Disclaimer: I own nothing but the dream of 100 troypay fics magically appearing, or maybe an Ashley Zac one, now that would be interesting...hmm maybe I should ponder that one..
Oh, Ryan Adams owns the song "Please do not let me go" it's a real gentle song which I thought would add a contradiction to the dialogue (yep I said dialogue) in this chapter.
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If the walls in the
room could talk
I wonder to myself would they lie
It stops being black and I look up to see a hysterical you. I try to move, but I can't well at least, not yet. I'm waiting for the words to come, I'm waiting to ask you what's wrong and then kick whose ever ass I need to, to make it right, but they aren't coming. Its then I look at you, I see your lip gloss smeared I lick my lips and taste what I recognize as your strawberry flavored gloss. Did I hurt you? I hope to God I didn't force myself on you. I'm panicking, and now I cannot breathe.
"Troy, what's wrong with you?" you sob. I feel my heart break and am brought back to the pain, my kryptonite.
It's like some
kind of jail
Fall from the curtains onto the bed
"Oh my God I didn't do anything to you did I Sharpay?" the words finally come, probably the most I've strung together in a long time. There's something about seeing the girl you love in hysterics that will kill just about any buzz.
I'm all alone
now, I can do as I please
I don't feel like doing much of
anything
"This isn't about me, not anymore" you shake, "Troy you have a problem, what are you taking?"
I'm enraged. I'm not an addict; I don't have a problem, do I? Something must not be right; I can't even remember what happened 5 minutes ago let alone the past week or however long it's been. The last thing that I distinctly remember is being left in the middle of the entire school looking like an ass.
"Nice of you to care now, I don't seem to recall you giving a shit when you left me in front of the entire school" I scream, filling myself with emotions I'm not ready to deal with.
You take a deep breath, you wipe away your tears and prepare to put on your stone face and become the Ice Queen.
"Don't do that now, no not when we're about to go somewhere don't hide from me Sharpay don't become the frost bitch" I slur. Slur? Maybe I do have a problem.
True love ain't
that hard to find
Not that you will ever know
"Don't you dare" your eyes light with fire, "don't you dare judge me on how I choose to put back together what everyone else broke…you do not get to call me out like that Troy Bolton, not when your diet of the past month has been pill after fucking pill.."
"—and your lips" I quickly add loving how sexy she looks when she's pissed, "I've definitely feasted on your lips."
"Fuck you" you scream as you push me into a wall.
"I wish you would, you have no idea how much I wish you would", I reply in my husky voice and attempt to pull you into the wall with me.
"Where have you been staying, Troy?" you ask completely blowing past my previous statement, "I saw your mom kick you out of the house" she pulls herself away from me and begins to hug herself.
"I don't, I don't, gosh I don't know", and it's the truth, it's all a blur to me all of it but you, you are the only thing that's clear to me anymore Sharpay.
Would you lay
here for awhile?
Please, do not let me go
Please, do not let
me go
Tears fill your eyes and your lip begins to quiver.
"Please don't cry Sharpay" I whisper as you began to bawl, "Gosh don't cry" I envelop your small frame in my strong arms.
"You scare me Troy, you scare me so much. Please let me help you I don't know what I'll do with myself if your not ok" Your tears wet my shirt, I feel…I feel bad. I reach in my back pocket for an easy solution to this overwhelming pain.
You were sweet enough to sing,
Oblivious to melody
Red suitcase full of clothes
Washed
up on the shore of memory
You look up in horror as I am about to place the pills in my mouth, you take them, smack me, and then reach into my back pocket to get the rest.
"No way, Troy no fucking way, you want to make me stop crying? You want to be my night in shining armor?" you scream knowing my hearts intend, "stop taking these damn pills, do you even know what they are?"
"You told me not to judge you? So how about you leave me the hell alone?" I reach for the pills but you're too quick in my dazed state.
I feel the room start to spin again, it's been too long...it's been too long since I've had one.
"Please Sharpay give them back you don't understand" I whisper only to see you stomp on them and bury them in the trash, "you bitch you don't understand" I run at her grab her as tightly as I can as my arm raises in the air..
I'm all alone
now and I feel just find
I don't feel much like doing anything
You flinch. I was about to hit you. I have a problem. I know that now.
"oh my God" I say as I run to the trash can and vomit, "I am so sorry I can't believe I almost hit you, I need help Sharpay I need help" I cry, you hug me and I nearly suffocate you with my body.
True love ain't
that hard to find
Not that either one of us will ever know
"You can stay with me and Ryan, you know my father is never home. This isn't going to be easy Troy, but I will help you through it every step of the way. I warn you though, if you mess up, if you take another pill or anything—even if it's just once, you're out" you reply in a monotone voice looking straight forward.
I nod. And let you hold me for a bit longer.
Would you lay
here for awhile?
Please, do not let me go
Please, do not let
me go
