A/N-OMG GUYS I'M SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG! I've been going through alot of stuff right now & totally disregarded this story...T.T The next update won't be for awhile either...I have to write the next chapter and the one after that is already complete (I know..it's screwy..hehe) Well tell me what you think of this one!

Disclaimer: Don't own it, never will.

XxXYou took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my kneesXxX

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

The clock on the wall kept Rin up as she thought of how she would get out of here-leaving again would be hard, but she had too…it was the only fair thing to do-for herself, for everyone…for him. The hurt when he had come to see her-it was better if she left now. She would figure out what to do later. She was putting Kazuma and Kureno in danger, too…they had helped her so much, and if Akito found out that they were hiding her away like this then they would surely have to face his wrath.

Making up her mind, she paused, giving herself a moment to relish in the precious memories that she had shared with Haru ever since they were little- when he had comforted her, her first kiss that was nothing but awkward, his loving eyes that sparkled when he first told her he loved her and that he would never let her go…tears slid down her cheeks. She hadn't cried in so long for her past…it wasn't his fault. Maybe their love was selfish and forbidden, but it was all she had known for so long. The only thing that she had to believe in-leaving it now, it felt like she was abandoning everything…him. He didn't care for anything but her, but she couldn't believe that. He had to live…they had to live. They would never truly be happy under Akito's rule unless they were FREE…not living in this suffocated cage that he carefully crumbled beneath him every time he had a whim. It wouldn't do. Ren held the answers.

Gently picking herself up out of bed, she winced, coughing up a little blood as she sat up, holding onto the bed frame for support. She mustered all her strength as she stood, her small frame shaking lightly from not standing in so long. She let go of the bed, taking a few steps toward the window as her head swam from getting up to fast; the room became a swirling blur to her as she struggled to remain upright. She grabbed onto the bookshelf in a vain attempt to steady herself, but all she caused was the books to scatter as her arm knocked them off as she fell to her knees. She crawled along the floor, every inch causing her excruciating pain. She hadn't realized that she had gotten this weak. She finally reached the windowsill as she used it to pull herself up and force open the latch with her remaining strength as she hoisted the window up.

"Well well….what do we have here?", Akito stepped out of the shadows into the dim light coming from the moon that was filtering into the room, an amused smirk gracing his features as he sneered at her.

She froze, her body acting out against her own will as he stepped closer to her, stopping in the middle of the room to better access the situation.

"Trying to play the hero again, Rin?", he smirked, as if it all were an amusing little joke that only he knew. Rin wanted to smack that smirk right off his unblemished face, but all she could do was sit there dumbly.

"Why so silent? You know that's what you try to do…but it always fails…or hurts the people that you care about the most…that HELPED you…", he sneered maliciously.

"Oh god. He knows…", she thought in terror. "No…this can't be happening. This can't be happening….", her head screamed.

"So where is that dumb cow that tags around after you? Your just going to leave him after everything that he's done for you? What kind of…THING does that make you?"

She knew he was playing his little mind games, but what he said was true. She didn't need to hear what she already knew. Catching her breath, she whispered "Shut up."

She picked herself up from off of the window as she stood there facing him now, the only thing holding her up was the frame of the window.

"WHAT…did you say to me?"

"SHUT UP!", she screamed, her slight frame shaking.

In one fluid movement he was coming down upon her, his rage obvious as his spit flew in her face.

NEVER SAY THAT TO ME AGAIN! I am your master, and you have to obey me!" , he gripped her arms, and she knew it would leave a mark.

He paused, staring at her and smirking evilly. "So…your going to talk to my mother…but she doesn't know anything…"

"Your lying!", she struggled against him, but it was no use; he was stronger than he looked and she was so very weak in her current state-she didn't stand a chance.

He brought his arm up, smacking her hard across the face and let go of her as she fell to the floor. Colors swam in front of her vision.

"You won't ever find a cure! It doesn't exist! Stop trying to be something, because your NOTHING! NOTHING! Just like all of the others! They've accepted it, so why can't you? This is how it's supposed to be! There is nothing else! Why do you continue to hurt everyone around you like this? Give up already! You'll make it worse for them!" He looked down at her barely breathing form on the floor, a slow smile spreading out across his face like water spilt over a smooth marble countertop. "Or have you already given up?"

A door slammed and then he was being pulled away from her form as Kazuma struggled to get control of him. "Go…you won't find anything there! YOU WON'T! But go…and you will. Because your nothing but a fool! A fool who can't do anything!", and he dissolved into delusional laughter as his body became frail once again from all the exertion and his limp body was being dragged out of the room.

Rin lay there for only a second, her limbs on fire as she numbly sat up, head hurting like hell as she gazed out of the open window. She was going to go-no matter what Akito said. There was bound to be some things that even he didn't know-and she would find out what they were. If Ren was lying…she couldn't accept that. She had no reason to deceive her. It was the only thing that she had left to count on. She dropped out of the window and rolled onto the grass, letting the cold blades cool her feverish forehead a moment before setting out into the dark abyss that was her shadowed protector with a obvious limp and bones aching from the very depth of her soul. At least she knew that this time every footstep couldn't hurt her or bring her somewhere that she would end up getting hurt worse because she couldn't hurt any worse-she was traveling into the unknown with unreliable answers to mysterious questions with no one there to help her or to tell her that she would be okay-because no one could know but her. And she didn't know. What would happen now? All she could do was walk on, ignoring her pain as the sun gradually rose behind her, knowing that the only thing she had left to rely on was the feel of her feet hitting gravel with every step on the way to the truth she had sought for so long.

XxXYou were always…crazy…like that..XxX