NOTES:

Anne: Sometimes I just want to squish Sho…just like I want to squish Ryuutarou! And you don't have a bathtub? o.O That's random. And the word naughty reminds me of dirty, hott things. But I'm just like that. XD Kei will explain why he was afraid of the stairs in a later chapter, don't worry. I'm not supposed to reveal why just yet…

Essenity: Well, it's January and it's raining. We're supposed to have snow. And chemistry was terrible. I'm the random person who gets to hop from group to group for labs and I'm currently stuck with my ex-boyfriend and his other ex-girlfriend (the one he just broke up with). Dammit, he's a complete jackass. And I'm secretly stalking him, too. Don't worry. XD We all are. And they probably wouldn't but remember that Toshi loved 21st century stuff, so they might have a VCR. Sho has a CD player…

Kate: I don't like Kei being abused. He's too adorable to be raped! ;-; And you just might be a little insane, but hey. We all are insane.

Shin: I AM NOT THE QUEEN OF FLUFF! I actually despise fluff, but not so much anymore since I've been dubbed Queen of the fluffy crap. XD And yes. Plastic Tree Rox My Sox too. Ryuutarou's adorable! There is no way he's the same age as Gackt. He is so not 32! He's 12, I tell you! 12!

Fujipuri: You're going to Japan? NO FAIR! I WANNA GO! (secretly hides in your luggage to secretly go stalk Gackt at his concerts!) Have fun in Japan and I think my ex-boyfriend problems are gone (go to end of chapter for more info…but read the chapter first!)

YaoiKitty: One entire corner of one of the stores in Japan was ALL POCKY. (and other candy too). I ended up buying a box of Men's Pocky for Kris, two Decorer Pockys for myself (Strawberry-Peach and Purely White), a little tin can full of hard candies that are delicious, and like…five packs of hi-chews (one for Kris). I was in heaven. My mom kinda wandered toward the Inuyasha section but I gawked at everything. Yet no one recognized my Gackt bracelet or the cell phone screen cleaner thing that said "GACKT The Sixth Day" on my pack, but oh well. Some girl I passed had an amazing gothic lolita outfit on. It was cool.

007: (sighs in relief) Good. I don't have to worry about the secret gadgets yet…but I might have to after you read this chapter…(goes to find safety)

And thanks to all other reviewers! (That includes you, Kei-Sho, but it was short…and I have nothing to say to it, but yay! People waiting for me to update!)

ONE IMPORTANT THING YOU NEED TO KNOW IS THAT THE CURRENT YEAR IN THIS FIC IS 2043!


Part Two - Chapter Two – Memories…

Sho woke up the next morning with Kei still in his arms. The vampire was still asleep, his head supported by Sho's left arm and chest. His mouth was open slightly and Sho couldn't help but think of a little kid when he stared down at the vampire he loved. Smiling down at Kei, he brushed a few strands of the fluffy blonde hair away from his face and heard Kei make a small sound.

Minutes later, Kei moaned and opened his eyes, staring up at Sho with a confused look on his face. "Morning, Kei," Sho said softly as the vampire blinked several times, clearing his vision. The whole right side of Kei's face was marked with sleep marks.

"My back hurts," Kei whined in a raspy voice as he tried to stretch.

"My arm is killing me!" Sho said as he helped Kei sit up.

"Well, you sacrificed it for a good cause."

"Mm hmm. I sure did," Sho replied, kissing Kei's cheek softly. "You like to rant while you fall asleep."

"I do?" Kei asked, arching an eyebrow. "What did I rant about?"

"You told me that the last time you had been held that close was by your mom when you fell down the steps when you were six." Kei's eyes widened.

"Isaid what?"

"You seem shocked," Sho said, looking at Kei strangely. "You talked about your sister, your brother, and your cat."

"Did I really?" Kei asked. "Or are you just making this up?"

"Your sister's Maori, your brother is Haruki, and your cat is Mei," Sho said.

"You're not lying…" Kei breathed. Sho shook his head. "Oh god…"

"What's the big deal?" Sho asked, looking surprised. "I realized you've never said a single word to me about your family! I barely know anything about you!"

"Good!" Kei snarled at him. Sho stared at him incredulously, then accidentally let out a sob. He knew he shouldn't have felt so hurt by Kei's reaction. The vampire always had been secretive about his past, but he couldn't help himself. He wanted to know more about Kei, even if Kei didn't want him to know.

Since that day you wished
To someday get there
We began to walk this endless road together.

Kei sighed and closed his eyes as Sho sobbed again, looking away from his lover. "Kei-chan, why—"

"Don't start," Kei said, cutting him off. "I knew you'd ask me about my past sometime, so what do you want to know?"

"When were you born? How old were you when Luka turned you into a vampire?" Sho suddenly asked. "Why—"

"Let's do this one small question at a time," Kei said softly. "I was born in 1954." Sho blinked several times.

"1954?"

"Yes," Kei replied.

"Kei—that means you're eighty-nine years old!"

"Yeah, I know."

"I never realized you were so old…" Sho breathed, staring at Kei, who simply answered Sho's next question.

"Luka turned me into a vampire in 1973…I was nineteen."

"So you've been a vampire for—"

"Seventy years," Kei said solemnly.

"Oh Kei-chan—" Sho tried to say, but Kei stood up angrily.

"Don't feel sorry for me, Sho! This is why I didn't want you to find out. You can't love me now that you know how old I really am! And even if you do, you'll just feel sorry that I've had to live this curse for so long!" He ran a hand through his hair roughly. "I'm taking a shower…" He muttered before he stormed out of the room and into the bathroom, slamming the door loudly.

Sho, meanwhile, sat in the rocking chair, stunned at Kei's reaction. He knew it was going to be bad, but he didn't realize how bad. "Why the hell does he think I'd stop loving him over something like his age?" Sho asked himself. "He's so strange when he overreacts."

When you feel like stopping,
I'll be there gripping your hand, I won't let go...

Hearing the water turn on in the shower, Sho made his way over to their spare bedroom—Kei's old room. He sat down in front of an unopened chest that was resting at the base of the unused bed and stared at it intently.

After about ten minutes, he heard the bathroom door open and Kei softly call his name. "Sho?" But Sho didn't answer. If the vampire wanted to apologize, he could find Sho on his own. Kei wandered out into the family room but turned back to go to their bedroom. "Where are you, Sho?" Finally, Kei looked into their spare bedroom to find Sho still staring at the abandoned chest.

As Kei took a step towards him, Sho said, "If you think that finding out your age would have an effect on my love for you, you must not know me very well. If I wasn't bothered by the fact that you're a vampire, why would you think that finding out that you're eighty-nine years old would change my feelings towards you?"

"I overreacted, okay?" Kei said, taking another cautious step forward. Since Sho had become a vampire, whenever he wanted something more than anything else, he wouldn't cry, but simply stare intently as though he were pissed off. Kei still wasn't used to the sudden change of actions Sho had been going through. "I'm sorry. You want to know more about me and I realize that I should let you know everything about me."

"What's in the chest?" Sho asked, nodding his head towards the dusty object, his eyes still staring intently. Knowing it was all right to approach Sho, Kei walked forward and gently took Sho's hands within his own.

"Let's leave that to another day," he said as Sho slowly got to his feet. "Right now, we should start small. Just simple facts. Is that okay?" Sho nodded and let Kei guide him out to the family room to the couch.

"I want to know everything," Sho said as Kei sat down next to him on the couch.

"That could take a while…" Kei said calmly, trying not to get agitated by Sho's forceful attitude.

"No excuses, Kei—"

"I'm not making excuses!" Kei shot. "If you really want to know every single thing about me, it will take—" He stopped suddenly, realizing something.

Don't you shed those tears
Smile tenderly

"Kei?" Sho asked in a worried tone.

"Unless…"

"Unless what?"

"But…I've never tried it before," Kei whispered, talking to himself more than Sho.

"Tried what?" Sho said loudly, making Kei's eyes flicker up at him.

"There's a way I can show you my memories," Kei told him. "But I've never tried before…and you'd have to trust me…"

"Kei-chan, I trusted you with my life nearly five years ago and I still do," Sho said, gently holding Kei's hands within his own. "Please, Kei, try. Try for me…" Kei smiled softly.

"You always persuade me in the most adorable ways," Kei said, pulling his hands away from Sho's. "I know you have to be as still as you can possibly be and…well, basically we have to become one mind, so put your hands on my head right here." He placed his own hands on either side of Sho's head above his ears and Sho did the same. "Close your eyes and concentrate on me." Sho smirked.

"I always do that," he whispered, making Kei laugh.

"Now's not the time, Sho-kun," Kei replied, though his voice still contained a hint of laughter. "Seriously, try to concentrate." Sho did as he was told.

"How long will it take for it to work?"

"I have no idea…" Kei whispered. "But shut. Up."

I won't let anyone get in the way,
I won't let anyone ruin
Our endless journey

Sho obeyed and closed his eyes, concentrating completely on Kei. After a few moments, he could hear Kei's pulse, not his own, within his head. Pictures began to flash before his eyes: the bath from the night before, their second anniversary cake Sho had made, their sixth month anniversary…

The pictures finally stopped flashing and he was launched into a memory…


"You fell asleep." Kurisu told him.

"For how long?"

"Half-hour at the most…"

"And has Sho…?" Kei looked at Sho, whose lips were moving soundlessly.

"No. But he's been muttering something…" Kei leaned over Sho and listened intently. "It sounds almost like—"

"Kei." Kei whispered, brushing Sho's bangs away from his eyes. Sho moaned softly, his eyes opening. "Sho?" Sho looked up at him and smiled softly. "You okay?"

"Y-yeah. I feel a lot better," Sho replied.

"Good," Kei replied, brushing his lips past Sho's. "I'm glad." He pressed his lips against Sho's, but was shocked when Sho pushed him away angrily.

"What are you doing?" Sho hissed at him.

"I—"

"Kei-san, we met yesterday!" Kei's breath caught in his chest and his eyes widened. Kurisu turned and glared at him as he fell back onto the wall for support. Why did Sho think they had met yesterday?

"You've been lying to me?" She asked him, outraged.

"I swear I haven't been! God…why does he think we met yesterday?" Kei said, a tear sliding down his cheek. He dared a glance at Sho; he was sitting up in bed, glaring at him in disgust. Everything became fuzzy and Kei reappeared in front of Sho…


"Oh…Kei-chan!" Sho said, pulling Kei into a warm hug. "I had no idea I said something like that!"

Because the world you longed for awaits us.

"It's okay, Sho," Kei said, although his words were muffled within Sho's shirt. "You didn't know what you were saying…but…I need to show you another one…and it might be hard to see, but I have to show you either way." Sho nodded and let Kei grip his head again until he found himself within yet another memory…


"He's seven, I know, I know," Kei said as Sho suddenly blinked. Kurisu backed away and waited for Sho's reaction. "Sho? Are you all right?" Sho sat up and blinked several times.

"Yes, I'm fine…what were we—" Sho stopped, his eyes widening as he remembered they had been kissing. "You bastard." He hissed, making Kei blink.

"Excuse me?" Kei said, angry and hurt.

"You sick, perverted bastard!" Sho yelled. "You goddamn tricked me into kissing you!"

"I did not!" Kei snarled.

"Get out, get out, GET OUT!" Sho screamed. Kei stood up and backed away from Sho. "You fucking bastard—STAY AWAY FROM ME!" Sho dove for the drawer of the nightstand when Kei didn't heed to his commands. He pulled out a rather large knife and stood up. "Get the hell out or I swear I will murder you right here, right now." Sho hissed menacingly. Kei darted out of the room and into the kitchen. He heard the sound of a knife being dropped on the floor and the door slamming shut. Glancing back, he saw the knife outside of the closed door, but he didn't dare go back…


"I'm so sorry…" Sho whispered into Kei's hair, sniffing softly. "How could I ever call you such horrible things?"

"You didn't know what you were talking about…and even though you hurt me so much with your words, I forgave you because…" Kei trailed off until Sho placed a hand underneath his chin, making him looking into the penetrating blue eyes he loved.

The rain that starts falling in a thirsty sky
Tell us, "There's great purpose to all living things"

"Because why, Kei-chan?"

"Because I love you," Kei finished, letting Sho pull him into a warm kiss. "Sho…can you carry me to bed? Digging through my mind…it tires me out. And I know we just got up only a few hours ago, but neither of us slept well, right?"

"Well, I had to support a vampire the entire night, so no. I didn't sleep well," Sho told him, scooping him into his arms and making his way back to their bedroom. He set Kei down on the bed and sat down next to the vampire. "Any other quick memories you want to show me?"

"Well…there is one more…" Kei said in a mysterious voice…


"Sho! What the hell are you wearing?" Kei said as Sho stood in the doorway to his room. The man was wearing tight black leather pants and a skin-tight orange shirt with patterns on the front. Visible through the cloth that barely qualified as a shirt was Sho's well-defined chest and nipples.

"You don't like it?" Sho asked, pouting slightly. "I've always loved this outfit."

"Wear whatever the hell you want. I'm not your parent…it's not up to me to decide what you should wear out in public," Kei muttered as a response. Sho simply smiled at the vampire.

"You're staying here? Toshi says it's going to be a big project…" Sho said softly.

"Yeah, I'm staying. I think I'll take a nap," Kei replied. Sho looked rather crestfallen, but he nodded.

"Okay. Get some sleep, Kei. You need it…you're always so weak…" With that, Sho closed the door. As Kei lied down on his bed, he heard the front door click shut. His hand delved inside of his pants to relieve himself of the sudden arousal that had been caused by Sho…


"I think I still have that outfit," Sho said, pulling Kei close.

When you feel like crying, afraid of being alone
I'll hold you with all my life
I'll take you in my arms

"You always used to wear the sexiest clothes…" Kei breathed as Sho licked his neck slowly and teasingly. "Those tight clothes that showed every single curve of your body that didn't leave me much to try to imagine…" Kei's hands found the edge of Sho's shirt, so he slowly slid his hands up Sho's sides, pulling the shirt along as well. "Those thin, see-through shirts that let me see your gorgeous chest…" He pulled Sho's shirt of his head and leaned down to capture one of Sho's nipples between his lips.

"Do you want to know why I wore those clothes?" Sho asked softly as Kei stopped teasing his nipple.

"Why?" Kei breathed on Sho's lips.

"So you would look at me…" Sho replied, enveloping Kei's lips greedily as he pulled off Kei's shirt. "And maybe someday fall in love with me—"

"Or your body…"

No matter how much it hurts
Even if we lose everything

"Back then I didn't care, as long as you loved something about me…" Sho told him as Kei unzipped his pants, releasing his strained erection. In turn, Sho unzipped Kei's pants and slid them down the vampire's legs. Kei threw both of their pants across the room and climbed back on top of Sho.

"You don't know how much those clothes turned me on—" Kei whispered, "—how much you turned me on…"

"Don't I still?" Sho asked, licking his index finger so that it was slick with saliva.

"Aaah—more than ever," Kei replied as Sho's finger entered him suddenly. He sighed contently and let Sho do whatever he pleased as the day slowly wore on……

Even if I should die before you
I'll become the wind to keep watch over you...


Sorry to skip out on the good stuff, but I still want this to be rated T for now. You'll get more and better stuff later, don't worry. Have I ever disappointed you guys:D Disney World was very fun, but I nearly cried when I had to come back. I even got a tan! But up here in cruddy Michigan, we haven't seen the sun since like…December 18th or something…Oh. And. While I was in Disney World, I called my friend who was in Florida like…thirty minutes away and he asked me out:D I actually told him a few weeks before that I liked him…when we went to see Memoirs of A Geisha (which, by the way, was amazing!). He's so adorable and in his profile on AIM he has December Love lyrics and has certain letters capitalized so it spells out I LOVE TI.

On the way back from Disney World, I thought of a sequel to this fic and I have also started writing the beginning chapter (it's amazingly hott). Some people have even gotten previews of it…if you'd like a preview of it, feel free to IM me (Stargazer4422) or email me (stargazer4422 aol. com). But I'd rather you IM me because I like IMs. :D

Gackt's 2006 Calendar is too hott for it's own good. The first thing I said when I got it for Christmas was, "This. Is. THEPRETTIESTTHINGIHAVEEVERSEEN!" It's so…delicious.

Please review and Happy New Year to you all! Oh. And lyrics are Road by Gackt.

Oh. And I will be having the random facts about Kei's family/the memories he's revealed about them at the end of all chapters, so:

Haruki: Kei's younger brother. Two years younger than him.

Maori: Kei's older sister. Five years older than him.

Mei: Random pet cat they got two weeks before the falling down the stairs incident. Secretly Gackt's cat.

Kei's Birthday: ------ --, 1954 (you'll find the date out later); Turned into vampire: 1973 (was 19); Is currently 89 years old in the year 2043.