This Is What Makes You Feel Alive
One Partner
A Different Nathan and Brooke Story
Song: Underoath "A Boy Brushed Red…Living in Black and White
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Can
you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her
sweat?
He was home again. Drunk as usual. Brooke looked at the clock and saw that it read 3:49 AM. Perfect timing. It was the usual time he came home and when the madness began. Lamps would be thrown against walls and chairs would be thrown down and broken. Brooke would throw down the necklace that he bought her for their 6 month anniversary and he would break in the kitchen window that her mother had just paid for to get re-done.
You've
done this wrong
It's too far gone
These sheets tell of regret
It would always end the same. He would throw Brooke against the wall and she would stand there panting heavily while she yelled out obscenities to him. Usually she would tell him to go fuck himself, while he would call her a stupid whore. That's when the hitting would begin; it would start with him shoving her down on the couch and she would retaliate by slapping him hard across the face. He would pin her down and get inches away from her face before passionately kissing her.
I
admit that I'm just a fool for you
I am just a fool for you
"You fucking bastard," Brooke whispered to him as they made love.
Here is where we both go wrong
They both laid there not saying a word. Nathan looked over at Brooke which caused her to look over at him. She rested a hand on his red cheek where she had slapped him only an hour before. That's what happened between them…They would fight hard and then make up ten times harder. Brooke kissed his lips softly as he rested his hand on her bare thigh.
"I love you," Nathan said softly as he drunkenly began to weep.
Brooke didn't say a word. She ran her fingers through his hair until he fell asleep. When she knew for sure that he was sleeping, Brooke got up out of bed and put on her clothes. She gave her boyfriend one last look before walking out of her room and out of her house. Brooke started the car and slowly pulled out of the driveway. She was careful not to wake him, even though she knew that he was probably passed out by this time.
Tonight's
your last chance to
Do exactly what you want to
And this could
be my night
This is what makes me feel alive
Makes you feel
alive
She knocked on the door in front of her lightly; hoping that he was awake. She stood back slightly as the door opened; the boy in front of her looked at her tear stained cheeks and her messy hair.
"It happened again didn't it?" Lucas asked as Brooke walked into the room and sat on the bed. He seemed more upset than angry, but then again Brooke saw a flare in his eyes that could only mean trouble.
Brooke ran a hand through her tangled hair and nodded, "He doesn't mean it Lucas…"
"I hate seeing you like this," Lucas said as he sat down beside her and put his fingers under her chin and brought her face towards him.
"I can't leave him," Brooke said softly as her lips moved only an inch between Lucas's.
Lucas kissed her hard on the lips as he got on top of her; his hands roamed all over Brooke's body as her hands ruffled his blonde hair. His shirt came off along with Brooke's and they breathed heavily as Brooke stared up at him, "I would treat you so well," Lucas said and then started to kiss Brooke's neck.
Here
is where we both go wrong
So sign me up
And toss this
key
'Cause for now we're
Living in this moment
And we both
ignore the truth
Its all over
Its all over
Brooke closed her eyes and Lucas began to unbutton her pants, "I know," she said as a single tear ran down her cheek.
I
feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes
Brooke slowly walked up to her room and opened the door so it wouldn't make the least bit of noise. She jumped back when she saw Nathan sitting on the edge of the bed looking at her.
"I figured you'd still be sleeping," Brooke said cautiously as she leaned against the door.
Nathan let out a dry laugh, "You were with him weren't you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about," Brooke said as she turned to walk out of the room.
Nathan grabbed her arm and threw her down on the bed, "Don't fuck with me Brooke," he screamed.
"Fine!" Brooke yelled, "I was with him!"
Your
lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
My heart is dead
and its way past beating
Something has gone terribly wrong
I'm
scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
Nathan reached his hand back and slapped Brooke across the face, "I don't want you seeing him anymore," he said sternly as he pointed his finger at her like she was a child.
"You're not my dad," Brooke said as she put her hand on her swollen cheek.
Brooke tried to run up, but Nathan grabbed her by the throat and slammed her hard against the wall, "You want to be a whore then do it on somebody else's terms…But not mine. I will not be the laughing stock at school because you're a little slut."
I
never thought we'd make it out alive
I never told you but its all
in your goodbyes
It's all in your goodbyes
"I'll leave you," Brooke threatened as she grit her teeth.
Nathan let her go and backed away, "If you leave I'll kill myself," he said as his eyes began to water. He fell down to his knees and put his head to the ground, "I'LL FUCKING KILL MYSELF!"
"Stop," Brooke said as she slowly began to walk away, "Nathan you're scaring me…"
Well
look who's dying now
Slit wrists sleeping with the girl next
door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
Nathan grabbed Brooke's leg and pulled her down to the ground, "You're not leaving," he said as he forcefully began to un zip Brooke's pants, "You're with Luke cause you don't think I'm man enough for you?"
"Nathan!" Brooke screamed as he ripped off her shirt, "Don't do this."
It
doesn't matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
Never
mattered anyway
Brooke kicked Nathan in the groin and he rolled over and groaned, "You bitch," he said.
"Nathan…You need help," Brooke said as she ran over to her purse and clutched it to herself.
Nathan got up slowly and limped towards Brooke, "I'm going to fucking kill you!" He screamed as Brooke tightly closed her eyes.
In
this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over
It's
all over
I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and
close your eyes
Everything happened so fast.
Brooke opened her eyes and saw Nathan laying on the ground in front of her with a bullet in his head. Brooke looked at the gun in her hand with smoke seeping from where the bullet had been shot from. She put the gun back into her purse and ran to Nathan's side.
"Nathan," she said as she grabbed his hand. His eyes fluttered and he looked up at her.
Don't
shake, I hate to see you tremble
Trembling you've lost your
touch
Haven't you run so addicted
"Brooke," he said softly as his heart beat slowed down.
Brooke's hand shook as she looked around the bedroom, "What Nathan? I'm here…"
"You're…You're not going to get away with this you bitch," he said maliciously.
Her piercing eyes looked down at him as she grabbed the gun and cocked it, "And who the fuck is going to believe you?" She asked as her voice lowered and she pulled the trigger.
Brooke put the gun in her purse and stood up as she looked down at her dead boyfriend.
"Take this gun," Lucas said to Brooke as she began to change back into her clothes.
Brooke looked at the gun, "I…I can't Lucas…"
"Yes you can," Lucas said as she moved towards her and rested his hand on her thigh, "Do it for us."
The End.
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