Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or the songs. Kenny Chesney owns the song. – Who You'd Be Today S.E Hinton owns the charactersThank you Kawaii for the song idea for Ponyboy.
(A/N: After Johnny's death, Set in Pony's POV.)
Ponyboy - Who You'd Be Today
I sit and watch as the guys play football. It's a bright sunny day but it's dark and gloomy to me. The sun is like a bully teasing me by poking me with a knife until I bleed.
I'm at home now in my room. I'm alone because Soda is out with Steve. I look out my window as the rain pours down. I see your reflection on the window as the drops fall, I hear your laughter echo inside my head. Johnny why are you dead?
Sunny
days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I
feel you everywhere I go
See your smile, I see your face
I hear
you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe your gone
Why did you have to die? You were too young! You said yourself that you didn't want to die and that there were too many things left to do…but then you left me. The pages in your book of life yellowing and fading away. Ripping in half. Johnny why did you die?
(Chorus:)
It
ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But
death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the
hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your
place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
There were so many things you could've done. You would've been able to visit all those places you said you'd love to visit! You could have fuckin taken me with you man!
I'm sittin outside. I'm at the lot. You always dreamed of a world without socs… but you'll never get to see it now! And what about kids? You'll never be called dad, or uncle, or grandpa… I'll never see the beautiful babies you and your beautiful wife would bring back… It's really sunny out and the blue sky above only reminds me of you. I feel like I could sit here for hours like we used to and just talk. It's crazy but I've been like this since the day you left. Johnny…please come back…
Would
you see the world
Would you chase your dreams
Settle down with
a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Some day's
the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it
might sound crazy
(Chorus:)
It
ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But
death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the
hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your
place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Sometimes I wonder, Johnny…Who you'd be today…
Today… Today… Today…
Today… Today… Today…
Sunny
days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The
only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again
someday
Someday, someday
I get up and start walking towards my house. I look back at the spot were we used to talk. Were we used to gaze at the stars, and dream. I smile, knowing I'll see you again…
Someday…
Someday.
