Summary: Kagome moved from Japan to America when she was in seventh grade. She stopped talking in eighth grade, and no one knows why. Now, in eleventh grade, Kagome will undergo a series of events that will dramatically change her...Kagome's POV.

Rated M. Why? Because my mind has many bad things in it and I don't know what I might use...

Dates Written:
May 6th, 2006

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The Games We Play
Entry Twelve: Roses

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Day Twelve: Thursday

You know what?

Neither do I. I ran out of comments for the entries of my diary… That really bothers me…

Okay then. Today… So much happened today, I couldn't really keep up.

Nothing happened in my classes (does ANYTHING ever happen in class? No). And, since nothing happened during classes, I won't bother to tell you about it.

I saw Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru today. It was right before school. Sesshoumaru was standing behind the bench I usually sit on. Inuyasha was sitting on the bench, but as far away from Sesshoumaru as he could get.

I walked up to the group to find Sango sitting on Miroku's lap. Wow. I knew that they had started becoming close. But the way they were acting was… abnormal. I guess they finally decided they'd start dating now. We all thought they would, but that just seems so soon.

I guess I sort of expected to see Sango ask Miroku out… Or the other way around.

Anyway, I walked up to them, trying my best to act as if Inuyasha wasn't there. He and Sesshoumaru were speaking in their demon tongue.

Now, if I try, I can understand the demon language and even speak in it. My miko powers allow me to do that, even though it seems as if I don't have them anymore. But, I was so mad with Inuyasha, I didn't bother trying to understand what he and his brother were discussing.

I looked at Miroku and waved. Both he and Sango waved. Then he began to signal to me that the two demons were arguing in their language. Apparently, they did not want me to hear it.

I shrugged and sat down next to Miroku. Sango smiled at me and pulled herself from his lap then sat down between us.

She asked me how I felt, since it was really late when I got home. I signed that I was tired, but I was no longer depressed. Sleep works wonders, doesn't it?

Miroku translated, and Sango squealed. She hugged me really tightly and told me that she was hoping I would become better. She said how worried she and Miroku were when I didn't eat with them or Sesshoumaru.

That caused both of the brothers to stop talking and look at me. Inuyasha spoke in demon, and this time I made an attempt to understand it… Oh, the bastard. I couldn't believe he said it. Oh, just so you know, Mr. Diary, I will be putting the English words in here. I don't think I want to write it out in demon.

"If she wasn't with you or I, Sesshoumaru, then she was probably whoring herself around. I can smell someone inside of her, and I know you can too. Didn't you realize that the scent isn't mine?" Inuyasha asked. It seems that Sesshoumaru assumed that would smell like Inuyasha.

"I can now. Forgive me, little brother, but I don't spend my spare time smelling your semen. How should I know what it smells like?" Sesshoumaru stated. Sango and Miroku didn't hear the conversation, because they don't understand… I wish I didn't understand sometimes.

"There! Now that you're reassured I didn't fuck her, can I go see my girlfriend?" He questioned. My heart skipped a beat. Girlfriend? Since when did anyone date him? I felt tears beginning to sting my eyes and I attempted to hide them.

The boy I had liked for so long, even when I'm mad at him… He was now taken by another woman. I watched as Sesshoumaru's emotionless mask showed his slight interest. Then he asked, in demon, about the girlfriend.

"I didn't sleep with Kagome, Sesshoumaru. Get that to your stupid head. If I'm fucking anyone, it will be Kikyou. Why would I sleep with Kagome? She's… She's just not good enough…" I felt my heart rip in two pieces as he said that. Was that the reason he had been angering me recently? To drive me away so I wouldn't find out that he was taken?

"You didn't answer my question." Sesshoumaru stated in human. Inuyasha replied, but he kept his tone in demon. He thought he was protecting me this way.

"Her name is Kikyou. Kagome looks a little like her… She's a senior, and she has a great body. She's very nice, too… Now, if you don't mind, I have to go and meet her. I promised her we could spend some time together this morning…" Inuyasha's demon words stung me. I look like her? Then why the fuck am I not good enough!

Sesshoumaru looked at me as I watched them. Then he smirked at his brother. He asked Inuyasha to tell him more. And Inuyasha did.

Inuyasha told him how Kikyou wasn't a virgin, and that she would willingly give him some. Inuyasha said how I wouldn't let him, since I was always too tense. He said he was tired of waiting for me and went for someone hotter, rather than my personality. Then, compared to Kikyou, my personality was horrible.

I felt like melting into a puddle. I didn't care what kind of puddle; vodka, water, urine, semen… Anything just as long as I could never exist again.

"You do realize that Kagome has heard your every word, Inuyasha… Did you really forget?" Sesshoumaru asked. Sango and Miroku both looked at me, probably shocked that I listened to their demon language easily.

I watched as Inuyasha looked at me with fear. I got up and signaled a few things. Miroku translated them.

"She says that she won't visit your… grave?" Miroku paused as I walked up to Inuyasha and punched him. He fell down and his nose began to eek blood. Wow. Sesshoumaru taught me good. I smirked as Inuyasha tried to recover from the shock of being knocked down by me.

I felt my sadistic side taking control. I was just waiting to kick Inuyasha's ass with the moves Sesshoumaru had taught me. Inuyasha stood up and looked at me. He slowly realized that I was going to fight him, no matter what he wanted to do.

So, he got into a fighting stance. Everything that Sesshoumaru had taught me rushed to my mind instantly. So… There was a reason why he had taught me so much in that first day.

So, Inuyasha threw a punch. I ducked and moved myself beside him. Then I elbowed him in the side and he went down again. As he got up, I signed that he was no longer in my memories. Sesshoumaru translated.

Inuyasha got up and threw a punch at me, with Sesshoumaru making some off-color comment… Something along the lines of why would you hit a girl, I think. Inuyasha barked at Sesshoumaru to shut up as he lunged at me again.

I thought he was aiming for my stomach, so I defended it. Instead, he grasped my arm and threw me against the ground. Then he walked off as if nothing had happened.

My back hurt horribly as I hid my face with my arms. I cried as I tried to heal the pain. It didn't help. My miko powers were still gone. The only trace of them was my fluent language in demon tongue…

Sango and Miroku offered to help me up. In fact, then did start to lift me. My back protested quite loudly, though. As they helped pull me up, my spine split in two and I could feel the disks sliding. Oh, that just felt weird.

When I screamed from the pain, they both set me down. I shook my head with disgrace. How embarrassing to actually show your anger and still get beaten up for it…

The bell rang and I motioned for Sango and Miroku to go to class. I said that I would be in there shortly, even though that was a lie. They both gave me worried glances then they left. I'm sure that they didn't want to leave me there in pain, but it wasn't their choice.

Sesshoumaru, who was surprisingly still there, knelt down beside me. I looked at him then brought a hand up to say thank you. He nodded his head, and I wondered if he knew what I was thanking him for.

"He has been going out with Kikyou for some time… I knew he would not tell you willingly, and Miroku had told me that you held feelings. I thought it would be best to let you know now before he fucked her." He said. I merely nodded my head.

He was being kind, and I appreciated it. After all, he had every reason to laugh in my face and leave, but he didn't. Perhaps he isn't as heartless as he seems…

I began to get up, but then a arm grasped me. I looked up to see that Sesshoumaru was holding my arm away from my pained stomach. I couldn't ask him, since he was holding my hand.

He gently placed me on my stomach and I watched him from the corner of my eye. He was looking over my back. He began pressing on spots, and I yelped a few times.

"It seems that you could have damaged one of your shoulders, which would cause pain in your back…" He said. He grasped one of my arms and helped me up. I cried out in pain as he pulled my arm around his neck until I was standing.

I brought up the arm that he claimed had the bad shoulder. I said thank you in sign language and reached for my backpack. But, before I could grab it, he had done it for me.

"I will take you to the nurse, and she can call a doctor to look at you. I do not want to see you even complain." Wow. Talk about being controlling, huh? He just told me what to do and that I couldn't argue…

Reminds me of a certain bastard rapist…

He started to walk me to the office, but it still hurt. So, Sesshoumaru picked me up off of my feet (which was unnerving and less painful), and began to take me to the nurse.

I was fully aware that I was blushing, but I attempted to act like I wasn't. After all, perhaps he was a partially blind demon… Not likely, but I was really hoping.

Sesshoumaru told me that he had some respect for me hitting his brother. He had wanted to do it, but it wasn't his affair and it would be out of place for him to scold Inuyasha. Then he said that I had a permanent invitation to eat lunch with him.

I must say, the idea sounded very nice. I made sloppy words (my right arm was basically numb. I couldn't control it much), and I told him that I would hold him to that. Then I thanked him.

I missed half my classes, then I was given permission to go to classes. Sesshoumaru is training to be a doctor. He even told me that he has an internship at a real office… We had a lot of time to talk, can you tell?

He said that he was already taking half his college courses at a university. I was surprised, because he hadn't even gotten out of high school yet. Apparently, demons are more favored in the academics. Due to that, they can do a lot of things that we humans can't (like take several courses simultaneously instead of consecutively).

He was able to tell me what happened to my back, and he was able to fix it as well. He spent most of the time talking to me, which surprised me. That was the only reason it took so long.

As he pressed against my back, I would wince. Then he would press against my arm. I wouldn't realize it until he asked if I knew he was doing it. I was completely unable to do anything with my arm.

He finally said that it was worse than he thought. Something really bad for my shoulder. He started naming really big words, then he simply said that I had ruined my shoulder.

He said he would fix it, and then I passed out. When I woke up, the nurse was saying that he had healed me, but she didn't know how. I stretched my arm, and it didn't hurt. I moved around plenty, and it never hurt. Then it began to sting once again. I guess he healed it, but the muscle was more stubborn in the process.

I went through the classes. I went home during lunch, because there was a lot of pain in my shoulder. My backpack was making my muscle (I am guessing I tore it or something) hurt even worse. I just gave in.

I got home and… Oh my gosh! I cannot believe this!

I got roses… Quite the variety of colors, too! I got a few pink roses, a few yellow roses, a yellow one with red tips, and a solitary red rosebud. I'm really surprised. I looked at the card, and here's what it says… Ready?

Hope you are doing fine… Your shoulder will probably hurt for a small while…

I think it's really sweet. Someone who gave me roses and hand-wrote a card! Too bad all my friends have the same penmanship. They all write really neat, especially in cursive (which is what it's in).

I wasn't going to talk to people tonight, but the roses have put me in an excellent mood! So, I'll go ahead and chat with everyone…

Poisoned is Sesshoumaru. SpiderBack is Sango. DamnHand is Miroku. HumanPuppy is Inuyasha (I hope he doesn't IM me…), and I am HolyDemon.

Poisoned has joined the conference.

SpiderBack has joined the conference.

DamnHand has joined the conference.

DamnHand: Kagome, you forgot to invite Inuyasha…

HolyDemon: No I didn't.

SpiderBack: Why wouldn't you want to invite him? I still don't understand what happened this morning…

Poisoned: Ms. Kagome can understand the demon tongue. She merely heard what Inuyasha said, and he deserved to be hit for it.

HolyDemon: That's right.

SpiderBack: Well? What did he say?

DamnHand: I'm sorry Kagome. I should have told you sooner, but I really didn't want to tell you. I thought Inuyasha should, so you could have the information from him…

HolyDemon: Don't worry about it, Miroku. I appreciate where you're coming from, really… He didn't even tell me. I had to understand a language he didn't think I knew just to learn about it.

SpiderBack: WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!

HolyDemon: I assume you know who Kikyou is…

SpiderBack: Yeah, she's the creepy, cold bitch who hangs around him when you aren't near…

HolyDemon: Well, I didn't know that. No one told me a thing about her…

SpiderBack: I just found out the first day you didn't eat lunch with us and ate with Ice King over there.

Poisoned:

HolyDemon: Anyway, he said that he thought I was ugly and that he would go out with her because at least he could fuck her. Then he started calling me a whore…

SpiderBack: He shouldn't say things like that when he doesn't know.

DamnHand: Know what? What doesn't he know!

Poisoned: I know that he knows nothing… But I am curious as to what you two are speaking of, Ms. Kagome

SpiderBack: Sorry, I was going to mention that in a different window. I kinda forgot that they didn't know…

HolyDemon: STOP ASKING, YOU GUYS! IT'S NOT YOUR PLACE TO KNOW WHAT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT! SANGO IS LUCKY SHE WAS ALLOWED TO KNOW!

Poisoned: Ms. Kagome, can you read demon as well?

HolyDemon: I can try.

Poisoned: Okay then.

Poisoned: Hara ku mana kee ay. Tri maraki zu mono nie lie kee.

Mr. Diary, I shall translate what he just said. Those words were asking me if what no one else can know has to do with the loss of my virginity or the fact that Inuyasha called me a whore. Wow. He's smart… Too bad I can't say that for another hanyou…

HolyDemon: Miy

That meant yes, just so you know.

HolyDemon: Please, just don't ask me to explain…

Poisoned: If that's your wish, I will respect it, Ms. Kagome.

SpiderBack: Times like this, I wish that I could find an online demon to English dictionary…

HolyDemon: You'd still be screwed. The sentence structures are all strange and everything.

SpiderBack: Oh…

HolyDemon: Hey, did you guys hear that someone sent roses to my house? They even hand-wrote a note about how my shoulder will be sore for a small white…

SpiderBack: Wow…

Poisoned: Seems that you don't know who it is…

HolyDemon: Well, the penmanship is really neat. All my friends have good writing and really good cursive, which makes it hard for me to figure out which one wrote it.

SpiderBack: I didn't give it to you.

HolyDemon: Where's Miroku? I was going to ask him if he gave it to me…

SpiderBack: I'd guess that he's talking to Inuyasha.

DamnHand: I'm here. I'm just not typing much…

HumanPuppy has joined the conference.

HolyDemon: Miroku! What the fuck possessed you to let him speak to me!

HumanPuppy: Kagome! Wait, don't leave!

HolyDemon: Shut up, Inuyasha. I don't have to listen to you or your lying ass! You want to fuck a woman? Well, have Kikyou. I'm sure that her pretty face will look great drenched in sweat and under your tiny hard-on!

HumanPuppy: Bitch!

HolyDemon: Takes one to know one! Only you're just a bitch on the surface! It's worse down under. Now leave me alone!

I close the window rapidly and stare at the computer. I take rapid deep breaths and try to calm down. I will not let my anger get the better of me. I will not allow myself to punch the computer like I so desperately want to.

Poisoned: Are you feeling alright, Ms. Kagome?

HolyDemon: Yes, I'm fine. Just angry. Thanks for asking… If you still have the window open, let the others know that I will see them tomorrow… I guess I'll see you tomorrow as well…

HolyDemon: Oh! And I promise I'll bring my own money to buy lunch. I won't forget.

Poisoned: Alright. I will see you tomorrow, Ms. Kagome.

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It's hard to explain to people what you mean when no one really wants to hear or understand. It's even harder to do when your heart is so guarded that you can't even trust yourself…

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