Holy crap, I'm updating! Ok, try not to faint. And um…where is my jar of dirt… Anyway, thanks to my lovely rpers at lawandordersiu, you know who you are, you all roxxors. Song is Hello by Evanescence.


Part 3

April 6, 2006

It began when the phone rang. Bobby reached for it, checking the number before he answered it. "Goren…"

"Goren, it's Logan. What, did you have your phone off earlier to something?"

"..No…" he said curiously, "Why, did you try to call me?"

"Yes, several times! Goddamn.. ok, well um, it's all over the news, turn the TV on." Logan sighed.

"What's all over the news?"

"You'll see, go turn it on."

"No, stop playing games, Logan, tell me what's going on," Goren said, frustrated.

There was a small pause, Mike didn't say anything for a moment. "Deakins is dead."

Bobby froze. He stood still, staring at the wall. "What?" he asked softly, "What happened?"

"Shot in the heart," Mike said almost neutrally.

"Where?"

"Some..cheesyass motel. Look, Goren-… It was Wallace."

He had dreaded those words. He knew they were coming – somehow he knew. For once, Bobby had hoped that his gut feeling had been wrong. But it wasn't. Not this time. Bobby closed his eyes, "Shit.."

"It gets worse.." Mike added after a moment, "The brass might send it over to SVU."

"No, no, SVU can't get this case, they don't know how to handle Nicole Wallace…"

"Yeah, well.. I'm sure they'll include you, but look. If she's after Deak, then.." Mike trailed off, not needing to continue.

Quickly, Bobby grabbed his binder, "Look, I'm going to that hotel, I need-… Are you already there? I need everything there is on this already, and-..and we'll need um…" For a second, he paused. "She'll leave a note. Somewhere, she'll-she'll leave a note."


April 19, 2006

"Channel 12 news, I'm your anchor, Margaret Taylor."

"Tonight's headline story, New York's Major Case Squad appears to be under attack. Last week, police released that Major Case's Captain James Deakins was murdered in a hotel room. While MCS maintained control of the case, they were able to narrow down possible suspects to one; Nicole Wallace, who has been suspected of other MCS cases, but never convicted. She is at large and considered to be quite dangerous."

"Also last week, was the disappearance and suspected kidnapping of Assistant Distract Attorney Ronald Carver, who had prosecuted Wallace's case before. According to the police, they have no new information to give us regarding that, but they are still looking."

"However, in light of recent events, Major Case's Captain Phillip Cerreta gave a press announcement today, regarding another disappearance. Lead detective, Robert Goren, was reported missing today, and Wallace is suspected to also be involved in his disappearance. Police are urging anyone who made have seen or heard from either ADA Carver, Detective Goren or Nicole Wallace, to report it as soon as possible…"


Present: April 29, 2006

Bobby shivered in the dark. It was oddly quiet. Nothing seemed to hurt anymore. But even without the pain, he could feel the dark lines of crimson trailing down the palm of his hand. He watched them quietly. It wasn't deep, but just enough. Enough to bleed.

If I smile and don't believe

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken

Hello, I am the lie living for you so can hide

Don't cry

"If you bleed.." he whispered, "Then… you're real… Can't be real..anymore. Not this… God-…I killed her."