CH 8-The Awake Of Feelings

Robin's POV:

Awakened, and confused to be hunted by the dreams of a man that I loathe in real life and love in my dreams was completely made me insane. I could not stand it any longer. I refused to have any contact by Mary for I could not bear to watch her being happy with something like that was not given to me at all. I was simply loosing the mind living like this as a sense offender.

I look in the mirror and see someone I don't recognize. A woman with a pinched face and gray cheeks and sad, sad eyes. Will I ever eat again? Will ever be able to think, and move, and take delight in anything?

I spend day after day in my darkened bedroom, black curtains covering the windows unable to do anything but weep and lie in my bed.

Preston's POV:

Partridge simply refused to speak to me. Since the several days had passed the situation was off hand. The rumors were flying outside the temple that Acolyte Meredith was gravely ill and has not being seen at work for weeks. At first, I had refused to believe this. Not Robin, she could be ill at all. Now, as I lay here in my bed I held the necklace that she gave me that I had not destroyed at all.

Why do I keep this silly thing? Why do I can not stop thinking about her? What is it going on with me that unknown sensation that I had not felt before? Felt. What I am talking about? I have no feelings nor I can feel that was not possible. Dear God, I am falling for her and I had not realized until now.

Quickly, I stood up from my bed and walked toward the bathroom. This has to stop at once, but when I was about to do something stopped me. I could not do it. My will was against it and I was in a dead end, only to realize that I had loved her more than anything in the whole world, and I've to see her one way or another.

I simply could not think of her any longer and I had to see her and fast. Her blue eyes. Sapphire blue eyes. Trying to fall asleep only to be hunted by a same dream over and over and over again was not a use at all.

I woke up in a horror. What was that? Why does my heart pounding hard like this? Why do I can not control myself? What has been happening to me? It was all because of her. All because of Robin and being constantly hunted by the image of blue eyed girl.

Reaching over, I picked up the delicate chain that could not let it to be destroyed. It simply could not be done at all. It was a thing that came to connect me with her. I wanted her in my life and yet, this was against everything that I might want to have.

Robin's POV:

I awakened when a hand came to shake me lightly on a shoulder. Looking up, I found Partridge staring down at me.

"We are here, come." Then he left the door was left open so I cold come out.

The coldness hit me from all sides, the icy daggers hit into my skin even through the thick velvet cloak. I was still shaking. The winter was surely here more harshly than weather in Libria. Silently, we walked to the one of the buildings and down the stairs to the basement where the several Resistance members were.

Mary who was already there took us by the fire so we could warm up, then I left them alone for I wanted to have some quiet time for myself taking one of seats and away from the crowd.

"Why can I not enjoy myself?" I asked Partridge quietly who was seating not far from me.

"For the same reason I cannot," he told me. "This sense offending can be deadly for both of us and it has to be quiet."

Sighing away, I stood up heading up the stairs and out form the building for I wanted to be alone.

"There is something strange happening with Robin," Mary told him." And whatever it is Cleric Preston is part of it."

"What do you mean?" He responded.

"If it were anyone else but the acolyte," Mary said slowly." I would say that there was a man involved but that cannot possibly be."

Partridge felt a shudder ripple down his spine. Could his cousin be foolish enough to have actually fallen in love with Preston? If Robin were stupid enough to involve herself with a man not just any man but Cleric, she would eventually be found out. There was always someone watching when you least expect it. And an acolyte's adultery was considered high treason.

An acolytes were expected not to get married until they reach late twenties and Robin was only twenty and that was a breaking of a code and she could be considered as offender and be sent to fire no questions asked. Partridge knew that this should not happen and with having Preston around it meant not the danger for Robin, but danger to them all.

The night was quiet here and cold, but I kept walking around staying near just in the case of a trouble. I could take the cover back to the building. Just when I thought about to go back to the building for the warmth of a basement, I could swear I heard the whining sound, which was coming from shadows near by. Followed by a sound my eyes caught a sight of a pup there all alone. Kneeling down I called it to me.

At first, pup hesitated, then slowly approached me until I picked it up into my arms wrapping it into my cloak. Poor thing left alone to freeze here in a cold night. If only I could take it to my apartment to be safe, but I know that meant no way for the animals were killed on question asked. How cruel that sounded but it was a law.

Just as a slowly as I stood up, the lights burned out from nowhere. Turning around I saw the approaching team of Sweepers, and with another trouble was in the sight. With luck I had managed to hide the dog quickly. The dead end was all that I saw with no way out.

"Acolyte you have been arrested for a sense offense…" And before the guard could finish the gunshot rang near by followed by several more as well.

It was done in a less of five minutes and when I was able to move I saw approaching Cleric. Preston, but why? He walked toward me. What the hell was he doing here? I could not move as he approached me and before I could come up with the words I found myself in his arms the way I had a dream of him.

"Are you hurt?" He asked.

"No," I could not keep myself from trembling in his arms." Why are you here?"

" I wanted to talk to you." Preston replied." There is way too much thinking going in my mind that I only me no good."

"And why is it that?" I stared back into his dark eyes.

"I am in the love with you, Robin, one way or another. I want you here in with me and please comeback into my life."

I could not believe what he was actually saying to me. There as no way that he was actually feeling. It was not possible at all.

"Teach me how to feel again," He said, his eyes watching me.

"Alright, but it would be not easy." I told him.

"I am ready to take that chance," He whispered and lean forward to kiss me for a first time.