AN/ Thanks again for the reviews! Just so everyone knows the next few chapters will have a lot of flashbacks telling what happened to lead up to Emma getting married. But I'll still have some current stuff too.

Emma woke up the next morning with the warm sun shinning in her face. She looked at Peter who was still asleep and she quietly stretched out her legs on to the floor. She went to go make some coffee, and then she walked out on to the deck that surrounded the beach. She looked out on to the water, sipped her coffee and sat down. She always loved the ocean. She tried to remember the last time she was on the beach. Then she remembered it was when she was with Sean. Sean. All she could really recall from that day was very little. Sean drowning. Her saving him. Him saying sorry. And him saying goodbye. Yet he didn't say I love you…he didn't even say a crappy "see ya later". He said he loved Ellie. He had a little "man hug" with Jay. But nothing for her. Her goodbye was that last look he gave her before driving off. That was it. That was her goodbye.

Weeks later she tried to get over it all. Sean leaving and the shooting. She didn't want to go on anymore. Everyday she wished for Sean to come back. But he never did. She needed someone to help her to forget it all. And that person wasn't Sean, it was Jay. Jay Hogart and her had never gotten along, but something about him made her feel comfortable. Almost like he was Sean. He was kinda like him in some ways. Bad boy look. Bad boy attitude. They were friends, so they had to have something in common. Maybe that's why she did all of that stuff with him. Or maybe it was because she just needed to prove something. She didn't really know herself.

After the "Jay indecent" Emma hadn't heard the name Sean in months. And she didn't like that thought. It's not like before the shooting she talked to him everyday. It's not like they were even nice to each other. But with him there, she felt safe. And now with him gone, she felt empty and scared. But what could she do? She couldn't go there to see him. Her parents watched her like a hawk now because of Jay. She couldn't ask Ellie. That would be way too awkward. So she did the only thing left she could do. She asked Jay. He had said he was sorry million times before, but Emma wouldn't listen. So she swallowed her pride and walked up to him.

: Flashback:

"Jay, um can I talk to you about something?" Emma asked. She knew it was probably a bad time. He was with all of his friends standing by his car. But this was the first time all day that she had seen him. And she needed to ask that day.

He walked to her sighed and said "Yeah Nelson, sure. But make it fast."

He seemed mad. But when was Jay in a good mood?

"I know I've been cruel lately, but I need to ask you something." She chocked out her words slowly

"What do you want?" he said bluntly

"Have you um…talked to Sean lately?" She asked

"Nope. He seems way to busy to return my phone calls. He might answer if you call."

"No." She said sharply "I just wondered if you heard anything." She looked at her shoes trying to not look at his face. She didn't want to look stupid asking about Sean when he could probably care less about her.

"Oh…" He turned and started to walk away but he stopped and turned to look at her. "If I hear anything I'll let you know."

She was about to say thank you but he was already walking away.

About once every month she would get up the courage and ask Jay if he had heard any news. But every time he said no. After a while she gave up and didn't ask Jay anymore. But one day he came running up to her.

"What do you want Jay?" Emma said already annoyed. "Hey, I have news from Cameron do you want it or not?" Jay yelled

She turned to look him in the eye. Her heart raced. She tried to hide her smile she was so happy. Finally! She thought.

"Sorry. I'm listening." She said "Well we didn't talk long. But he said he was doing good." Jay said

She was happy to hear that. Really she was, but for some reason she wanted more then that.

"Did he say anything else?" She questioned

"He asked about you. I don't get why seeing he didn't even ask about his own girlfriend." He said

"What did you say?" Emma thought out loud. But then she thought about something else. "You didn't tell him! Did you? About…what happened between us." She felt so uncomfortable talking to him about that subject but she had to know.

"No I didn't tell him!" He said. "If I did he would be here right now kicking my ass! I told him that you were fine as you ever were. He didn't seem to really buy it. But whatever."

Emma didn't know what to say. He asked about her. She didn't even think he cared. But maybe just maybe he did. That was all Emma needed. To know. She smiled and thanked Jay, then walked home. For the first time in a long time she was truly happy.

: End of Flashback:

Emma finished her coffee and looked up to see Peter walking to her just waking up. She felt so sorry for him. She had so much hidden from him. Stuff he would never know. He was a good guy, and she felt like she was ruining his life. She loved him. But not like Sean. No man could live up to Sean. Why did she say yes to marrying him you ask? She was tired of waiting for Sean. He just lived down the street, but he felt so far. When Peter asked her to marry her she thought about Sean. She thought she was waiting for something that would ever happen. She didn't want to feel alone. She looked at Peter and thought, "He loves me. He's right in front of me. He wants to be with me." And she said yes.

Peter kissed her on the head and went back inside. She smiled to herself and went inside with him.