Chapter 4
Just an Illusion
Yuzuhria looked over her suit; it was black, her favorite color. Ikari had probably arranged it, seeing as he had been the one to look over the preparations for the rebuilding of Eva 006. It fit every fine curve of her body, from her breasts to her hips to her feet. She stared at her reflection, putting a hand on the mirror. Since when did a human have silver eyes and hair? Since when did injecting a three-year-old with Angel blood become a standard? Oh, wait...It wasn't. She was a lab rat, she'd always been, ever since her mother killed herself...But her mother hated her, her mother didn't care. Yuzuhria was the reason her father was dead after all. If he hadn't come to her rescue during Second Impact, he would still be alive.
Memories passed through her mind: Her mother in the bathroom, barfing up her guts and crying drunkenly. A two-year-old Yuzuhria, long jet black hair and blue eyes, walks into the bathroom. "Mommy?"
"Get out of here, you little bitch," the drunk woman hisses. "Get out!"
"Mommy-" Little Yuzuhria began.
"I hate you. Understand? I will never love you, I hate you!" the drunk exclaims. "I hate you!"
"This is all your fault, Bitch," Yuzuhria said under her breath with furiousity. "All you had to do was love me. I didn't care if you drank, that you did drugs. I didn't give a shit as long as you loved me. I tried my best to win your approval but you...God, I knew the real meaning of derision the day you killed yourself in front of me, you fucking whore. You hated me and laughed in my face every time I wanted to make you proud. Trauma, death, pain, suicide. You make me feel this way. You killed me!"
She punched the mirror, shattering it to pieces.
"Are you like nuts or something?" asked Asuka's voice, making Yuzuhria turn around. "What's going on? I mean, first you're hitting people and now, you're shattering mirrors? You need a psychiatrist?"
Yuzuhria looked down at her fist. "Being normal is overrated, if that's what you mean."
"I know that," Asuka laughed. "You've just been acting like a badass, that's all. I think it's cool!"
Yuzuhria looked up at her with surprise. "This is how I've always acted. Ever since...Nevermind."
"What?" asked Asuka. "Did you lose someone you loved or something?"
"Love's just an illusion," Yuzuhria stated. "An effect of one's infatuation. The effect makes them blind. I don't believe in love. I never have. Not since my mother abandoned me."
"What do you mean?" Asuka questioned.
"Nothing," she sighed, walking towards the door. "We have synch tests in about ten minutes. Right? See you there."
"Wow! Her synchronizing levels are outstanding," said Tanaka, looking at Yuzuhria's meter. "Asuka and Shinji are tying with Rei."
Gendo smiled. His little toy was going to make the Evangelion squad strong, even Rei couldn't match up to something like this as much as he loved her.
Misato got on the communications monitor. "Hey, Kurosaki! You're top today! Congrads!"
"Thanks," said Yuzuhria with a charming smirk.
Gendo watched Tanaka as smirk spread across his fine lips; the guy wanted her. Who wouldn't? The girl was gorgeous, untamed. But he knew she was flawed, overly flawed. Her mother's mistreatment, blowing her head off in front of a little girl. Yuzuhria knew better than to try to kill herself. Though she didn't show it, he knew she loved her life. Frantic and chaotic as it might be. He began to recollect when he first met Yuzuhria:
Gendo is with Akagi, who looks extremely tired from working late every night. She walks into the Adoption Office with him. A little girl of about three stands near a tall, elderly man. Long satiny jet black hair, abnormal light blue eyes, she is quite pretty.
"Yuzuhria, this is Dr. Naoko Akagi," says the Head of the Adoption Agency. "She will be taking care of you until we can find you a suitable home."
The little girl looks up at Naoko, stares for a moment then gives her a soft but deadly "Hello". Gendo isn't surprised, he hates her too, though he hasn't admitted it. Naoko squats down and smiles. "Hello to you. Are you ready to come home with me?"
Yuzuhria looks up at the elderly man. "Can't I just stay here?"
"No, I'm afraid we haven't got room for you, dear," says the man. "Don't worry. You'll be all right."
The little girl sighs and follows Naoko and Gendo outside the office and down the hall. They get into the elevator and all is silent. She looks up at him with an odd glint in her eyes, her expression full of awe. The corner of her little mouth twitches and her eyes fill with tears. Gendo blinked then sighs, shaking his head and scooping the little girl into his arms. Naoko looks at him in surprise.
"Well, I didn't expect you to warm up to her so quickly, Gendo," Naoko chuckles.
"She's about to cry," Gendo replies, coldly. "Do you want her crying her eyes out and causing a fuss on the way out?"
Naoko laughs and shakes her head. "I suppose not."
He can hear her crying into his neck as they get in the car, where he sets her in the back and sits with her.
"What's wrong, Little One?" he asks, trying to sound sympathetic, which is nearly impossible.
She shakes her head. "Daddy..."
"What happened to him?" he asks.
"Rocks...Boom!" she cries.
"He was killed, trying to save her during the Second Impact, Gendo," Naoko explains. "That's what her mother said in her good-bye letter. She also left all her possessions to the girl."
"She hates me, doesn't care," cries Yuzuhria, angrily. "Stupid bitch."
Naoko looks in the rearview mirror with surprise. "Where ever did you learn a word so bad, Yuzuhria?"
"Called me it all the time," the little girl cries.
"Hey, Ikari," said Yuzuhria, bringing him back to reality. "When do I get to use that thing?"
"When we're attacked," replied Shigeru Aoka, smiling. "Take it easy, babe. There aren't any Angels left."
"That we know of," Gendo corrected him, coldly, as the leuitenant looked her over. He didn't mind a man of high-class like Tanaka looking her over but a lazy leauitenant like Aoka? Please, that was degrading in his view.
"Call me 'babe' again," snapped Yuzuhria, coolly, seeming to sense his anger. "I dare you."
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