Stella's POV: it's been a few months since we lost our sweet little Sutton. At first it was hard but over time it got better I think because we all leaned on each other to get through it. When Kelly's Family surprised us on Christmas it helped us way more to get through The dark times of losing a baby. I think this loss of Sutton has helped mine and Kelly's marriage become stronger. The past couple weeks I haven't been feeling well and I have been super tired lately I hope this goes away soon. But I also noticed that I have been putting on some weight together day when I went to the store to grab a few things for Greyson's coming up birthday I got a few pregnancy test because the last time I felt like this was when I was pregnant with the girls I don't know when I'll take the test but at least I have them on standby. Right now it's a couple days before Greyson's birthday party

SM= hey mom
S= yeah buddy
SM= are we doing anything today
K= I don't know buddy why do you ask
SM= well I was wondering if us kids can go shopping to get something for Greyson for his birthday
S= how sweet are you shay
K= we sure can do that if everyone wants to do that
LM= yeah I want to do it
SG= yeah let's do it
S= all right maybe while Greyson takes his afternoon nap I will take you guys to the store to get something for him
K= how does that sound guys
LM= sounds good
SG= sounds great daddy
LM= works for me

We eat our breakfast then we all play for the rest of the morning, right when Greyson was getting down for his nap I got all the kids dressed and ready and we headed towards the store we arrive within 20 minutes

S= so do you guys have any idea on what you want to get Greyson for his birthday
SG= how about some toys
LM= I want to get him a book
SM= maybe get him a puzzle since he always plays with my puzzle
S= Great idea let's go to the toy section ( in the toy section)
SG= how about this mommy
S= A fire truck
SM= that's perfect Greyson loves firetrucks
S= yes he does so sailor's present is picked out now
SM= oh I found the perfect puzzle for Greyson i'm sure he will love it
S= so that just leaves Luna let's go to the book section to find him a good book for you to read to him
LM= all right ( in the book section) so many books to choose from
S= I know that's a good thing ( five minutes later)
LM= oh look mommy I found two great books but I can't choose between them
S= Well lucky for you the books both cost the same amount as the other things that Shay and sailor got for him so you can get both books if you want
LM= okay mommy thanks
S= you're welcome Lulu so let's go and get a card and wrapping paper

SM= all right let's go

We had off to the gift wrapping section to have a card and some wrapping paper to wrap his presents. After that we went to shop and grab a few things for the house then we headed home . We arrive home within 20 minutes

K= look Greyson look who's back
GA= mama
S= hey buddy did you sleep well
K= I think he did his hair was a total mess when I went to go get him up
S= I guess let me take his presents into our room really fast
K= all right ( Stella leaves) so kids did you have fun at the store with mommy
LM= yes I did
SG= same here daddy
SM= oh yeah so much fun
S= I don't know about you kids but I am starving how about we make some lunch for everyone
LM= oh yeah mom
SG= so hungry
SM= agree with the girls
K= so maybe while mom cooks we all play with Greyson while the food gets made

While Kelly and the kids hang out and play with Greyson I cook everyone a nice little lunch since we were all hungry. About 30 minutes later the food was done we all eat hotdogs and mac & cheese. The rest of the day we just chill and hang out as a family when I put Greyson down for bed me and Kelly wrapped the kids presents they got for him. After we get done wrapping the presents we go straight to bed. A couple of days later it was the night before his birthday

S= so kids are you ready for Greyson 's birthday tomorrow
SG= yes I am
LM= so am I
SM= i'm so excited
LM= can't believe he is a year old already
K= we can't either lulu
S= so would you guys like to help me make Greyson's cake and cupcakes
All= yes
K= all right what color should we make the cake and cupcake
SG= red like a firetruck
LM= his favorite color is red
SM= no I think his favorite color is orange
S= all right let's do half the cupcakes red and the other half orange
K= same with the cake
All= yes

Me and the kids make cupcakes and cake well they tell me the favorite thing about Greyson once everything was done we put them on the bed and we all fall asleep soon after

Kelly's pov: it's been a couple months since we miscarried and lost our sweet little Sutton and ever since Christmas we have been a lot better with dealing with it. I think having my family here helped us big time. Also Greyson has been a major help for the whole family he is the light that we needed in this dark time . No he is turning one tomorrow. If you hours ago the older kids help me and Stella make cupcakes and cake for his party right now it's the middle of the night and I reach over and I don't feel Stella so I get up and go look for her to listen and I hear her singing coming from Greyson son's room

S= " oh darling don't you ever grow up don't you ever go up it could stay this simple I won't let nobody hurt you don't let nobody break your heart and no one will deserve you to try and never grow up, never grow up" do you hear that little man don't you ever grow up
K= you better listen to your mommy Greyson
S= oh my God Kelly you scared the hell out of me how long have you been standing there
K= only a few minutes I woke up and you weren't there
S= sorry this little guy woke up A little fussy so I came in to calm him down
K= it's all right he probably knows that his birthday is tomorrow and want to get the party started a lot sooner
S= yeah maybe
K= I don't know if I ever told you this but you have a beautiful voice
S= you have but I don't mind hearing it and besides thank you for saying that
K= you're welcome so it looks like he fell back asleep now
S= yeah let me put him back in his bed and then we can go back to bed
K= all right ( she does) are you ready to head to bed
S= yes I am ( seems upset)
K= hey what's wrong
S= nothing really
K= come on Stella I know you too well what's going on
S= I guess you do know me but can we leave so Grayson can sleep peacefully he has a big day tomorrow
K= sure thing
S= all right let's go
K= ( in their room) so tell me what's going on
S= I Kinda am sad that Greyson is turning one tomorrow
K= oh really
S= yeah I don't know why am so upset it's not like I don't have other kids that turned one also
K= yeah maybe because he's the youngest
S= or maybe I'm thinking because if I didn't lose Sutton I would be closer to meeting him or her because the due day is coming up
K=so Greyson's birthday is reminding you of our sweet little Sutton
S= yeah right before he woke up in the middle of the night I was totally fine I wasn't thinking much about Sutton but when I was singing to Greyson about never growing up
K= it made you think about how Sutton never got to grow up like Greyson or the other kids did
S= yeah when does this pain of losing Sutton get any easier
K= I don't think ever will but I'm always here if you need someone to lean on or talk to because I know how you feel
S= I know and thank you you are the best
K= I know I am and you are so very welcome
S= all right let's go to bed since we have a big day tomorrow
K= good idea let's go

We head off to bed we fall asleep instantly as we get ready for the busiest day ahead of us tomorrow. When we wake up the next morning I get up before everyone else and start making breakfast about 10 minutes later Stella wakes up

S= well good morning to my sexy husband
K= well good morning to my sexy wife and the best baby mama ever ( they both laugh)
S= haha you're so funny so how long have you been up
K= only about 10 to 15 minutes
S= all right so what are you making
K= just some pancakes for an easy breakfast besides Greyson loves them
S= well he loves everything
K= that's a good point so these are almost ready.
S= all right I will go get the kids up
K= all right

Stella goes and gets the kids up for the day I finish up breakfast about 10 minutes later I get everyone's plate ready right when everyone comes out into the kitchen

SG= good morning daddy
K= good morning kids how did you guys sleep last night
SM= I slept good
LM= I slept very good too daddy
K= well that's good to hear
S= well kids looks Who else is awake it's the birthday boy
All = happy birthday Greyson
SM= it's crazy he's one
LM= so crazy
S= couldn't agree more
K= I think Greyson is one lucky kid to have your kids has his big brother and sisters
S= oh yes he is a very lucky baby to have you guys
K= also he has the best mom in the world do you kids agree
All= yes we do
S= I think I'm the lucky one to have all you kids
K= so kids eat up before you're late for school

The kids eat the breakfast as they all tell us about the dreams they had last night. After they eat they all get dressed for the day once they were dressed I take the kids to school while Stella waits on the nanny to get there. Once I drop the kids off at school I go back home call my stuff for the fire house and me and Stella Head off to work. Once we get to work we start decorating for Greyson's birthday party over the next few hours. Whenever we weren't caught away on a call we were decorating. When I was time for the kids to get home from school Stella went to go get them off the bus that pulled up in front of the firehouse.

SG= where is daddy
LM= where he aunt Brett
SM= where is Greyson
S= well first off hello to you guys to now how was school
LM= it was great
SM= not too bad
SG= boring as usual
S= and second off they are all inside waiting for you but can I have a hug before you guys run inside
All= yes ( they each hug Stella then run inside)
H= there are the best kids in the world
SM= hey uncle Herman
LM= Hey uncle Herman why are we your favorite kids why aren't your kids the favorite ones
H= well lulu The reason you guys are my favorite is because you guys don't live with me when I get tired of you guys I can send you home with your parents it's a win-win for me
LM= okay uncle Herman
O= hey kids
SG= hey uncle Otis is where is daddy
K= I'm right here Sailor did you have fun at school
SM= yes we did dad
LM= it was fun
SG= I was bored like usual
K= well that's good to hear so do you guys have any homework to do
LM= I only have a math worksheet to do
SG= same as Luna
SM= I have a few worksheets for math and science to do
K= well before you guys can join us to celebrate Greyson you have to do your homework
SG= come on daddy just a swans can we wait to do it till after the party maybe when we get home
S= no way sailor do you know are you on schoolwork before fun and don't use your cute eyes on your daddy it won't work this time
SG= fine I guess
O= hey kids how about I make you all a snack and even help you with your homework how does that sound
All= yes please
K= what do you guys tell uncle Otis for helping you with your homework
S= and for offering to make you a snack
All= thank you uncle Otis
O= it's no problem kids
K= I can't believe sailor try to get out of homework today
S= I can't and she totally was going to use those puppy dog eyes on you
K= no she wasn't
S= oh yes she was and you would have fell for them
K= no I wouldn't
S= you totally were you got those girls were up to and your little fingers and they know it so they try and use it whenever they can
K= I guess I'm a sucker for my girls
S= you sure are and you love it
K= yes I do

As Otis fix the kids a snack and helps them with their homework me and stella finish decorating for Greyson 's party. Once the kids get their homework done and we get done decorating it was time for all the fun to start

S= hey kids are you ready to sing happy birthday to Greyson
All= yes we are
K= all right let's all start to sing
All= happy birthday dear Greyson happy birthday to you ( everyone cheers)
S= kids help Greyson blow out his candle
SM= all right ( they do)
K= it's cake time
S= I wonder how messy he will get
K= Who knows do you remember how the others were on their first birthday with their smash cake.
S= oh yeah shay loved his cake but then you started a food fight with his cake with me
K= no I didn't I think it was the other way around
S= whatever you say
SG= mommy , daddy did we like our cake on our first birthday like shay did
K= well you did sailor bug but lulu push her cake away so you ate her cake for her
LM= wow I didn't like cake before because now I love it
S= we know I think it was just a phase where you didn't like cake
SM= well it looks like Greyson likes his cake like I did
K= he sure does I think we should try to see if it's good ( gets icing on his finger)
S= Kelly don't you dare ( he wipes it on her face ) no you didn't
K= oh yes I did
S= that's it you're going to get it ( get some icing on her finger and put it all over Kelly's face)
LM= oh no mom and dad started a food fight
SG= I say let's join in
SM= yes let's join in
H= This family you couldn't tell me which ones are the adults and which ones are the kids
M= no you couldn't ( they all laugh)

We have a little food fight with the kids for a few minutes as Greyson eat his cake about an hour later after we all clean up including Grayson he opens his presents the nanny takes all the kids home with the cousins while me and Stella finish out our shift. About five hours later we head home when we get home then and he tells us all the kids are asleep so we say goodbye to her once she leaves delicate check on the kids while I wait on the couch for her. Five minutes later she comes back into the living room

K= so how are they
S= they are peacefully sleeping
K= that's good today it was a busy day for all of them
S= that is for sure our kids are loved by so many people
K= that is for sure so I noticed the last few weeks you seemed a little off is everything okay
S= you noticed that
K= yes I did so is everything good
S= well since I've been feeling not good the last few weeks other day while I was grocery shopping I grabbed a few pregnancy test to see if I was but I didn't take any of them until this morning
K= so what did they say
S= ( pulls them out) they said I was pregnant ( smiles big)
K= no way you're pregnant again
S= I know it's crazy we weren't even trying to have another baby anytime soon especially with losing Sutton if you months ago
K= maybe our little Sutton knew we needed another little baby
S= I guess they did
K= so how do you feel
S= i'm a little scared I hope we get to meet this baby this time around ( starts to tear up)
K= oh babe come here ( Open his arm and Stella cuddles into him) we will get to meet this baby I promise you that okay
S= okay I don't want to be put through that pain all over again or have our kids lose another sibling
K= I know but we will face it together
S= yes we will
K= good thing you're pregnant because I was going to say you put on some weight I didn't want to call you fat
S= ( laughs and slaps him) you think you're so funny
K= I try to be happy at least I got you to smile
S= yes you did you're the best
K= I know I am
S= I love you
K= I love you too ( kiss her)

We head to bed as happy as ever to have another baby come into this family here in the next few months .

Authors note: i know they usually do a 24 hour shifts at a time but in my story they only wokr for maybe 12 hours somtimes sorry if i confused you