NOTES:
Hiroyukishinji: Yes, you do win. You win…well, go look at who the next chapter is dedicated to! I have no idea where I come up with some of this stuff. Right now, although not in this chapter, Kris is helping me out a lot, but she doesn't realize it. And so is my friend Alex, who is quite hilarious in religion class and always plays his Gameboy. XD And I actually have the sequel for this one planned and then a sequel to the sequel, but nothing after that. I'd like to get it to Harry Potter length…or maybe LOTR length, but twelve stories would be hard. XD I'll need a lot of help!
Fujipuri: When I wrote it in Public Speaking, I was listening to Tsuki No Uta and I was really close to crying. The girl next to me asked if I was okay. XD Speaking is the class where I plan out the chapters of my fic. And I thought of the video camera sex one and started snickering. Luckily, no one really pays attention to me…and I didn't get anything wrong on the parking and barely anything on the actual drive.
Anne: What were you doing when you read the chapter? XD I'd love to see you read it on video. It would make me laugh most likely. I'm cute? Really? Well thank you. So are you. And you are not plain! …But on Arrested Development, there was a character Anne that was the girlfriend of George Michael and George Michael's dad never really noticed her…and always called her the wrong name. And to your other review: Sho can't help abusing his powers and yes, they both have to record their lives. And RJA always makes me cry. Or gives me goose bumps. I love their lyrics!
Shin: Well, you're stupid and don't go to my school, so screw you. But not really. XD And I know how the whole laughing thing and parents hear you and think you're crazy thing goes. I took some videos of my friends at lunch today and was watching them and my mom came downstairs and asked what I was laughing at.
Yvonne: I'll take all that good luck and put it towards my Chemistry final. Because I definitely need it. And thanks in advanced! Glad you liked the video taping memory. I still love it to death. xD
Hoshino Haruka: Gaah. All of my fans speak different languages! Where exactly are you from? XD I've got people in Japan, Germany, New Zealand…Michigan…and hopefully you check today because I'll have updated! And not disappoint you!
Ryu: It's not my fault you had to wait for the next chapter! And maybe I'll dress up in a Santa suit at Christmas since I apparently am Sho. XD And historical memories? You mean like the personal ones? (pats you) I'm not allowed to make fun because you actually read my fic. ;D And Anne apparently "poky poke"s you. xD And warnings: None. It's just sad.
Namida: The best you've ever read? Wow. I feel special…and rather embarrassed. But thank you for the compliments!
Diru Laruku: Well, that was my goal. To make people start crying. XD I do try to do that for some chapters because I don't know people's reactions unless they tell me in a review.
Orenji No Taiyou: Two days? o.O That's insane. But probably true. I should try it sometime. XD I WOULD WANT TO SEE THE MAKING OF THAT MOVIE! I'm pretty sure they cut out a lot of stuff that many of us would like to see in the actual Making of Moon Child. Like practice sessions for Orenji No Taiyou. Hyde: (starts playing guitar part), Gackt: (stare. Stare. Stare. Molest.) (insert making out scene) xD
Sad chapter, folks. But there's an important note at the end of this chapter, so go read it. And where's Essenity? …And Yaoikitty!
This chapter is dedicated to Shin…do I have to keep coming up with reasons? I keep using the same ones over and over. XD Well, Shin. Here you go. A sad chapter for you…next chapter is dedicated to…Hiroyukishinji.
Chapter Thirteen – If I Had Possession Over Judgment Day
Several months later, near the end of October, when Kei entered the kitchen, he was startled. Sho was standing by the front door; he was dressed in a baggy black sweatshirt and baggy black jeans. Gripped in his hand was a small bouquet of flowers. "Are you…?" The words trailed off and Kei stared at him questioningly.
"Five years ago today was the day Nii-chan died," Sho whispered. "And it's raining out. So we can finally visit his grave."
Kei walked forward and grabbed his red jacket from the coat rack. With a reassuring smile, he kissed Sho on the cheek and wrapped an arm around his waist. "Let's go then. The rain might let up eventually and we might be in big trouble." The younger vampire nodded in agreement and they both made their way out to the car…
When they arrived at the private cemetery and made it to Shinji's grave, Sho immediately fell to his knees and placed the flowers in front of the headstone. Kei stood behind Sho and did nothing, knowing the time was meant for Sho and not himself. "Shinji…It's been five years since the last time I saw you…since your death." He let out a small laugh. "I always figured I'd die first, even though you were the first one to get shot. Remember when the mafia guy shot you in the leg…and Kei saved you. Of course you would remember…it happened to you." Kei watched as Sho poured out his heart and soul into his speech and he knew where it was going.
"I'm sorry I didn't come visit your grave sooner. It's rather hard for me to make it out here during the day since I'm a vampire now…but you probably know that. Kei made me like him and I'm thankful, but it means I'll never see you again. Those few moments when I was in heaven with you and Toshi…I won't forget them. But there's something else…
"Shinji, I know I should have told you sooner, but I always feared you would hurt me or reject me. I should have told you about me and Kei and how we love each other." The vampire held back a sob and continued. "I never meant to not tell you, but it just…Nii-chan, I swear I was going to tell you. Toshi only found out because he told Kei about the attack on your house and Kei was worried about me and you…a-and when he found you dead…and then when I saw you…that was the worst moment of my entire life. I realized that I had no family left. You at least knew Mom and Dad a little bit. I wasn't old enough to remember. You were at least six when they abandoned us—I was barely two."
"Nii-chan…you said that you would die for me, and you did." He paused before he added softly, "You must have lived for me, too."
A soft breeze began to blow, adding to the cold of the day. As Sho closed his eyes, forcing back tears, he heard a quiet voice in the breeze that whispered, "I did." The young vampire looked up at Kei, his blue eyes wide and confused, his mouth slightly agape. Kei smiled softly, tears in his eyes, and he nodded.
"I heard it, too."
I don't care if you never come home,
I
don't mind if you just keep on
Rowing away on a distant sea,
Sho stood up and hugged Kei tightly, tears streaming down his cheeks as he sobbed quietly in happiness. The shorter vampire smiled and ran a hand up and down Sho's back. When he looked at Shinji's grave, he noticed that the flowers were planted in the ground. But Sho only set them in front… As he thought this, he could have sworn he heard Shinji chuckle quietly next to him. Smiling, he whispered, "Thank you," to the wind and pulled away from Sho. "Let's go home." The younger vampire nodded in agreement.
"Goodbye, Nii-chan," Sho called warmly, a silent tear falling down his cheek to his chin, falling onto the flowers. He turned back to Kei, entwining their fingers together as they slowly made their way back home…
Kei walked into the house several hours after they returned home from Shinji's grave to find the patio door open slightly. Moving forward a few feet, he saw Sho sitting underneath the small awning (keeping himself out of the rain), staring out into their small backyard, a lit cigarette dangling from his lips. He made his way over slowly, knowing that the vampire was thinking about the past. Opening the glass door wider, he leaned in the frame and said gently, "You okay?" Sho took a long drag of his cigarette and sighed.
"Yeah," he replied, not turning to look back at Kei.
"I…" Kei paused, the atmosphere between them rather tense. "I know you're feeling down, so I went out and got you a milkshake." He held out the cup, waiting. Sho took the cigarette out of his mouth, holding it between his fingers, and turned around. He looked up at the blonde vampire, his azure eyes dead.
"I don't want it," he told Kei, turning around again and ignoring the vampire once more.
Kei sat the milkshake down behind Sho and without another word, he slipped back inside, closing the door. When he knew the older vampire was inside, Sho turned around and grabbed the cup. He took a sip and smiled softly. "Chocolate…" he mumbled to himself. Quickly, he put out his cigarette and flicked the remainder of the stick into the backyard. He continued to drink the dessert Kei had bought him, not realizing the vampire was sitting on the couch inside watching him with a smirk.
A half-hour later, once Sho had finished the milkshake, Kei waked back outside and sat down next to the brunette. Without saying a word, he held out a pink box and made Sho chuckle.
"Strawberry pocky," he said with an amused smile on his face. He took the box gratefully and stuck one of the pink sticks in his mouth. He handed it back to the vampire, who took a stick as well.
"See? I know how to cheer you up," Kei said softly.
"Yeah," Sho replied in a downtrodden voice. "I can't stop thinking about that day and…and how I could have prevented it."
"Do you know that for a fact?" Kei asked. "Maybe you would have gotten killed, too."
"Can't I still think that I could have made a difference?" Sho sobbed gently, tears filling his eyes. Without hesitation, he pressed himself against Kei and cried into the vampire's shoulder. Kei hugged Sho lovingly and whispered in his ear.
"If you keep thinking you could have done something, you will never heal." Sho stared up at him, tears still falling.
'Cause I don't love you and you don't love me.
You cause a commotion when you come to
town;
You give 'em a smile and they melt.
"I know…"
And with that, he placed his hands on the side of Kei's head and launched them both into a memory…
"Shinji!" Sho called downstairs, hoping his older brother would hear him.
"What, Sho?" Shinji replied, appearing at the bottom of the steps.
"Is it okay if I take a shower?" he asked timidly. Shinji smiled up at him.
"Of course. Towels are under the sink in the bathroom."
"Thanks!" Sho said, grinning brightly and heading to the bathroom. He closed and locked the door behind him, unsure why he needed to do so, but locking it anyway. Turning on the shower, he stripped off his clothes and stepped into the warmth, his only thought was of Kei…
"Where the hell is his hair dryer?" Sho muttered as he looked through the small closet next to the sink. "Aha!" He pulled out the black item and plugged it into the outlet. Turning it on and beginning to dry his braids, he looked at himself in the mirror and he could see Kei behind him, his hands placed on Sho's shoulders, kissing his heck softly.
"My Sho, poor Sho," he could hear his lover saying against his skin. "I miss you already…"
"I miss you too," Sho whispered. "I want to come home."
"I'm doing this for you," Kei told him and with that, the image disappeared and Sho was alone again. Continuing to dry his hair, Sho's mind began to wander to more serious thoughts.
I need to tell Shinji about Kei and I while I'm staying here, he thought. And I should tell him sometime soon…maybe I will right now and if he throws me out, I can go back home and see Kei and—
A sudden scream was heard from downstairs and Sho stopped the hair dryer abruptly, sensing something was wrong. "I don't have my guns with me," he whispered to his reflection automatically. He heard shots and what sounded like bodies falling to the floor. "Shit," he said under his breath as pounding footsteps made their way up the stairs. At the last second, he decided to stay in the bathroom and pray they wouldn't break down the door.
"This door is locked!" A voice said moments later as the man jiggled the doorknob. "Should we try to get in?"
"No," a familiar voice replied. Son… Sho thought, clenching his fists. "According to the map Chan made, it's just his bathroom and unless you want the bastard's shampoo, it's a waste of energy and time."
"Suit yourself," the other voice replied, his footsteps fading away.
Sho took a deep breath five minutes later when he heard the pair go back downstairs and slam the front door shut. Waiting a bit longer before venturing out of the bathroom, he knew he wouldn't like what he saw. And when he opened the door, he was right. Not daring to go downstairs, Sho managed to make it into a bedroom and hide in the closet, knowing Chan's men would be back and knowing that somehow Kei would come find him.
He drew his knees up to his chest and buried his face in them, beginning to cry…
Kei held Sho tightly, surprised that the vampire had shown him such a delicate memory. He was going to tell Shinji then… Kei thought, knowing the confession would have been the hardest obstacle to get through for Sho. "My poor Sho-chan," he mumbled, burying his face in Sho's silky hair. "Thank you for showing me that." Sho looked up at him, his tears gone. "I always wondered how Chan missed you." The brunette smiled softly.
Having lovers and friends is all good and
fine,
But I don't like yours and you don't like mine.
"And if he would have found me…?" Sho's question trailed off as Kei smiled back.
"I would have been with you in heaven a heartbeat later." When Sho's expression brightened, he knew the younger vampire was feeling better. "Now, since I know the milkshake and pocky cheered you up, let's go inside and do something fun…that's not perverted in any way."
With a laugh from Sho at Kei's statement, the lovers' stood up and went inside, deciding what they wanted to do…
Nearly two weeks later on yet another cloudy day, Kei found Sho outside yet again. "Cloudy days are the closest we have to sunny days now," he said to Sho as he stepped onto the patio.
"Today's the day Toshi died," Sho replied in a flat tone, his gaze never leaving the bunch of flowers that represented a tombstone.
"I know," Kei told him, walking up and standing next to Sho. "I just don't want you to get as depressed as you were on Shinji's death day."
"It's ironic how this day is cloudy, too," Sho mused, obviously ignoring anything Kei said that tried to make him feel better. Knowing he couldn't sway his lover's mood, Kei nodded in agreement.
"It's almost like they're changing the weather just for you." The younger vampire smiled slightly at the thought.
"I already replaced the flowers," Sho said.
"They aren't going to last very long."
I got a problem. Can you relate?
I got a
woman calling love hate.
"I know."
The pair was silent until Kei spoke up. "Would you like to make a speech?" He asked, glancing at Sho, who nodded.
"Toshi," Sho said in a gentle voice, taking a few steps towards his friend's grave and keeling down in the cold grass next to the still-raw earth. "A little over five years ago, you opened our door and found Kei and me making out on the kitchen table…I was so embarrassed, but you saw past that and didn't think anything of our relationship. Five years ago I opened the door to get the mail and you fell into my arms. Within minutes, you died. It didn't even register in my mind that you were gone until a few weeks later…and even then I still couldn't imagine that you were gone…
"We were always the best of friends, even when you first arrived at the orphanage, but you know this already. I still find it ironic that even at that young of an age it seemed like we had known each other for years. And we even hated Son already, too," Sho added with a small laugh. "We were always so close…and I always loved you like a brother…Shinji did, too. His birthday present to me when I turned four was breaking all of us out of the orphanage…
"Toshi…" Sho took a handful of the cold dirt and held it in his hand. He stretched out his fingers, letting it sift between them, saying softly, "I still miss you everyday." After a few minutes of silence, he wiped the dirt from his hand as Kei mumbled a short prayer. "'Bye Toshi," he said quietly before stepping back inside. Flashing the grave their usual goodbye wave, Kei smiled and followed Sho into their house, knowing the vampire was going to go curl up in bed and try to get some sleep…
Kei found himself walking into the kitchen to find Shinji sitting at the table looking as though he were waiting for someone. "Kei," the man spoke softly, looking up at the vampire with dark eyes. "Sit down." Cautious of his lover's older brother, the vampire sat down slowly, his eyes never leaving Shinji's.
"Are you…waiting for Sho or something?" He asked Shinji, but the man simply chuckled.
"You're thinking this is a dream, aren't you, Kei?"
"Well I was until you just said that," he replied with a small smile.
We made a vow we'd always be friends
How
could we know that promises end?
"No, Kei. This isn't a dream. I've been meaning to talk to you somehow for quite some time but I wanted you two to visit my grave first…otherwise it would be irrelevant for me to come talk to you. And you would have just thought it was a dream…" Shinji paused, letting the words sink in.
"All right. Go ahead and start." Kei placed his hands on the table and folded them quickly, knowing this conversation was not going to be friendly.
"Kei," Shinji said in a serious tone. "You've known me for thirty years. You've known Sho and Toshi for that long, too. And only about twenty-nine years into our friendship did I realize that you and Sho were in love…I couldn't fathom it. I couldn't imagine it…you'd come home from feeding and fuck my little brother every night—don't stop me, Kei—" For the vampire was about to protest Shinji's choice of words. "—And it sickened me. I never liked you in the first place, Kei. Even if you did save my life, I still didn't care. You were a monster in my eyes and you would never change.
"But…I always wondered how I had missed all of those clues that Sho loved you. Any time when he was still a preteen and younger and would get hurt or start crying, he'd always make me bring him to you. Not me, his older brother, you. The vampire that I despised. Even though you raised him…" The man's voice softened greatly and Kei knew that what Shinji was going to say was sincere. "I'm his older brother…he's not supposed to ask for some strange monster he just met…I was supposed to be the father figure and I think that was one of the reasons why I rejected you…" There was a long pause before the concerned brother continued.
"I've been watching you from Heaven, Kei. I've seen how he looks at you—how loving his gaze is…how he always turns to you…how you always comfort him even if it's for the stupidest reasons. How you're both so sincere towards each other and manage to keep your love strong. So I'm asking you, Kei…" Shinji leaned forward and placed a hand on top of Kei's. "Please take care of my little brother, my only brother. Watch over him for me…"
I tried to love you for years upon
years,
You refuse to take me for real.
"I will," Kei replied, his voice never faltering. Shinji nodded in response.
"He's crying, Kei," Shinji said softly. "Wake up and comfort him…you're the only one who can." Kei nodded, agreeing with his lover's brother.
"I'll always watch after him for you, Shinji." The man smiled warmly and waved goodbye to Kei as he slowly woke up from his dream—
—to find Sho gripping Kei's old teddy bear tightly and crying, just like Shinji had said in his "dream". The vampire looked up at him and let out a soft sob. "Sho," Kei whispered softly. Sho whimpered loudly and collapsed against Kei's shoulder, sobbing freely. After a long period of time, the young vampire calmed down and looked up at his lover.
"Thank you," he breathed as Kei dried his tears and placed a kiss on his forehead, pressing Sho against him and entwining his fingers in the brown hair.
"Go to sleep, my Sho-chan," he whispered against the side of Sho's head. With a soft sniff, Sho curled up against Kei and tried to fall asleep. "I'll be there for you through it all…"
It's time you saw what I want you to
see,
And I'd still love you if you'd just love me…
I passed my driving test and drove myself to school today in my mom's car! And I have five days of normal school left and four days of exams…and a chemistry test tomorrow. Then all of my time will be dedicated to writing this fic. And the sequel, which I've already started in my mind…and partially on paper, too. XD
IMPORTANT NOTE: SMUTNEXTCHAPTER! And it's much happier. And it starts out with a memory, so don't be confused by the italics when you start to read it. I've already started writing it, so I'll try to update a bit faster, but exams are coming up in a few days… But the smut will be good.
Glad you're all back and I'm glad that I'm back, too. I missed writing and now it gives me something to do in classes at school during review times! Please review as always and thanks again. And lyrics are Promises by Eric Clapton.
