a fractured fossil
was what i was before
i knew you,
or maybe that isn't the best way to say it,
but i came along with so many trust issues,
so many insecurities,
a status that i didn't want anymore,
and yet,
my black and white,
prince over any goodness in the world
was broken:
and I became brighter,
more alive,
built up of color so fine,
and it wasn't my own color
filling me in,
covering the edges of me so tenderly,
but your hand in mine,
your smile in my memories,
your laughter easing the ache out of my heart,
your honesty
spilling all of those old deceits,
the lies that clung to me like second skin,
until I'm just built up on your honesty,
built up on your love
You taught me that my title
is just a word,
not the canyon between intimacy
and isolation
sure, it comes with enough responsibilities to drown a man,
but it's not something
that's meant to isolate me
or leave me barred from love
in any way,
but instead you filled in my colors,
and now I'm lighter,
the world's weight has been shaken
and fallen off
Work isn't necessarily easier,
nor do I have heaps of spare time,
but I love you,
and that makes every sacrifice,
every bit of hard work worth it,
because now I see in color,
and I have enough trust to fill valleys
until they become mountains, themselves,
and you, you are every reason for this change;
I love you, Shirayuki,
and I've found me,
the one I'd forgotten about
within every second since I've met you.
