Stella's pov; it's been about two months since the kids are on spring break and we took them on a trip to Tennessee to visit their aunt Katie, uncle Jackson and baby cousin McKenna. It was funny when we showed up at Katie and Jackson's place we weren't the only ones that made a surprise trip to see them because Benny. While we were there Kelly surprise me with yet another proposal so we can renew our vows . This man amazes me every day. The twins are now 10 1/2 months old it's crazy that they are so close to being a year old. The older kids are doing good in school ever since we got back work has been super busy right now we are working and I am trying to sleep when I can in Kelly's office
( in a nightmare at the grocery store )
GC= have a great day
S= you too ( goes to the car )
GS= Stella... Is that you
S= ( turns around) oh mg god grant I haven't seen you in ...
GS= it's been a while
S= oh yeah how have you been
GS= I've been okay what about you
S= I've been great
GS= that's good so just wondering did you ever meet a guy and get married again
S= yes I did and we have a family together
GS= that's good I'm happy for you
S= thanks what about you grant
GS= never got married but I have been talking to someone right now
S= well I'm happy for yeh grant
GS= thanks ( turns away) oh hey Stella I hope you don't mind me asking you a question
S= I don't mind go ahead and ask me anything
GS= what is your husbands name
S= well you actually know him
GS= I do what is it
S= I married Kelly severide
GS= wait no
S= yeah we've been married for 9 years now
GS= you married the guy you cheated on me with
S= for one I didn't cheat on you and for two out marriage wasn't the best
GS= no it wasn't I can agree with you on that but why would you marry that guy
S= that guy has a name which you know by the way it's Kelly
GS= oh I know his name is slut
S= what did you just say
GS you know what I said you are a slut since I've met you ( pulls out a knife)
S= grant what are you going to do with that ( points to knife )
GS= who knows but for once you don't have Kelly here to protect you now say goodbye Stella
S= no grant I have kids they need their mother
GS= I don't care they should know their mother was a slut ( comes closer to her)
S= grant please don't
GS= I don't care bet Stella
S= grant ( he stabs her but she wakes up form her nightmare )
K= hey babe what's wrong
S= where am I
K= you are at the fire house you are in my office he looked like you might be sick
S= can I get a glass of water
K= sure can ( see Brett walking by) hey Brett can you get Stella a glass of water
SB= sure can be right back
K= all right
SB= ( a minute later) here you go
S= thank you Brett
SB= you welcome ( she leaves)
K= does that help
S= yes it does thank you
K= you're welcome so it looks like you had a nightmare
S= oh yes I did
K= do you want to talk about it
S= kinda not but I will because it was a strange nightmare to be honest
K= all right tell me about it
S= well it started off good I guess the dream was about me as a grocery store
K= wait really ( laughs)
S= it's not funny
K= I think it is
S= I guess it is I guess that makes me a real mom is one my dream start be about the grocery store
K= I guess so so what else happened
S= so I go and put my stuff in the car and someone calls my name so I turned around and it was Grant
K= wait Grant as in your ex-husband grant
S= oh yeah
K= well you're asleep in my bed in my office but you are having a dream or nightmare about your ex-husband I think that might be a little rude ( laughs)
S= well I didn't mean to be about him okay
K= i'm joking but keep going
S= we were talking he asked me if I was married I told him yes I was married he started to walk away but then he decided to turn around and asked me what my husbands name was and then when I told him your name everything turned dark
K= I did how come
S= he started calling me names
K= like what kind of night
S= he really only call me one name which was slut
K= oh man that's the worst name ever
S= oh yeah
K= anything else happened
S= well all the sudden he pulled out a knife and said that he was going to kill me
K= oh my that sounds off
S= and he said that you weren't going to be there to help me this time around so he stabbed me and I guess I woke up in that moment
K= well that sounds like an awful nightmare you had
S= oh yeah also I forgot to mention he called me a cheater in the marriage
K= wow that's mean to say
S= yeah it was
K= luckily it was just a nightmare and not real life
S= yeah good thing besides we haven't seen him in forever
K= for sure ( looks at the clock ) well looks like it's time to go home
S= thank God I think I need to see my babies especially after that nightmare I had
K= all right let's get changed and head home
S= all right
We get change and head home, I ended up taking a nap with Kinsley which helped me. Later on the kids got home from school and started doing their homework
K= so cute how was school today
SG= it wasn't too bad today
S= that's good to hear sailor what about you guys
LM= it was a great
SM= totally we learn so much stuff
K= you did what did you learn about today in school shay
SM= well today we learned about how dangerous drugs are and that no matter what we should say no to them
K= yes you should shay
SM= so I have a question now
S= you do what is it shay
SM= I was just wondering if any of you ever did drugs before when you guys were younger
K= ( looks so Stella ) I think they are old enough for this conversation don't you think
S= oh yeah for sure besides it's time to finally tell them
LM= what's going on mom and dad
SG= i'm very confused
K= how about you guys finish your homework later me and Mom need to have a serious conversation with you guys about some things
SM= all right dad
S= so first of all to answer your question shay me and your dad did do some drugs when we were a little younger
SM= all raving did you only try them once
K= shay did do you also learn about how pills can also be drugs
SM= yes I did
S= okay i'll start with my story First so this was when I was in high school I was living with my aunt because my parents were both dead
LM= wait your parents died
S= yes they did Lulu
SG= I'm so sorry mommy
S= thank you sailor but anyways I started to hang out with a lot of bad people and the only drug we could get a hold of was pain killers that their parents had in their bathroom cabinets
SM= but you weren't in pain
S= No I wasn't after a while I got addicted to the way it made me feel I was like that for a while until I made a bad decision and got into the wrong car where we had to be rescued from firefighters
SG= was daddy One of them firefighters that was recuse you
K= first of all did you just call me old sailor
SG= I'm sorry daddy
K= it's okay sailor bug and besides we didn't mean each other until she was in the fire Academy which we will tell you about that story later
S= anyways when I was laying in a hospital bed after the whole car accident thing I realize that I don't want to be around these people anymore and I wanted to be the person to help someone get out of these situation so that's when I decided that I wanted to become a fire fighter
LM= that's so cool mom you are a great fire fighter
S= thanks Lulu
K= she is pretty great
SM= so what about your dad
K= well you know your cousin Jonathan
SG= yeah
K= well do you know his middle name
LM= yeah it's Andy
SM= why is that important
K= well Jonathan is named after someone
SM= like how I am
S= oh yeah shay
K= anyways he is named after two people the first want to be me because my middle name is Jonathan, in the second person he was named after as one of my friends I knew since we both started the fire Academy together. One day about 16 years ago the fire house for up to the house me and my team one and one door while uncle Matt and auntie went up the Ariel
LM= that ladder on the truck
S= yes it is Lulu
K= when we walked in the door the fire all the sudden jumped up and knocked me on my shoulder and killed Andy instantly
SG= oh no
K= Well when I got knocked onto my shoulder it damage it up at so I started to take pain meds. I took them for a while
SM= was there any surgery that could fix your shoulder dad
K= there was one
LM= did you get surgery to fix your shoulder
K= not at first I relied on the pain meds but since I got addicted to them I had to use different kinds of meds to keep the pain away for me to do my job
SG= why didn't you get the surgery dad
K= every doctor kept saying it was a risky surgery and it might make it where I couldn't be a fire fighter anymore, I didn't like how that sounded because to me at the time fire fighting was my life but after a few incidents happened and my friend talk to me about it I got done with the pain pills and I had the surgery and since I'm not sure has been pretty good
SM= that's good
LM= hearing both of your stories mom and dad they sound a little similar in a way
S= you know Lulu now you say that we do have a pretty similar story dealing with drugs
K= oh yes we do
SG= i'm hungry
GA= me too
S= How about this I got an pizza while you guys finish your homework
SM= all right
K= i'll help the best I can
I go and order pizza while the kids finish their homework about an hour and a half later we are done eating our pizza
S= did you kids learn anything else at school that wasn't about drugs
SG= well one of my friends told me that her mom is getting remarried here in the next month
LM= are you talking about Olivia's mom
SG= yes that friend
SM= Olivia's older brother Wyatt was telling me The same thing at lunch today
SG= I never knew someone can get married more than once
K= well everyone has the freedom to get married as many times as they want
SG= so daddy and mommy when you got married was that the only time you've gotten married or have you guys been married before
S= Actually Sailor no it wasn't we both were married once before hand
LM= oh really
K= yeah so when my friend shay died about 12 years ago
SM= The one I was named after right
K= oh yeah buddy so after she died I went down a charcoal and I started to drink a lot one day I decided to go to Vegas for a weekend, And that's when I met this girl we both got super drunk and we randomly got married honey chapel there in Vegas. I thought it was a good idea but after a while I will eyes we didn't really know each other that well and we only got married because we were drunk. So we got a divorce within a month looking back I wish I never married her because she never really was someone I really liked and I really wanted to be married to one woman and that would be your mommy
S= how sweet is he
SG= so what about you Mom
S= well remember my story about drugs earlier I told you guys
SM= yeah what about it
S= so one of the other reasons why I got Half drugs was because I met a guy who help me we end up getting married the marriage was good at first
LM= but then what happened
S= well he started using drugs and he acted totally different
SM= really how different
S= he would always go down in people while he was on drugs each time he want me to help him. But after a while I realized I didn't want that anymore so I moved on and became a better person
K= you guys can learn something from mommy
LM= we can what do you mean
K= you can learn from Mom is that no man should drag yeh down you are worth more than that.
S= also find you a man that treat you like a princess
SG= Like how daddy does
S= exactly sailor so find you a man that reminds you of your daddy
SG= all right I will
K= that goes for you shay always treat your girl the very best
SM= I will dad
LM= did you ever meet each others first spouse
S= I never got to meet daddy's first wife because I wasn't at the fire house when he went down that dark hole
K= but I did get to meet momma's ex-husband
SG= how was he daddy
K= he was a very bad man
LM= was he like how mommy described him
K= he was worse because he hated that mommy was friends with me and one time he came after mommy with a knife
SM= oh no did you get hurt Mom
S= no I didn't because your daddy was there to protect me
SG= Way to go daddy
K= thanks sailor bug but to be honest mommy never needs my help she is one strong woman
LM= yes she is
S= I think you guys
SM= is he in jail or what
S= well he went to rehab again after the incident but since then I haven't heard from him in about 15 years
SG= wow that's a long time
K= oh yeah all right so enough talking kids go get a bath so we can head to bed soon
LM= all right
SM= let's go girls ( they leave )
While the kids go and get their showers Kelly cleans out in the kitchen while I clean the playroom after the older kids get their bath time they play or weed a book while me and Kelly get the kids a bath and put them to bed/ when we took the older kids in bed we tell them the story of how we met and they loved it: and then we head out to the living room to hang out for a while before we head to bed
S= wow what a day
K= I know tell me about it
S= Who knew after that nightmare I had today I would be talking about my past with the kids
K= me either but we got smart kids they understand things pretty well
S= yes they do
K= but thank God that was the past we have forever together
S= thank God for that I didn't know about you but I'm tired let's go to bed
K= all right let's go
Over the next few days the kids finish up the last week of school for the year. It today since it is one of the days we have off from work we decided to take the kids to a local park and get some ice cream
S= kids we are so proud of you for getting to yet another school year
SM= why thank you
K= this year you got two new siblings and you guys still did your schoolwork so awesome job guys
GS= Stella ... is that you Stella
S= oh God please let this be a dream again
K= babe what's going on
GS= Stella Bella
S= oh God grant he is here
K= ( see grant) kid stay behind me no matter what
SG= okay what's going on daddy
K= we will tell you in a sec
S= hello Grant how have you been it's been what 15 years
GS= yes something like that
K= Grant it's nice to see you
GS= same to you Kelly so I'm guessing you guys are together
S= yes we are we are actually Married
GS= wow that's cool
S= Grant can I ask you a question
GS= sure you can Stella Bella
K= grant can you not call her that anymore
GS= all right I won't
S= my question is are you sober and if so how long
GS= yes I am sober I have been sober since she sent me to rehab that last time you saw me
K= that's good I'm happy for you
GS= thanks Kelly that means a lot also Kelly I want to say sorry for whatever I did to you in the past I knew you were trying to look out for Stella while I was going through my addiction
K= why thank you Grant I appreciate that
S= So quiet what have you been up to since we've seen you last
GS= well I went back and got my GED then I went to college and I got a degree in sociology now I work with people who are going through addiction like I did
K= wow that's pretty awesome
S= i'm proud of you Grant for doing that on your own
GS= why thank you so how have you guys been are you both still firefighters
K= yes we are
GS= so I am guessing these kids are yours
S= yes they are
GS= May I meet them
K= um I guess
S= kids it's okay
All the kids meet Grant well they finish their ice cream. After they were done eating and he went to play on the playground while we talked with Grant for a while then we are headed home and eat dinner, after the kids ate dinner they played for a lot longer since they didn't have school the next day they finally crashed after a couple hours
K= I think the sugar got to them finally
S= oh yeah what a weird week it has been for me
K= I bet it was
S= start off the week I have a nightmare about my ex husband Grant
K= then we have to talk to the kids about our past
S= and to top it off we ran into Grant at the park
K= that was weird for me I bet it was so weird for you too
S= oh yeah to be honest I didn't think I would see him especially not alive
K= I don't blame you there
S= but he is alive and is doing well
K= he seems like a changed man
S= I sure hope so
K= i'm happy he apologize for what happened years ago
S= same here all right time to forget about this weekend grand let's head to bed
K= I know a way you can forget about this week and grant
S= Kelly severide
Before he can respond he picked me up and carried me to the bedroom and we went a couple rounds and then fell asleep.
Authors note: I hope you enjoy this chapter, I think I told their stories I'm not no past pretty well and did them justice please tell me your thoughts on it.
