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I was so ready to relax. Today had been complicated and I was really looking forward to my much deserved glass of wine and a stupid rom-com to help me unplug my thoughts for a bit, just enjoy myself and rest.

Just as I was getting settled on the couch with my wine and some snacks on my coffee table I heard the doorbell ring. I walked to the door wondering who it was, I wasn't expecting anyone. I looked through the peephole and I saw him standing there with some bottles of beer in his hands.

"This is a nice surprise" I said with a smile as I leaned in to kiss him. "I had the crappiest day today, we were searching for a murder weapon for hours under the rain, I slippped in the mudd and fell… twice. But seeing you here makes this day a little better." I was being one hundred percent honest, I did like having him around and I did care about him. Maybe everything else was just my mind playing games on me. I looked into his eyes and leaned in again for another peck on his lips "I feel like I haven't seen you in forever."

"Yeah, my bad. I'm sorry about that." Sean walked right in, he knew his way around my house, and left the bottles on the kitchen counter.

"That's ok, you've been busy working. I understand." I had finally decided to take some of the responsibility for what was happening in our relationship. It wasn't fair to blame it all on him. I saw him fiddle with the tap of one of the beer bottles for a while before he finally opened his mouth to speak.

"Kim, I think we need to talk"

Oh. Crap. Had he realized all the doubts that I had recently or how I thought of Adam in a few occasions this week? Whatever this was, it wasn't going to be good. I was pretty nervous, but I tried my best to hide it.

"Yes, sure. Take a seat." I led him towards the couch and he followed.

"I don't think we should see each other anymore." And just like that he said it.

"Um… ok… That was straight to the point." There wasn't much else to say.

I thought he was going to drop it there, but he went on. "I need to be honest with you." His eyes wandered around the living room, he already knew the place by heart; he was obviously avoiding marking eye contact with me. "I've been seeing someone." My eyes were big, bigger than normal, and I could feel how the color slowly fled from my face. I sure didn't see this one coming. "It's been going on for a while now, and I just, I can't do this, you know?"

"Please, just stop." He tried to reach for my hand but I pulled it away. "I appreciate the honesty, and yes I agree, we shouldn't see eachother anymore." I stood up and walked to the door, opening it up for him "Bye, Roman." For the first time in a long time I called him by his last name. He stood up and left without saying a word.

Ok, that was not how I expected things to run down.

I feel so stupid. Here I was feeling guilty about everything that has been going on in my mind, all those feelings, if I could even call them that, that I've been having for Ruzek while the guy is out there deliberately cheating on me.

I don't even know what I'm feeling right now, what I do know is that wine isn't gonna cut it tonight, so I went to get a bottle of tequila and one of my shot glasses.

I'm not sure about what's making me feel so broken. Is it not having Sean? or is it having my confidence and self esteem crushed down into tiny pieces.

I had worked so hard to feel good about myself again and now every single doubt came running back to me. Am I not nice enough? not funny enough? not pretty enough? not good in bed enough? Was something wrong with me?

My self pity was interrupted when I heard my phone buzz, it was a message from Atwater.

How's my favorite girl doing?

Like crap. Sean and I broke up. He was cheating on me.

Although I didn't feel like expanding on the topic, I did feel the need to tell Kev. I was going to have to tell them sooner or later anyway. His reply came instantly.

Want me to come over? I can tell Ruze as well…

I narrowed my eyebrows as I read that message, there was no surprise, no death threats and no interrogation. He knew.

You knew, didn't you?

Sorry baby girl. I saw him today.

So he wasn't being honest. You forced him to tell me.

We kinda did

We?

This was getting out of hand, who else was aware of this. At this point I was beginning to think that there was some sign posted in the bulletin board in the district with candid pictures of Sean with this girl, that everyone had seen except me.

Ruze and I were together.

Oh, great. Is anyone else aware of my humiliation?

No one. Don't feel bad baby girl, he's not worth it.

Don't wanna talk about it Kev. Thanks for checkin in. I'm fine.

I ended the conversation with that message and threw my phone to the couch. That's just what I needed. Is there anything more humiliating than having the guy you liked to know that you were cheated on? Probably not.

So yeah, this was the crappiest day of my life.


I woke up late, obviously. There was no way I was gonna be on time after the four tequila shots I poured for myself last night, luckily the alcohol hadn't given me a headache.

I got to the district and parked my car. I didn't want to see anyone, I just wanted to go to my desk, do my job and get this day over with. But of course, that was not going to happen.

Adam's truck was parked a few spots away from me and he was inside it. As soon as I opened the door and climbed out of the car he did the same thing, the only difference was that he was holding two cups of coffee. Was he really doing that? I didn't deserve this, and he sure as hell didn't deserve the words that came out of my mouth as soon as he walked towards me and handed me the cup of coffee.

"I don't need your sympathy right now, Ruzek." I didn't even take the cup he was offering.

"Whoa, good morning to you too, Burgess." I rolled my eyes at his reply.

"I'm not in the mood today. Just leave me alone, would you?"

"I'm not doing that." I just rolled my eyes at him "Just take the coffee, ok?" I held out my hand and grabbed the warm cup from his own hand. He paused for a little bit before he went on, "I know you must feel like crap right now." I cut him off before he continued, I wasn't having this right now.

"I don't want to talk about it, Adam."

"Ok. I get it. But can I finish?" The sweet tone in his voice just made me nod in agreement. "Thank you. I was saying that I get that you feel bad, if you want we can go egg his house or trash his car, I would gladly punch him in the face too if you want me to." I smiled. Adam had that, he could get the best out of me during the most difficult times. He noticed my smile and that gorgeous little smirk appeared on his face too. "All I'm trying to say is that you don't need to shut me out, I play for your team. Always."

I looked down and shyly lifted my face to connect my eyes with his. "You're right. I'm sorry, it's just that…" I didn't know what to say or how to continue, but I didn't have to because he cut me off mid sentence.

"You don't have to say anything, Kim. Come here." He closed the space between us and pulled me into a hug. I was crumbling like a chocolate chip cookie, and he was holding me so tight as if he was trying to put all my pieces back together. I tightened my grip around his waist and buried my face in his chest. I was just doing my best to hold back the tears right now and I guess he could sense that because he tucked my head under his chin and began to rub my back with his free hand. "It's alright, I'm right here." His whisper against my hair was followed by a soft kiss on the top of my head.

"Thank you. I needed that." I whispered back as I was pulling away from the embrace. "

"My pleasure." We both smiled.

"Let's head in. I just want this day to be over and go back home."

Just as I suspected, nothing was going to turn out as I expected today. At least not this part.

When Ruzek and I walked up the stairs of the district, Platt was in her spot behind the desk talking to an officer. And because I had the best of lucks apparently, that officer was Sean Roman of course.

"Hey Burgess, come here for a second." Platt's voice was firm and totally directed at me. I rolled my eyes and looked at Ruzek.

"I'll wait for you by the gate." He knew that I didn't want to go to Platt, not because of her but because I didn't want to be close to Roman right now.

"What's up Sarge?" I tried to be as calm as I could.

"I'm sorry I couldn't make it to Molly's the other night to celebrate with you guys. But I did send you the next best thing." The quizzical look on my face must have given her the hint that I had no idea what she was talking about. "You know how I moved some shifts around so your man here could have the night off." The smile on her face was making me feel bad, at least I wasn't the only one played by Roman.

"Thanks sarge, I really appreciate it." I was going to walk away and run to the bullpen, Adam was still waiting for me by the gate. As I was leaving, I turned around to face Platt again. No way, I wasn't going to let him get away with this.

"But you should know, he wasn't able to make it. Apparently he had some place better to be at that night." I gave him a deadly look. "And sarge, he's not my anything anymore." I flashed a faint smile and just left. Ruzek held the gate open for me, he was doing a great job at pretending he hadn't heard a word.

Somehow we were the only ones in the bullpen, we both went to our desks and placed the cups of coffee down. I needed to say this before the day went on.

"I know you heard Platt. So as the only witness apart from her to know that I was both cheated on and lied to, I would really appreciate it if we don't talk about this."

"Who's Platt? I don't know what you're talking about." There was that smirk again, I think that was the lifevest I was going to hold on to as much as I could.

"I do feel like beating the crap out of him, though."

"I think Platt will cover that. Did you see her face when I told her?" I asked.

"I would've loved to, but I was trying to pretend not to pay attention. You slayed it by the way." I smiled at his comment.

"Thanks Ruze. You made this morning a whole lot better."

"I'm glad." Our eyes linked again, Gosh it was so hard to break away from that. He looked down nervously and grabbed his coffee cup again "Umm, I'm going to heat this up a bit. Do you want me to take yours, too?"

"No, it's fine like this." He turned around and went straight to the break room.

Although I did feel like shit, I could say that I had the best support system in the whole world.

As soon as Kev came into sight the first thing he did was to hug me tight. Jay and Erin came up the stairs and I could see how Halstead was cracking up.

"Please tell me that you didn't miss Platt scolding Roman like a kindergartener. Burgess you have to give me some intel on that. I swear you guys, it was hilarious." Jay said as he walked in and fistbumped all of us there.

"I think I was the one who sold him out to her, Halstead." I shot back.

"How can you do that to your boyfriend? You know how Platt gets when she's all vicious." He was laughing, and now I wished I had stayed downstairs to witness that moment.

"Well Jay, all I can say is that he had it coming." I was going to stop right there, but I needed to pull the band aid off, they were going to find out I wasn't with Roman anymore sooner or later, they might as well hear it from me. "And as of last night, he's no longer my boyfriend." Jay's face turned pale and I was beginning to feel sorry for him. "It's fine, you don't have to look at me like that. I'm alright." I said with a smile. I wasn't alright, though.

"I'm sorry Burgess. I didn't know." The guilt in his eyes was sort of cute, he looked like a sad puppy.

"Seriously Halstead, don't sweat it."

I could see how Lindsay was paying close attention to everything but she was careful not to be invasive. She knew exactly what I needed.

Just because today was probably the worst day of my life, the universe decided that the most complicated and hard to close case was going to pop up. No leads anywhere, no matter where we looked, who we followed or what strings we pulled. My levels of frustration were about to make my head explode.

So, I wasn't good enough for the guy I was dating and I wasn't a good enough cop either.

"Whatever it is that you're thinking about, snap out of it." Erin's voice was sharp, but it did snap me out of it. Voigh paired us up today, we were doing surveillance over a suspect's house, but of course there was no movement. "How are you holding up?" She asked me as she was still looking out the window.

"I'm good." Yeah, right.

"Cut the crap, Burgess!" Ok, so avoiding the pain? That was not going to happen today.

"Fine, I feel like crap."

"Do you wanna talk about what happened?"

I let out a long breath, I needed to get this off of my chest. "Long story short, Atwater and Ruzek saw him with some girl and they kind of forced him to tell me the truth."

"What an ass." she let out without thinking too much.

"I know right? Of course Sean didn't say that, he just told me that he needed to come clean." I just rolled my eyes as I kept going, there was no stopping now. "On top of that, this morning when I got here, Platt told me that she had actually given Sean the night off when we went to Molly's to celebrate." I looked her straight in the eyes.

"Didn't he say that he had the night shift that day?" I just nodded. "Gosh, Kim. I never thought he'd be capable of so much bullshit."

"I'm as surprised as you are. I feel so bad, it's like all the doubts I ever had about myself, they all just came back in the blink of an eye." I confessed.

"Wait up, this is not on you."

"Is it? I feel humiliated. I feel like there's something's wrong with me. Why would he cheat on me and lie to me like that?" The words were coming out along with the tears. Yeah, there was no turning back now.

"Girl, listen to me." I was beginning to sob at that point. "Hey, look at me." I did as she said "There is nothing wrong with you. That piece of ass doesn't deserve a single one of these tears, do you hear me? You are a hell of a woman and he isn't ready to have that, I don't think he'll ever be. He doesn't deserve it." Her phone buzzed and she stopped talking to look at the screen, she smiled a bit and continued talking "and I'm sure there's someone out there who does."

The rest of the day was the same roller coaster of emotions, a mix of anger, frustration, but also love and support. These people were my family.

The case we were working on was going nowhere, Voight dismissed us all hoping that tomorrow would be a better day. Gosh, I hoped so too.