Disclaimer: Don't own the songs or the characters. Characters are S.E Hinton's and song is by Rascal Flatts. – What Hurts The Most

Johnny - What Hurts The Most

Johnny stumbled out of his house with the pouring rain whipping the roof of his house. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he ran away from the prison.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Johnny ran blindly as the rain pelted his face. He hated his parents. His parents who beat him and never gave a damn about him. His parents that could care less how he was, or where he was. They never even glanced his way unless it was at his bruised body. But deep down all he wanted to say was locked away. Locked in his heart where the words were left unspoken day by day.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

He finally collapsed sliding down the rough brick of a school building. He didn't know it, but the thing he was trying to do, was learn how to love them even if they didn't him.

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do