Dean's always wondered what goes on inside his baby brother's head. But then he realised, would he want to know? Set just after pilot

sits on the bonnet of the impala with a pad of paper and a really pointy pencil

all righty then, another one! I'm trying to see how many oneshots I can write in 1 hour. This is my second.

As I watch my brother from the other side of the room, I wonder what's happening behind his closed eyelids. Is he asleep? Is he dreaming? Is he having a nightmare?

I've always wanted to know what my brother thinks about. He's been through even more than me, but still he's going strong. I don't know how. What does he think about in that slightly funny shaped head of his?

Does the burning image of Jessica pop up when he least expects it? does he ever wonder if we'll catch that demon that killed her? I know I do. You can almost see the emotion flicker from behind those eyelids, the pain of losing a loved one.

I never really knew Jessica, but she seemed like the right one for Sammy. They seemed truly in love. Losing someone you love is never easy, then finding someone else that you love who's ignored you for 4 years isn't exactly a piece of pie either.

My brother's eyes flicker open, then dart to my face. "do you always stare at me when I cat nap?" he asked me, then turns over. His body is racked with sobs and I'm not sure whether I should comfort him or leave him be.

I lay down on the bed next to him and envelope him in a hug. I haven't hugged my brother for about 10 years, but damn it feels good. You know that gooey feeling you have inside when you do something nice for someone else? It crept down my body, a heat that could warm me even on the coldest nights.

His tears soak my t-shirt and I exclaim that he's a Wuss, but deep down I know that we're all the same. I know I'd cry if my girlfriend died like his did.

Once again I wonder what's going on in there. Then I realise I don't need to know. What's in there should stay in there. I don't want to know if my brother has dirty thoughts or regularly wonders whether he's forgotten to get the milk on the way back from his last class of the day.

Sam thinks differently to me and that's all I need to know.

A/N: I'm dooooone! giggles