Chapter 5

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October 25th 1985

It has been five months since Minerva's husband died and ever since then Hermione has been asking her Papa, more often, for stories about James, Lily, Peter and even Sirius. Even though it is hard on Remus to talk about the people he cares about so much Remus tells Hermione a new story every time she asks as he knows how much these stories mean to his daughter and he wants her to know about the people who were so important to him, the people who should have been important to her.

It is a Friday afternoon, a full day before the full moon so Remus is getting weaker, and Hermione and Remus are both in the bookshop, as Hermione has finished her homework already she is looking through the stacks.

"What are you looking for, Mione?" Remus asks his daughter curious as he walks up to her.

"Where are your magic books?" Hermione asks her Papa, "With Halloween coming up people are talking about witches and magic at school and they're wrong! What they are talking about isn't right and I want to show them that." Hermione explains to her Papa, stamping her foot as she speaks.

"Okay, come sit down." Remus tells his daughter and he and Hermione walk over to the table that Hermione frequently sits at and they sit down, "I know it's hard but you can't tell people at school about Magic, you can't tell them that they are wrong." Remus tells his daughter, making sure that he is facing her.

"But they are! They say that witches are green and have warts and we don't!" Hermione tells her Papa, sounding upset.

"No, you don't." Remus says, smiling at her daughter, "Magic is a secret Hermione. It's a secret for a very good reason and you've got to keep that secret, even when it's hard to. It's a very important one." Remus explains, "Once Halloween passes people stop talking like that about Magic and witches, I know it's not easy, but you just have to ignore them, Hermione." Remus explains.

"It's not fair." Hermione tells her father, crossing her arms.

"No, it's not." Remus confirms.

"Why don't you like Halloween?" Hermine asks curious.

"What makes you think I don't like Halloween?" Remus asks his daughter as while he really doesn't because of what happens he isn't sure how his daughter would have realised.

"You're sad around Halloween." Hermione says, "You're sad now." She tells her father, making Remus realises that his daughter notices a lot more than realised.

"It's not Halloween that makes me sad." Remus explains to his daughter, "Your Uncle James and Aunt Lily died on Halloween, Peter died the day after and your Dad…. Your Dad had to go away at about the same time." Remus explains, not sure whether mentioning Sirius is a good idea or not.

"Oh, it makes you miss them." Hermione realises, "Think about them more."

"Yeah, it does." Remus answers sadly.

"I'm sorry, Papa." Hermione says before hugging his daughter.

"I'm sorry too." Remus responds as he hugs his daughter, "How about we go grab some dinner and then head home." Remus suggests to his daughter, suggesting take out, which is something they don't have very often, because there is some extra money in the budget this week.

"McDonalds?" Hermione asks, looking excited at the prospect.

"I guess so." Remus says, with a sigh, as he really isn't the biggest fan of McDonalds, and isn't sure he likes the idea of Hermione eating it, but Hermione clearly wants it, "But only this once."

"Yay." Hermione says, sounding excited.

"Pack up your bag while I close the register." Remus tells his daughter.

"Okay." Hermione says and she goes and packs up her bag while Remus heads over to the register.


Almost an hour later Remus and Hermione have eaten their dinner and are returning home.

"Hermione go take your bag upstairs and then come down to the study, there is something I want to show you." Remus tells his daughter.

"Okay, Papa." Hermione says before running upstairs.

As Hermione heads upstairs Remus heads to the study which is just off the entranceway. Once he is in the study Remus walks over to the built in bookshelves that line the entire wall furthest from the door to the room, across from the desk and near the couch that is in the room, and opens all the cupboards that line the bottom of the shelves, revealing all of his, and even ones that once belonged to Sirius, magical text books.

A couple of minutes after Remus walked into the study Hermione walks in.

"What are all those?" Hermione asks, sounding amazed, seeing the books.

"These are all my magic books." Remus reveals, "There are no magic books at the bookshop, Hermione, only here." Remus explains to his daughter.

"Can I read them?" Hermione asks, looking at her father in amazement.

"You can." Remus says, "But, there are rules." Remus tells his daughter, "You can only read these books if you tell me first and tell me what book you want to read." Remus tells his daughter, "You're not allowed to read these on your own, do you understand?" Remus asks her.

"Yes." Hermione says with a nod.

"Do you promise me that you won't read one of these books before talking to me?" Remus asks her father.

"Yes." Hermione says with a nod.

"Good."

"Can we read something now?" Hermione asks her father.

"Sure, is there anything specific you want to read about?" Remus asks his daughter.

"Hogwarts!" Hermione tells her father.

"Okay, I think I have the perfect book." Remus tells his daughter before walking over to one of the cupboards and pulling out his copy of Hogwarts; a History, "I think you're going to like this." Remus informs his daughter.

"Hogwarts; a History." Hermione reads, "I like the sound of that." Hermione says with a smile and together the two of them walk over to the couch and sit down next to each other, Remus putting his arm around Hermione as they sit, "You ready?" Remus asks Hermione once they are sitting on the couch.

"Yes." Hermione says and Remus starts to read Hogwarts a History to Hermione who is reading along too, finding every word fascinating.


March 26th 1986

In the five months that have passed since Remus showed his magical text books and in that time Hermione has read some of them many times, but she hasn't broken her father's rules. Every time she reads one it is either with Remus or after receiving her father's permission.

It is a full moon and because Emma and Dan had to go out of town and it was easier for Albus to get away from Hogwarts than Minerva, Albus is staying at Hermione and Remus's house, looking after Hermione.

It is about two am and Hermione, thinking that Albus is probably asleep by now, is sneaking downstairs so that she can do something that she promised her Papa she wouldn't do, look though his magic text books without her father's permission.

Getting down to the study Hermione knows that she can't turn on the light and so she uses her reading touch and heads over to the books cupboards. Opening the first one Hermione starts to look though the names.

"Magical creatures, anything on magical creatures." Hermione says to herself as she looks through the titles, "No, no, no." Hermione says looking through the titles. After looking through the first cupboard Hermione doesn't find anything, nor does she in the second, but in the third she finds a book that may just have what she is looking for.

Pulling the third book out Hermione turns to the index in the back of the book and starts looking, "Werewolves, werewolves." Hermione says, searching through the index, "There." Hermione says, finding the right page and then when she finds it she starts to flip through the pages trying to find the right one, but then, thanks to accidental magic the book just flips to exactly the right page.

As she reads Hermione quickly realises that her suspicion may just be right.

"Hermione." A voice says, as the light turns on and Hermione looks up to see Albus standing in the doorway, "What are you doing up? It's late and you're not supposed to read those book without telling someone first." Albus says, walking over to Hermione.

"Albus, is Papa a werewolf?" Hermione asks, managing to do something that doesn't happen often and surprising Albus.

"Why would you ask that?" Albus asks as he sits down next to Hermione, knowing that he is going to have to be very careful about what he says.

"Last year I read a story about a werewolf, and I found it interesting so I read some more muggle books about werewolves, and I realised it sounds a lot like Papa." Hermione explains, "Papa goes away a lot and I realised it's always on the full moons and he's sick just before the full moon and hurt after. And, Dad, Uncle James and Peter used to call him Moony as in Moon and I thought that maybe the muggle books were wrong so I wanted to check in Dad's text books, but it's saying some of the same things." Hermione explains to Albus, "Papa's a werewolf, isn't he?" she asks, looking up at Albus.

"I think you need to talk to you Papa about this." Albus tells Hermione, knowing that it isn't his place to tell Hermione about Remus, he knows that this is something Remus has to tell her.

"That means I'm right, doesn't it?" Hermione asks as she is pretty sure that Albus would tell her if she was wrong.

"It means that it is late and you have school tomorrow so you should get some sleep." Albus says, closing the book that Hermione is reading, "Your Papa will likely be home when you get home from school and I think it would be best to talk about it with him then." Albus tells Hermione.

"Okay." Hermione says with a sigh, realising that Albus isn't going to answer her questions.

"Joly good." Albus says and both Hermione and Albus head out of the room and upstairs, Albus being worried about how Remus is going to react to Hermione figuring out what he is.


After helping Hermione back to bed Albus doesn't find himself getting much sleep as he listens for signs that Hermione has gotten up again. Hours later Albus gets up make Hermione's breakfast and then he takes her to school where he is mistaken, and he doesn't correct them because it would be too hard to explain, for Hermione's grandfather.

It has been a few hours since Albus dropped Hermione at school and he is sitting in the living area when the back door opens and Remus, looking pretty weak and hurt from the full moons stumbles into the house.

"Remus." Albus says, walking over and helping Remus to walk over to one of the armchairs.

"How was Hermione?" Remus asks, "Is she okay?" He asks as Albus helps him to sit down into the armchair.

"Hermione's fine, she's off at school." Albus says, sitting down in a chair next to Remus, "But there is something you have to talk to her about."

"What is it? What happened?" Remus asks worried.

"I found her reading one of your text books early this morning. She was reading it to see if her suspicion was correct." Albus explains.

"What suspicion?" Remus asks, getting a sinking suspicion in her stomach.

"That you're a Werewolf." Albus says in a kind voice.

"How….? What….? How'd she figure it out?" Remus asks, though he realises that with how smart his daughter is he should have seen it coming. Hearing the question Albus begins to explain everything that happened hours earlier.


Hours later, Remus has gotten a little sleep and Albus has helped Remus in the ways he can before he left to go collect Hermione from school for Remus.

As he sits in the living area waiting for Albus to return with Hermione Remus is running through how he plans for this conversation with Hermione to go, though he knows that there is a chance, and a pretty big one that things won't go to plan. As he knows that Hermione should be home any minute Remus finds his anxiety growing as he really doesn't know how Hermione is going to react to everything he is going to tell her. Honestly, Remus didn't intend to tell Hermione about him until she was older, but Albus said that she asked him directly whether he was a werewolf and because of that Remus isn't going to lie.

As he hears the door open Remus feels himself tense as he knows that one of two moments he has been dreading is finally upon him.

"Papa." Hermione says, running into the room and over to her father, "I missed you." Hermione says, hugging her father.

"I missed you too." Remus responds as he returns the hug.

"I've got to get back to Hogwarts. It was nice spending time with you, Hermione." Albus tells the young girl.

"I liked spending time with you too." Hermione confirms as she sits down next to her father.

"Thank you, Albus." Remus says sincerely.

"Of course, My Boy." Albus says before leaving the house to go to a point where he can Apparate.

"How was school?" Remus asks his daughter.

"Good, I finished a book at recess and I borrowed a book that I think Neville I going to like." Hermione explains to her father.

"Well done of finishing a book." Remus tells his daughter with a proud smile, "What book do you think Neville will like?" Remus asks curious.

"It's one on plants, they're muggle plants but I think Neville will still like it." Hermione explains.

"I think he'll like it too." Remus tells his daughter, "Are you going to take it with you this weekend?'"

"Yes." Hermione says with a nod and the father and daughter drift into silence.

"Is there something you want to tell me Hermione?" Remus asks, breaking the silence after a couple of minutes, "Maybe about you doing something you promised you wouldn't." Remus suggests, giving his daughter a look.

"I'm sorry, Papa." Hermione says, looking guilty.

"I know that you want to read those books, Hermione, but you're not ready to read some of them yet, and you know that. I know it might not seem fair but you need to ask before you read those books, at least until you're a little older." Remus explains to his daughter.

"I know, Papa." Hermione answers, as she does know that, "I just wanted to know if I was right and I didn't want to ask you until I knew. I thought that the books were the only way to find out." Hermione explains.

"I understand that Hermione, but I don't want you to ever worry about asking me something." Remus tells his daughter, "If there is anything you want to know, any questions you have I want you to come to me, ask me them, and I'll do my best to answer them, or I'll help you find the answers, or just point you in the direction of the right book." Remus explains to his daughter, "Never be scared of coming to me, or asking me anything, okay?" Remus asks Hermione.

"Okay." Hermione says with another nod, and then she takes a deep breath, "Are you a Werewolf, Papa?" Hermione asks her father.

"Yes, I am." Remus answers, bracing himself for how to his daughter is going to react. A part of Remus is expecting Hermione to move away from him in fear, but she doesn't, she just looks up at her father in interest.

"What exactly does that mean?" Hermione asks, "I didn't get to read much of the book before Albus found me." Hermione admits.

"It means that once a month I turn into a werewolf. Once I turn I have no control over myself over what I do, it's horrible." Remus admits, "It's painful, and I remember everything I do. When I leave you it's because I take myself somewhere safe, somewhere where I can't hurt anyone, because I wold never forgive myself if I did." Remus explains, trying to do it in the simplest, and kindest way possible for his daughter's sake.

"Why are you hurt sometimes when you come home?" Hermione asks as she doesn't see how that would happen.

"I hurt myself, or more specifically my wolf self-hurts me, because there is nothing else to hurt." Remus explains to his surprise Hermione hugs him.

"I'm sorry, Papa." Hermione says returning the hug.

"Thank you, Hermione." Remus says, returning the hug.

"How'd you become a werewolf?" Hermione asks her father as they break apart, but Remus keeps his arm around his daughter, an arm that Hermione doesn't move away from.

"When I was a little younger than you are now a bad man, who happened to be a werewolf, broke into my room and bite me, turned me. My father drove him away with a spell." Remus explains to his daughter, leaving out some details, but being as open as possible.

"Are there a lot of werewolves?"

"There are some." Remus answers, "There are good people who become werewolves and bad people who become werewolf, but it doesn't matter what kind of person you are before the full moon. If you are a werewolf you become an uncontrollable monster during the full moon." Remus explains to his daughter, not wanting to scare her but wanting Hermione to understand just how dangerous werewolves are.

"Don't call yourself a monster, Papa." Hermione says in a stern voice, it being clear that she doesn't like that, "You're not a monster. You're my Papa." Hermione says.

"Hermione…." Remus starts to say, but he once more finds himself getting cut off by his six-year-old daughter.

"You're not a monster Papa! And I don't want you to call yourself one." Hermione tells her father.

"Okay, I won't, but Hermione I am dangerous on a full moon and I need you to understand that. I don't want you ever to be near me on a full moon." Remus tells his daughter, "It's very important that you stay away and you never attempt to find or follow me when I leave on a full moon, okay?" Remus asks.

"Okay, I won't." Hermione says with a nod.

"Good." Remus says, feeling relief, though he knows that he will be careful to make sure his daughter hasn't followed him, "Do you have any other questions?" Remus asks.

"In the book it said that Werewolves are rejected by magical society. Is that true?" Hermione asks, looking at her father with sad eyes as she doesn't want to think about her father having to experience that.

"Yes, it's true." Remus confirms, causing Hermione to frown and look upset so Remus squeezes her with the arm he has around her, "Very few people know what I am, fewer accept it and most of the magical world would reject me if they knew. There are a lot of laws that are against werewolves in the magical world, all of which affect me, make some things harder for me, even though we mainly live in the muggle one." Remus explains, there being no pain in his voice as he is used to that.

"That's stupid." Hermione says with a frown.

"Yes, it is." Remus confirms, not having it in him to correct his daughter's language, "Before Albus became headmaster I never thought I would be able to go to Hogwarts." He reveals.

"But you did. You meet Daddy, and Uncle James, and Aunt Lily, and Peter." Hermione says.

"Yes, I did and that was because Albus let me, because he made ways for it to be safe for me to attended. He gave me a chance that very few others would have." Remus explain to his daughter, there being extreme gratitude in his voice.

"I'm glad he did." Hermione says with a grin as she lays down on her father's chest.

"So am I." Remus confirms as he runs his hand through his daughter's hair.

"Does Daddy know? Did Uncle James, Aunt Lily and Peter?" Hermione asks, curious.

"Yes." Remus confirms, "Your Daddy, Uncle James and Peter found out during second year and like you they accepted me…"

"Good." Hermione says, causing Remus to smile.

"And they also did one of the most incredible things that anyone has ever done for me." Remus explains.

"What did they do?" Hermione asks.

"They did something very dangerous, something that they would get into a lot of trouble if anyone knew about, even now." Remus reveals, having decided that he is going to tell Hermione what exactly James, Sirius and Peter did, but only after making it clear that it has to be a secret, partly because he doesn't want Dumbledore to be disappointed in him, and partly to protect Sirius, because he can't betray him completely, not when there is a part of him that refuses to believe Sirius's guilt, "If I tell you what they did you can't tell anyone, and that includes Neville, Albus, Minnie, Mrs Longbottom, Dan and Emma, can you do that? Can you keep this a secret?" Remus asks his daughter.

"Yes, Papa." Hermione confirms and Remus watches his daughter's face carefully and realises that she is telling the truth.

"When your Dad, Uncle James and Peter found out what I was, and what that meant, they learnt how to become Animagi." Remus explains.

"What does that mean?" Hermione asks, confused.

"It means that during our fifth year at Hogwarts they could turn themselves, at will, into animals." Rems explains, "It helped me because I'm less dangerous to animals." Remus explains, "They were able to help me be more like my real self during full moons."

"That's so cool!" Hermione says, "Can I learn how to do that?" Hermione asks, surprising Remus as he wasn't expecting that question.

"We'll talk about it when you're older, much, much older." Remus tells Hermione, thinking that it is probably a safer answer than an outright no.

"Okay." Hermione says, completely accepting that answer, "What animal can Daddy become?" Hermione says, asking a question Remus was expecting.

"Daddy can turn into a dog, a big, shaggy, black one." Remus explains, a small smile on his face as he thinks about Padfoot as thinking about his mate's alter ego doesn't hurt quiet as much as thinking about Sirius in his human form.

"Like Paddy?" Hermione asks.

"Yeah, exactly like that. Your Dad looks a lot like Paddy when he transforms and we used to call him Padfoot, but you used to call him Paddy when he transformed." Remus reveals.

"Really?" Hermione asks, sounding amazed.

"Really." Remus confirms and the two of them once more drift into silence, Hermione thinking about everything her Papa has told her while Remus is thinking about how that went better than he even imagined it would.

"Do you have any more questions, Hermione?" Remus asks his daughter after few minutes of silence.

"No." Hermione answers, "No, yes. Can we read Hogwarts; A History again?" Hermione asks Remus.

"Sure." Remus says with an amused look on his face as he is pretty sure that that is his daughter's favourite book, "In on my desk, why don't you go get it." Remus suggests as he keeps that book out as Hermione frequently asks to read it.

"Okay, I love you Papa." Hermione says.

"I love you too, Hermione." Remus says as his daughter climbs down and goes running out of the room.

As he listens to his daughter go Remus finds himself smiling as he was expecting that conversation to go horribly, but it didn't. His daughter completely accepts him, and isn't afraid of him like he was expecting, that knowledge fills him with joy and even though it is only a few hours after a full moon he feels like he could do anything.


19th September 1986

It has been six months since Remus confirmed to Hermione that he is a werewolf and since then Hermione has had a few more questions, which Remus has answered and because she now understands why he has to leave Hermione doesn't fight Remus leaving as much, though it is clear that she still doesn't like it, and Remus finds chocolate and quiet often Hermione herself, wanting for him to come home. When she is waiting for him Hermione always greats her father with a gentle hug that always manages to make Remus feel a little better.

As it is was a full moon and now it is Hermione's birthday Remus started on his way home as soon as it was safe for him to do so as he wanted to be home when Hermione woke up. Walking into the house, having come from the structure that is basically a secure bunker where he can lock himself inside that Sirius obtained for him after they left Hogwarts, Remus is surprised to find not just Emma in the kitchen, but Minerva as well.

"Minerva?" Remus asks, leaning against the doorframe so he doesn't fall over, "What are you doing here? Has something happened? Is Hermione okay?" he asks worried.

"Hermione's fine." Minerva says as she walks over and puts Remus's arm around her shoulder so that she can help him over to one of the chairs, "Emma and I knew that considering it is Hermione's birthday you are going to push yourself, even run yourself into the ground, to make it a great day for her so we're here to help." Minerva explains to Remus as she helps him over to the couch, "Neville, Augusta, Dan, Albus and even Poppy will be here later for the party." Minerva explains.

"Thank you." Remus says, looking at his old head of house in gratitude.

"You don't have to thank me." Minerva tells Remus saying words that she finds herself saying to Remus a lot, "Have you checked to see how bad your injuries are?"

"No, I wanted to get home." Remus explains, and as he says so he hears Hermione run down the stairs, so he once more forces himself to stand up, swaying slightly and almost falling over until Minerva reaches out and steadies him, "Hey, Birthday Girl." Remus says with a smile as Hermione walks into the room.

"PAPA." Hermione yells happily, running over and hugging her father, almost knocking him over as she does, "Sorry." Hermione quickly says when she realises what she almost did.

"It's okay, Hermione." Remus assures her daughter, "But I need to sit down." Remus admits his daughter as he sits down on the couch before he falls over.

"You need chocolate." Hermione tells her father before running into the kitchen.

"Hermione, chocolate doesn't help with everything." Emma says in a kind voice as Hermione grabs the chocolate she left out for her papa.

"Papa says it does." Hermione tells Emma, her voice making it sound like that puts an end to that argument, before hurrying back over to her father, "Here Papa." Hermione says as she sits down next to her father, handing him the chocolate.

"Thank you, Hermione." Remus says, smiling at his daughter, even though he is in pain.

"Did Moony hurt you again, Papa?" Hermione asks her father.

"Yeah, he did." Remus confirms.

"I'm sorry." Hermione tells her father, frowning.

"Me too." Remus admits, putting his arm around his daughter, "Minerva there is a gift in my top draw in the desk, could you go get it for me?" Remus asks curious, hating that he is asking for help but knowing that he isn't going to be able to get too far.

"Sure." Minerva says and she heads towards the study.

"I thought I don't open presents to the party." Hermione says to her father.

"Usually that is true, but there is something I want you to have now." Remus says, partly because he doesn't want people to open it around people who know what Sirius did, "It's special." He reveals.

"Really?" Hermione asks, looking excited at the possibility.

"Really." Remus confirms.

"Here you are Remus." Minerva says handing Remus a rectangular shaped wrapped in purple star wrapping paper.

"Thank you, Minerva." Remus says and Minerva walks back over to the kitchen.

"Happy Birthday, Mione." Remus says, handing the gift over to his daughter once Minerva is back in the kitchen.

Taking the gift from her father Hermione carefully starts to open it and once she opens it she finds a leather bound album inside.

"Open it." Remus tells his daughter with an encouraging smile, hoping that she likes it as money was a bit tighter than he was expecting so he did his best.

At her father's encouragement Hermione opens the leather album to the first page where there is a picture of four young boys with a small, handwritten paragraph below.

"That was your Dad, Uncle James, Peter and I during our first year at Hogwarts." Remus tells his daughter in a quiet voice, "I know you've been asking about them, and your Aunt Lily, a lot more lately so I thought you would like an album of photos. There is a caption that explains each picture on each page." Remus explains to his daughter as over the last few months he went through all his photos, and even ones that technically belong to Sirius, and made copies of the ones that he thought is daughter would like to put into an album. Even though most people probably won't approve there are a lot of photos of Sirius in the album, because he knows Hermione would like that.

"Thank you, Papa. Thank you so much." Hermione says hugging her father once more, "I love it." Hermione says, it being clear that he means that.

"I'm glad." Remus tells his daughter.

"Breakfast is ready, Hermione." Emma's voice says.

"Why don't you go put your album in your room." Remus tells his daughter.

"Okay, Papa." Hermione says before heading up to her room.

As he watches his daughter go Remus smiles to himself, being glad that is daughter is so happy with her present, though he wishes that he could have given his daughter more, give her whatever she wants even though Hermione doesn't really want for much.


Hours later Hermione is home from school, Remus is doing slightly better and Neville, Augusta, Albus, Poppy, Dan, Remus, Minerva and Emma are all together at Remus's and Hermione's house celebrating Hermione's seventh birthday.

Together Hermione and Neville are sitting on the ground being taught a new game by Poppy while Minerva and Augusta are adding in their own opinions and Emma and Dan are watching on in amusement.

For a long time Remus has been thinking about something and he's come to realise that now is the perfect change to talk to Albus about his decision and so Remus, moving slowly, walks over to the Headmaster.

"Can I talk to you in the study?" Remus asks Albus curious.

"Of course." Albus says and the two of them head into the study, both of them knowing that Minerva is watching them go.

One they get to the office Remus shuts the door behind them,

"What would you like to talk about?" Albus asks Remus curious.

"I've thought about it, a lot, and I want to visit Sirius." Remus tells Albus.

"I really don't think that would be a good idea." Albus tells Remus, telling the truth.

"Maybe not, but I think I need to." Remus says to Albus, "It's been almost five years and I still don't understand how he could do what he did. I don't know why. I don't know…. There is so much I don't know." Remus says, deciding that it is better to say that rather than all his reasons, "I need answers, Albus, and Sirius is the only one who can give them to me." Remus says as even after all this time there is still a part of him that doesn't want to, and can't believe Sirius is guilty, so he needs to hear it from Sirius himself, and if by some miracle his deepest desire is right and Sirius is innocent then he has to do whatever he can to help him.

"You are aware that the ministry doesn't allow visitors to Azkaban, especially not the high security prisoners." Albus tells Remus.

"I know that. I was hoping that you could do something to get the ministry to make an exception. I need to see him, please Albus." Remus says to Albus, hating that there is an undertone of begging to his voice, but he needs to see Sirius.

"I'll see what I can do." Albus says, though he's not entirely sure that he is going to because he suspects that visiting Sirius may just hurt Remus, may cause him to break apart, which he doesn't want as he does care about Remus, "With it being Sirius who you want visit, and what you are to him, there is a very good chance that the ministry won't allow you to visit him, no matter what I do."

"I know; I just have to try." Remus admits as he knows that if he doesn't even try then he'll always wonder.

"Okay." Albus says.

"Thank you, Sir." Remus says, "I'm better get back to my daughter." Remus says before leaving the study, feeling for the first time in five years that he may finally find out the truth, he has hope that he may see Sirius again.