AN: thanks for all the reviews! They're great and I love reading them! Haha dalmatiangrl2 you want the kitten? Please feel free to stop by here and pick up little Linde haha he's my inspiration for Oreo
CH.13She didn't go out patrolling as she thought she would that night. Instead she stayed up playing with the little fluff ball of joy laughing and poking jokes at Angel whenever she could.
All in all the evening was shaping up to be a rather enjoyable one.
Stretching out on her bed, looking over at Angel "you hungry?" Since she'd missed out on eating most of the day she needed to eat. Who cares about being girly and not eating in starving! She thought while scratching her talking stomach.
Chuckling softly, "no but if you want I can go make you some thing." Standing up from his spot on the floor, looking down at her he can't help but smile. You are so damn cute when you do that he thinks watching her playfully scratch her belly.
"Oooh if its something with cheese absolutely" grinning her best, batting her eyes a little.
"Are you trying to flirt with me to make you a grilled cheese Miss Summers?" he asks with a raised eyebrow.
Giggling some, "Only if its working" she counters, sitting up fully on the bed. "So if it is then yes I'm flirting for my grilled queso but if not then I'm just being a tease."
Laughing lightly as he runs a hand through his hair, looking at her seriously. "You could never be a tease."
"What?" she asked while standing up, looking at him with a gob-smacked look. "I can so be a tease!" Walking up to stand in front of him, tilts head back some so she can see his face "I can be the best damn tease there ever was." Makes a silly face "I'll be the teasiest tease you've ever seen" strikes a pose that would qualify her as a tease…or possibly a dork… maybe even both in some books.
Holding his hands up in mock defense, chuckling all the while "Okay okay! I give you're the best tease."
Turning on her heel "Damn right I am." Unable to hold in the giggles, picks up Oreo and scratches behind his ears. Tossing a glance over her shoulder at Angel, "You going to stand there all night or am I going to have to flirt more for my grilled cheese?"
"I'm going I'm going." With that he leaves to make her a grilled cheese.
When he comes back he can't help but stand outside the door and watch her move around in side. The sight of her twirling around with the kitten was enough to make him smile for the rest of his life.
He couldn't understand why someone like Riley could have left her. Not that he was complaining any, he didn't like the boy from the get go.
Leaning in a little closer he could hear her singing softly to Oreo, "Loves the funeral of hearts and an ode for cruelty." Loves the funeral of hearts… he couldn't help but feel as though this were his fault some how. That the song had a deeper meaning to her as the few words spoken did to him.
Taking an unneeded breath he walks in, "got your grilled cheese" he offers lamely placing the plate on her bed.
Turning the music down some she smiles brightly. "Thanks! It smells really good, huh Oreo?" Taking a bite of her food, she pulls off a small piece for the kitten.
Noticing his change in his behavior Buffy sits down beside him. "What's up you've got a something face."
"Nothing, I was just listening to the song."
"Oh" Nodding in understanding. "I know what you're probably thinking but don't worry we have no wallowing in pity for us. Although it does really fit huh?" Getting up she makes her way to the cd player and grabs the And Love Said No cover and tosses it to him.
"They're a cool band. They sing a lot of songs that make me think of you... well us… you know what I mean."
"HIM…what's it stand for?" Looking over the cd case, taking note of the pale skinned man on the cover as well as the heartagram. Probably thinks he's a vampire or something a long those lines he thinks. He'd seen this type before the pretty boy goth rocker who sold cheap songs about blood and pain.
Changing the cds out, not even bothering to look over at him, "His Infernal Majesty… and no that doesn't mean some satanic cult thing. They don't even go by that any more actually, just HIM."
He didn't really know what to think. He'd never heard of the band before, but that wasn't really new. Times changed and he didn't. His idea of music was Barry Manilow, not new age rocker stuff.
"They have this song though," she continued, playing with the cd's case in her hands nervously almost. "Its from their newest cd… I know this isn't your thing really but you should hear it, I really like it."
Angel smiles at her. "If you like it I'm sure I will." Okay so he didn't know but he couldn't say he didn't want to hear it, not with that look on her face that was screaming 'please let me share this'.
Smiling a bit more brightly she pushes the play button, taking a seat beside him on the bed. "I promise its not all loud like this…okay it might be but its good I swear."
Chuckling softly, "Buffy its okay…" he smiles at her, listening to the opening licks of the guitar. Okay so it snot something I would go out and get right away but its not bad... its kinda nice he thought as Ville Valo began to sing.
Biting nervously at her bottom lip, Maybe this was a bad idea she thought. But it was too late to go back now, the chorus of the song blasting out of the little cd player.
Hold me like you held onto life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me like you loved the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart
Angel looked at her. Really looking at her and how she refused to look at him. This meant something to her. She connected to this song, this band. The love and loss. It was rooted in her.
Pulling her into a hug, he kisses the top of her head.
Burring her face in the crook of his neck, she breaths a sigh of relief. Whispering against his cold skin, "I loved you more then the sun Angel…" Closing her eyes tightly, holding onto him as though when she let go he wouldn't be there.
What she said shook him to the core. His whole human life he had never cared about being loved. It had been about drinking and having fun, and now over two centuries later he had found it and it was killing him.
He did the only thing he could do, he held her the way she was holding him. How much he wished he could hold her and kiss her at the confession of how much she loved him, but he couldn't. Because one thing would lead to another and they couldn't risk that.
The curse was put in place to keep him from feeling pure happiness and it was. But it was killing her happiness as well and it only made him hurt worse.
