Chapter 4

Morgana stood next to the door and just glared at Drake.

"I'll say it again. What are you doing here?" She asked.

"I don't want a divorce."

"What are you talking about?"

"I had this dream about Gosalyn. In my dream, she was back. She made me look at my life and everything I did. Made me see things for what they really are."

"Drake."

"And I came out of it... feeling like there's hope for us."

"I'm glad it made you feel better. But, um, I really can't listen to this right now."

"Okay, I'll tell you later." Drake said.

Morgana sighed.

"Fine fight me in court, but you're gonna make things harder on everyone."

"Okay, if it's what you really want."

"It is."

"Well, then I have two conditions."

"What are your conditions?"

"I'm not leaving the house." He said.

Morgana laughed at that. "I'm not making you leave you're house. You stay home. And I'll stay here."

"No, I mean. I'm not leaving this house. I'm going to be staying here so we can work it out." He said.

Morgana could not believe what she was hearing.

"Let the boy in deary. We could use some help with dinner." Grandma chuckled.

Morgana sighed. "Very well. You can stay in here for awhile." She said.

Drake smiled and walked into the house, she closed the door behind her.

"I have to make a phone call. So uh.. make you're self at home." Morgana said.

She walked away and Drake just stood there.

Drake walked around and found Morgana on the phone.

"I'm just so damn sick and tired of crying about this." Morgana said.

"What's going on?" Brad asked on the other line.

"I just got off the phone with my lawyer. I'm getting a divorce."

"A divorce? I thought he just moved back in."

"I... well, I didn't want him to."

"It's a big step, Morgana."

"Well, I can't live my life in limbo anymore. You know, I have a full-time job now." She said.

Drake was listening and walked up to her.

"You're blowing this out of proportion."

"Drake, I'm serious. I want a divorce."

"I just moved here."

"Yeah, that was completely against my wishes."

"I was keeping a promise to Gosalyn that I wouldn't leave."

"Well, you've broken a lot of other promises so..."

"Dinners ready." Mother called out.

The two of them headed out to the kitchen.

At the dinner table it's a very awaked moment. Drake and Morgana aren't talking to each other.

"So.. Morgana what happened with that Tarus Boulba fellow?" Father asked.

"He went back to hell and wouldn't ever get back out. Probably died." Morgana said.

"Oh. So are you all set for you're trip to New York?"

"Yup." Morgana replied.

Drake looked at her confused.

"You didn't tell me that you was going to New York." He said.

Morgana looked at him.

"I don't have to run you by with my calendar anymore."

"I'm just trying to understand something. First you come with me with a divorce. . Then I have to hear from someone else that you wanna take a business trip to New York and you want Brad to go with you." Drake said.

Morgana looked at him again like yeah so.

"Are you insinuating something here, Drake?" She asked.

"Well, given the history between you two..."

"Okay, enough you two. If you're going to fight. Take it in the other room." Father said.

Drake and Morgana walked

"Believe it or not, some men actually respect their wedding vows. You know Drake I would do anything for Gosalyn to be here with us alive."

"She is alive. In our hearts." Drake said.

"What about you, Drake? How do you keep her alive in your heart? With everything you've done to destroy this family, it must be difficult."

Drake sighed. " Morgana we can still put everything that happened behind us." He said.

"Easy for you to say." Morgana said.

"I learned something Morgana. You have to stop playing the blame game here, because it's killing us." Drake said.

"It already has, Drake. And if you think that you can force your way back into this house and just make a bunch of promises and think that's gonna fix everything." Morgana said.

"It's a start."

"It's not real, Drake. What's real is that Gosalyn is dead. And that you weren't there for me when I went through the toughest thing that a mother could possibly go through."

"So you're gonna file for divorce? That's gonna make things worse."

"How can I forget what happened Drake? You slept with my best friend, blamed me for Gosalyn's death. I can't go through with this again. I have to get ready for my trip." She said.

She walked away and Drake just stood there looking sad.

Morgana is standing around and her mom walked up to her.

"You okay dear?" She asked.

"No, not really." Morgana replied.

"What's wrong?" She asked.

"Because I have to act like everything is normal when it isn't."

"But you let him move in here." She said.

"Yeah, um.. he did."

"Well Morgana. Why did you ask him to move in here? If you was still having problems with his mistake?"

"I didn't ask him. He just showed up here and said that he was going to move in."

"Well honey, why don't you ask just forgive him then? You know we all make mistakes."

"He's not just anybody. He's my husband!"

"I know that. Even more reason to just put it behind you. haven't you ever done anything that you wished you could take back?" She asked.

Morgana then thought about her and Brad's kiss and shook the thoughts out of her head.

"I have to get packing for the weekend." She said.

She walked away and her watched her.

Morgana is all packed now and is heading to the airport.

She keeps thinking about what all had just happed.

Brad looked at her and smiled.

"You still love him don't you?" He asked.

"Of course I do. But I can't help but to think about everything."

"Just give him a try at first and then see where it goes from there."

"You know Brad. I've been too focused on being a Mallard for so long. That I don't think I remember how to be myself." She said.

"I know it's hard. But You will." He replied.

Morgana nodded her head and the two of them walked into the airplane.

Drake is in the tower thinking about what happened as well.

"Gos, I know you met well. But I think it's too late. Maybe it is for the best if we separated for a little bit." He said.

He sat on the ledge and then Launch Pad walked in.

"Hey D.W." He said.

Drake slowly turned around and smiled at him. "Oh hey L.P. What are you doing here?" He asked.

Launch Pad sighed. "Well I was getting board at home. And I figured that you might need a side kick."

'Thank you." He said.

Launch Pad sat next to him. "Diana and I are talking things over. How about you and Morgana?"

"Not so good. After I lost Gosalyn, my perspective on everything changed." He said.

"You know what's sad? It takes a tragedy or a near-tragedy to make us see what is important in life." Launch Pad replied.

"You know, I had the most amazing dream about Gosalyn last night." Drake said.

"Yeah? Tell me about it." Launch Pad said.

"She came to me. And she showed me all the pain that I've caused everyone because of my grief." He said.

"Whoa. It was an upsetting dream?" Launch Pad asked.

"It actually wasn't. Because she didn't judge me. She just... she told me that I can make things better. And I believe that." He said.

"I believe that as well , Drake. I really do, from the bottom of my heart. Hearing you talk this way, I don't understand how Morgana could not respond to you." Launch Pad said.

" I hope you're right."

"I know I'm right."

"You know, L.P., I just-- I can't get this dream out of my head."

"You know, sometimes a dream is a way to... show us things that we can't explain. It's... a way of telling a truth."

Drake looked at L.P. shocked. "When did you become so educated?" He asked.

Launch Pad shrugged. "Don't know." He said.

On the plane with Brad and Morgana.

"I should have divorced him right when he thought that I was responsible for Gosalyns death." Morgana said.

"Why didn't you?" Brad asked.

"Because everyone kept pressuring me to work it out with Drake. And I don't know who I am without Drake."

"You're the same amazing woman you've always been."

"You know, when you say that, I believe it."

"You should."

"I mean, that's not what life's supposed to be about. But I guess, you know, when you've made as many mistakes as I have, you don't really wanna sit around and.."

"What are you talking about?"

"Brad, come on, don't try to tell me that I haven't made mistakes. I mean, I drove my husband into the arms of another woman."

"Wait a minute! Why are you saying that? That was completely Morgana doing."

"Yeah, I know. I'm just saying that maybe if I'd been more-- I don't know, more..."

"More what? Morgana, you're everything a man could want. And Drake didn't appreciate it."

'What I'm saying is just-- if I had done things a little bit differently, he might not have run off and did what he did."

"Differently how? You should be a doormat? That's not who you are."

"I can't believe we're actually arguing about this."

"There's nothing to argue about. You shouldn't blame yourself for anything that's happened. It's not your fault. And as your friend, I'm not going to let you lash yourself. End of story."

"Well, thank you. Even if I don't believe every word."

"Tell you what Morgana. Why don't you call Drake when we get there and he can get a first plane here. So you two can spend some quality time together." He said.

Morgana smiled and nodded her head.

Back with Drake and Launch Pad.

"I hate to say this. But I think it's really over between me and Morgana. And maybe it's for the best for a little while."

"Gee, D.W. I'm sorry to hear that. But what about the dream?"

"It's just that L.P. are dream. I know Gosalyn met well. But there are some things that just can't be fixed, And I should accept it." He said.

Launch Pad nodded his head. "Well if you need me. You know where to find me." He said.

The two hugged each other and Launch Pad walked away.

His cell phone rang, he grabbed it out of his pocket. "Hello?" He asked.

In the hotel room with Morgana. "Drake, it's me. Do you think that you can come to my hotel room? It's really important." She said.

"Yeah, sure. I'll be there just as soon as I can." He said.

He flipped the phone off and wondered what it could be about. "Well it's now or never." He said.

He walked to the Thunder Quack and took off flying.

Morganas is in her wedding dress waiting for Drake to show up.

There was a knock on the door, she looked and saw Drake.

"Drake, come on in." She said.

Drake looked at her and sighed walked in and closed the door behind him.

"What's this all about?" He asked.

She handed him his wedding ring. "Where this and I will be you're wife again." She said.

Drake looked at the ring and sighed. He really wanted this to be true. But it's jumping in too fast.

" I wish you hadn't done this." He said.

"I ruined the surprise. I know I did, I'm sorry. It's just that I'm just so happy, Drake. And I'm gonna remember this day, and I'm gonna remember this moment just like I remember our wedding."

" Morgana, you look so -- you're so beautiful. And I'm sorry that I have to…" He trailed on.

He was about to walk out when she grabbed his hand.

"Wait! Wait, Drake we gotta -- we gotta do it right."

"Oh, Morgana stop, okay? Listen to me."

"All right, just -- just let me say one more thing. And then, it'll be your turn, okay? Just one more thing. You gave this ring back to me. But I didn't want to wear it then. I didn't want to put it back on, until I really knew it really belonged on my finger. If you put this on, I will never take it off again." She said.

Drake paused and looked at the ring and sighed.

" I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I should have said something right away. But I was so surprised when I saw you in the dress. Morgana we can't do this." He said.

Morgana looked at him surprised.

"Well, you're going to have to be more specific. What is it, exactly, that we can't do? We can't live together again? Well, it can't be that. I mean, your toothbrush is next to mine in the holder. And your shaving kit is above the sink."

"And the doesn't mean what you want it to mean."

"Those are your keys on the desk. And that's your coffee cup in the kitchen sink."

"Morgana please."

" So what is it that we can't do? We can get on with our lives. We can."

"No, we can't. You know we can't. I'm sorry if I led you to believe otherwise, but this is as far as it goes. Nothing's changed between us."

"You're wrong, Drake. Everything's changed. I'm willing to move on from the past."

Drake paused again and looked at the ground.

"You still can't get over that I couldn't bring Gosalyn back. Can you?" She asked.

Drake didn't respond to that.

"You moved into my house! With my family!" She exclaimed.

"Just because I slept here, Morgana, doesn't mean.."

"You didn't just spend the night there, Drake. It's not like you were just doing the laundry. You were with me! You were loving me! And if you deny that now.."

"No, I don't deny it, okay? I don't deny it! I'll just get my stuff."

Morgana grabbed his hand.

"Please don't do this to me again!. Don't make me think that we have a shot, and then -- it's not fair!"

"No, it's not fair. You standing there, looking so beautiful. It's like I had this amazing dream, and it came true. And now I'm walking -- walking away from it. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do."

"Why was it so easy for you to come to me, and be with me, when you thought that I needed you? And why is it so hard for you to stay with me now?" She asked.

"Morgana, it all hurts! Being here hurts. Losing you hurts. I care about you. I will always care about you. But I have to care about myself. And if I want to hold on to any kind of self-respect Morgana, I can't stay married to you." He said.

Morgana threw his wedding ring at him.

"You go to hell Drake." She said.

"That's not what I meant." He said putting his foot in his mouth again.

"Then what did you mean by it?" She asked.

"So now you're angry." Drake asked.

"Oh, you're damn right I'm angry. You made me believe that you were coming home. And you never intended to stay. What is that, Drake? Revenge?" Morgana asked.

Drake didn't respond again.

"You let me tell anybody that would listen to me, that we were back together. Did you want to make me look like a fool?" Morgana asked.

"Morgana! You think I saw this coming? You in a wedding dress? Handing me your ring like you wanted me to put it on.."

"Like what? Like I love you? Like we're married? Well -- you strung me along, Drake. And this is the payoff. Congratulations, it worked. I feel like an idiot, and I am so sad. But I guess that's how you felt, when you found out I kissed Brad, right? So I suppose we're even." She said.

"Morgana, that's not what I was doing. I was doing everything I could to make our life's better!"

"I may have been a little over-anxious, but I am not delusional! And all right -- maybe you didn't exactly encourage me, but you must have known where I was headed. And if you didn't want me to head there, then why didn't you say something? Answer the question!" Morgana exclaimed.

"Maybe the truth is, I didn't want to stop you. Just for a little while, I wanted this back. I wanted you back. You're not the only one who wishes things were different. That we could turn back the clock. And for a while there, I wanted to pretend that it was all possible. But now that we're back in reality, I can't fool myself into believing the past didn't happen, Morgana."

Morgana shook her head at that.

"I never asked you to do that. I only asked you to believe that the future could be different. But you can't." She said.

"I can't. I love you.."

Morgana chuckled and sniffed.

"You know what, Drake? I don't want to hear it. I don't really want to hear how you love me. Because if this is what your love amounts to, after everything we have been together, then I don't want it. It's not worth keeping. I've had it. I'm over it. And I'm sick and tired of feeling guilty and ashamed -- and sorry. More sorry than I'll ever be. I'm done." She said.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Drake asked.

"You say you love me, but you can't be with me. Well, I am who I am. And you know what? If that's not good enough for you, then your eternal love doesn't do a damn thing for me except make me feel like a complete failure."

"Morgana, I didn't want to hurt you."

"Oh, yes you did. You wanted to hurt me, just like I hurt you. And you did. My heart is breaking. But I am through begging."

"No. No, I never asked you to beg me for anything."

"But you knew I would. You knew I would be with you and love you, no matter what. But you can't say the same for me, can you? Then leave."

She pointed to the door.

Drake sighed.

"Yeah, I'll go get my stuff."

"I'll send your stuff. Leave. Hey. Just so we're clear -- don't expect me to be waiting for you when you decide you want me back. I won't be. Not this time."

"Don't threaten me, Morgana."

"It's not a threat, Dark. It's the truth. You asked for it, you got it."

Drake headed out to the door and slammed it behind him.

Morgana walked over to the door and locked the door.

Drake sighed and walked away, Morgana walked to the bed and laid down and started crying.

"Jewels 'It's going to be alright starts playing in the background."

"I say to myself
Self, why are you awake again? It's one a.m.
Standing with the fridge door wide open, staring
Such a sight, florescent light
The stars are bright
Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit
As it is, I might watch TV
Cause it's nice to see people more messed up than me
I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gotta be

I shiver, shut the door
Can't think standing here no more
I'm alone, my mine's racing, heart breaking
Can you be everything I need you to be?
Can you protect me like a daughter?
Can you love me like a father?
Can you drink me like water?
Say I'm like the desert, just hotter.

The point of it all
Is that if I should fall
Still you're name I'll call

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be

As long as we laugh out loud
Laugh like we're mad
Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have
Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we can't catch
But still we laugh

I go back upstairs, turn off the TV
You say "I'll be okay baby, just wait and see."

It's gonna be all right, it's gonna be okay
Gonna be a good day, just wait, just see
Gonna okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gonna be..."

To Be Continued..