"You don't gotta force yourself for me."

As dreamlike as it'd been, Angel couldn't help but think of his past; a portion of it that he wished he could forget. Many times he'd had to force himself to look like he was into things when he wasn't. It was a business he'd 'volunteered' to be in, sure, but Valentino wasn't the sort of person to give dayoffs or any sort of mercy. Just as painful and hurtful as it was, however, he couldn't deny how much of it shaped who he was. Angel certainly didn't regret what he'd learned, and just where it got him. He sure wasn't going to regret anything tonight.

Biting his moans back as Alastor kept on grinding themselves against him, Angel gently cupped Alastor's cheek. As they pushed the cheek against his hand, taking a finger into their mouth, the spider found it extraordinarily difficult to resist. Nonetheless, he held their hip in place firmly, trying to rid himself of the pleasure clouding his mind.

"Al', hold up."

"Mmmh, yes, Angel?" Alastor relented, his long tongue resting against Angel's palm as he'd pulled off.

"This... I..." Angel allowed himself to pet them lightly. "This ain't you."

"Who am I then?" Alastor blinked, and ceased his movments, just laying. "Angel, dear, I'm not forcing myself to do anything."

Angel wasn't sure what to do. It may have been the memories just getting to him, but this certainly didn't feel like any Alastor he'd ever met. It almost felt wrong for this to feel good; not without making sure that this was entirely consensual. Alastor sure had the power to shut things down immediately and whenever they wanted to, but Angel perhaps feared that his leverage had a lot more pull than he initially thought.

"These past nights. The... well, y'know."

Alastor nodded slowly.

"That ain't required to make me happy." Angel exhaled, letting his hands rest on Alastor's shoulder. "In fact, we could stop doing any of this now, and I'd be fine."

"Completely fine?"

"Completely fine."

Alastor seemed to think about this for a moment, unknowingly swishing his tail. "...Do you think I'm not enjoying this?"

"I... I dunno? I just didn't think you'd..." Angel struggled. "Okay, first off, how do you know how to do half of this stuff?"

Alastor quivered. "I... read up on how to do things."

"You're kidding, right?" Angel then remembered dinner. "That red book... and the others... oh."

Alastor kept quiet, looking much more innocent, waiting for a reaction.

"I'm glad you'd go through all of that. Really." Angel looked ashamed. "It probably took a lot out of ya to have to ask them for advice."

"It... did. But, it's clearly worth it." Alastor assured as he scooted up to Angel's torso. Smiling up close, he placed a kiss on their cheek. "Please, don't worry. I'd never force myself to do anything I didn't like."

Seeing as Angel still looked uncertain, Alastor stretched up again. Looking down, he looked a cross between frustrated and embarrassed. Presenting a hand down, Angel looked to the very thing that should've made things clear.

The deer's length twitched against him; a shaft that began bulbous, sharing the same paleness of the rest of Alastor's body, then a sudden shift to dark pink rod, a fine thickness arriving to a, like the beginning, round tip. An impressive size that was certainly girthier than Angel, and a bit longer to boot.

Oh, and a pair of globes below. Angel had overanalyzed, Of all people, he should've known arousal was hard to fake.

"Well... y'could be using magic." Angel looked away.

"To play pretend? All of this?" Alastor nearly laughed as he tipped Angel's chin back. . "My love, do I really have to say it?"

"..."

"Yes, my dear, you do stimulate me." The deer, again, placed a kiss on their cheek, then nuzzled into the very same spot. "I apologize if I don't let on to things so easily. I prefer to... calculate my distance, I suppose."

Angel returned the nuzzling, his arms pulling up behind to hug Alastor. "I'm sorry too. All of that big talk comin' from me, and here I am, hesitating about it all. Funny, ain't it..."

Alastor nodded, his ears flopping as he did. "Oh yes, it is quite amusing! I was so sure you would've ravaged me by now! Or had me ravage you... whichever!"

Angel's smile faltered. "I... guess I've been ruining the mood, talkin' so much."

"On the contrary, we have all night..."