Gone as Patience

i hate the way they showcase you
the way you accept your ego
like its a world of its own
in your head it all makes sense

well in my mind we made sense too
but you left that discarded
my feelings my thoughts
you deserted my emotions

i needed you
but you were gone
off with her
in the back of your mind

we never had a chance
because you never gave me one
i always thought it was me who wasn't trying
but no, it was you who never gave me confidence

i thought i tripped
but you dropped me.
left me.
alone, sad, crying,

your not the guy i need
the words are right
but you heart is wrong
my soul searched for you
but the gate was barred

i followed the path
but you gave the wrong directions
you knew i was searching
but you never fixed my compass

i wanted to trust you
yet you never let me
i cried over you
i CRIED

but you ignored me
cast me aside
shed my love

i can only try so many times
try to love you
hold on to what we could have had
grasp it as it was falling

i don't deserve you
at least not now
i've realized how
you treat them all

the reasons why
i'm now unblinded
the love i had for you
is now forgotten
there was so much you could have done
but you walked by
right on by
i stood and watched
do you remember
no of course you dont
you were too busy focusing on yourself
on her
did you ever love her
you said you did
but then again
you said you weren't oblivious
too

we
two letters that you could have written
could have said
to me
that's all i asked of you
i gave you all that i could
and only asked for you to say one thing
us

someday you may look back
and think of me
but i wont look back
and think of you

--me