Stella's POV: it's been a month and a half since I have a miscarriage and we lost sweet Sutton, everything was going good with my pregnancy but then all of sudden we lost Sutton. The first two weeks after the lost was the hardest. I was depressed a lot I tried my best to be strong for the kids but it was hard. When all the kids went to bed that's when I would break down and cry . By the third week started to slowly get better, the kids were sad too sometimes we all would end up having at least one Kid in our bed. Kelly and me have been talking to each other every night about how we are feeling it has helped us both. Kelly has gone back to work three weeks after that awful day, it took me A lot longer . I just went back to work about two weeks ago I think it helps to focus on work and not constantly think about our loss. Right now it's a few days before Christmas and the kids have been on Christmas break for a couple days now. Greyson husband what has helped his family the most to pass the loss. He has how does all smiles and laugh so much over the last month and a half. We are so grateful for him.. right now Kelly is making all of us some breakfast
K= all right breakfast is done who is hungry
ALL= we are
GA= me ( starts screaming)
S= well it sounds like mr. Greyson here is the most hungry
K= I swear he give ear all day if you let him
S= oh yeah he for sure can
K= well here is your food Greyson
SG= what about us dad
K= your will be coming in a few
SM= hey mom
S= yeah buddy
SM= so it's a couple days before Christmas
S= yes it is buddy
SM= are we going to get a Christmas tree any time soon
K= well how about this after we all eat our breakfast and get dressed then go to the tree farm and find a great Christmas tree
S= that sounds like a plan
LM= let's do it
SM= all right let's do it
SG= yes find a tree
K= all right eat up and then we will go
We all eat our breakfast within 45 minutes. One we are all done we all got just what it up in the car and headed to the local tree farm. We arrive within 30 minutes I put Greyson in the carrier and we start looking for a perfect tree
LM= are we going to get a big tree
SG= I want a tree taller than me
SM= yes a very tall tree
K= well kids we can't get too tall of a tree our house only allowed we us up to 8 feet tree
S= that's still pretty tall tree
SM= all right let's go see what they have
We start looking around
LM= I like this one over there
SG= I don't like it Luna it's not as fluffy how about this one in the corner
SM= sailor that one isn't tall enough how about the one next to it
K= sorry buddy this tree is too tall
S= how about this one in the other corner
LM= I like it mommy
SG= yeah me too
SM= Great choice mom
K= so we all agree on our Christmas tree
All= yes
K= all right then you guys stay here while I go and grab someone to help me
SG= all right daddy
Kelly goes and get someone to help him take down the tree. Once they come back they get the tree cut down and put on the roof while I pay for the tree we decided to take the tree home by itself first and then go to store to pick up a few more decorations for Christmas
K= so kids would you like to do a secret Santa between this little family for Christmas
SM= yeah that sounds like fun
LM= let's do it
S= all right i'm going to write everyone's name down and we will draw names out of a hat ( she does) so who wants to go first
All= me!
K= how about this we get youngest to oldest so Greyson goes first
S= i'll choose for him ( she does) he gets Luna
LM= yeah I can't wait to see what he gets me
SG= Who gets to pick next
K= that would be Luna
LM= all right ( she does) I get shay
SM= that's good
S= sailor it's your turn
SG= I hope I get daddy ( she does ) and I got daddy yes just who i wanted
Sm= is it finally my turn
K= yes it is buddy
SM= all right ( he picks ) I get to get a cat for mom
S= wow that's cool so I guess me and daddy get to go next I'll pick first ( she does ) I get shay
K= so that means I get sailor
S= so how about I take Greyson and sailor with me while you take Luna and shay with you to shop for each other and we will meet up later
K= that sounds good to me let's go
We all head into the store and go our separate ways To start shopping for each other, about two hours later we all finish shopping and decide to go get something to eat. We head home and get our tee up and decorate the next day.
Kelly's pov: it's been about two months since we lost our sweet Sutton rain, it was hard for the first couple weeks, each day was very long we got through it together. Greyson is now 10 months old right now he has been what has help us through this difficult time by having us smile and laughing so much. The other day we all picked a tree out and got more decorations. We also did a little Secret Santa for the family. Today is Christmas and right now me and Stella are sound asleep when all of sudden we feel three kids jumping on our bed
All= wake up
SG= daddy Santa came
LM= we got presents Santa was here
SM= wake up mommy Santa was here
S= what even time is it
K= ( looks at the clock) it's only 7 am Why are you kids up so early
SG= daddy Santa came we went to open the gifts and see what he got us
S= well how about you guys go wait in the living room while we wake up a little bit more
K= also please be quiet so you don't wake Greyson up
LM= got it
SM= all right daddy ( they leave )
S= oh my god our kids
K= they are crazy
S= we better get up before they come back in here
Kp oh yeah how about you check on Greyson to make sure they didn't wake him up
S= good idea let's go
Stella checks on Greyson while I go and get the kids set up with their presents in their area
SM= mom where are you I want to open my presents already
BG= same here
S= I'm coming either you guys woke him up or he wanted to see what Santa brought for him
Because he was awake when I went to check on him.
SM= i'm sorry if we woke him up
LM= same here
SG= yeah me too
K= well thanks for saying sorry
S= it's all right kids so who's ready to open the presents
All= I am
Before anyone can speak there was a knock at the door
K= Who could that be
S= I have no clue but they do realize it's still early in the morning right
K= Who knows kids stay here let me go answer the door ( he does)
KF= Merry Christmas
S= Who is it babe
K= well I'll give you a second to guess who it is, but think about it for a second
S= okay ( she thinks) wait it's your family isn't it
KM= hey Stella hey kids
KS= where is my nieces and nephews at
SM= grandma aunt Katie
KD= hey grandkids
SG= grandpa Benny ( they all run to them)
S= I am so surprise you're here
KB= hey Kelly hey Stella
K= hey Jackson great to see you
S= same here come in ( they do )
K= you guys came just in time because the kids were getting ready to open their presents from Santa
KD= well don't let us showing up stop you guys from opening the presents so go ahead and open them
S= all right you heard your grandpa open your present you come from Santa
Within 10 minutes all the presents were unlocked and the kids were playing all their new stuff they got.
KD= so how long did it take you guys to wrap all that
K= it took us about three hours
KS= and it was all unwrapped in less than 10 minutes
S= so how have you guys been since we saw all of you last
KB= been keeping busy just growing old and fishing
KM= just doing a lot for my church
K= that's good to know so what about you Katie and Jackson
KS= do you think we should tell her
KB= I think we should
S= tell us what
KB= well we wanted to wait to have a big wedding but when you called is it that unexpected news a couple months back we decided this family needs a little happiness so we decided to get married
KB= on Halloween
K= wait are you serious
KS= yes I am
KD= that's amazing Katie
KM= congrats guys
S= yes congrats and this is what this whole family needs was some happiness ( they all hug)
KS= thanks guys I hope you're not mad we got married without you there
KD= no way it's totally fine
KM= oh yeah as long as you guys are happy
K= I think the only ones who would be upset would be the kids
S= especially sailor Who would've loved to had a pretty dress on and then been your flower girl but they won't be that mad
KS= well maybe this summer we could do a bigger ceremony with all you guys
KD= sounds great with me
KM= works for me
K= The kids will love it
S= oh yes they will
KM= so Kelly and Stella I haven't called in a while I am wondering how have you been since the miscarriage
K= well at first it was hard
S= we cried a lot at night time
KS= makes sense
K= but after a while we realized everything will be fine as long as we have each other
KM= that's all that matters so how are the kids doing with all this
S= they were sad when we told them
K= we decided to come up with a name and called the baby that died instead of just saying baby it helps the kids
KD= makes total sense
KS= so what name did you guys pick
S= we named our bay Sutton rain
KM= that's a Beautiful name
K= we also went and visited Leslie's headstone and the kids asked her to take care of sweet Sutton
KS= that's sweet
S= also a few weeks ago we had a lot of rain and Luna said the sweetest thing" she told us whenever it rains it's a sign from baby Sutton that they are doing just fine in heaven
KM= that is so sweet and a great way to deal with a loss
KD= you guys do got some great kids
K= yes we do
S= but I think what has gotten all of us through this grief process is Little Mr. Greyson
K= he has made our life so much better he is the light this family needed
KS= that's amazing
KM= so does he have a favorite person like shay and sailor did
S= no he is calm and loves everyone like Luna does
K= well he kind it is attached to salior which makes her love her having a baby brother even more and she doesn't think about not having a baby sister anymore
KD= well that's good to hear
We all catch up with my family for a while after a little bit the kids all pass out and take a nap since they were up early, Katie Stella with Christmas dinner why I show my parents the tree we planted in honor of baby Sutton about two hours later The kids wake up we eat and then we all start playing card games
SM= mom you draw four and I choose red
S= why are you doing that to me I gave birth do you ( everyone laughs)
SG= all right so it's my turn now daddy sorry but you got to draw four also and I change the color back to blue
K= wow is it pic on your parents today
SM= yes it is
LM= I wouldn't do that to you guys
S= we know you wouldn't lulu
KS= it's been too long I miss those crazy kid so much
K= well Katie you can always take a kid back with you
KB= are you for real
S= no he isn't he is joking
K= I could be you don't know
KS= he is for sure kidding around
KM= yes he is
K= fine I am but it could be good practice when You Two have your own kids
KD= that's a good point Kelly
S= do you guys plan on having kids
KB= yes we do I love kids
KS= but we aren't ready for them just yet we want to enjoy my life for a while longer before we have kids
K= makes sense
SM= hey mom dad
S= yeah buddy
SM= look at Greyson ( they do )
K= no way buddy come to daddy
S= no grey grey come to mommy
He ends up walking to Jennifer
KM= I guess he likes me the most
SG= Way to go Greyson
LM= good job buddy
SM= Way to go brother
K= I guess we have another walker in the family now
S= oh yeah and he did it sooner than his siblings
K= oh yeah they all started to walk on the first birthday
KS= I say this Christmas is pretty great
KD= yes it is Katie
We spend the rest of the day eating and just being together as a family. My family only stays for about a week and then they all go back to their lives
