CH:4- Trigging My Emotions
"Tread softly because you tread on my dreams..."
Robin's POV:
Later that evening the rain began to fall ans I tried to lie down in my bed and tried to have some sleep. For as long I've remembered I've tried to hide my emotions and once again I knew that I would break down very soon if not now perhaps later. The tears swelled in my eyes and this time I allowed myself to break in my grief unable to hold down any longer. And all had started after not taking the Prozium for close a year I had already developed the trait of the emotions and the feelings that were strictly forbidden here and only meant death if someone saw you revealing them.
For how long I had to go through this to feel a pain and grief and now the mistake I've made was too deep now and there was no way out or running back at all.Partridge might opened my eyes, but I had to find my way in the order to stay alive in this unemotional world. I've found myself falling so many times now and I've began to realize that the end was coming and only way out was to feel and die.
The mistake was already there since I had dared to fall for an one that would only bring the end to everything including this hidden and forbidden love I had in my heart way too long. The only way to keep this emotion at the bay was through long hours of complete meditation in which I've managed to block everything around me and find a peace in the silence.
WhenPreston returned home after the work, he found his son in a living room watching the television. The boy had indeed was a great promise to become a future Cleric like his father. The Cleric had been putting his gloves away when his son spoke in monotone voice:
"John," his eyes did not move from a screen before him andJohn stopped his work turning to look at him." There is a note for you. The teacher told me to give to you."
Prestonturned toward a table notcing an evelope that was lying there unopened with his name on it. Taking the envelope he headed to his room and opened it.The silver chain fell into his hand with a note attached to it saying one word: "Sorry" done in delicate female writting.
"Robin" Prestonmuttered under his breath." Why?"
Robin's POV:
Prestonwaited for a next day to come and to approach me again this time on much different matter. He found me speaking to one of my students before he walked up to me.
"Acolyte, a word with you if I may?" He said as I kept my eyes away from him.
"Of course Cleric," I had motioned him to the empty classroom.
"About yesterday..." I cut him down.
"No need, it was a mistake anyway. We are two different worlds that should not mix."
"This is it understanable then we have to stay that way then."
"I do not think that you are here only because what had happened yesterday." He gazed back at me.
He opened his and revealing the silver chain resting at the palm of his hand as he gazed back at me in the silence.
"Why did you send this to me?"
"As a reminder and thank you."
"For what?"
"For saving my life of course. I wanted to give you that on that terrible night as parting gift, but you were already gone form a sight so I had to wait till now to give you through your son."
"I think there is it more that you are not telling me."
"There is it nothing to hide, Cleric. I do not hide anything from you at all." I studied his expression again.
He reached over and tried to return the chain back to me, instead I simply closed his hand around it.
"Keep it as a memory." That was all I've told him.
He watched me blankly once more again a man that was completely blank when it came to the emotions and who would kill anyone that felt. He did not even a flintch at the contact that we made for a short second.
"I am keeping my eyes on you Robin." And with that he left the classroom.
Partridgewaited for Prestonto return and knew almost immediately where he was since he was heading back to the place where the Clerics desks were. He has gone to see Robin again obivious to see. Once he was seated,Patridge turned around to face him.
"Found anything suspicious about her?"
"I need to dig more deeply about this woman for something tells me that she is hiding something and won't reveal anything."
"How did you end up knowing her?"
"The mission in Nethers, the resistance outbreak she was only survior after her mother has been killed on her way to Libria.I've saved her but I've came too late to save her mother."Preston replied." She seemed too young but over that night it seemed she had changed instantly.
Prestontried to react back on his memory trying to remember what had happned two years ago in the alley. Something about Robin began to rise his question. Why would she be outside with her mother and alone? Then he understood and stood up from his seat immediately not even waiting forPartridge to respond or even stop him.
"Acolyte Meredith, where is she?" He asked one of passing guards.
"She had left a moment ago," Was the reply andPreston knew what he had to do in order to stop this and fast.
Robin's POV:
With a luck he was able to catch up with me just as I was about to enter the car.
"Stop where you are Acolyte!" I slowly turned watching him apporach as he grabbed me by a left arm." You are coming with me to Tetra Grammaton and this time there would be no excuses."
"ClericPreston get your hands off me."
"Careful Robin. How long have you stopped using it? How long you had been hiding that you can feel and not using Prozium?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Get in the car." He pushed me to enter at the back." Do not play with me Sense Offender."
I started to protest but he did not want to listen at all. How did he know? No one knew about my secret and yet he had found a reason to figure this out so easly.
"Cleric you are making a big mistake." again he blocked me out.
"Preston do not do this," Firm voice ofPartridge spoke behind bis back." She could not do this."
"Stay way from this, I told you already what happnes if person feels either she will get the bullet in the head or she would be burned alive, but to stay alive there would be no choice for her at all." He closed the door of a car and nodded to the driver to take them to Tetra Grammaton.
