Disclaimer: None of its mine and the song is Oasis's
Today is gonna be
the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
5 minutes have passed and you have yet to say a thing. I honestly cannot decide whether or not it's a good thing. I just keep looking at you, praying that you will at least make eye contact with me soon. You look up, and your eyes are pouring with so much emotion I can hardly distinguish one from the other.
"How dare you?" you whisper.
"How dare you, my life was going fine, Troy Bolton. I never got hurt, I never cried, I never had to deal with any of this. But then you had to come along and open up all these doors I've worked so hard to close. You pull me through hell and back. You were addicted to drugs Troy, and that's when you decided to come to me, why? Huh? Why? Because all of your so called friends decided to leave you high and dry?" you scream.
"No, its not--" I stammer.
"No, it's my turn Troy Bolton, you've done enough talking. The second you break out of your withdrawal spell you decide you want to be with me? What was that about Troy? How could you do that? You were in no condition whats so ever to do that to me. You couldn't distinguish left from right 2 hours earlier and I'm the bad person because I don't throw myself at you? You were so mean to me Troy. The things you would say those weeks, they were crude and malicious. Don't say sorry, because it's not your fault, I just want you to understand the circumstance. I'm not a bitch? You are seriously standing in front of me and telling me I'm not a bitch? Where have you been the past 6 fucking years Troy? I have been horrible to everyone, everyone including you. I'm a bitch, I make no excuses."
"You don't believe that." I whisper. "Your mom left you Sharpay and your dad ran with his tail between his legs a week later. No one spoke to you about it; you were left to deal with all of that shit. You were so young; of course you hardened your shell. Any sane person would have. There are a lot of things you are Sharpay Evans, but I will not let you stand here and think that you are a bitch, that you are the 'ice queen'--- far from it. You need to believe that, I need you to believe that. Because you will never love me Sharpay Evans, until you love yourself."
By now you should've
somehow
Realized what you gotta do
"I'm not done yelling at you yet Troy Bolton. You have no right to love me, you have no right to kiss me, you have no right, Troy, none at all."
"You have no right to blame yourself for what your mom did"
"Stop, just stop Troy."
"You did nothing wrong Sharpay"
"I said shut the fuck up Troy"
"She left because of her not because of you; you were the perfect daughter Sharpay"
"You don't know Troy, don't stand here and tell me this shit. You do not know" you scream as you run towards me and start punching me as hard as your tiny fists can.
"You have the right to be loved." I say as you push off of me.
I don't believe
that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
"Do you know how hard it was Troy? How painful it was to watch you prance around with little Miss Perfect when I was dying inside? You promised you would always protect me Troy, you fucking promised, but all you did was prove her right."
"Prove who right Sharpay?"
"Her…my mom. She said that I wouldn't have what it takes to make the lead every time, that one day a girl would come along who was prettier, more talented, who was better. And she did. She took everything, my part, my status, my best friend. I knew that you were already gone Troy, but I didn't fully lose you until she came along."
"She didn't take me from you Sharpay, deep down I was always yours"
"Fuck you Troy, you say that but you don't mean it"
Backbeat the
word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm
sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
"Why can't I say it? Why can't I say it if I mean it? Just because you stopped caring about me does not by any means mean that I ever stopped caring about you."
"Ha, me stop caring about you? That will be the fucking day Troy. I listened to that damn mixtape every night Troy Bolton. I memorized that song, our song. I cursed myself every time you walked by that I ever let you go. You have no idea, just how much I care."
I don't believe
that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
"You sure as hell have a funny way of showing me that you care."
"If I didn't care Troy do you think I would have stood by you for the past month? Do you think that I would have shut out my own brother and our twisted friends because of what they would say about you? Do you think that it would hurt this much to be this close to you if I didn't care?"
"It hurts?"
"It doesn't hurt you? The pain, it's killing me."
And all the roads we
have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us
there are blinding
"It doesn't have to hurt Sharpay, please just let me in."
"HA, you need to stop with these bullshit lines Troy, they might have worked on all the sluts you've been with in the past, but they won't get you anywhere with me."
"Stop judging me, you are supposed to be the one person who doesn't. I'm sorry if me caring about you seems like such an implausible occurrence--"
"Can you blame me? Name one instance since everything fell apart that would give me any indication that you still cared about me."
Silence.
"That's what I fucking thought"
There are many
things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
"It's not that easy."
"What do you mean it's not that easy?"
"You're not exactly the easiest person, Sharpay."
"Oh so it's my fault that you ignored me for the past 5 years?"
"Stop twisting my words, Sharpay. God dammit", I scream while punching the wall with everything I have.
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're
my wonderwall
The second I hit the wall I know that, that was by far the dumbest thing I've done all day. I feel every bone in my hand shift, it's not broken but there is blood everywhere.
"Oh my God, Troy are you ok?" you ask as you gently grab my hand.
"Yea, I'll be fine"
"Good, how could you be so fucking stupid Troy. You need to stop hitting."
"You need to stop being so self-centered, you're not the only one who hurts here." I counter as I step closer.
"You are always
preaching… shut up and look at yourself".
Step Closer.
Today was gonna
be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
"You are so judgmental" I scream as you step closer.
By now you
should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't
believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
"You are so fucking" you scream inches away from my face, "you are so fucking, hott". You jump in to my arms and kiss me with all you have. Your tongue forces its way into my mouth as we both fight for position in each other's mouth.
And all the
roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light
the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to
say to you
I don't know how
After God knows how long, you loosen your legs grip from around my waist, step away from me and touch your lips.
"Let me be the one who saves you" I plead.
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're
my wonderwall
We stand here in deafening silence. When you start to hum our song, "Think you're strong enough to be my wonderwall?" you whisper while looking me in the eyes.
I smile the most heartfelt smile I can manage. "I love you Sharpay Evans" I state hopefully. "I love you Troy Bolton". It sounds even more perfect than I ever dreamed it would.
I said maybe
you're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're
my wonderwall
Flashback
"The last song, I put on there. It's about me and you Sharpay."
"It is?" an 11 year old Sharpay looks up at her best friend hopefully.
"Yea, wanna go listen to it?"
"Of course"
We went up to your room, as we did everyday. I put on the song and sat next to you on your bed. After listening to the song for a little bit I feel your eyes on me.
"So you're my wonderwall, Troy?"
"Yep, I'm the one who gets to save you. You're my best friend Sharpay. I hope you like the song, the first time I heard it I was convinced it was about me and you."
"About me and you?"
"About us." I smile.
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one
that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
AN: Alright well that was About Me and You. How could I not use wonderwall? Lol its my pen name…I must admit though I did have a couple of other songs in mind but none fit quite as well. I will most likely end up using those songs as one shot songifcs. I tried to bring it full circle at the end, I really hope you enjoyed the story as much as I did. I have my Zashley story in progress as well as another Troypay fic "its not so bad". Reviews would be nice. And don't worry, I have millions of Troypay ideas in my head, I only hope that they can live up to the standard of this one. Thank you to all my loyal reviewers, I really hope it was everything you hoped it to be.
