"And, pray. Tell me what you are doing Ginny?" Hermione had been watching the girl for twenty minutes at least. Anger welling up inside her. Ginny looked at the reflection of Hermione, propped up in her bed. Ginny stammered not knowing what to say. "Would you like me to go down stairs and get you some popcorn?" Hermione intoned.
"I'm sorry. I was just curious." Ginny whimpered turning round to face her friend. Ginny's face was splattered with running mascara.
"Well, curiosity killed the cat Ginny." Hermione added with a disapproving look. "I asked you to look through my memories, not watch them. If Dumbledore finds out-" Ginny had come to join her friend.
"-He won't." Ginny cried joining Hermione on the bed. "I'm so sorry you've had to carry this alone. I'm sorry he's married. And I'm angry, so so angry at you." Hermione laughed sarcastically at this. "You slept in the same bed as Draco for almost a month. I would have forgiven you if you had told me."
"I couldn't. For his safety I couldn't..." Hermione paused, thought and then smiled. "How far have you gotten?"
"You're on the way to France to our caravan! Dumbledore called it our summer home as if it was a castle." Ginny explained. "Mum took you didn't she?"
"She wanted your Dad to take me, but thought I'd be better without a father figure on the journey." Hermione explained. "I'm still mad at you." Hermione smiled to tell Ginny she really wasn't that mad. In fact she was relieved someone knew the truth. A little too late.
"We might as well look through a little more. It may be of some use to you... And besides." Ginny winced at what she was about to say, fearing the reaction. "I really want to see Snape's new wife- Honestly, that's all I meant to do. I just got side tracked."
"It's ok Ginny." She led the girl back to the pensive.....
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Hermione inhaled her mothers sent. Her father's still lingered on her. Hermione couldn't look into her mother's eyes as they embraced outside the caravan in France. It was in the countryside, no other people about. Molly had immediately made herself scarce.
"My poor baby." Her mother's voice was now strong. Her body however wasn't. With her legs buckling under her, Hermione had to help her to a chair that was placed outside, facing the setting sun.
"This is all my fault." Hermione wept as she took in her mother's extensive wounds. Her scar! A sort of V shape upon her collar bone. Her hand went to her mothers scar. "THIS, this is my-"
"Do not blame yourself my girl." Her mother pulled her onto her lap. "This was meant to be. Everything has a purpose. What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger. Now come inside and have some tea. I would love to talk to Molly. I haven't spoken to her for a while."
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"I hated that she wouldn't talk to me about it. She kept changing the subject when ever is was brought up." The present Hermione sat upon the foot of the bed her knees tucked under chin sitting over Ginny who sat at the dresser, watching tea be made.
"People grieve in different ways." Ginny suggested, looking at Hermione through the mirror. She was simply shaking her head.
"But she wasn't allowing herself to grieve at all. She was trying to be strong for my sake, and I for hers. At the funeral neither of us cried if you remember." Ginny nodded. The funeral took place near Hogwarts were wards could be put up to protect everyone. "Mainly because I swore to myself I would never cry in front of Dumbledore ever again."
"Did Snape turn up?" Ginny questioned.
"No. Bastard Dumbledore sent him on a mission." Hermione spat.
"That were he met his wife?" Ginny enquired. Being distracted by raised voices in the pensive.
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"You will not speak about your father that way!" Elizabeth Granger shouted at her daughter. unaware that she was baiting her. "You do not speak ill of the dead." They were preparing a welcome home meal for the rest of the Weasley family.
"Bet he died like a coward. Crying. Bet dad told him to take you?!" Hermione shouted, slamming a plate down. Molly had left the room when the voices had raised. Elizabeth threw a plate into the sink with a smash. Reminding herself she would give money to the Weasley's for it.
"Don't even think your father would do that?!" Elizabeth starred her grown and bitter daughter down. "Stop attacking me because you blame yourself for not being there."
"Have I have no choice but to think it. You won't tell me what happened." She screamed. The scream echoed through the pensive and all through Hermione's room.
"Your father died." She answered coldly.
"Where?" Hermione asked.
"Our bedroom." Elizabeth broke down. "Three o'clock in the morning. There was five of them, death eaters. That's what you call them?!" Hermione nodded, if that was true. Voldermort wasn't present at her house. It was the mark of a death eater on her mother. "They had broken in without a sound. We didn't know they were there until they were right on top of us." Hermione could see it in her mothers eyes. She was reliving it. "They'd pulled your father out of the bed while they... they... he tried to put up a fight and killed your father instantly. He didn't stand a chance." Hermione cradled her mother.
"While they what mum? What did the do to you?" Hermione questioned fearing the worst."
"They raped me and branded me." It wasn't a V. It was an L. Hermione had questions she wanted to ask. But they were disturbed. By the boy-who-lived and his red haired best friend.
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"They never intended to kill my mother!" Hermione was upon Ginny's lap. Both in tears. "Mudblood. They think us dirty, so they treat us like whores! I really needed Severus then"
"That's why your mum wouldn't talk about it Hermione. Rape is something so shameful. She felt she was to blame. Don't you look at her differently now?"
"No!" Hermione answered honestly. "I did. Like she was my child to be protected. Those death eaters did it on purpose. Voldermort had a plan. He wanted me to seek revenge."
"And possibly get you side tracked! You became so bitter and full of revenge. I don't think your mother ever wanted that. They were Voldermort's army."
"Least I knew they were killable Ginny. And I could get revenge without betraying Severus' oath." Hermione traced the feint scars that were on her arm. Her only tie to him that no one could take away, she would never betray him on that. "The hunt was back on."
"But your wand?!" Ginny asked.
A/N: Little short. Little darker. Next chapter is going to be longer I promise. However It might be a while before I post as the folks are getting narky that I haven't done any revision. Any help on the Duchess of Malfi would be greatly appreciated as my teacher doesn't have a clue. Label e-mails to the Get Cpt Crash out of big trouble and into her film studies course appeal. lol.
Next chapter will deal with the relationships of Hermione, Harry and Ron. Mainly Harry. I hadn't intended this to be such a dark and bitter story but that's how I'm feeling at the moment. Dark and bitter.
tall freak: I was a little OTT with the whole house thing wasn't I? lol. Toned it down in this chapter without having to change to previous. I'm glad you like mean Dumbledore, I felt so very wrong putting those words into his mouth. I'm glad I've sorted Snape out. I hadn't intended him to declare his love at all when I first began writing it. It was just going to be a bit of fluff about the incidents Hermione got into with him. Turned out as something completely different I guess. lol
punkrock pixie: Big thank you, and masses of chocolate frogs. Your suggestion will possible fill the bulk of one of the following two chapters. What do you think of her making her own????? I know what two things I'm going to put in her wand. You'll have to read on to find out what. What I can tell you is, no innocence here.
Crimson Regret177: I really didn't mean for it to be so angsty. I just let whatever was in my head flow. I was however in an angsty mood as it was the third time this week I have waited up for a dedication on the radio which they ignored.
SiruisBlacksgirl4eva: I've woken up Hermione for you. She was going to stay asleep for the whole story. But I wasn't intending it to be so long, and I do believe if Ginny stays, there won't be a party to go to!!!!! Draco is going to be explained when we get back to hogwarts in about two or three chapters.
Arallion: Yep, I did mean Ginny and not Hermione in chapter three. Big oops. I did have a feeling Dumbledore was spelt like that. I don't know why I wrote it the way I did. As for Spelling and Grammar. It's the reason I'm failing my English a-levels. I'm not good at spelling, and my syntax is poor because when I'm writing I'm thinking two steps ahead. Or in this case two chapters ahead. Thank you for pointing it out and I am at the moment revising my work.
I've added my story to something called darksarcasm.com. If you would like to rate it, please do.
Hopefully I'll update by the weekend as I'm now off to do my RS, English and Media revision. Once I go back to school on Monday. It might be a chapter a week, or one every other day when I'm lazy with my revision. Please keep reading. it will be worth it.
much love.
"I'm sorry. I was just curious." Ginny whimpered turning round to face her friend. Ginny's face was splattered with running mascara.
"Well, curiosity killed the cat Ginny." Hermione added with a disapproving look. "I asked you to look through my memories, not watch them. If Dumbledore finds out-" Ginny had come to join her friend.
"-He won't." Ginny cried joining Hermione on the bed. "I'm so sorry you've had to carry this alone. I'm sorry he's married. And I'm angry, so so angry at you." Hermione laughed sarcastically at this. "You slept in the same bed as Draco for almost a month. I would have forgiven you if you had told me."
"I couldn't. For his safety I couldn't..." Hermione paused, thought and then smiled. "How far have you gotten?"
"You're on the way to France to our caravan! Dumbledore called it our summer home as if it was a castle." Ginny explained. "Mum took you didn't she?"
"She wanted your Dad to take me, but thought I'd be better without a father figure on the journey." Hermione explained. "I'm still mad at you." Hermione smiled to tell Ginny she really wasn't that mad. In fact she was relieved someone knew the truth. A little too late.
"We might as well look through a little more. It may be of some use to you... And besides." Ginny winced at what she was about to say, fearing the reaction. "I really want to see Snape's new wife- Honestly, that's all I meant to do. I just got side tracked."
"It's ok Ginny." She led the girl back to the pensive.....
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Hermione inhaled her mothers sent. Her father's still lingered on her. Hermione couldn't look into her mother's eyes as they embraced outside the caravan in France. It was in the countryside, no other people about. Molly had immediately made herself scarce.
"My poor baby." Her mother's voice was now strong. Her body however wasn't. With her legs buckling under her, Hermione had to help her to a chair that was placed outside, facing the setting sun.
"This is all my fault." Hermione wept as she took in her mother's extensive wounds. Her scar! A sort of V shape upon her collar bone. Her hand went to her mothers scar. "THIS, this is my-"
"Do not blame yourself my girl." Her mother pulled her onto her lap. "This was meant to be. Everything has a purpose. What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger. Now come inside and have some tea. I would love to talk to Molly. I haven't spoken to her for a while."
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"I hated that she wouldn't talk to me about it. She kept changing the subject when ever is was brought up." The present Hermione sat upon the foot of the bed her knees tucked under chin sitting over Ginny who sat at the dresser, watching tea be made.
"People grieve in different ways." Ginny suggested, looking at Hermione through the mirror. She was simply shaking her head.
"But she wasn't allowing herself to grieve at all. She was trying to be strong for my sake, and I for hers. At the funeral neither of us cried if you remember." Ginny nodded. The funeral took place near Hogwarts were wards could be put up to protect everyone. "Mainly because I swore to myself I would never cry in front of Dumbledore ever again."
"Did Snape turn up?" Ginny questioned.
"No. Bastard Dumbledore sent him on a mission." Hermione spat.
"That were he met his wife?" Ginny enquired. Being distracted by raised voices in the pensive.
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"You will not speak about your father that way!" Elizabeth Granger shouted at her daughter. unaware that she was baiting her. "You do not speak ill of the dead." They were preparing a welcome home meal for the rest of the Weasley family.
"Bet he died like a coward. Crying. Bet dad told him to take you?!" Hermione shouted, slamming a plate down. Molly had left the room when the voices had raised. Elizabeth threw a plate into the sink with a smash. Reminding herself she would give money to the Weasley's for it.
"Don't even think your father would do that?!" Elizabeth starred her grown and bitter daughter down. "Stop attacking me because you blame yourself for not being there."
"Have I have no choice but to think it. You won't tell me what happened." She screamed. The scream echoed through the pensive and all through Hermione's room.
"Your father died." She answered coldly.
"Where?" Hermione asked.
"Our bedroom." Elizabeth broke down. "Three o'clock in the morning. There was five of them, death eaters. That's what you call them?!" Hermione nodded, if that was true. Voldermort wasn't present at her house. It was the mark of a death eater on her mother. "They had broken in without a sound. We didn't know they were there until they were right on top of us." Hermione could see it in her mothers eyes. She was reliving it. "They'd pulled your father out of the bed while they... they... he tried to put up a fight and killed your father instantly. He didn't stand a chance." Hermione cradled her mother.
"While they what mum? What did the do to you?" Hermione questioned fearing the worst."
"They raped me and branded me." It wasn't a V. It was an L. Hermione had questions she wanted to ask. But they were disturbed. By the boy-who-lived and his red haired best friend.
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"They never intended to kill my mother!" Hermione was upon Ginny's lap. Both in tears. "Mudblood. They think us dirty, so they treat us like whores! I really needed Severus then"
"That's why your mum wouldn't talk about it Hermione. Rape is something so shameful. She felt she was to blame. Don't you look at her differently now?"
"No!" Hermione answered honestly. "I did. Like she was my child to be protected. Those death eaters did it on purpose. Voldermort had a plan. He wanted me to seek revenge."
"And possibly get you side tracked! You became so bitter and full of revenge. I don't think your mother ever wanted that. They were Voldermort's army."
"Least I knew they were killable Ginny. And I could get revenge without betraying Severus' oath." Hermione traced the feint scars that were on her arm. Her only tie to him that no one could take away, she would never betray him on that. "The hunt was back on."
"But your wand?!" Ginny asked.
A/N: Little short. Little darker. Next chapter is going to be longer I promise. However It might be a while before I post as the folks are getting narky that I haven't done any revision. Any help on the Duchess of Malfi would be greatly appreciated as my teacher doesn't have a clue. Label e-mails to the Get Cpt Crash out of big trouble and into her film studies course appeal. lol.
Next chapter will deal with the relationships of Hermione, Harry and Ron. Mainly Harry. I hadn't intended this to be such a dark and bitter story but that's how I'm feeling at the moment. Dark and bitter.
tall freak: I was a little OTT with the whole house thing wasn't I? lol. Toned it down in this chapter without having to change to previous. I'm glad you like mean Dumbledore, I felt so very wrong putting those words into his mouth. I'm glad I've sorted Snape out. I hadn't intended him to declare his love at all when I first began writing it. It was just going to be a bit of fluff about the incidents Hermione got into with him. Turned out as something completely different I guess. lol
punkrock pixie: Big thank you, and masses of chocolate frogs. Your suggestion will possible fill the bulk of one of the following two chapters. What do you think of her making her own????? I know what two things I'm going to put in her wand. You'll have to read on to find out what. What I can tell you is, no innocence here.
Crimson Regret177: I really didn't mean for it to be so angsty. I just let whatever was in my head flow. I was however in an angsty mood as it was the third time this week I have waited up for a dedication on the radio which they ignored.
SiruisBlacksgirl4eva: I've woken up Hermione for you. She was going to stay asleep for the whole story. But I wasn't intending it to be so long, and I do believe if Ginny stays, there won't be a party to go to!!!!! Draco is going to be explained when we get back to hogwarts in about two or three chapters.
Arallion: Yep, I did mean Ginny and not Hermione in chapter three. Big oops. I did have a feeling Dumbledore was spelt like that. I don't know why I wrote it the way I did. As for Spelling and Grammar. It's the reason I'm failing my English a-levels. I'm not good at spelling, and my syntax is poor because when I'm writing I'm thinking two steps ahead. Or in this case two chapters ahead. Thank you for pointing it out and I am at the moment revising my work.
I've added my story to something called darksarcasm.com. If you would like to rate it, please do.
Hopefully I'll update by the weekend as I'm now off to do my RS, English and Media revision. Once I go back to school on Monday. It might be a chapter a week, or one every other day when I'm lazy with my revision. Please keep reading. it will be worth it.
much love.
