Summary: Kagome moved from Japan to America when she was in seventh grade. She stopped talking in eighth grade, and no one knows why. Now, in eleventh grade, Kagome will undergo a series of events that will dramatically change her...Kagome's POV.

Rated M. Why? Because my mind has many bad things in it and I don't know what I might use...

Dates Written:
May 6th, 2006
May 7th, 2006

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The Games We Play
Entry Thirteen: Doctor's Appointment

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Day Thirteen: Friday

Have you ever noticed how thirteen is an unlucky number? I guess I should have paid attention. After all, it's entry thirteen on a Friday. Man, I am so shocked…

I am really trying to tell things in order, so I guess what shocked me will have to wait. First of all, I got more roses this morning. It was before I left for school that I saw them. They're the same ones as yesterday.

So, I put them in the vase with the last ones. Unfortunately, there was no hand-written card on these ones. So, I will have to guess who is sending them to me.

I have a hunch that it's Sango.

So, I walked to school. My shoulder was feeling much less sore compared to yesterday. I'm very curious what happened. I know that Sesshoumaru said that he would heal me, but… I don't know what he did. It confuses me.

Perhaps he didn't do anything but give me pain medication that takes forever to kick in… Oh well, thinking about it won't supply me with a solid theory of how he healed me. Probably some demon style of healing or something.

So, I went through my first classes, catching up on the notes I missed from being in the nurse's office for so long (yesterday). In one of my classes, the one that Sesshoumaru and I have together, I felt so strange.

I felt like there was something that he needed to tell me, but I couldn't figure out what it would be. Hell, I can't even figure out why I felt that way.

During lunch, I was able to buy lunch. I didn't have much, though. I forgot to ask my grandfather about the issue… So, I just bought myself a bag of chips and water.

Okay, I know that what I got is a really sucky lunch. But, what do you expect? I hardly even had enough to get the chips! The water? Well, I lied to the woman and told her it was mine that I brought from home.

Don't even try saying anything. This is my pathetic lunch, even if I have to steal some of it… Would this one-time thing label me as a thief? Nah.

I walked to Sesshoumaru's usual table. I had been able to remember where it was, since he helped me last time. I was really thankful that he sat there, instead of taking this chance to sit in a different spot or something.

Sesshoumaru was the only person who didn't look up as I walked to the table. Hiten, Goshinki, and Bankotsu all looked up at smiled at me. I waved, and Hiten pat the seat next to him for me to sit down.

When I sat down across from Sesshoumaru, he looked up. I thought he looked surprised, but he didn't. Perhaps it was an emotion that left quicker than it had come. That's just another reason why I don't like Sesshoumaru. You can't tell what he's thinking or what he's feeling…

Not that I really care what he thinks or feels. He's just the Ice Lord in my eyes. Nothing more… I guess he is also my escape from Inuyasha's harsh words.

I waved again to Sesshoumaru, and he said hello. Then he said he was surprised that I actually remembered to get lunch. I shrugged and opened my bag of chips.

Hiten asked why I only got chips, and I looked for a piece of paper to write the answer down on. Then Sesshoumaru said to say it in sign language and he would translate it.

So, I told him that I didn't have the money for anything else. Sesshoumaru told Hiten, which made Hiten gasp.

"If you don't have money, Kaggie- You don't mind if I call you that, do you? Like I was saying, if you don't have any money, you're welcome to ask any of us for some." Bankotsu said. I nodded shyly and looked at Sesshoumaru. I would imagine that the demons he was with wouldn't like any humans, since that's what he was like.

"I am rather curious… What is it about Ms. Kagome that has made you three fond of her?" Sesshoumaru asked. I watched as they all looked at each other, then at me. Hiten was first to respond.

He hugged me tightly, bringing my back against his chest. Then he said something about how adorable I was, and how could he not like me. When Hiten sensed how tense I was getting by the embrace, he stopped hugging me.

Goshinki said that he didn't mind my company. He said that most humans talk much more than needed and say things that they don't mean. But, I did not talk and only told them answers to questions, not stories about it.

Bankotsu said that he liked me just because I was so innocent. Funny, that isn't the word I would use to describe myself. He started attempting to explain, but Sesshoumaru just shook his head.

He said that I, Ms. Kagome, had managed to get four demons to appreciate me. Of course, there were many more people who hated me just because I had a permanent invitation to their table.

I slowly ate my lunch, paying attention to what the demons were speaking of. Sesshoumaru didn't talk much, he just listened. For some reason, I appreciated him for this. I don't know why.

One of the demons mentioned me (they were talking in demon, in case you weren't aware). I looked up and stared at him, curious as to why my name was being mentioned in their conversation.

This got Bankotsu's attention. After all, I was staring at him after he had said my name in demon. He looked at me and then at Sesshoumaru.

"It's almost like she can understand demon." He said, his language still not the human language. I watched as Sesshoumaru's head moved slowly up and down. He closed his eyes and allowed a slight smirk to appear on his face.

"She can." He replied in demon. Bankotsu, Hiten, and Goshinki all looked at me. I smiled faintly, wishing Sesshoumaru hadn't spilled the secret. It's amazing the things you will learn when people are speaking about you in a language you shouldn't be able to understand.

Goshinki asked me, in demon, if his shirt was red. I guess it was a test to see if I really knew the language or not. I looked at his shirt and shook my head. Sure, it had small red pieces on it, but it wasn't entirely red.

Everyone, except Sesshoumaru, was shocked. A human that knew demon was probably very strange. No matter how hard you try, it's nearly impossible to get humans to understand demons. That's mostly due to the fact that their sentence structures are so different than the human's way.

They continued to talk, and one of them asked me where I was going this afternoon. I guess it was just casual conversation that they were attempting. I signed that I was going to the doctor. Sesshoumaru translated (he's really handy that way, isn't he?)

They all nodded, but only one asked what it was for. I bit my lip and slowly signed that I wasn't sure if I had a certain illness or not. I wanted to make sure that I didn't have it. Thankfully, the questions stopped there.

They continued to speak in demon, only asking me questions every now and then. Demons can speak their own language easier than they can speak the human language. Just like when you learn, for example, German, you will always be more fluent in your first language than in German.

The bell rang, and I reached for my backpack. Hiten had already grabbed it and smiled. He said that he would take it to class for me, since we shared the same after-lunch class. I agreed, but reluctantly. I didn't really know if I could trust him entirely.

On the way to the classroom, he told me that he knows the alphabet in sign language. But that was all he knew. So, he asked me what my last name was, and I spelled it for him. He asked me if I was born mute or if it developed over time. I spelled out that I wasn't born mute.

He brought me to my seat and let me sit down. He set my backpack down next to me then went to his seat (which wasn't too far from mine).

During class, we were given an assignment. For humans, it was to find the importance of demons in the past. For demons, it was to find the importance of humans in history. I thought it was a stupid project, but I didn't voice my complaints.

After my gym class, I walked home. I was sweating as I stepped through the door. My mom was standing there, holding the phone in her hand. I could see the glint in her eyes. She was aware of this world again.

I stepped forward, and my mom set the phone down. She said that the doctor would be there for me today, right away. She said that I would have to hurry. I nodded my head then hugged her.

My mother hugged me back, and I nearly began to cry. I would miss this very much. Times of her insanity, I usually accuse her and hate her for not being able to help me (forget the fact that I would deny the help). But… In times where she was connected to reality, I would always miss the times when she slipped away again.

She told me that she tried to come back to the world when someone called. When the doctor said he was calling about my appointment, she said she grew really concerned and was finally able to come back.

I kissed her cheek and hugged her again. I grabbed my keys and a granola bar. I opened the door to walk out and glanced back at my mom. She was standing there, with a blank look in her eyes. She had slipped back into another world and was no longer aware of me.

One of these days, I really hope that she'll come back to reality and stay here…

I drove to the office, eating my granola bar along the way. It was the only thing I could find to snack on. When I got to the office, I walked in and wrote down who I was.

The lady told me where to go. Down the hall and to the left. I walked into the room and sat down. My report of why I was there had already been put into our family doctor, so I wouldn't need to explain that.

I dangled my feet off the bed for ten minutes before someone came in. I didn't bother looking up, since I assumed that it was the doctor. He said that my doctor had to leave on short notice, and that he would be filling in for him.

I looked up to see Sesshoumaru looking over the report I had filed. My heart stopped as his hand stopped flipping pages.

"I know someone with the same name as you." He murmured. I didn't bother to put my last name down on the slip, since it was supposed to be my family doctor and he would know me.

Sesshoumaru looked up at me and I saw surprise on his face. I'm sure it was on my face as well.

Sesshoumaru dropped the vanilla-colored folder he was holding and stared at me. I bit my lip and looked down. How humiliating! To have someone from my high school read the charts and think the worst of me.

"Care to explain why you are testing for this, Ms.Kagome?" Sesshoumaru asked as he picked up the folder. How else could I explain to him why I was being tested for any STDs?

I slowly raised my shaky hands and began to form words with them. How terribly humiliated I felt.

I told him about Andrew and what had happened not too long ago. I told him how many women I'm sure Andrew rapes… I was afraid he would pass on a disease to me.

Sesshoumaru nodded, and thankfully didn't ask about the raping too much. He asked if that is what Kagura had smelled during lunch. I nodded my head. He asked if that was the reason that I wouldn't allow people to touch me, and I nodded again.

Then he told me that he would not tell anyone without my permission. He took me to a room and asked me to pull my pants and underwear off so he could test me for it. I bit my lip as hard as I could and began to do as he asked.

He ran the tests as quickly and accurately as he could. He said that he would have the results in a while, and he would be able to tell me at school. Probably on Monday or Tuesday.

I nodded my head very little and pulled my clothes back on. As I did this, I heard the door open and close. A little girl ran in with a sideways ponytail, giggling like someone was tickling her.

She called Sesshoumaru her father, and he just smiled at her. She started showing him pictures that she drew, and he said they were good. They were the type of pictures that kids just scribble, nothing too fancy.

She looked at me and asked if I was one of his patients. He said yes, but that I couldn't speak. She walked up to me and smiled with what could easily be the cutest grin I've ever seen.

"Hi! My name is Rin! Daddy says your name is Kagome. Is that right?" She asked innocently. I nodded my head and she hugged me tightly. I wasn't looking at Sesshoumaru, but I knew that he was watching me carefully to make sure that his daughter wasn't harmed. Funny. Sesshoumaru is a demon and he has a human daughter. I'll have to ask him about this later.

In fact, I'll ask him now. We have the window opened up. I don't know who will be on right now. Miroku won't be in the conversation if Inuyasha isn't in it.

Crap. I have two windows open right now. I'll have to put the second window in after the first one. I guess I'll put the conversation between Sesshoumaru and I first, since that one probably will end sooner.

Poisoned: So, Ms. Kagome… Will you explain something to me?

HolyDemon: Probably not, but I would really like to ask you a question right now.

Poisoned: Then ask.

HolyDemon: The little girl, Rin… She calls you her father, but she's human and you're demon… So, how is she your daughter?

Poisoned: I met Rin when my father, whom is a lawyer, was dealing with some issues with an orphanage. She became attached to me.

HolyDemon: I don't mean this offensively, but what possessed you to adopt her? I have never seen you show emotion towards anything, except hating your brother… It's hard for me to picture you caring enough to adopt a kid. Especially a human, since everyone talks about how much you hate humans.

Poisoned: You mention good points. Human children usually annoy me more than grown humans… But she seemed more calm than most I had known. So, I offered to take her out to ice cream.

Poisoned: I have to admit, it is really degrading to mention that the little girl had made me feel sorry for her. She had both her parents killed by some gang that went by the name of "wolf"…

HolyDemon: … Still listening…

Poisoned: Well… I had finally felt that she deserved a home. My father adopted her legally, but she is my full responsibility.

HolyDemon: How long as she been your adoptive daughter?

Poisoned: Nearly nine months.

HolyDemon: Wow. That's really sweet, Sesshomaru.

Poisoned: I don't know whether to take that as an insult or compliment… I think it is more of an insult.

HolyDemon: It wasn't supposed to be, but whatever suits you…

HolyDemon: You said that you wanted to ask me something?

Poisoned: Yes, that is correct.

HolyDemon: Then why aren't you asking already?

Poisoned: You can't back out of asking, Ms. Kagome.

HolyDemon: Yes, sir!

Poisoned: In the doctor's office… You had said that someone raped you and that you feared STDs.

HolyDemon: That's not a question.

Poisoned: Because I'm not done. Now don't interrupt me.

HolyDemon: Sorry, Mr. Ice Lord.

Poisoned: I'm not laughing.

HolyDemon: So? I am. That's all that matters.

Poisoned: Whatever.

Poisoned: The question… You should know that a demon's nose is very precise.

HolyDemon: That's not a question, either. But yes, I know that.

Poisoned: I could smell that your hymen hadn't been taken recently. The story you have given me doesn't line up with what I smell. It seems as if your hymen has been gone a while.

HolyDemon:

Poisoned: And I looked through your doctor's records. It seems that a few years ago is when you first filed for the fear of STDs, and a few times after that. Is there something you forgot to tell me?

HolyDemon: No.

Poisoned: You're lying.

HolyDemon: No I'm not. I didn't forget to tell you. I just chose not to. After all, you had to run tests on a fellow peer. I felt just as uneasy as you, so I figured that the shortest explanation would be the easiest.

Poisoned: Ms. Kagome. Tell me what happened.

HolyDemon: Do I have to?

Poisoned: Yes. You told me that you would not back out. Just scroll up and view the rest of the chat if you doubt my word.

HolyDemon: Damn.

HolyDemon: In the middle of seventh grade, I moved to America (from Japan)…

Poisoned: Hence your slight accent.

HolyDemon: If you keep writing things in the middle of my story, I'll just stop telling you. Now stop!

Poisoned: You have my attention, Ms. Kagome.

HolyDemon: Okay. Sango only knows the surface of it, she doesn't know the details. In fact, no one does. I haven't told anyone because… That's not the point.

HolyDemon: In seventh grade, I moved to America, and I used to live in Japan. My best friend, Kimi, had a boyfriend. In Japan, he had told us that he was in a rapist gang.

HolyDemon: Well, when I moved to America, he began to mail me all the time. Then I slowly convinced myself that he was just joking about the rapist gang… Well, I met up with him, and he said he wanted to show me something really cool.

HolyDemon: I went with him, thinking he would take me to one of the local parks. He took me to some place I can't really remember. He led me into a room with picture of bondage and all that stuff that some guys are into. The whole 'pain is pleasure' deal.

HolyDemon: At that time, I wasn't able to get out. He had a gun and a knife on him. He threatened me with the knife, if I tried to run. So, I didn't. Then he let my best friend, Kimi, out of a closet…

HolyDemon: He raped us both. He had both our heads near the bed post, and we were tied down. He used a knife to try to convince us that pain is pleasure. He would bang both Kimi's and my head against the bed frame.

HolyDemon: So, when he was done, he left us at a park with our ripped clothes. Kimi was bleeding really bad – worse than me – and they took her to the hospital.

HolyDemon: I… I had found out that she was coming to surprise me. Andrew had gotten into the airport and threatened her. So, she had to go with him. My mom didn't know how she got here and became attacked. Her parents came down…

HolyDemon: She died after four months of struggling for her life. The damage, blood loss, and other things were just too severe for her body to repair. She died before they could even think about taking her off of life support.

HolyDemon: Since then, Andrew raped me twice. The third time was on Sunday, and that's when I got worried that he may have given me a disease… So, he has raped me four times…

Poisoned: For the first time in years, I am unable to come up with anything to say.

HolyDemon: Can you never mention this again? And PLEASE don't spread rumors about the school or something. The only thing worse will be for everyone to know the details of what happened.

Poisoned: I do not gossip.

HolyDemon: Girls around you do.

Poisoned: So?

HolyDemon: All it takes is for you to accidentally spill it and millions of crazed girls will hear it and tell the rest of the school.

Poisoned: Don't worry, I will mention nothing. Now, I am closing this window, since I am checking my email.

Checking email. I haven't done that in a while. I'll do that while I paste the conversation from the group…

DamnHand has joined the conference.

SpiderBack has joined the conference.

HumanPuppy has joined the conference.

DropDeadGorgeous has joined the conference.

Poisoned has joined the conference.

HolyDemon: Hey, you guys…

SpiderBack: Hey… Who is DropDeadGorgeous?

HumanPuppy: It's Kikyou.

DamnHand: Inuyasha, you are truly an idiot for inviting her to a conference in which Kagome invited you.

HumanPuppy: Shut the fuck up, Miroku.

Poisoned: Ms. Kagome… Don't you have the power, since you initiated the conference, to kick people out?

SpiderBack: Who would she kick out?

HolyDemon: Kick-the-hoe.

DamnHand: Who's that?

HolyDemon: Kick-the-hoe is "Kikyou"

DropDeadGorgeous: How dare you insult me like that!

HolyDemon: Be careful. If I could do it through computers, I would beat the fucking life out of you.

DropDeadGorgeous: Why would you hate someone as beautiful as me?

Poisoned: You are not beautiful. You have the body that a stranger wishes to fuck. You have the personality that keeps a stranger from doing such things.

DamnHand: Even I have to agree. As much as I love women and seeing them naked, I would hate to see you naked.

HumanPuppy:You guys! Just leave Kikyou alone! She didn't do anything to you!

DamnHand: On the contrary, Inuyasha, she has done everything to us.

HumanPuppy: What has Kikyou done to you guys?

SpiderBack: You broke Kagome's fragile heart to go to her!

HumanPuppy: What the hell makes you think that Kagome is fragile? She fucking knocked me down!

HolyDemon: So! You tore a muscle in my shoulder! I think that I'm much more delicate than you, you dick!

HumanPuppy: Shut up, Kagome. You're just a whore.

Poisoned: Inuyasha, you insolent and ignorant dog. You have to right to speak to Ms. Kagome on such terms. If you feel you have the right to call her a whore, then there are two things you must do first, just so you know of the definition.

HumanPuppy: Annnd… ?

Poisoned: You will have to learn of Ms. Kagome's past, and you will have to think of how many people Kikyou has fucked. I have seen her fuck people in classrooms during school hours. She is more of the whore than Ms. Kagome.

Poisoned: Unless you know of Ms. Kagome's past, you have no right to accuse her of selling her own virginity.

HumanPuppy: Why the hell did she tell you what happened? I was her friend for ages and she never told me!

HolyDemon: Perhaps it's because you were too busy being an asswipe for me to tell you! You had your head so far up your fat ass that you couldn't hear me through the shit going through you!

DamnHand: I am curious as to what happened, Kagome.

SpiderBack: You're making it seem worse than what I know.

HolyDemon: You guys just need to stop talking about it! People are always asking about it! Just stop!

DropDeadGorgeous: Kagome, just fuck off. You are a whore, and speaking the way you are doesn't do anything for your image.

DropDeadGorgeous: Not to mention, having your boyfriend lie in your defense is just a bad trick.

Poisoned: I don't lie in such ways, bitch.

HolyDemon: You know what, guys? I'm leaving. Forget it. I can't just talk to you guys with you always accusing me of being a whore. I am not. Unless you understand what happened, you shouldn't say things like that.

HolyDemon: It's because of people like you that I stopped talking in the first place! Inuyasha, pay attention to me.

HumanPuppy:

HolyDemon: You knew how much I had a crush on you. I was liking you so much that I was going to SPEAK and tell you. I was willing to break my silence just to let you know what I was feeling for you. Why? Because you actually cared about me, from what I thought. I was willing to tell you what had happened, and I was willing to trust for the first time in four or five years.

HolyDemon: But, the day I wished to speak to you, you insulted me by saying I was stupid in speaking to your brother. Then I was willing to forgive you and speak again, but you were tripping over your ego and you had to say another insult to drive me away.

HolyDemon: Thanks, Inuyasha. Because of assholes like you, I'm not a virgin anymore. Also, because of assholes like you, I can't trust myself anymore. Forget about trusting other people, because I know that won't be happening.

I feel more tears run down my eyes as I close the window and start turn off my computer. I didn't get around to checking my email. I couldn't. Not with everything that happened…

Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day. I have to go dry my tears…

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It's hard to explain to people what you mean when no one really wants to hear or understand. It's even harder to do when your heart is so guarded that you can't even trust yourself…

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