PJ!
This just isn't right. I don't believe it. She can't be gone. Not my Joey. First Maggie was taken away and now Jo. Maybe I'm cursed. Maybe I did something wrong in a past life and I am being punished for it now. I don't know. All I know is it just isn't fair. Why can't I be given a chance? Why does everything always end up badly for me?
When Maggie died I never thought I was ever going to love again. Then Jo came along and she proved me wrong. She opened up my heart and taught me to love once again. She made me happier than I had ever been since Maggie died. We were going to get married. We had even talked about having kids. Then I had to ruin it all by letting the past come back to haunt me.
I should have just left it alone. If I hadn't perused the issue then none of this would ever have been brought up and Jo would still be alive. Then we could be happy together. I lost her. She's gone and she's never coming back. I can't believe it. I want to believe it because I know if I face the truth and accept the facts then the pain wont be as bad. If only it were that easy. I just can't forget everything we've been through together.
I remember every little thing about her. The way she laughed, the way she kept her feelings inside so everyone thought she was tough and the way she called my name when we made love. I miss her smell, her touch I miss everything about her. I just want her back so much.
But wishing is never going to do any good. I have to get out there. I have to take action. I have to get my revenge. Barry Baxter is going down. He's the one that did this to us. He's the one that made us lose our station, our Clancy and worst of all…my Joey. If it weren't for him then Jo would still be here with me sitting on my lap. Instead of being just a pile of ash.
There were two lots of remains found in the station after the fire went out. One we knew was Clancy. The other…well everyone just assumed it was Jo. I am just hoping so much that there is a chance she could still be alive. They are testing the remains for DNA. There is a chance the DNA wont match Jo's but I know that it's not going to happen.
I just wish there was some way that I could go back in time and change everything that happened. A way to stop what had happened. Then we'd still have the station and Clancy and we'd still have Jo.
Jo
I walked up the steps of the Apartment block. I knew nobody would be home this time of day so I let myself in. This was the only safe place I could think of to go to. Everybody thought I was dead so this was the most logical place to go. The only other person that knew I would come here was Maggie, and she was dead so she couldn't very well tell anybody. The woman who lived in the apartment was an old friend of the family Jordan Gregory. We had lived next door to each other in Frankston and we went to the same school together.
Jordan was two years older than me but she was still one of the best friends I had ever had. When we were growing up we did everything together and spent most of our spare time together. Jordan moved to Queensland when her mother and father split up and ever since then we've been writing, calling and visiting each other as much as our work would let us.
I dumped my bag-not that there was much in it-next to the couch then I made myself comfy. I figured that when she got home she would need an explanation so I started running ideas through my head. In the end I realised just telling the truth would be the smartest and easiest thing. I had told enough lies in the past few days than I had ever done in my life and I knew that if I lied to her, it would come back and bite me in the arse. So the truth was the best way to go.
I hadn't slept properly in three days and I was getting rather tired, so I decided to get some sleep. I knew Jordan would be at work until later tonight because she always worked the night shift. So I laid down on the couch and made myself comfortable, then eventually drifted off to sleep.
When I awoke I could hear a key in the front door and I sat up as the latch clicked open. I took a few deep breaths and waited for the door to open. I just hoped like hell that she was still living here and I wasn't sitting in some strangers apartment.
"I thought I turned the light off." I heard a familiar voice cry.
"You did." I stood up and looked straight at her. She screamed and the next thing I knew I had a gun pointed at my head.
"Bloody hell Jordan!" I cried. "Put that thing down."
"Jo?" She looked at me, squinting her eyes. "Joanna Parrish? What the hell are you doing here so late at night?" She put her gun down and walked over to me.
"Hi." I smiled at her. "I had nowhere else to go."
"What's going on?" She looked confused. "Why didn't you tell me you were coming?"
"It was kind of a last minute decision." I replied.
"Well it's great to see you." She hugged me. The minute I was in her arms I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. I had tried so hard not to cry since I left Mt Thomas but I couldn't help it now. the tears just started flowing, and once they started I couldn't stop them.
"Jo what's wrong?" She asked when she noticed I was crying.
"Where do you want me to start?"
"The beginning would help." She replied with a laugh.
"Then we'd better sit down." I laughed back.
"Did you want a tea, coffee anything?" she offered.
"Just another hug." I replied.
"Awww Jo." She hugged me again.
"Thanks." I replied and hugged her back, then the two of us sat down on the couch together.
"So tell me what brings you here at three o clock in the morning?"
"Well it's a long story."
"I'm not planning on going anywhere anytime soon." She smiled and put her arm around me.
So I sat and told her the whole story. I told her about my relationship with PJ, about how he proposed to me and then broke my heart. Then I told her about how hurt I was and I told her about the threats made against me, and then I told her about the bomb and what I had done.
"Oh Joey." She hugged me again. "It's alright sweetie. We'll get through this together, you and Me. Don't worry about anything I'll help you out." She smiled and gave me another hug.
At that moment I felt happy. For the first time since the incident on the balcony I felt happy. I knew no matter what I could always count on Jordan to help me through everything.
