by: RioN VhEnTeUnO
A/N: Okay. This one's for the road! I read your reviews and was deeply moved by them, so I finished this chapter up in record time! Really had the urge to post it before the day ended, and it's all because the reviewers liked my work so much. It's the longest chapter I finished in the shortest time. Review replies are down below. Enjoy!
Note: This is a two part chapter that uses both Robin and Raven's POV. Just so you don't get confused, these two happened almost at the same time. I made this to show the readers the different feelings and thoughts of both Robin and Raven in that scene.
Chapter 15
Sweet Nothings
(Robin)
I entered the access codes on the control panel of the Titans Tower's huge front doors. The screen displayed 'Access Granted,' then the doors noisily slid open. I hastily slipped through them, clutching the small present I fetched from a store in Jump City a while ago.
After successfully getting in, I pressed a button on another control panel to close the doors. The security system turned on automatically. Sure hope the others didn't notice that I sneaked out.
I stalked the hallways of the tower, cautiously looking around for any sign of the others. The destination, my room. I didn't need anyone seeing me, or else they would definitely ask what this was.
Before I decided passing through the living room door, I gave it a slight peek. I saw the other three Titans cleaning up the mess Raven stirred up because of our fight.
Sorry guys, I thought, a pang of guilt creeping up at me.
I made a silent dash towards the stairs. Once there, I cautiously crept up to my room. As the door slid closed behind me, I heaved a great sigh of relief. Had to thank Batman for that one. It's during times like this that I'm just glad he trained me.
If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have become Robin and formed the Teen Titans in the first place.
I sank down on my bed and gave the present a good long stare. It was wrapped in red and green, a golden lace tied on it. Why'd I even use this color scheme anyway?
I took out the card inside the little envelope attached to the present, massaging my chin while I approached my desk. What should I write? I asked myself as I slumped down on the chair.
A few cheesy lines entered my head, and I had to shake it off, massaging my temple irritably. Suddenly, my mind strayed to our fight a while back. Finally having an idea on what to say, I scribbled something on the card, folded it, then placed it back inside the envelope. I glanced at my digital wall clock.
9:15 pm. Good. She's still awake.
I felt rather confident when I was walking towards Raven's room, but when I reached her doorstep, my knees seemed to buckle. It was only then that I noticed that I absentmindedly grabbed the book she dropped not so long ago.
I was staring blankly at her door when…
"Leave me alone! Just stop it! Stop it! Stop it! STOP!"
Without even thinking, I knocked on her door. What could possibly be happening to her?
"Raven?" I called out, worry gnawing at my chest. "Are… you okay?"
"I'm fine," Raven answered back monotonously. "Go away."
"I… um… heard you scream," I tried pointing out. "I just got concerned. And I… ah… just wanted to…"
I cleared my throat and hung my head. Why am I acting like an idiot? Her door slid slightly open. I noticed her take a little peek through the small hole. I didn't even know that I was fidgeting…
"You wanted to what?" She shot at me, obviously looking annoyed. I couldn't help but wince.
"I… um… just wanted to give this back to you," I said, holding out the hand carrying her book. "You sort of dropped it when, you know…"
"Um… Thanks," Raven said. I felt her irritation soothe up a bit. She opened the door fully to get the book. She's so beautiful…
A few good minutes were spent on us staring at each other. The silence was killing me…
"So… um…" I stammered. "I think that's all…" What am I doing?…
"Y-yeah," She answered back. "Oh and Robin, keep your thoughts to yourself."
"Sometimes you let them slip too," I countered. Yeah she did. That's why I can sometimes still hear her thoughts. Maybe her meditation isn't going that well.
"Whatever," She deadpanned, letting the door slide shut.
I hung my head. Maybe this isn't just because of our recent fight. Maybe I already ruined our friendship. I did break her heart. How could I even expect that there's still a chance that she'll like me after that?… Wait… Why does it feel that she's still by the door?…
'I'm… sorry Raven, for everything I've done to hurt you…' I thought, directing it to her.
Well, that's it. I knelt down and placed the present right before her doorstep. Giving her bedroom door one last glance, I started to walk away…
'Don't drown in self pity, Robin…' I heard her think. 'I… forgave you already.'
I stopped dead in my tracks. A smile automatically formed on my face. Suddenly I felt… her smile. That smile I missed so much. I made that smile. The only regret that I felt right now is that I couldn't see it with my own two eyes.
'Thanks…' I answered back through thought.
With that I walked off towards my room. It turned out okay. I think she still doesn't know that Star and I broke up, but Star said she'd be the one to talk to Raven about it. One thought lingered in my mind as I approached my doorstep.
There still might be hope after all…
(Raven)
"Azarath. Metrion. Zinthos…"
It's no use. I couldn't focus on meditation whenever I get bothered by something about him. I gave up, slumping grumpily on my bed. I wasn't mad at him anymore for yelling at me without a reason, but it still confused me. I glanced at my alarm clock. 9:15 pm huh.
Was he actually… jealous?
No. It's just my wishful thinking. Starfire loves him, and he loves her back. How could he possibly love someone like me?
Are you sure it's Starfire he loves? A voice in my head asked.Yeah I am. Just look at how they're all over each other everyday. What was I thinking when I let myself sit on his lap wearing nothing but underwear…
Jealousy doesn't take you anywhere, the voice advised.
I know that, and I don't do jealous. I must be looking for excuses to hate him or something. But somehow, I don't seem to find any. I shifted on my bed.
Don't lie to yourself anymore, Raven, The voice went on. Just accept that you love him, and you're hoping he loves you back.
I wish this voice in my head would just stop. I shifted on my bed again uneasily, burying my head under a pillow. This is just leading me into more confusion. I shouldn't love him. I shouldn't take him away from Starfire. I'd rather die than hurt one of my closest friends…
Just say it, Raven, The voice ranted. It'll be easy. Just tell yourself that you love him…
"Leave me alone!" I screamed to no one, clasping my hands on my ears. "Just stop it! Stop it! Stop it! STOP!"
Sudden knocks on the door in rapid succession startled me. But that's not all…
"Raven?" called the familiar voice of Robin from outside. "Are… you okay?"
"I'm fine," I answered back in my usual dry tone. "Go away."
"I… um… heard you scream," Robin pointed out. "I just got concerned. And I… ah… just wanted to…"
I shook my head. What's he up to? I stood up, walked towards the door, and slid it open, just big enough for me to take a peek. Robin was fidgeting, and had both his arms behind his back.
"You wanted to what?" I deadpanned, giving him what I hoped was a blank look. He winced.
"I… um… just wanted to give this back to you," Robin said, holding out one hand to reveal the object he kept hidden behind him. It was my missing book. "You sort of dropped it when, you know…"
"Um… Thanks," I said, feeling myself blush. I opened the door fully to get the book, and to talk to him properly. Good thing I had my hood on.
A few good minutes were spent on us staring at each other. I really hate awkward situations like this.
"So… um…" He stammered. "I think that's all…" 'What am I doing?…'
"Y-yeah," I answered. "Oh and Robin, keep your thoughts to yourself."
"Sometimes you let them slip too," He said.
"Whatever," I shot back sarcastically, letting the door slide shut.
I turned around and considered slumping back on my bed, but thought better of it. Instead I leaned on my bedroom door. I expected to hear footsteps getting weaker as Robin left, but silence was in its place. I knew he's still there, and I think he knows I'm still near the door.
'I'm… sorry Raven, for everything I've done to hurt you…' I heard him think.
I gasped. So, he's still been blaming himself all this time. He shouldn't… Footsteps started to echo outside my doorstep.
'Don't drown in self pity, Robin…' I thought, directing it to him. 'I… forgave you already.'
The footsteps stopped for a moment. I felt his smile. I couldn't help but smile myself. For some reason I wanted to rush outside and give him a hug. I had to mentally hit myself hard and shake my head just to tear that thought out of my mind.
'Thanks…' he thought back.
With that I heard him stalk off into the dark hallways of the tower. I sighed, deciding to get a cup of tea. I suddenly remembered breaking my own mug due to my anger a while ago. Oh well… Maybe I could just borrow Starfire's. She wouldn't mind.
I counted thirty seconds before I opened up my door just to be sure that I wouldn't run into Robin outside. But as the door slid open…
I stared at the little package someone left outside my bedroom doorstep. There, carefully wrapped in red and green, with a golden lace tied on it, was a present. I picked it up and snatched the letter, instantly recognizing Robin's loopy handwriting. It read:
To Raven,
Well, this is a little peace offering I got for you. I know it's not much, but I really hope you like it, though. Besides, I really think you'll be needing this now.
It's my little way of saying I'm sorry, for yelling at you this afternoon, and for all the hurt I've put you through ever since that incident. I hope you can still forgive me, because I really would rather die than hurt you. You know that.
I really hope I didn't totally destroy our friendship this afternoon.
Robin
P.S. I'd really love to see you using this.
I tore open the little gift to reveal a box wrapped in newspaper. I rolled my eyes. It was so up Robin's alley to hang a person in suspense like this. Finally, I decided to rip away the newspaper and open the box.
It revealed a dark blue mug. An almost exact replica of my soul self was painted in shiny metallic black on it. Underneath the painted raven, I saw my name carefully engraved in loopy letters. I sighed and hung my head.
'Why does he always have to be so sweet?' was the last thought I had before I went to the kitchen to pour me some herbal tea.
A/N: Okay... Hope you readers liked it. I was actually smiling when I was writing this up. Hehe. It was a really fun chapter. Hope you think the same way. For a preview, the next chapters would contain more developments in Robin and Raven's relationship, as well as those untold details, such as Robin and Star breaking up, would be revealed. I'm thinking if it would be good to reveal what really happened in the cave, but I don't see how I could make fit in the story. Anyway, I honestly do not know when I'm gonna update next, so please bear with me. Thanks. I humbly await your generous reviews.
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Queen Rae: Thanks! Hehe. Anyway, I think I'm gonna keep those ideas in mind and try if it's gonna work in the story. I promise to update as soon as I can. Thanks a million!
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watergoddess08: Well, I've always seen Beast Boy to have a certain level of intelligence too (it's somewhat revealed in season 5). Guess he's just a real goofy person to me. And he has a knack of stringing up really wrong conclusions. Thanks for the criticism, I do think Beast Boy might've been a little bit off. I sincerely apologize for that. Oh and hey, thanks for the compliment about the fight. Hehe! Thanks a million! I hope I do better in the following chapters! See ya!
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