Summary: Kagome moved from Japan to America when she was in seventh grade. She stopped talking in eighth grade, and no one knows why. Now, in eleventh grade, Kagome will undergo a series of events that will dramatically change her...Kagome's POV.

Rated M. Why? Because my mind has many bad things in it and I don't know what I might use...

Dates Written:
May 9th, 2006
May 12th, 2006

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The Games We Play
Entry Fifteen: Recovery

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Day Fifteen: Sunday

Wow. I am still shocked…

I woke up this morning, and you know what happened? The bandages on my pelvis were gone. GONE! It scared me so much at first.

I started to go get more, but I didn't. I was almost out my bedroom door when I realized that there wasn't any pain in my pelvis anymore. It felt as if nothing had ever happened. I looked down at it to see that there was nothing there.

Naturally, this scared me. I could have sworn that there was something there last night. So, I began to go through my diary files. No, I wrote about the gashes and everything. Unless I was drunk at the time of typing (and I don't think I was), there was no way for it to have changed.

I gave up trying to figure it out and I fed Kimbo. I walked across the room and fed Buyo. Of course, Buyo was still asleep and didn't really notice. Kimbo didn't pay attention to his food. He just followed me around.

That's why I love the dog.

I went in my bathroom (it's connected to my bedroom) and took a shower. As I was washing myself, I realized something else that was strange.

All the scars that Andrew had given me were gone. There was absolutely no trace of them ever being there.

I stepped out of the shower and dried my hair. All my scars even appeared to be gone. They weren't just not noticeable in feeling, but they were gone entirely. I thought maybe I just wasn't feeling them, but…

I quickly got dressed and got online. Sesshoumaru and Sango were on. They would have to do. I wanted to tell everyone except for Puny-marsha (Inuyasha). I opened up the windows and invited them both to a conference.

Here's the conversation, since I don't want to ruin too much of it by only explaining it to you…

SpiderBack has joined the conference.

Poisoned has joined the conference.

SpiderBack: What's going on, Kags?

HolyDemon: Remember all the scars you've seen on me? The ones from Andrew?

SpiderBack: Yes, what about them?

Poisoned:

HolyDemon: THEY'RE GONE!

Poisoned: How interesting.

SpiderBack: Strange.

HolyDemon: Sesshoumaru, you saw the cut Inuyasha gave me on my pelvis. It's gone too! There is nothing there to even indicate that it was there!

Poisoned: I can venture a guess on what happened, Ms. Kagome.

SpiderBack: Start venturing!

Poisoned: Ms. Kagome. You mentioned that your miko powers were stripped away when you were raped. I believe they may have returned. Try using them as you would when you did have them.

HolyDemon: Okay, brb.

I paused and went outside. I picked up a stick and attempted to channel miko energy through it. Perhaps I would be able to do this, but I really doubted it.

You can only imagine my surprise when the stick began to glow blue. I threw it and it hit a tree. The tree's trunk disintegrated beneath the miko's energy. I grinned and quickly ran back up to my computer.

HolyDemon: Oh my gosh! It worked you guys! I have my miko powers back!

SpiderBack: Wow. That's so amazing, Kagome! I'm so happy for you!

HolyDemon: Yeah, I'm really happy…

Poisoned: Ms. Sango… Would you mind leaving so I may speak with Ms. Kagome?

SpiderBack: No problem. Have fun, you two!

SpiderBack has left the conference.

HolyDemon: What's up?

Poisoned: Now that you have miko powers, you may need to train again. I wish to offer you my services.

HolyDemon: That sounds nice, but I won't be around this week. Perhaps when I'm back?

Poisoned: May I inquire as to where you're going?

HolyDemon: Arizona. My brother and I get to see each other again.

Poisoned: I see.

HolyDemon: Hey… Sesshoumaru? Can I ask you a really… strange question?

Poisoned: I don't see why not.

HolyDemon: I have to go out today… I have a feeling that Andrew or Inuyasha will see me. The thought is really scaring me. Will you… Would you be too embarrassed to escort me?

Poisoned: Yes.

HolyDemon: Don't spare my feelings.

Poisoned: You asked if I'd be embarrassed. I only replied truthfully. Now, if you are asking if I will accompany you, then I will answer that.

HolyDemon: That is what I was trying to ask you. Will you come with me?

Poisoned: I will, Ms. Kagome.

HolyDemon: Thanks.

Poisoned: I will be at your house in an hour or two.

HolyDemon: Oh, I'm gonna bring my dog, too.

Poisoned: Then I assume we'll be walking. Alright, Ms. Kagome. I will see you.

HolyDemon: Bye…

It feels really strange to be asking Sesshoumaru for favors. You know what feels even more strange though? The feeling of contentment that comes when he agrees to help me.

Why is he helping me, anyway? Perhaps I will ask him that some other time.

I got ready as soon as I could. It took me a long time, for some awkward reason. I actually took my time to get ready. Well, before I attempted to get ready, I grabbed a quick snack and munched on it quickly. Then I wandered upstairs and brushed my teeth.

I took special care of my appearance too. I convinced myself that I was only trying to cover up the few ugly pimples that were covering my face.

However, I know that isn't true. My real motives (which must be obvious by now) are for me and me only… Perhaps I'll tell you later.

I grabbed a leash and connected it to Kimbo's choke-chain. I walked him out the door and sat down on the shrine steps. A smile filled my face as he began to lick my face. I silently pleaded for him to stop, but he only assumed that I was asking him to lick me even more.

Finally, I stood up. Hah. Victory over the dog. I stood up and dropped the leash. I began to do a slight victory dance… Okay, it wasn't such a slight victory dance. I had ignored the dog completely and began to twirl in circles, raising my index fingers like I had accomplished something intelligent.

I don't know why I was so happy over being taller than the dog. But, when I was doing that, I remember thinking how happy I was that I could finally do something right. Something along the lines of me being able to defeat a man.

"What in Earth are you doing, Ms. Kagome?" I heard a stoic voice asking me. I turned around and came face-to-face with Sesshoumaru. He had a slight glint of amusement in his eyes. My body froze as I realized that he had just witnessed my victory dance. Even worse, it was a victory dance over my dog. Humiliated doesn't even begin to describe how I was feeling.

I began to frantically signal what I was doing. Of course, because I didn't really know what I was doing either, it came out really stupid. Sesshoumaru gripped the dog leash and looked at the dog.

"I forgot about your speech impairment, Ms. Kagome. It appears I will walk the dog so you may communicate." He said. I nodded my head shyly and signaled that the dog's name was Kimbo.

"Kimbo…" He mumbled. I'm sure he was making a connection between the dog's name and the name of my deceased friend… We began walking, and I signaled to him where I wished to go first.

"What business do you have at the mall?" He questioned. I signaled that I needed more cat and dog food. He asked if I had a cat, and I told him the cat's name was Buyo. I also mentioned that Buyo was very fat and very lazy.

He made a sound that sounded like the beginning of a laugh. It shocked me so much I nearly forgot to keep walking. I had almost gotten the emotionless Lord of Ice to chuckle! I began to wave my hands around in question.

"No, Ms. Kagome. I do not believe I have ever heard your voice. Why do you ask?" That was a good question. Why did I ask? I shrugged my shoulders.

We continued to walk in silence. Why do you assume different, Mr. Diary? Do you expect me to actually speak to Sesshoumaru? Just because we're getting along doesn't that my pact of silence will be uplodged. If anything, I will only hold it down more firmly.

Although, as time passes, I'm having a hard time remembering why I am not talking… But that's beside the point. My mistake. I didn't mean to babble like that.

So, while we were walking, I tripped. I fell back against Sesshoumaru, which made me blush. Well, not the part about falling back against him. It was hitting near a certain part of his body that reminded me of the party last night.

I looked up at Sesshoumaru while I was leaning against this particular body part… Strange how I am so shy to think about it, yet it has entered me plenty of times… Maybe four isn't a lot, but it's more than I would appreciate.

Where was I? Oh yeah! I remember now! Leaning on Sesshoumaru's pelvis! Gee, that's easy to say…

I looked up at Sesshoumaru while I leaned against him, and he was blushing too. I opened my mouth and started to speak. I was fully ready to speak. But the words never left my mouth. They remained locked up and hidden. I closed my mouth and shook my head. That was stupid.

So, without moving, I began to move my hands. I was quite comfortable in this position. Sesshoumaru didn't seem to mind the little extra weight, either. As I finished signing my words to him, I leaned the back of my head on Sesshoumaru's chest and waited for his verbal response.

"About last night… I do not know why I was so agreeable to the act, either. I was not drunk and quite clear-headed… I remember saying it was to piss my brother off…" He slowly said. I stood up and shyly began to sign more of my thoughts.

Sesshoumaru was caught off-guard, just as I was. He slowly nodded his head. His eyes became almost all the way closed and a slight smile crept onto his face. I smirked at his expression, but he couldn't see it.

"As embarrassing as it is, Ms. Kagome, I must say that I agree. I enjoyed it somewhat, too." He slowly said. His eyes suddenly snapped open then he looked at me. He was panicked, as was I. We had both admitted that we liked the dirty dancing. We had both admitted that we liked grinding into each other in animalistic ways.

I saw the Lord of Ice invent new shades of red. I didn't even want to know what I looked like.

We continued to the mall, and neither of us spoke. I picked up the dog and cat food, which were placed in the same heavy bag. I picked it up and it was must lighter than I expected. Then I realized that Sesshoumaru was holding the bag for me, as well as Kimbo. I smirked at his kindness then we began to walk out.

"Thanks." I was so shocked that I had spoken. Sesshoumaru was really shocked, too. He froze, then he kept walking soon afterwards. He asked if I realized I had just spoken, and I nodded my head.

I signaled to him that I wanted to speak for a while, but my words had been tightly locked up even though I didn't want them to be. I told him that I would have spoken much sooner (perhaps a week ago?), but my voice just wouldn't function.

He nodded his head and said that he would tell no one that I had spoken without my permission. I signed the word for thank you, and then silence fell between us. Comfortable silence, actually. Before, it felt like the weird silence. It was just comfortable at that point.

On the way home, something caught Sesshoumaru's eye. He went inside to look at it, leaving me with the pet food and Kimbo. Then I saw Inuyasha come up. He looked at me, the dog, the pet food, then the masculine store I was standing outside of.

He asked why I was there, and I didn't answer. Even if I had the ability of getting my voice back (it's a lot harder to get back than you would think), I wouldn't speak for him. He was undeserving of hearing me after what he had done.

"So, Kagome. I saw that you and my brother were grinding together really well last night. I don't know why you say that you aren't a whore. If you're seducing my brother, then I think you are a whore. After all, what woman in her right mind would even think of Sesshoumaru as a sexual icon?" He asked.

Oh how I desired to answer that foolish question. Sesshoumaru had his own fan base that already think of him as a sex icon. I would go into detail about how, but I really don't want to think like that. It's just gross. Well, not the sex part (I'm getting immune to that). Thinking of a man you don't know only in regards to size, sex, and pleasure is gross.

I shouldn't have said that. Ew. Gross. Sorry, Mr. Diary.

I stared at Inuyasha as he began to tell me what a whore I was. And, for the first time since I had been raped, I didn't feel remorse over the words he had told me. I actually felt that he would get his own ass kicked by someone else. Even if it wasn't me.

My mind suddenly wandered to my miko powers that I had gotten back this morning. I snapped in front of his eyes to get his attention. Then I lowered my pants and lifted my shirt just enough to show him that my cuts were gone. I gave him a look of triumph to show him that I could no longer be dominated by him.

He growled them scratched my arm. I allowed him to do this. As soon as he did this, I showed him that I could heal within moments. He growled (rather loudly) and told me that I was a flimsy girl. He said that he would put me in my place so I would respect people with status as high as his.

Sorry, Inuyasha. Ego doesn't translate into status. Ego is ego, and you have a lot of that (I can't seem to figure out why). Status is something that you'll never have; why bother defining it?

Inuyasha attempted to hit me, and I quickly brought up a barrier. Then he tried to hit me where I wasn't expecting it. The one area that had been abused by Andrew four times and the one area I had just pushed against Sesshoumaru last night.

I freaked out and my body froze. The attack never came, and Sesshoumaru rescued me. Wow, is he handy. Sesshoumaru saves me from the worst of times on more than one occasion. I like him so much! …Wait…

No. No. No! I do not like him! Bad Kagome! Bad! You can't possibly like Sesshoumaru! Bad! Bad!

Okay, now that I have gotten that weird sentence out of my system… where was I? Oh yeah, Sesshoumaru saving the day again!

I looked at Sesshoumaru to see that he had caught Inuyasha's hand. Inuyasha looked at him, then looked where he was about to hit me. Then he started yelling things like I was a whore because I had fallen for his brother.

That pissed me off beyond words… Well, duh. I wasn't able to speak anyway!

I grasped Inuyasha's shoulders and kneed him where it would hurt most. Then, as he collapsed in a pile of pain, I walked away with my dog, my protector, and my pet food. I was smiling, but there was absolutely no excuse as to why.

Well… I guess there is an excuse. Sesshoumaru had become my protector. I felt really happy that I had someone I could ask to do stupid things with. After all, who would actually come and help me if I said I didn't want to be alone?

Well, Sesshoumaru. What I don't understand is why he is bothering to help me. It's a Sunday, and I'm sure he has much more interesting things to do. Who would want to spend the time with me and protect me from the two people who hate me with a passion? I don't even want to protect myself from them!

Poor Sesshoumaru. I feel like I've enslaved him… It's not like I'm forcing him into this, but it feels like it. He's not even fighting back my requests… I am so curious what he is thinking.

While I thought about that, I wondered if I could read minds. Well, I know I can. But it's really hard for me to do. It has to be quiet (thoughts, when heard with powers, are like whispers). And, even if it is quiet, I have to be sitting down. Standing up drains my energy faster, although I don't know why.

I looked towards Sesshoumaru and saw the blush on his face. Why was the Lord of Ice blushing? Oh, I really wanted to know what he was thinking right then. I shook my head then took the leash from him. Kimbo walked at my side, looking at each person as they passed.

I watched the faces with little care. Then a man that closely resembled Andrew. This scared me and I jumped to the other side of Sesshoumaru. It was pure instinct, since I considered him as my protector.

Sesshoumaru raised an eyebrow then looked at me. "What is wrong, Ms. Kagome?" He questioned. He took the leash from me again, allowing me to speak to him with my hands.

I began signing that I saw someone who looked like Andrew. And then I kept letting my babbling hands move. I motioned to him that Andrew had sent me an email and knew that I was going to see my brother on Tuesday.

"So, he has your contact?" Sesshoumaru questioned quietly. I nodded my head, wondering if he had watched my hands move or not. Perhaps I moved them too fast and he didn't quite get it.

"I see." And, with that, silence filled between us again. He walked me back to my house and brought the food all the way up to my room, where it was kept. He said that he would put it away if I wished him to. I told him no, simply because I didn't want him coming in my room.

I walked in and put the stuff away. Then I walked him back out to his car and thanked him. He nodded his head and said that he was glad to have helped. Hah! Sesshoumaru, Lord of Ice, glad to have helped Kagome, Tramp of Silence… I seriously doubt that.

Ahh… No one is online right now. I assume Sesshoumaru is trying to avoid me after our little conversation about last night's dirty dancing. Sango already said something about being with Miroku tonight. And Inuyasha? Who's he? Beats me…

I'm getting off to do other things. I might actually have a life outside of writing a 9-page diary entry…

Something I will have to ask Sesshoumaru about tomorrow… I really like his daughter. I would like to spend some time with her on Monday, before I leave for Arizona. It will be nice, and somewhat refreshing. A child's innocence is always greatly appreciated…

Alright, Mr. Diary. I'm getting off now. Ta ta!

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It's hard to explain to people what you mean when no one really wants to hear or understand. It's even harder to do when your heart is so guarded that you can't even trust yourself…

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I just got Sims 2… It's a cool game (although hard to control 4 people at once), but it freezes each time I try to save it. It's really irritating me, and I can't wait to put it on a better computer. This one bites the dust…

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