This one's short, I know, bear with me. Please don't be reading this in hopes of mansex. Homosexuals are real people with real feelings, not porn stars. Fayt and Albel might not be 'real,' but I treat them as so because that's what (I believe) makes a great author. Thank you for your time.
tada ate mo naku jiyuu wo motome mada shiranu basho e to
kono rakuen wo deteyuku no nara kojimetai yo
Still unendingly begging for freedom, if you're leaving this paradise
for a still-unknown place, I want to keep you locked up.
I thought I was through with Elicoor, through with you at that point, but there was only one option to put an end to long nights of struggling with foolish fantasies. I had to return. Not only that, but I had to return to that place. That place where I first saw you.
I thought my insanity for you had been getting out of hand at that point. You were driving me mad, your shadow seeming to dash from pillar to pillar, your image reflecting to me in every torchlight. So close to ending that insanity, yet so deep in the muck of my mind.
The Vendeeni on top of the Training facility weren't that hard and Sophia, along with my father, were returned to us before we had to make a run for it. She was hurt and she whined a lot. I reminded myself that she was my reason for all of my battles and treated her. She said she was sorry and kept interrupting my dad to say she was confused. I grit my teeth and bore it, told myself that I loved her. She had held me quite endearingly when she first saw me, as if I were her own. I can live like this until my heart finally wakes up and realizes that she's back and you're gone.
We went back onto the roof to destroy the transport jammer and save Elicoor again. Then you did it. You did the thing that sent me right back on the brink of insanity, the brink that I'd eventually jump off of. Why would you, Albel the Wicked, put your life in the line to save me? It's just… you did so much with just that brief moment.
"There is no escape!" Biwig had declared.
Then there you were, standing proudly, a perfect centerpiece on the wall. "That's because of this thing, you fool!" And you destroyed the jammer, a silent 'There you go, Fayt, now you can do what you have to do.' "Are you still so confident now?" Thinking about that line, was that a compliment of my strength? A 'I know you can do it, Fayt!'? Or were you expecting to fight along side me again in that battle? You could have, you were fast enough to dodge at least two of those shots, but he got you anyway. Why? If you could dodge them, then what caused you to be hit? Were you distracted? By what?
It didn't matter. After hearing that scream of pain, I charged right into that battle. Thanks to you, we won. You saved me. Why? Was it really as you said?
Call me insane, but I think Cliff had grown a liking for you too. He was right there, by your side. I'm ashamed of myself that I wasn't there sooner, that I wasn't there to hold you.
"What are you doing here!" After I had gotten over the shock, I was there, half excited, half horrified. You had saved my life. But, at this point, I started to have doubts. The look on Cliff's face, he was probably thinking that you had saved his life, done all of this for him.
"What am… I… doing here? This… is my turf… just thought …I'd drop by… and look… what happened. You worms are… my prey… I won't let anyone else have you."
"Albel, stop joking around, open your eyes!" Cliff sounded near tears. I held on to the hope that the final 'you' in your claim was singular. That 'you' meant that you laid claim to just me and me alone. But Cliff sounded as if he had been so close to you. Was there something I didn't know about?
My father… is dead, I really shouldn't have been worried about you or Cliff having anything 'in the closet.' Sophia was back, those feelings were supposed to vanish. The fact that they didn't made them real, that was the worst part.
As I sat there, thinking those thoughts, Maria came in. "He's alright." She assured me.
"He is? Good." I sunk back into my thoughts, half-heartedly arguing between Maria and Sophia. And then you came in, all drunken-like from the pain relievers. What was that about, wanting to join with us for the sake of adventure and exploration? Was your home that boring? That beautiful Planet? Or maybe what you wanted just wasn't to be found where you were. Cliff didn't want you to come, maybe for your own protection, but I wanted you there. I want to keep you close, Albel. I want to keep you with me.
