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-Nikki

Damn. Im on Potter duty. Snape cursed when he saw the boy follow his friends quietly into the dungeon class room.

Ever since he'd been discharged form the infirmary he was to be followed in secret and spied on until the boy when to sleep. If ever he was off by himself, one of the three teachers confided with the job of watching would be there every step of the way.

There wasa change in the boy, or so it seemed. When he was alone, the sudden light, sheepishness he was prone to disappeared completely. Even his clothing had made a slight change a lighter change, but it seemed more that Potter just wanted people off his back, and it seemed to work some what since he didn't eat alone except for Granger and Weasly any more, but groups of other Griffendors, Ravenclaws, Hufflepuffs and even Slytherins were at him at mealtimes. It turns out the boys of Potters dorm had let slip the reason he was hospitalised, a twisted version where Potter had fought and won against death eaters...Potter didn't seem to pleased with themtosay theleast.

It was Snape's first turn to stay with him so Snape decide not give any homework other wise we'd probably fall asleep watching Potter do it. But Snape intended to work him harder then usual and hopefully tire him out so that he would go to bed early and get Snape off the hook.

By the end of class Snape had insulted Potter mercilessly and had him work with Longbottom who could tire out anyone with the misfortune of working with him.

When the bell rang sometime latter, Snape swept into the smaller office connected to his classroom and pulled on the invisibility cloak Dumbledor had given him for the task of spying. Soon he was out in the corridor following Potter quietly he was a little behind his two friends and was glaringat there backs with narrow eyes, though when Ron turned to address Harry, he smiled then forced a yawned.

"Your quiet." Hermione inquired conversationally.

"Im just really tired, I didn't sleep to well last night." Harry hadn't slept at all. Not that he would tell them that or the fact that he didn't sleep ever. Lately he realised that putting up a happy act worked on most people and he was surprised eto see his friends bought it.

"Maybe you should go to bed?" Hermione said.

Im so manipulative..."Yeah, see you." He turned around sweeping past Snap, Snape who continued to pursue the boy. Snape saw that as soon as Potter was out of sight from the other Griffendor's he stopped and looked back in there generaldirecting.

"At least they're stupid." then he continued up a staircase.

Once they reached the Griffindor common room Potter pushed past a bunch of girls asking him his favourite colours and up a spiral staircase down a hall to the boys dorm. Snape barley had time to sneak into the room before the door was slammed closed by Potter.

He threw himself down on the bed and didn't move for a few minutes. Slowly Potter rolled over onto his back and sat up. Already bored, Snape was thinking about what he would do later after he was free from babysitting. Lazily, he watched Potter stand up and walk over to the trunk. The boy unlocked it with his wand and began digging through his things pulling things out and leaving them on the floor. Finally Potter seemed to find what he was looking for, he took the box in his hands over to his bed opened it and pulled from it a small machine that looked like a muggle artifact except for the small blue light that kept circling through the plastic. It was about a foot long, oval shaped with a circular thing that Potter pulled open at the top. Back at his trunk Potter pulled forth a small pocket that he unzipped and pulled outa disk about the same size as the opening in the artifact on the bed.

What is he up too? Seems like he got his hands on Arthur Weasley's ruddy muggle things. Snape thought to him self.

Potter inserted the disk and shut the top, he took his wand and tapped it seven times and said, "Im Alive by Disturbed."

Snape jumped by the sudden blast of sound of electric guitars and drums and other muggle instruments.


Never again will I be desolate
And never again will I be reminded
We're living within the world of the jaded
They...inspiration
It's my obligation

Snape was close enough toPotter to here him singing along with the song, Potters head swung from side to side as he matched the vocalist's harsh, defiant voice.

To never again, allow this to happen
Where do I begin?
The choices are endless
Denying the sin
My art, my redemption
I carry the torch of my fathers before me

It went on like that, and during the chorus came Potter had a glint in his eye, for these lyrics were very close to his heart...

To change myself, I'd rather die
Lonely, we'll not understand
I will make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive!

And at the end of the last verse, Potter cried out with such passion, almost in longing and realization, almost as if he were defying life its self, he cried,

"I'M ALIVE!"

Im alive

Im alive

Im alive

I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive

When the song ended Harry started muttering, at first he thought Potter was talking to him but then he realized he was talking to himself.

"Alive, dead, what's the difference? I the felt most relaxed I did in forever when I lay half dead in the bathroom, im so tired! Why did they wake me? I hope they're happy; I dress like a dork and smile like a dip-shit, fuck Im tired!" He stood up miserably, and walked up to the window and sat on the sill after turning out the lights and placing a small candle on the sill before him.

"Iv gotta get out of here, iv got enough money to get an apartment so what am I waiting for?" His finger stared twitching and he looked back at his trunk, "No Im done with that, it'll only kill me."

Snape straightened, alert.

"Maybe one more...no, if start again I'll never be able to stop, DAMN THAT MAN! Its his fault I ever started...I'll kill Anthony if ever I see him again...stupid kid for ever asking if Iwanted one. STOP! Oh fuck it..." He went back to his trunk and searched for something else adding more to the mess. When he couldn'tfind ithe swore. "Now I need one more then ever..." He began looking through the mess on the floor. He sighed with relief when he found the pack of cigarettes under some clothing.

Snape wasn't sure weather to be relived or not. This was an unexpected turn of advents, they'd have to get him to quit or at least ban him from smoking within the school walls.

Harry put the smoke up to the candle for a few seconds and took a drag, sitting back on the sill, it tasted even worst then it smelled and tickled his throat when he exhaled but heexpertly ignored it as he became accustom to the feeling once again. He sighed with contentment.

Silently,Harry watched the stream of smoke drift away on the breeze. The sun was setting behind the mountains and the skywas clear and pink. An early star sat in its lonesome above him. Harry tucked his knees to him for warmth his left arm resting on his knee andpointed away from him, his half shrunk smokeheld between two fingers, his eyes scanned the forest idly for the better part of an hour.

A/N: This is short but iv haven't done updated anything in a few months (this wont happen again I swear!) Im already failing two classes (DAMN SCIENCE AND DAMN GEOGRAPHY!)

Since its been so long, im not going to send this chapter to get fixed up since that'll take to long and im too lazy at the moment (hey, at least im honest)

Oh and by the way, I was being a bitch in the last chapter, I almost miss people telling me to fix up my spelling! Im not mad at any of you! I swear!

Please Help me get my reviews over three hundred! REVIEW! And if I get lots (since I know lots of you aren't reviewing!) I'll post another chapter before the weeks out, how about that?

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Nikki