a fractured fossil

was what i was before

i knew you,


or maybe that isn't the best way to say it,

but i came along with so many trust issues,

so many insecurities,


a status that i didn't want anymore,

and yet,

my black and white,

prince over any goodness in the world


was broken:


and I became brighter,

more alive,

built up of color so fine,

and it wasn't my own color

filling me in,

covering the edges of me so tenderly,


but your hand in mine,

your smile in my memories,

your laughter easing the ache out of my heart,


your honesty

spilling all of those old deceits,

the lies that clung to me like second skin,

until I'm just built up on your honesty,

built up on your love


You taught me that my title

is just a word,

not the canyon between intimacy

and isolation


sure, it comes with enough responsibilities to drown a man,

but it's not something

that's meant to isolate me

or leave me barred from love

in any way,


but instead you filled in my colors,

and now I'm lighter,

the world's weight has been shaken

and fallen off


Work isn't necessarily easier,

nor do I have heaps of spare time,

but I love you,

and that makes every sacrifice,

every bit of hard work worth it,


because now I see in color,

and I have enough trust to fill valleys

until they become mountains, themselves,


and you, you are every reason for this change;

I love you, Shirayuki,


and I've found me,

the one I'd forgotten about

within every second since I've met you.