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"Dr.Shepard!" Christina yells down the hall as she runs to catch up with the attending. Shepard slows down to allow her to catch up.
"What can I do for you Dr. Yang?" he asks. The two had never really been all that fond of each other but they shared a mutual professional respect and since Derek and Meredith had gotten back together, they had began acting more and more like friends.
"My patient in 3-4 needs spinal surgery. The films show that the damage to her spine is causing pressure to her brain and causing her coma." Christina explains.
"The abuse victim?" Shepard asks, trying to recall. Christina nods. "Yes I looked her films a few minutes ago. Spinal damage is the least of her problems, with the blows she took, even if we perform surgery, it won't relieve enough pressure for her brain to recover. In essence she's brain dead, there's nothing we can do for her." Christina's face falls.
"We need to at least try! We can't just sit by and let her die without trying!" Shepard is immediately caught off guard by her emotional reaction.
"Dr. Yang." He says in a low voice. "There's nothing we can do. She's legally dead. Run the tests for the next 6 hours, if there's no change, take her off life support."
Christina was left defeated, looking at Shepard's back as he walked away.
Christina lay curled up in the on-call room bed, tears rolling down her face. This day had been too much for her already and it wasn't even noon yet. It all started with this god-awful illness she was fighting that would just not go away. Then seeing Devon again brought back so many unpleasant memories that she had spent a good year trying to repress. Finally, her abuse patient had just put her over the edge. She knew that she was kind of acting like Izzie on this one but she couldn't help it. That poor girl had done nothing to deserve what happened to her and now she had no one to even sit by her bed as she died. More tears found their way down her cheeks as she thought about her patient.
Her thoughts were interrupted when she heard the on-call room door open.
"This room's occupied." She called out annoyed without turning to face the door. She was relieved to hear the door close and let go of the breath she had been holding. Relief was quickly replaced by fear when she heard the click of the door lock. Christina jumped out of bed screaming "Stay the hell away from me." It wasn't till she turned that she realized that it was only Burke. Burke stood there in shock as Christina let out a ragged breath. "Burke." She said in a thankful voice.
"Of course it's me, who else were expecting?" He said as he walked over to her. He was upset with her evasive behavior, but he could tell that she was rattled by something, he just wish he knew what. When he reached her side he took her into his arms and just stood there holding her for a few moments.
Much to his surprise Christina didn't fight him; she actually melted into his embrace. Although she hated to admit it, Christina knew that Burke was the one person she needed right now. He always knew how to make her feel better even if he did it inadvertently with a simple embrace.
"Christina, you wanna tell me what's going on." He spoke into her hair. He felt her tense in his arms.
"I'm just so tired, and Shepard won't operate on my patient." Her eyes began to water again. "I don't know, I'm just a little on edge today." She explained pulling away from him. Burke leans against the on-call room wall looking intently at the woman standing in front of him.
"Really? I hadn't noticed."
"Shut up." She snaps, un-amused by his sarcasm. Burke sighs.
"Listen Chris, we need to talk…"
"I know!" she shouts silencing him. She takes another deep breath and grabs his hand. "I know." She says softly. "Just not right now, later ok?" she looks up into his eyes, pleading him to be patient.
"Ok, later." He sighs as he leans forward to kiss her forehead and takes her into his arms once again. This is exactly what she needed, Burke, just Burke, no words, no pressure, just his arms reassuring her that she was safe.
"Burke?" she mumbles into his chest.
"Hmm?"
"Are you busy?" Christina asks as she begins stroking his back.
"Uh not really, today's been really slow. My 12 o'clock got cancelled and I only have one other surgery scheduled for 2:30. Why?" he asks confused.
"Just wondering…" she trails off as she pulls his head down to meet hers for a kiss. She caught him slightly off-guard so it took a second to get his lips to comply, but soon the days' frustrations were lost in this kiss. Neither wanted to pull away, however when Christina began pulling his scrub top over his head, Burke forced himself to pull back.
"Christina we can't" he said breathlessly.
"Why not?" she asked confused as she began to untie the strings to his scrub bottoms. He quickly grabbed her hands before he lost all control.
"Look at me. You can't just avoid your problems by having sex. We have to talk, you can't just ignore this." Burke responded urgently. Christina took a breath and looked up at him while fighting back the tears threatening to spill over.
"Burke, this isn't about ignoring my problems, or avoiding talking to you, it's not even about having hot sex." She paused and looked down at the floor. "It's just about me needing to be close to you right now, please Burke, I need you." He could tell how hard that admission was for her. Christina liked to believe that she didn't need anyone, that she was in complete control, he on the other hand knew better. He touched one hand to her chin, forcing her to look up at him. What he saw there was his undoing; he saw fear and vulnerability, two things which were very uncharacteristic of Christina. He knew then that he couldn't deny her anything. He slowly reached down to grab the bottom of her scrub top and slowly pulled it over her head. He then gently grabbed her face with both hands and looked into her cloudy eyes.
"You know I love you right?" Christina slowly nodded. "And you know that I would do anything for you? Anything!" He emphasized. Christina continued to nod, "I know Burke."
He took another second to look at her and then pressed his lips against hers. He moved his hands down her back unhooking her bra and then pulled his lips away from hers to make a trail down her chest. He quickly pulled the strings free on her pants causing them to fall to the floor. His hands were burning a hot trail up and down her body and she quickly lost thought about everything except what Burke's hands were doing to her senses. This was exactly what she needed, she needed to feel alive, and Burke knew just how to make that happen.
"Burke?" she whimpers as his lips work their way back up her neck.
"Hmm." He mumbles as he continues his assault.
"I love you too. You know that?" Christina's voice was shaky with emotion, causing Burke to stop and straighten so that they are face to face. Then a tear slowly escaped down her cheek. Burke was quick to catch the tear with his lips. He then pulled back to look at her and smiles. "I know Christina." His lips touch hers gently. "I know."
