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Chapter 3.
Here you go!
Warning: This chapter won't have a lot of fluff! This will just simply explain and introduce Serena's mental condition.
"Serena..?"
Serena looked up from the book she was currently reading, and saw that it was Dr. Hinohad came in the room.
"Yes?" She asked. What could Dr. Hino possibly want at a time like this? She glanced at her clock on the night table really quickly and saw that it was almost midnight.
"I just came by to tell you that in the next four days you can have the choice if you want to leave the hospital and go in your own. But if not, you are still welcome to stay temporarily." She informed. She was indeed a beautiful woman; Serena could see what Darien could see in her.
Not only did she have the looks, but she also had the personality, but still all Serena could feel was a tinge of jealousy.
Why she was jealous?
She did not know.
"Oh alright, thank you." Serena replied with a smile. She couldn't help but think that there was morethat Dr. Hino wanted to tell her.
She was about to ask, but then suddenly the door bursted open.
"Honey! I'm home!"
Oh my God. She knew instantly who it was. Of course it was Darien.
No one else pretended to be her husband as a joke when someone visited her! Usually she didn't mind when he did this kind of stuff, she just got very annoyed, but now was the wrong time. Dr. Hino was here, telling her something important and here he was just barging in acting like a crazy man.
" Darien..." Serena said with a low and irritated voice.
"Hello Mr. Shields," Dr. Hino greeted with a tiny smile, but she still had a very serious look pasted on her face.
Serena couldn't help but feel worried.
Darien stopped for a second, he could feel that something going on.
"Hey ladies," he quickly made his way to Serena's bed side, and looked at her with a questioning look to what was going on. It was very late at night, and usually no one comes to Serena's room except him at this time of hour.
"I was just telling Ms. Tsukino about her being able to leave the hospital by Friday," then she paused, "and also, I was about to tell her about her mental condition."
Oh. Serena's heartbeat started to pound crazy, it was all she could hear throughout that pause.
"Well in that case I should go," Darien said as he moved his way to the door. He didn't feel like this was really any of his business.
"No, Darien stay," Darien stopped his feet when he heard Serena's sweet and quiet angelic voice, "please."
He made his way back beside her, how could he say no?
Serena couldn't bare this by herself, if she was to hear this alone, she might just have a heart attack right there and then. She thanked God for bringing Darien at this moment; she could just at least make his presence useful.
"What's wrong with me?" Serena asked, Dr. Hino looked away for a second, and then turned to Darien, then at her.
Dr. Hino cleared her throat. "The electroencephalograph indicates abnormal brain waves. This is confirmed by another doctor's detailed examination of the MRI. A portion of your substania nigra cells have been destroyed, abbreviating certain cognitive capacities. It's called Hoyt-Mellenberger syndrome."
"Exactly what does this mean?" Serena did not understand what was happening at all.
Dr. Hino smiled at her as if she was a little child incapable of grasping what she was saying. "The accident damaged a part of your brain."
"But all I have is a little cut on the back of my head," she protested.
"You suffered a blow that caused a hairline fracture, which resulted in internal bleeding. The bleeding stopped, but not without destroying a number of cells."
"I feel fine," she insisted. "Really I do."
Dr. Hino studied her for a moment. "I'm sure you feel well, but what do you remember about the past?"
"Nothing... yet. But it's right there. I can feel it."
Dr. Hino shook her head. "I'm afraid you will never be able to remember everything."
What did she mean? Serena wondered with a grim sense of foreboding. Wasn't she going to remember anything at all? She looked at Darien to see what he thought and saw he was frowning at Dr. Hino.
"Just what won't she be able to remember?" Darien asked the doctor, as he took Serena's hand to his, and held it.
"The accident could have left her paralyzed or wiped put her entire memory bank since she was the one who got hit the most, it just took a part of her memory." Dr. Hino turned to her. "Then you would have to relearn everything again as if you were a baby. Walking, talking, everything."
Serena's breathed soldified in her chest, becoming a dead weight, as she realized what the doctor was saying. No, she wanted to scream. It couldn't be true. She glanced at Darien and saw her knuckles were ridges of bone. She had a death grip on his hand. She let go and clutched the sheet instead.
"Am I going to remember anything about my past? Like.. I don't know.. my prom night? The day I learned how to ride a bike?" Serena began to panic.
"I'm afraid not." Dr. Hino said quietly. "You see, there are three types of memory systems. Semantic, or relearned memory, is what we've consciously studied and mastered like mathematical equations or a foreign language. The second type of memory is procedural. If you do something so often enough, you learn what to expect. A baby learns that fire is hot and won't stick his hand into flames."
"What about my past? Things that happened to me?" Serena heard the threat of panic in her voice and knew Darien heard it too. He comforted her with the pressure of his hand on her shoulder.
"That's episodic memory. It's the collection of events, feelings, and thoughts we accumulate over time." Dr. Hino shook her head sadly. "The memory system you've lost."
Serena's heartbeat jarred her chest as the full impact of the doctor's words hit her. "Lost?"
"It could've been worse," Sr. Hino said. "You still have your sense of smell."
"What does that got to do with it?" The irritation in Darien's voice was unmistakable. Evidently, he found this as perplexing as Serena did. Maybe even more. He was by the way who caused all this.
Dr. Hino spoke up, "For some reason memory and the sense of smell are centered in the same area in the brain. When smell is wiped out, the memory systems collapse. All you have is a short term memory. You can't remember anything for longer than-say- ten or fifteen minutes."
"Oh my God!" She was truly lost and having her tell her that it could have been worse didn't make her feel lucky. It terrified her.
"Don't worry," Dr. Hino assured her with a smile. "Your family will tell you all about your past. They'll have photographs maybe even home videos. The mind is a funny thing. Give it enough information and it will fill in the blanks."
She understood that Dr. Hino was trying to make her feel better. But she wasn't buying t. She didn't know what it feels like to not know anything about yourself at all.
"You're telling me the past is gone," she heard the anger in her own voice and paused to temper it. "All I have is what other people tell me. I won't know what I used to feel."
Just exactly what her best friend Mina in the past was doing to her. Telling her everything. But still Serena wanted to feel what it felt like.
Dr. Hino didn't deny it. Serena didn't know whether to cry or scream. If she did either, she probably wouldn't be able to stop. Darien gently squeezed her shoulder, she looked up to him, and saw that his head was just staring ahead, not looking anything in particular. But even his reassurance didn't help.
"Let me get this straight," Darien finally spoke up. "She will remember how to drive a car, yet she won't remember the plot of the book she read once?"
"Right." Dr. Hino quietly replied.
"What does Gone With The Wind mean to you?" Dr. Hino questioned her.
"Something blew away in the wind. That's all."
"It's a famous book that was made into a movie. Undoubtedly you read it or saw the movie once. Probably both." Dr. Hino at least sounded she was compassionate for what Serena was feeling, she was at least grateful for that. "You get the chance to experience a great many things again like rereading Gone With The Wind."
"I've never heard of Hoyt-Melenberger syndrome," Darien implied.
"It's extremely rare." Dr. Hino replied, "Usually the entire memory bank is destroyed, and the person simply has to relearn everything."
All these talk barely made sense to Serena; all she knows for sure is that her past was lost. No one could bring them back except the stories that her friends and family would have to tell her.
"Do you have any more questions Ms. Tsukino?" Dr. Hino turned to her. And Serena nods her head to say no. Then Dr. Hino turned to Darien, "Mr. Shields?"
"No that would be all. Thank you."
"Alright. I will be going then." And with that she left the room and closing the door, leaving Darien and Serena alone.
An uncomfortable silence filled the room. Serena noticed that Darien was awfully serious thru ought out the whole conversation.
She wanted to break the silence, but she knew that Darien was probably feeling guilt.
"If you're thinking that this is your felt Darien it's not." She gazed at him; he still was looking at the floor since Dr. Hino left and didn't look up at all. "Even though you were running your car at a very high speed from what you told me, I still could have stopped that turn I made when you crashed into me, but I didn't so it's as much as my fault as it was yours."
She gave him a tiny smile.
Then he looked up to her, was she crazy?
He was grateful for her reassurance, but even if what she was saying is true, he still was feeling guilt. He had been the lucky one, and was not damaged from the accident. She was the one who was affected, who had her memories taken away.
"Fuck Serena!"
Serena was silent, her eyes wide open. She's never seen him this serious at all for the past week she has known him. She didn't reply. She was too stunned.
"Can you cut the crap? And stop being so fucking nice!" Then he looked at her with his dark blue eyes, it looked red though. "Tell your father he can sue for as much as he wants. He wants a million dollars? Well then I can give it to him. Can't you just see it's all my fault? I'm a stranger to you who took away your memories and what do you doto me? You're being fucked up in the head and being nice like I'm the one who needs comfort when your the one who damaged you head!"
Then Serena couldn't take it anymore.
She started to cry. Cry like a helpless little baby, which is really what she was feeling.
"I don't know what's wrong with me... I know I should be feeling hatred toward you, but I don't. To be truthful, I don't really feel anything. I mean I want to have my memories back, but I feel like either way it doesn't really matter. I'm just confused..."
She hid her face with her hands and began to sob uncontrollably.
Then she felt warm arms wrap around her slender body. As the bed shifted beside her, telling her that Darien had probably took a sit next to her.
"It's okay let it out. Don't bury it inside you, that's what my mother use to tell me." Serena could feel his hot breath on her ear as he spoke, and as a reflex she leaned in more to the embrace and placed her head on the crook of his neck. The smell of roses on him calmed her heartbeat down.
Then after a few minutes of being just like that Serena's sobs calmed down and turned into little, tiny hiccups.
Darien was the first to let go of the comforting hug.
"Princess lay down, and try to go to sleep. I'll stay here and leave until I know that you are asleep." And with that he gave her a peck on her forehead, and took the chair and slid it right beside her bed.
She just nodded her head, unable to say anything. Darien can be quiet a surprise. First he's all angry, then suddenly he can be quiet a gentleman.
She slowly layed down, and pulled the sheets up to her chin and turned to the side where Darien was watching her every move.
"Good night Darien." She smiled at him.
"Good night Princess."
Diamond Reese owned one of the most top business companies in the nation and even possibly be the world.
A knock came on the door.
"Come in." Diamond said in a stern and impatient voice.
The past week has been a busy and hectic week for him and the company. Their money was going down quickly and he as to do something about it fast or their company might just turn bankrupt, and he would not want that happening.
"Sir, Ms. Tsukino's father have called yesterday and told us to inform you that, Ms. Tsukino has been in a very severe car accident."
Diamond went still for awhile.
"Sir?" The man asked worriedly.
"Leave."
The man hurriedly zoomed out of the door, knowing that his master was going to burst any minute.
No it can't be... My Serena. Nooooo.
The next morning when Serena woke up, she found that the chair Darien's was previously sitting on last night was empty.
As she sat up, she saw that her family was there already looking gloomy. Serena thought that they probably knew about her mental condition already from Dr. Hino. Either that or they were just not a very morning family at all. Serena obviously wasn't, so maybe her family wasn't either.
Her mom was by her bed holding her hand. Her father was talking on his phone, and it looked like it was a business call. And her little brother was playing some kind of thing she did not was called.
"Good morning sweetheart." As her mom gave her a smile. Then her dad hangs up his cell phone, but her brother was still playing the unfamiliar thing.
"Good morning." As Serena smiled back.
"Are you hungry sweetie?" Her father asked her.
"A tiny bit." Serena was starving, but she as embarrassed to tell her family that, the only person that she knew so far that knew about her appetite was Darien.
"What a liar." Her brother said, while he was playing the game, but he didn't look up at all as he talked to her. God, was he this annoying when she still remembered her past?
"Sammy do not talk to your sister like that." Her father had said.
"Well she did have a big appetite then, so why not now?"
"Hey!" Serena finally couldn't keep her mouth shut. All her and her bother do is fight anyway so her arguing back now wouldn't make any difference.
"Honey, we heard about what the doctor told you last night." Her mother started, and then suddenly her mother was hugging her and holding her tightly as she sobbed on Serena's shoulder. "This can't be happening to my baby!" Then more sobs came.
"Serena, me and your mother have decided to bring you home to our house tomorrow, and we will try to help you experience a few things that you might have forgotten."
She could see that her father was waiting for her mom to continue what he was saying like they have planned this, but her mother just kept on sobbing. And all Serena could do was try and comfort her mom. Truth be told, Serena felt like this accident affected more the people who were close to her rather than her own self.
She obviously didn't remember anything to miss anything.
"Sow which would mean, that you will be quitting your job, and your going to be moving in with us and leave the apartment that you are currently living in with Mina," Her father continued with a serious face, "And we will provide anything you need."
Serena didn't feel upset about anything he said at all.
She didn't really know what she was suppose to be feeling, she didn't know if she loved her job to be upset over it. But maybe leaving Mina in the apartment made her feel something a tiny bit, but it still didn't make her feel sad at all.
But there was something she was wondering and made her feel something inside her.
Would she ever be able to see Darien?
"And for that impeccable man, we have filed a law suit against him." She looked up at her dad.
Well that answered her question. She would not be able to see Darien.
If she was going to be living in the same house as her father, then Darien probably won't be able to set put in the house without her father killing him. She could already sense the hatred her father has against Darien.
Well at least Darien was willing to pay how much money her father was going to sue him for. Serena was thinking that Darien was rich, he looked liked it.
She sighed. She nodded her head to her dad, afraid of trusting her voice to speak. Well a first friend lost for her new life. No more stupid Darien.
Darien Shields was once again in bed with another woman.
Having a casual sex was like his hobby, something to take his mind off stress. It was his way on letting his feelings out. He looked at the woman who had sex with him she was asleep, he doesn't even know her name, but yet they had slept together in her house.
What a slut.
He might be the guy who was always interacted with these kinds of women, but he didn't respect them at all. The only reason why he would rather prefer these kinds of women was because being with an innocent girl would make him feel like a sinner.
He had always told himself to stay away from women who looked innocent like an angel. The last time he got involved himself with a woman like that; he was left heartbroken, and torn. But the thing was it turned out she wasn't as innocent as he thought she was. Karen.
Maybe there was no such thing as innocence, maybe it looked like these women were innocent but really sooner or later they were going to show they're true colors.
Since he had met Serena Tsukino he actually started to believe maybe there was such thing as innocence.
She definitely looked like it... well... except when she would open her mouth to argue with him.
He chuckled quietly as he remembered the thought of her always arguing with him.
But then again, in her past life she might not have been so innocent. She could be like this woman who he was currently sharing bed with.
He tried to take his mind off Serena. Every time he thought of her all he could feel was guilt.
Guilt. He hasn't felt like that in a long time. Hell, the last time he probably felt like that was when his own mother had caught him stealing a candy when he was a child. And even still now when he breaks these women's hearts he doesn't feel that.
Serena Tsukino was one of a kind, and there's a feeling in his mind that was telling him to stay away from her. But he couldn't help but feel to do the exact opposite.
Author's Note:
Hey guys! Wow... I rushed into this chapter. Yes there wasn't a lot of fluff; I'm still trying to clear things out that maybe seem unclear to you.
I will try and update maybe next week? But I can't promise you all that.
Also, I know this chapter was a bit confusing, with all the science and doctor conversation, but you don't really need to worry about that, but just remember Serena won't be able to remember anything about her past or memories, except the stuff she had learned to do, like walking, talking, etc. But she will not be able to remember how she learned all those stuff.
Questions:
Q: Is Serena a virgin?
A: I haven't decided yet, but so far I'm thinking yes she is a virgin.
Q: Will Serena and Darien see each other after she leaves the hospital?
A: I'll leave that to the story to answer you guys. :
Q: Did Darien finish his "deed" in the bathroom in the last chapter?
A: Yes, I just chose not to finish his deed, thinking that some of you guys might be upset if I did.
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