NOTES:
Anne: I liked the last chapter a lot, but I'm randomly being drawn to fluffy stuff lately, as you will see in this chapter. Kei was very cute when he came back drunk. It made me giggle. Katy gave me the idea of having him hiccup in the middle of yawning. Kei didn't want to have Sho drink from his neck, he was a sort of phobia, but I can't say anymore. You'll find out in a later chapter. ;D
Essenity: I actually downloaded it right before I checked my emails and got your review. HOLYCRAPGACKTISSOAMAZINGANDILOVETHERANDOMENGLISHASWELL! Kris is my God when it comes to LJ layouts. She's supposed to be making me a Mana!Layout, but she doesn't like it anymore...Just an excuse not to do it. xD But she does have her own domain now. stitch - frequency dot net. But with a . instead of a dot and no spaces. She made the coming soon sign and I could laugh at it for hours. xD And thanks for the warning for leaving.
Shin: I know they're really out of character at times, and it's mostly Kei because he's supposed to be the strong supportive one. But now he's venturing into a part of his mind that he had sworn not to think about ever again and it's going to change him completely…at least for the majority of this fic. Especially when he's thinking about Himeko because you'll see in memories how attached he was/still is to her and how much he lost. And Sho will have to be the supportive one. They'll get back into character sometime soon, don't worry! But at the moment, their roles are going to be switched…at least until Kei gets some of his most beloved memories out in the open. And Kei actually cries in this one, but it's only because of Sho's drunken actions…(but you didn't just read that. xD;) And yes, them being like that makes them all the more adorable.
I started writing the next chapter in religion class today and after my algebra test and I think they'll be back in character then, so just be patient with me/them! (They write this for me, you know. ;D)
Ecchigo: My fanfics are crack! WOAH. That's quite amazing! And thanks for leaving a comment, they're always fun to read and they make my day so much better. (Leave comments more often. xD)
YaoiKitty: I think I've married Drunken Kei. He's so adorable. So...that would make me Mrs. BLACK STONE PV-Gackt-Miyavi-Ken Lloyd-Taste Maximum PV-George-The Satin Peaches-Kei-Sho-Senor Senora Senorita...and I think there's probably more to that. Oh. And you can't forget Moon Child fic!whore-andthatoneGodficIreadonce-Moon Child (can't forget Moon Child).
Anonymous: Thank you for sticking with my fic all this time! I really despise Dakishimete at the moment, but I am way too swamped with homework to try to edit it at the moment. I'll work on it sometime. And thanks for the review, too! They're always appreciated!
Shadow-Bey-Gurl: I love Moon Child. I've had so many affairs with that movie and I'm so tempted to go watch it right now and blow off my history homework, but that wouldn't be good, now would it? xD
Half of my regulars didn't review this time! I was very shocked and saddened. ;-; But oh well. I'll still give you the chapter anyways.
Chapter Four – Can't You See Me Crying?
Sho was sitting at the kitchen table with a glass in his hand. Swirling around the clear liquid inside the glass, he brought it up to his lips and took a long swig of it. Kei walked into the kitchen with a smile on his face. "Morning, Sho-kun," he said brightly. Sho, however, stood up, nearly glaring at Kei. "Did I…do something wrong?"
"You told me," Sho said, his words slightly slurred. "You told me over a monthago that you would show me your memories and let me know more about you." Kei blinked, walking towards the fridge in a nonchalant manner. Sho backed away from him, the glass still in his hand.
"Sho—you said we could stop for a while if it hurt me too much and—"
"LIAR!" Sho screamed at Kei. "You're too secretive! You don't want to tell me because you don't love me! You never loved me! I HATE YOU!" Sho threw the glass directly at Kei, but the vampire ducked and watched as the glass hit the fridge and shattered into pieces, the liquid splattering everywhere.
Slowly, Kei stood up, pure anger enveloping his entire body. He pointed towards the hallway and said in a strangely calm voice, "Go and take a cold shower and then come back and talk to me." Sho was about to protest, but seeing the look of pure anger on Kei's face made him think twice. Quickly, he exited the kitchen and practically ran into the bathroom, locking the door after him.
Once he heard the shower turn on, Kei sighed and kneeled down next to the fridge, careful to miss the pieces of broken glass. He pulled out a dustbin and a handheld broom and began to clean up the shattered glass. Leaning down, he sniffed the liquid, wondering exactly what Sho had been drinking. "Vodka…" he muttered, quickly grabbing a towel and soaking up the alcohol. He wiped off the front of the fridge and then proceeded to throw the towel in the trash.
As Kei swept the glass into the dustbin, he suddenly realized what Sho had said.
"I HATE YOU!""H-he hates me…" Kei whispered to himself, not noticing that the shower had turned off. He tilted his head upwards, trying to stop the tears from flowing down his face. Deciding to finish cleaning up the mess Sho had made, he looked back down, watching a tear hit the floor. Managing to sweep up as much of the glass into the dustbin, he set it to the side and buried his face in his hands, beginning to cry.
Last night I watched you sleep as you lay there
I dropped to my knees and said a prayer
I leaned over softly to kiss your beautiful face
But I could not cross the ocean of your grace
Just then, Sho walked into the kitchen, much more sober than before. He stared wide-eyed at the crying vampire and rushed to kneel down in front of him. "Kei," Sho said softly. Kei looked up at him and let out a sob. He threw himself into Sho's arms and buried his face in his lover's shoulder, letting the warm embrace envelop him. "I'm sorry, Kei. I didn't mean it, I really didn't…" Sho whispered in Kei's ear, kissing the top of his head.
"You hate me," Kei sobbed quietly into Sho's shoulder.
"Hey," Sho said softly, lifting Kei's head up and capturing the vampire's lips in a warm kiss. Kei kissed him back, pouring all of his emotions into the kiss, allowing himself to be caught up in the mood of the moment. When Sho pulled away, he didn't move more than a few inches, keeping his face close to Kei's. He wiped away a few tears on Kei's cheeks. "I love you." Kei sniffed. "I was just so upset that you weren't showing me anything else and I guess I felt dejected."
"I shouldn't have cried because I knew you didn't mean it," Kei whispered, staring into Sho's pure cerulean eyes. "What you said just hit me the wrong way."
"I'm sorry…" Sho whispered, blinking to try to rid his eyes of slowly forming tears. Kei smiled.
"You're so childish, Sho-chan," Kei said, tracing a finger down Sho's nose and over his petal soft lips. Sho smiled slowly, revealing all of his teeth. "I haven't seen you smile like that in so long."
"I know," Sho said.
"I know you know!"
"I know you know that I know!" Sho retorted.
"I know you know that I know that you know—wait…" Kei said, stopping. Sho laughed as Kei tried to figure out what he was saying. "Oh screw it…"
"So are we okay now?" Sho asked.
"I don't know. I think I need to make sure that you aren't still drunk," Kei told him. "When were you born?"
"July fourth, 2006," Sho replied.
"What year did we meet?"
"2013."
"When's our anniversary?"
"May fifth."
"What year?"
"2038," Sho replied.
"You remembered!" Kei said, impressed.
"I'm not that stupid!" Sho said, feeling hurt.
"When have I ever called you stupid, Sho-chan?" he asked, watching Sho's eyes look down at his lips.
"I can't remember at the moment…" Sho breathed, leaning forward slightly, his eyes staring into Kei's once again.
The moonlight held you a loft a picture of peace
The only sound was the soft breeze form the east
"Then what are you thinking about?"
"…You," Sho said before their lips met softly. Kei placed his hands on either side of Sho's head, pushing him further into the kiss. "I love you," he managed to breathe before he was unexpectedly launched into a memory…
A young Kei stood at the top of the steps, gripping the handrail with both hands and staring down the steps with a look of pure terror on his face. His hair was a darker shade of sandy blonde, but his eyes hadn't changed from their innocent chocolate brown color.
Taking a deep breath to calm himself, the boy slowly stepped down to the first step, sighing in relief that he had made it that far. Gaining confidence, he slowly climbed down the steps without a problem until he was nearly to the first floor. A soft meow from behind him and a small grey fluff ball flew past him on the steps. Frightened, he let out a shriek and let go of the railing, falling down the last few steps, cutting his lower lip and chin.
After lying on the floor for several moments, Kei moaned loudly and put a hand to his chin. He noticed blood on his hand, screamed, and began to black out. His mother and a younger sibling with dark brown hair followed. His mother let out a gasp and pulled Kei into her arms.
"Not dead!" the sibling cried. "He not dead!" And everything went black.
After a few seconds, Kei woke up from his state of consciousness to find himself in his mother's arms. She smiled down at him. "You fell," she said softly. "Haruki helped me bandage up your chin—you cut it open."
"Told you he not dead," Haruki muttered, but he grinned at his older brother. Kei smiled back weakly.
"Are you okay, Kei-chan?" his mother asked. Kei looked up at her to smile, but instead he began to cry. Pulling her son close, she let him wrap his arms around her neck and sob into her shoulder. "My poor Kei-chan. It's okay, you'll be all right…"
"I-it hurt!" Kei sobbed, clinging to his mother tightly.
My heart beat down in my chest
To the rhythm of your gentle breath
And the whole world calmed down
For this moment of rest
"I know," she breathed into his ear. "Just cry out all of your pain, okay?"
The scenery became distorted and suddenly jumped to a later time in the day. Kei was walking towards his bedroom, but a young girl around the age of eleven stepped in front of him. She had medium-length brown hair with bright blonde highlights. "Are you all better?" She asked in a sarcastic childish voice. Kei glared at her and pushed her to the side as best as he could.
"Leave me alone," he said quietly.
"Is Mommy's baby upset?" She said with a malicious grin.
"I said leave me alone, Maori!" Kei yelled, storming into his room and slamming the door. He could hear a faint "What did you just say to him, Maori?" through the door, but he didn't pay attention. Walking over to find his favorite stuffed teddy bear, he buried his face in it and sighed softly…
Sho opened his eyes and smiled at Kei. "Maori reminds me of Shinji when I was a kid," he said.
"She was always so mean to me and I could never understand why!" Kei told him, helping the vampire stand up. Sho clamped a hand to his forehead.
"God, my head…"
"Didn't you take any aspirin?" Kei asked.
"No," Sho said quietly, shutting his eyes tightly. Kei simply sighed and went to the bathroom to fetch some aspirin. "K-Kei?"
"Shh," he whispered as he walked back out into the kitchen. "Here." Sho opened his mouth and let Kei drop the pills in. He swallowed quickly, making a face afterwards. "How can you stand to take pills without water?"
Now I 'm standing above you trying so hard not
To tell you I love you
"Experience," Sho muttered, managing to open his eyes.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"The hospital had disgusting water," he managed to reply. "God—carry me to bed, please, Kei-chan…" He collapsed onto Kei's shoulders and tried as best as he could to help Kei carry him to their bedroom. Luckily, Kei's strength carried them both to the bedroom and he fell onto the bed along with Sho. "Stay with me, Kei," Sho breathed, pressing Kei against him. "Please don't leave me…"
"I don't think I could…you're suffocating me," Kei commented, but the vampire had already fallen asleep. Smiling down at his lover, he whispered, "You are too adorable…" Sighing, he rested his head on Sho's chest and placed his hands on either side of Sho's head, letting them both be enveloped in a memory……
Managing to make it down the stairs this time, Kei wandered into the kitchen holding his teddy bear tightly. He found his mother standing at the stove cooking dinner and Maori was sitting at the kitchen table looking rather put-down. When Kei sat down in the chair across from her, she looked up at him. "I'm sorry for being so mean before, Kei," she said quietly.
'You're just saying that because Mommy said you had to…' he thought to himself, but he gave his sister a soft smile to let her know she was forgiven.
"Are you all right, Kei-chan?" His mother asked, turning away from the stove to look at him. Kei simply nodded. "Would you like to help me around the kitchen?" Kei's face brightened and he grinned, nodding furiously.
"Can't you say anything?" Maori asked.
"It kinda hurts to talk," Kei whispered, rubbing the bandage on his chin.
"Well then don't talk and come and help me, Kei-chan," his mother said. Kei jumped up and ran over to help her prepare dinner…
And all that I want in this world is you
If you'd only wake up
You'd know it was true
"I love you, Sho," Kei whispered as he slid out of Sho's grasp. The vampire whimpered softly in his sleep and clawed gently at the pillow his head was resting on. Smiling as an idea crossed his mind, Kei wandered over to his old bedroom and unlocked the chest. Slowly and carefully, he pulled out a rather beat-up teddy bear and went back into their room. He grabbed one of Sho's hands and placed it on the bear's head. Kei watched as a soft smile spread onto Sho's face. Automatically, the sleeping vampire pulled the bear close to him and hugged it to his chest protectively.
Kei took a blanket and threw it over Sho. He kissed his lover's cheek softly. "Good night," he breathed as he lied down next to Sho and fell asleep…
If you'd only wake up you'd know it was true…
And happy birthday to Sho on July Fourth of this year! Be sure to celebrate it, too, along with Gakkun's birthday!
I did get a review commenting on how out of character Sho and Kei are beginning to get and I answered them in their personal author note, but I'll give you the same exact reason that I gave them: I know they're really out of character at times, and it's mostly Kei because he's supposed to be the strong supportive one. But now he's venturing into a part of his mind that he had sworn not to think about ever again and it's going to change him completely…at least for the majority of this fic. Especially when he's thinking about Himeko because you'll see in memories how attached he was/still is to her and how much he lost. And Sho will have to be the supportive one. They'll get back into character sometime soon, don't worry! But at the moment, their roles are going to be switched…at least until Kei gets some of his most beloved memories out in the open.
Maybe if you guys did read everyone's notes, you might get some clues as to what's coming in chapters ahead. ;D But I'm just saying...
It seems to me that my chapters always begin with them waking up and end with them falling asleep. Oh well, I guess they take place in the span of a day...? I hope it isn't too repeditive, I'm trying to spice it up, so to speak...but I do enjoy getting reviews! They make my day less boring. I didn't even realize it was Friday a few days ago until my friend told me at school! I just wander through the days, doing the same exact thing all the time...And as always, The Kei Facts, with a little bit added to it...
Kei facts:
Himeko: Kei's mother.
Haruki: Kei's younger brother. Two years younger than him.
Maori: Kei's older sister. Five years older than him.
Mei: Random pet cat they got two weeks before the falling down the stairs incident. Secretly Gackt's cat.
Kei's Birthday: ------ --, 1954 (you'll find the date out later); Turned into vampire: 1973 (was 19); Is currently 89 years old in the year 2043.
Anniversary: May 5, 2038
