Ok usual disclaimers apply and this will probably be my last fic, for a while.

The things I know by Hermione Jane Granger.

1:I know most people want to live. I have seen death and destruction caused by Voldermort. I have seen the good turn bad the bad turn good. I have seen men crumble and the smallest child stand strong.

2: I know I fell in love with Severus snape. It happened so slowly I didn't recognise it. After he killed Dumbldore I was sent to bring him to head quarters. Mivera Mcgonnal knew he was orderd to kill and that Albus was dieing with no cure. I hate Albus for that. He got the easy way out now if I could find somebody to do that for me instead of this wait. But after month of working together I fell in love with severus.

I guess I should explain the albus comment. I'm sick. I've been sick for a while but until know ive been able to hide it. Now it hurts when I walk. I can't help but feel tired consistently but when I rest my muscle seize up.

But that is not what I wanted to write about. I wanted to write how much I love my friends. How sorry I am to have let them down.

3: I know that life continues. The war has ended and were all back to Hogwarts to get the education we missed before.

4: I know that my friends are the best and that what breaks me. ( I can't face to see them I pain.)

I told severus today and he's hurting. I was in are living quarter when he came in. He was complaing about dunder heads but I know that he didn't mean it. I was just looking at him and I started to cry. Immediately he was at my side holding me. That's when I broke. I just looked into his eyes and I could stop my body shook. I told him. His face put up the mask I seen so many times. He looked at me and said we'd get through it together that I could beat it and he would never leave me.

5: I know that you always hurt the ones you love the most.

I feel my chest feeling heavy and I have started to cough up blood now. I can't go on any more treatment I've had enough sometime. Life isn't living if you are forever stuck on a machine.

6: I know I'm not afraid to die. Im just afraid to say goodbye.