

God how do I learn to trust him again? Please send me a signanything! I want to work things out between us and hopefully become more than friends. If only things could be easier, she thought as she fiddled with her with her fingers.

Ruthie decided that she needed to write her feelings down in the one place she felt comfortable, her diary. She had always had a diary ever since she turned ten. Writing in the diary was like telling someone a secret and knowing that they would never tell.

Dear diary,

Today Martin and I finally talked. He told me about his feelings and how he wants me to trust in him again. It's hard! How do you learn to trust someone after they have lied to you for months about having a baby? There's no easy answer is there? Life is so complicated. There should be a book about it. Listening to Martin's confession was hard. Hearing what he had to say made me sad. The worst part for me is that I've finally gotten him to notice me and now he has a baby. The one good thing about today was he kissed me, not a take your breath away kind of kiss but a very gentle and loving kiss on my forehead.

Diary it was the sweetest kiss I've ever gotten. He told me that he'll wait but what if he doesn't, what if I take too long in trusting him? He could choose to be with Sandy. While I don't want that to happen, I also don't want to rush things. Right now I feel that we need to take things nice and slow. Oh diary if only you were real. Hahahahawell I guess that is enough for today….until next time.

Brewer's house

Martin threw himself onto his bed in frustration. Like the young woman he loved, he too was mulling over the events of the day. Martin thought to himself, I know it wasn't on her lips, but I didn't want to scare her or make her think I was rushing her. If I had kissed her on the lips maybe that would have been too much. Yea... I did the right thing.Kissing her was amazing though. My heart was beating so fast that it felt like a jackhammer in my chest. I've never felt like this before. I can't stop thinking about her. I hope she will trust in me again soon. Guess things aren't going to be easy, trying to resist kissing her or holding her.

Martin was staring up at his ceiling when a thought came into his mind, what if she does finally trust in me again, but decides that she doesn't have feelings for me anymore?

After all these months of not telling her; Martin could see why she would want to learn to trust him again. He had kept something from her, not only was Sandy having his baby, but that her family knew and didn't tell her. His life was like a jigsaw puzzle, it fell apart so quick, but it would take a long time to piece it back together.

His thoughts trailed back to the kiss that he had placed upon her forehead. Her skin was soft to the touch, like silk. The kiss sent shivers all through his body, like he had been electrified with the love that was flowing through her body. Everything around them had disappeared. All that he felt was her body close to his and their hearts beating as one.

Is something like that even possible? Can one person truly make you feel like that? Martin knew if he was ever going capture that feeling again, that feeling of being whole, he would have to gain Ruthie's trust completely. He needed to try and make that spark come back again. It's not that there wasn't a spark, there was, but it was very light due to the hurt that had been poured upon it.

Martin sat there thinking of how he was going to make things right between them again. Maybe if I take her to dinner...no, that wouldn't work…that would look like I'm trying to rush things.

Ugh! He groaned in frustration. Why does this have to be so hard? All I have to do is talk to her and make things like they used to be. Hang out with her, make her feel comfortable around me.

Then reality suddenly crashed down upon him. Will I even have time? Oh great! How am I supposed to do that when I promised Sandy that I would come and see Aaron? How will I have the timeHeck, how will I have time to do anything whenI have school,baseball practice, and seeing Aaron? Oh man am I in trouble!

Martin sighed in frustration. His face went from a smile to a look of disappointment. He was so tense that he was getting antsy. Martin knew the only way to get rid of it, and that was going to the batting cages. It was the one place where he could let all of his frustration out. All his feelings were too bottled up inside. He felt like if he didn't get it out, that he would soon burst.

Martin grabbed his keys from his night stand and walked out to his car. Before getting into it, Martin looked over at the Camden's house, directly at where Ruthie's window was. He thought about her and what she was doing.

At that exact moment, Ruthie got up and walked over to her window. Looking outside, she saw Martin climb into his car and drive off in a hurry.

AN: well that was ch 9...what do u guys think...I am soooo happy with the reviews I got from the last ch...to all my reviewers thank you so much. All of your reviews mean a lot to me...I can't believe I have 149 reviews…that's amazing. so if you liked this ch please review...if you want updates you got to hit my little friend the review button...if I get to 16 2 reviews I will update really soon...lolol hey even if I got 159...lolol just be sure to review if you want me to continue..Hey I rhymed.

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