Hard for me to think

"So I have to fly back to LA for casting" Parker put his drink down on the booth table and looked at Addison.

He moved an inch closer to her and following his lead she closed her eyes and kissed him softly. Her head was swimming, in the shortest period of time she had become infatuated with a man she hardly new. She was a logical woman and this made no sense.

"It's probably a good thing" Addison said pulling away from him.

He looked at her quizzically.

"So I can think… something about you makes it hard for me to think" She smiled.

"You have the same effect" He said, returning her smile.

"Should we get out of here?" She wanted to be alone with him again.

He didn't answer; instead he stood, extended his hand and led her from the bar.

"Did I sense some tension between you and your sister?" Meredith asked Derek as they pulled up at the land. They had finished a little earlier than usual, Meredith meeting him following his interview with Lily, as they had wanted to get to the house to inspect it.

"Tension? No" Derek brushed it off, knowing he couldn't explain that he and Lily had fought about Addison and Parker.

He met her at the front of the car and took her hand and the two stood for a moment admiring their home.

"When did the builder say we can move in?" Meredith asked Derek, hardly able to contain her excitement.

"Next weekend, only carpet to be lair in the other bedrooms" Derek said, continuing to admire the home. It was everything he had dreamed of when he had arrived in Seattle, a home, on his land, and the love of his life to share it with. He kissed the top of Meredith's head and they started to walk towards the house.

"Are you sure you weren't fighting?"

"Lily and I… you don't have to worry about us, we work things out" He said. Meredith looked at him unsure what to make of it.

"Listen" He stopped her.

"I have something I want to say" Derek looked at her for a moment, and a slow smile crept over his face.

"What?" She asked.

"I just can not believe how much I love you… and I gave up on us" He said remembering his decision to stay with Addison.

"You did" Meredith nodded, but she had eventually understood his decision. She could never hate Derek, she had tried, but it was impossible.

"I did… but I'm so thankful for where we are now" He pulled her into an embrace.

"Me too" She said, the words muffled by his chest.

"Next weekend, I want to spend our first night here… just you and me, no boxes, no furniture… just you me … and a TV" He said, leading her towards the house again.

"A TV?" She was confused.

"I have something to show you" He said. It was the plan Lily and he were working on.

"OK, you're confusing me, but ok" He stepped up on to the porch before her and turned, extending his hand.

"Trust me… I'm a Doctor" he joked.

"I always do" She took his hand and let him pull her into another embrace.

It's about time

Lily sat in a chair in the hospital waiting room for a moment.

She had had a long, exhausting day filming stand ups and intros, plus the interview with Derek. Not to mention the argument she and her brother had had.

"You okay Lil's?" Toby, her audio tech asked. All her crew had become over cautious with her since she had returned to work after the operation.

"Just tired, thanks Tobes… you off to the hotel?" She asked, rubbing a little at her temples.

"Jim and I are going for a drink first, Jims wife flew in to Seattle today just to visit him" Toby said.

"You wanna come with us?"

Lily considered it for a moment, but then over Toby's shoulder she could see Izzie and George walking towards the exit.

"Rain check" She asked.

"Before you leave us" Toby smiled and walked off.

Lily stood up as George and Izzie got closer.

"You look tired" Izzie said.

"I am" Lily's eyes were fixed on George.

"Are, you… are you feeling okay" George asked, concerned.

"Just tired, I promise" Lily was used to third degree every time she was a little unwell.

"Um…I should… I should be … just over there," Izzie said, not to subtly pointing at the hospital exit. She walked away.

George and Lily continued to look at each other, neither sure what to say.

"I spoke to Violet.."

"You did" Lily said.

"I did" George replied.

There was silence again. Lily scared to ask what he said in case it was not what she wanted to hear.

"I told her… I told her I wasn't over you," He said, keeping his head down, he didn't see the smile on her face.

"I'm not over you either George" She quickly said to reassure him.

"You're not" He looked up, relieved.

She shook her head.

"I never was" She stepped in and kissed him.

From her view point Izzie let out a loud Whoop, waving her arms like a crazed football fan.

"Well, it's about time" She teased, as the two turned to look at her, she laughed… and the three made their way to the car, Lily and George hand in hand.

Lucky

Lily stood at the front of the hospital waiting for a taxi. It was early; she had come in with George and Izzie for their rounds. She wanted to get back to the hotel and have a few extra hours sleep before coming back to shoot more vision for her story. She was wearing dark sunglasses and sipping at coffee, when she saw Addie approaching. She too was wearing dark glasses.

"You're a bit late" Lily said, looking at her watching and teasing Addison.

"Don't tell on me" Addison joked and stopped to chat for a moment.

"What were you up to last night? Or do I not want to know?" Lily asked.

"I was with Parker" Was all Addison replied.

"Ahhhh so we both got lucky" Lily joked, and Addison laughed a little.

"George?" She wandered and Lily nodded, and gave her a little smile.

The stood quietly for a second, distracted by Derek pulling up in the parking lot. They watched as Derek opened the door for Meredith, and the two stopped to kiss for a moment.

"He never opened the door for me?" Addison said, sounding a little sadder than she whad wanted. Lily looked at her.

"I'm sure he did, in the beginning" She said.

Addison shrugged her shoulders.

"Maybe, I don't remember…. Mus be something in the air around here" She added as Lily and her continued to watch Derek and Meredith kiss.

"I should go" Addison turned back to Lily and smiled.

"Later" Lily said as Addison passed her to go inside the doors, Lily squeezed her hand lightly in a small show of support.

"Hey you two, glad you came up for air" Lily teased Meredith and Derek when they were near.

They both laughed.

"Hey Lily" Meredith said, before racing inside, late for rounds.

"So, you had a nice night" Lily looked at her brother, he nodded.

"Good – here's my taxi" Lily pointed to the cab pulling up.

"We're okay Mush, right?" Derek asked, sensing a distance.

Lily gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"We're always okay" She smiled, she wasn't angry with Derek. She knew he was in love with Meredith; she just wanted him to set Addie free too.

"Oh Derek" She said standing at the dor of the cab. He turned to face her.

"I sent that stuff to New York, they're going to edit it, and feed it back via satellite when it's done" She said. He smiled at her. He couldn't wait.

"Great"

"Great… I'll see you in a few hours" She said, getting into the cab.

Moving on

Addison flipped open her cell phone to read the message she had just received.

Missing you already xx

She smiled as she read Parker's words.

"Addison" Derek greeted her at the doors of the elevator.

"You had a consult for me".

"Yes I have a prem that needs a neuro consult, can you do it now?" She asked.

"Of course" He said, a little to shortly.

Addison tilted her head slightly, sensing his attitude.

"Is something bothering you Derek?" She asked.

"Should there be," He asked, stepping into the elevator. Addison followed.

"I don't know – you tell me"

Addison continued to look at Derek in a mixture of confusion and anger. Confused why he was acting so short with her and angry that he had the nerve.

Her cell phone beeped with a message again and flicking it open she couldn't help by smile.

What – you're not missing me too? Parker wrote in reply to her not answering.

"Love massages from your boyfriend?" Derek peered over her shoulder and she snapped her cell shut.

"Isn't that a bit juvenile for you Addison?"

"Kissing in the parking lot…. Isn't that a bit juvenile for you" She shot back in defence.

He stood unsure what to say.

"Spit it out Derek" She said with fire in her voice, at the same time she pulled the emergency stop on the elevator, both of them grabbing the rails to steasy themselves.

"I'm just saying Addie" He looked defiantly back at her.

"What? What are you saying" Her voice was rising with each word.

"What I can't be happy? You can move one, but I can't" She asked.

"Addison"

"What!" She asked but he had nothing to say.

"You want me to miserable, you want me to pine away fro you" She inched closer.

"Not going to happen sweetie" She gave him a small mocking smile.

"You moved on… it took me a little longer, but I am too… you need to deal with that"

"I don't care" Derek managed to say.

"Then why are you acting so pissed, you forget I know you, I know that tone, I mean c'mon Derek I paid my dues… I'm sorry I cheated, but you punished me long enough… now I'm moving on"

"Maybe you should get over yourself Addie" Derek said.

"Oh yeah, I just know this is about you still loving me" She said sarcastically.

"That's not it at all – this is painful for you because I'm happy – and you'd prefer that I wasn't… I see you're in love with her…. You don't think that hurts me… still" Addie was softening slightly.

"You get your pain everyday" She added – restarting the elevator.

"Addison, I'm sorry" Derek said lamely.

"But I am moving on, and that pain will stop… and you'll just have to find someone else to offer your eternal judgement and punishment too" She said as the door opened she stepped out.

"Now if you can do that consult, I'd appreciate it" She said, turning her back and walking off. Derek followed quietly.