A/N: Ok now were on chapter six. This one gets a little dark in the middle, but hopefully you'll still like it. So, yeah enjoy.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto. I do however own twenty dollars and a box of cheese crackers.
Sakura Haruno stared longingly into the eyes of her teacher. The full reality of the words had yet to set in.
"B-but I can't be... that can't be right." Sakura began to say, tears streaming down her face.
"Well you have been skipping out on our lessons lately. If you start to mess arround with people like that, this sort of thing is bound to happen." Tsunade said in a light tone, trying to help the young girl get a hold of herself.
"But I'm a lesbian." Sakura retorted with dead serious somberity.
"Wha... you are! Oh well... then S-Sakura, I am so very sorry." Tsunade started with outright confusion and shock, but on sight of the sadness in the young girl's face, and the truth which this fact ascertained, she soon realized that the discussion of the young girl's sexuality was not at point here.
Sakura Haruno knew that this was stupid. She was so unfamilliar with her own body, that she wasn't even able to tell if she was preagnant. Of course she was preagnant. She had only been raped by that bastard four fucking times. It'd be more of a miracle for her to not be pregnant after all those nightmares. Still, she couldn't believe it. She couldn't accept it. Sakura didn't hate the idea of having children, in fact she used to dream of scenario's in which she was mother to Sauske's children, but this would be that man's child. She remembered Mitsu's story: that bloodline was plagued by darkness and evil. The whole concept of her propogating such evil sickened her. Despite this, Sakura knew that she could not bring herself to have an abortion. She believed in people above all else, and ending the life potential of her own child, no matter how unwanted it may be, did nothing but upset her. She was trapped in a corner with no where to go, no escape. It was all to much. Above all of this one more thought circulated continuously through her brain: Would Tenten still accept her?
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In a few days time the Hokage had recieved news of Team Gai's sucess in their mission, and that they were on their way back to the village, just as soon as they returned all of the captive girls to their homes. They would arrive in a few days time. Sakura had remained hospitalized since she discovered her condition. The stress it put on her had caused the virus to return and strengthen, although treatment by Tsunade herself had began to lessen it's effect on her. When Sakura was informed of Tenten's arrival, she was scared. She knew that Tenten would already know, since she had told Tsunade to inform her first; she couldn't bare the thought of telling her herself. She was hoping that Tenten's return would have been a magical experience the true start to their new and wonderful life together. Now it seemed as if that was an impossible dream. Soon the dark haired kunoichi whom Sakura had sworn her love to, was in front of her.
"Hey Sakura, so you feeling better. Tsunade says you are sick." Tenten said with a smile.
"I'm pretty much over that virus now b-but... uh... I mean... How did your mission go, Tenten?" Sakura spoke, quivering; she couldn't help but wonder whether Tsunade had delivered her message as instructed.
"It went great. We freed all the prisoners, and I got a new sword, and everyone was really impressed by me, it felt really nice, to be praised so much." Tenten had a excited enthusiasm, which was matched by her lover's somber eyes.
"And what about that man?" Sakura questioned next.
"I made sure to kill him good, for your sake." Tenten flashed a loving smile at the pink haired girl.
"Oh, Tenten, I-I... I... I just can't... do you know already?" Sakura was crying freely between breaths.
"That your preagnant. Yeah." Tenten now gave a serious piercing look to the other.
"And what do you think about it?" Sakura replied slowly.
"You're planning to keep the child then." Tenten said with no emotion.
"I am sorry, b-but I couldn't bring myself to do otherwise." Sakura spoke averting her eyes.
"I find that very admirable." Tenten spoke with a sincere smile.
"So you would do the same then?" Sakura manged to say.
"Yeah. Maybe it's just that I hang out with Neji too much, but I always thought it was a real waste to end someones chance at life before they got a chance to fufill their destiny." Tenten said with a light laugh.
"But don't you see, Tenten, I can't go through with this, no matter what I chose, I'll end up hating myself. There's no way out of this, noclear solution, it's too much. There's no way thing's will ever be the same. Is this how it is, am I such a pathetic organism, that all I get is one fucking week of perfection before my whole life is screwed forever. It's too much, It's just not fair." Sakura spoke with a mix of emotions drowned in crys and tears.
"Damn it, Sakura! Weakness is not a quality I find attractive. If you really love me like you promised me you did, you will hold your head up and learn to bare it. If you try hard enough you can always find your perfect solution." Tenten yelled fiercly but lovingly.
"But there isn't always a solution like that to find." Sakura retorted raising her tone to try and match Tenten's.
"If that is what you think, then I'll just have to find it for you." Tenten spoke simply before turning to leave.
"What do you mean? Hey don't leave me now. Tenten... please... I'm sorry." Sakura wailed on but the object of her words had already went.
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Months passed and as Sakura's condition progresed, she began to fall deeper and deeper into the cold grasp of despair and lonliness. In the first few weeks after returning to her home, she had constantly had visitors. Old friends checking up on news of her condition, had come to see her. By the end of the first month that had all stopped. No one visited her after that, not Ino, not Kakashi, no one. By the end of the second month she had even stopped going to see Tsunade, she couldn't bare to be seen among the happy people of the village.
And then there was Tenten. Sakura hadn't seen Tenten since that day when she left her alone in that room. Sakura figured that in her mind they were done. It had only been a week that they were together. Tenten probably had an indefinite amount of such relationships, that she probably didn't even remember that week anymore. In analyzing her words to Sakura, it all checked out. If Tenten left her that would be the solution to Tenten's problems.
Soon three months had passed. Sakura had resigned herself to stay confined to her room, constant sadness ran it's course through her mind. She was now so alone, this was true lonliness. Fuck lonliness, this was infinately worse the that. She had dealt with lonliness, she had dealt with torture, with rape. This miserable feeling, this hatred, this intensity, this anger, it was truly maddening and was more terrible then any other. No one wanted her, not Tenten, not Sauske, not Ino, not Naruto, not Tsunade, not Kakashi. Hell, she doubted even Rock Lee would accept her now. Tenten had left to find the 'perfect solution' but perhaps she had found it herself: if she were to die she wouldn't have time to care about whether the child lived. That day Sakura left her room, the cruel fire of self hatred burnt in her heart.
Sakura made her way to the outskirts of the village. Self destructive thoughts were leading her to a spot outlooking a river, in which the ground was raised high, and the cold, shallow river met with jagged rocks below. On her way, Sakura soon found herself once more at that picturesque forest overlook which was at the root of that brief pleasure and this intense pain. She stopped once more to stare back at that village. It was no more a place for her. She had made up her mind.
"Where are you going!" An indignant voice called to the young shinobi, chilling her to the bone.
"T-Tenten, I-I..." Sakura said as she turned to face the other girl.
"Didn't I tell you that weakness is not something I admire." Tenten spoke cooly.
"How can you even say that after all this time!" Sakura yelled, her hands shaking, tears steadilling rolling across her countenance.
"Because I love you." Tenten replied simply.
"Then why did you abandon me." Sakura cried, her heart weighted under the girl's words.
"Hmm, I thought I told you that much..." Tenten said calmly.
"So what is your 'perfect solution.'" Sakura cried bitterly under her breath.
"My 'perfect solution' is that you come live with me and love me forever, raising your child together." Tenten said with a deep loving smile.
"If that's the case, then where the hell have you been these three months." Sakura continued to cry, but was met by Tenten's hand pressed softly to her face.
"You know being apart from you was hard for me as well. If you remember, I said that I was finding your 'perfect solution' I've known mine since the beginning." Tenten replied gently.
"What do you mean?" Sakura said finally reaching a calm.
"I really don't care who the father of your child is, if it is yours I would be capable of loving it as my own. Still I know that you are not the same way. I can understand that if the mere sight of your own child were to bring back painful memories, if you were forced to keep an eye on this child for signs of latent darkness, that would bring you pain. So that is why I weant on a search for an answer. I needed to prove my love for you." Tenten's words were intense and emotional.
"D-did you find anything?" Sakura spoke softly.
"I wouldn't have returned otherwise." Tenten replied simply.
"Well then what is it?" Sakura asked, now somewhat anxious.
"Let's go back to my place, I'll explain everythin there." Tenten said lovingly. Sakura nodded softly and the two left together. Soon Sakura was once more inside that cozy apartment room in which she had spent that week so long ago.
"Lie there and I'll explain." Tenten started.
"Alright." Sakura said complying as she took position on the bed.
"While in Takigakure I managed to obtain a book ofrare speacialtyninjutsu from a traveller. Among the tecniques in this book I found your solution in the form of a complex jutsu originating in a village far awasy across the sea to the east." Tenten was somewhat enthusiastic as she spoke.
"You went through a lot of trouble for this didn't you. So how's it work?" Sakura said, a smile now finally creeping across her face.
"This technique was developed in order to counteract pregnancy by rape in a time when contrasceptive techniques were more limited. It allows for the rightful father to transfer his DNA into that of the unborn child as a replacement for the rapist's through the transfer of chakra into the mother's womb early in the pregnancy. It never becamed too widely used, due to the fact that it is incredibly difficult to learn, and the fact that in most cases it's a little harder to tell who the father is going to be. In fact this technique was all but lost, yet it's perfect for your situation." Tenten spoke happily as she stared into Sakura's eyes.
"But, that doesn't help, I mean who's going to be the father, I don't know if there is anyone I could trust for this." Sakura said hesitantly.
"Uh... Sakura, yeah, I kinda thought you would want me to do it." Sakura said staring blankly at the pregnant girl.
"But you're a girl." Sakura said indignantly.
"So what you don't want to carry my child." Tenten replied with an embarassed laugh.
"It's not that, it's just that... do you think it will work?" Sakura spoke trying to hide her own embarassmeant.
"Don't know. Never been a record of a woman using this jutsu before. It might not work." Tenten stated bluntly.
"You'll still try it though won't you." Sakura said shyly.
"Yeah." Tenten said with a smile, as she moved toward Sakura on the bed. Swiftly she began to remove Sakura's clothing throwing it to the floor. Having Tenten remove her clothes once more unleashed a wave of very pleasant memories that deeply excited the pink haired girl.
"God, Sakura I know your very happy to see me again, but try and surpress your urges for tonight, at least while I perform this jutsu." Tenten gave a laugh as she noticed Sakura's excitement.
"Okay." Sakura said in a very reserved manner. With this Tenten began, she pricked her finger slightly and began to draw a complex seal with her blood upon Sakura's naval. Sakura could tell from the movemnts of her fingers that this was an incredibly intricate seal, and she tried desperately to supress her movements, though she reveled at Tenten's gentle touch.
"Okay, Sakura now you are sure you want me to do this, I could fail and it could have an effect on you or your child, I don't want to cause you anymore pain, so are you sure?" Tenten spoke steadily.
"Yes, I'm ready." Sakura said under her breath. Tenten began a long series of ninja signs at very high speed. Sakura was impressed; had Tenten really memorized all of this for her? Soon, the line of signs ended and Tenten put her hands on either side of the seal drawn on Sakura's body. Sakura could feel an intense chakra pulsing from her lover's hands into her body. The pink haired girl watched as the blood drawn seal glowed a bright red and then sunk into her skin.
"That's it, I hope it works." Tenten said with an exhausted smile.
"That was really impressive, Tenten, you learned that all for me?" Sakura asked suddenly.
"Well yeah, I mean I went through a lot of trouble to obtain that technique, I had to learn how to use it." Tenten replied with an embarrased laugh.
"Tenten, you know that you didn't have to go through all this trouble. I mean wouldn't it have been easier for you just to find someone else." Sakura spoke softly.
"Well, I doubt I could ever find someone else as wonderful as you, who makes me feel like you did that week. I had to do something for the sake of your happiness." Tennten answered shyly.
"You really think I'm that great. I-I never could of imagined... man, do I feel stupid now." Joy filledtears adorned the young girl's eyes.
"Don't think about what might have happned, hell, just forget all about the time we were apart, I will never be apart from you for that long again." Tenten spoke lovingly as she stared into her lover's eyes. She then lay beside this other girl, gently putting her hand to the other's shoulder. Soon Tenten was fast asleep her arm wrapped arround Sakura. Sakura was hardly disspapointed at this though, she knew that now her time with this girl would be without limits.
A/N: So yeah it's so sweet. I liked that chapter ending. As for the dark, depressed, suicidal, stuff toward the beginning, that kind of scared me. I guess this chapter really shows a full scale of emotions. I really hope you liked it. There's one more chapter left, but don't expect much more then a simple, happy sunshine ending, I guess I'm not into having those twist endings. Oh well, so expect it soon, and keep reading and reviewing (those few people who actually review this story).
