Summary: Kagome moved from Japan to America when she was in seventh grade. She stopped talking in eighth grade, and no one knows why. Now, in eleventh grade, Kagome will undergo a series of events that will dramatically change her...Kagome's POV.

Rated M. Why? Because my mind has many bad things in it and I don't know what I might use...

Dates Written:
May 28th, 2006
May 29th, 2006

I got sick on the second day of my three-day weekend. How much does that just totally suck? I tell you, I'm just one of the people who have bad luck...

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The Games We Play
Entry Nineteen: Babysitting

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Day Nineteen: Thursday

Do you like surprises? I don't know why I'm asking my computer this, but I'm gonna guess that you do. Of course, I always hear about everyone LOVING surprises. I hate them. You know why I hate them? Becuase you never know what's going on! It's like having your legs ripped off and being unaware of it for a few hours.

Well... I guess I shouldn't really start off talking about the stupid surprises. I'll just confuse the life out of you if I attempt to tell the day out of order.

I don't know why I even bother giving my diary a personality. Yeah, right. I'm going to confuse a computer by telling things out of order. The only way to confuse a computer is to spell something wrong. That's the only thing that can possibly throw a computer off. Well, that among other things...

What was I saying again? Oh yeah. The surprise thing. Stupid ADD seems to corrupt me. One day soon, I won't hav ea problem with getting off subject. That'll probably be the day that I won't even remember that there was a subject to start with. Heh heh heh...

So, I woke up and had a song stuck in my head. I know it's by Linkin Park... Oh! I foudn the name of it! It's called One Step Closer by Linkin Park. I don't even remember hearing that song before. Anyway, I looked around for a while to figure out what clothes I would wear. That didn't take long, and soon I was fully dressed.

I heard my brother knock on the door as I began to brush my teeth. He came in and asked me to come to the training center as soon as I was ready to work with my miko powers. I nodded to let him know that I had gotten the message and he leaned against the door frame. It was obvious that something else was on his mind.

"Say, Kagome... I heard that you had spoken a time or two. Who did you speak to?" He asked. I looked up at him while I rinsed the toothepaste from my mouth. How had he heard about that? Perhaps he had asked my friends about me after I got offline? He did have their IM addresses...

I spit the toothepaste from my mouth and signed my reply. I told him that the first time I had spoken was when I said thanks to Sesshoumaru for stopping his insane half-brother. The second time I had spoken was when I yelled at Miroku for grabbing my ass.

Of course, I didn't use foul language when I was telling Souta this. I can't efven begin to imagine what he would think if his 'baby sister' let loose with a word like that. He still thinks that I should be wearing dresses and skirts. He must be stuck in another time zone or something... Like a different type of twilight zone...

Souta nodded and then left to, I assumed, the training room. I brushed my hair and pulled it back in a pony tail. It looks so strange to see myself without my hair being in a ponytail at the base of my neck. That's how I usually have it, so anything out of the ordinary (like leaving it down or tying it all up) just seems strange.

I should try to get myself to try out different styles one of these days.

I gave myself a once-over before I went out to see my brother. I just wanted to make sure that my bra straps were hiding, that my jacket was zipped up as much as possible, and that my loose jeans were actually going to stay on my hips. Nothing too important.

I went out and my brother was making that stupid tangerine drink. I hate that bloody drink now. Well, not so much for the bipolar taste, but because it reminds me of Andrew. After all, the drink tastes as bipolar as Andrew acts.

Souta gave me a cup and I drank it before I could taste it. There was no way I wouild risk being able to taste it.As the aftertaste came to me, I felt like Andrew had his slimy tongue somewhere halfway down my throat. See what I said? After seeing Andrew yesterday and calling him a tangerine, I can't drink this without him coming to mind.

As if Andrew didn't already corrupt my mind enough.

Souta smiled at me and said he wanted to ask me something. I nodded my head and braced myself for the most awkward of questions.

"Kagome, I spoke to your friends after you signed off... I just have a question to ask. What do you think about Sesshoumaru? Every one of your friends spoke of him as a bastard, yet you seem to think differently of him." Souta said. I stared at him and slowly tried to comprehend the question. What did I think of Sesshoumaru?

Sure, he was arrogant at times. Other times, he was somewhat sweet- like he had been when he gave me agoodbye dinner with his daughter. I know taht he hates humans and girls, making me a target for his loathing. But, I don't feel like I need to run away from him. Inf fact...

In fact, if anything, I feel more safe around him. He claims to hate human women, but he has a human girl to care for on his own. I guess... I don't know why, but I feel somewhat safe around him.

So, I slowly began to move my hands as I though. Of course, I'm not telling Souta everything that I think of Sesshoumaru. That would only give my brother a headache and give me carpeltunnel. I just... 'touched bases' on it.

I told my older brother that Sesshoumaru was reputed to hate humans and women a lot. I told him that, even though Sesshoumaru has no reason to like me, I felt as though he was... neutral with me. Of course, that's better than him hating my guts. I said that I thought he was cute (Who isn't cute in that family? Something about silver hair must do it for me...), and that I almost have a crush on him.

I then explained to Souta why I didn't feel safe with saying that i liked him entirely. That was just an invitation for me to be hurt again. And, with everything that seems to have happened to me, the last thing I want is to be hurt. I don't know how much more pain I can take.

Souta nodded his head and then began to train me. I would see him look over towards the shower area every now and then. Finally, we were done training. We had spent a few horus training, and I was now better than Souta.

I even asked Souta how I got better than him when I just got my powers back. Souta said that women with miko powers were more powerful than the men who had miko powers. It was supposed to be a way of balancing out the physical strength issue. Women aren't as good as men, so we had to have something better than them, right?

Souta sat down and told me to sit down as well. Without thinking, I sat down and pulled off my jacket. Of course, under it, I was only wearing a slightly-too-small spaghetti strap T-shirt. I didn't think that it would bother my brother, but... That was soon not the thing I worried about.

"Sesshoumaru, come out." Sotua said. My entire body froze as I watched Sesshoumaru come out from the area that the showers were in. He had been there for HOW long! I looked at him in shock for a while before something behind him moved. I looked downwards to see Rin behind him.

"Kagome!" Rin squeeled. She ran up to me and latched onto my leg, grinning. I could see that she was still feeling ill. Her face was pale, her brown eyes seemed to be tired, and the back of her neck had sweat on it. The poor child... Why did Sesshoumaru come here if Rin was sick?

I looked up at Sesshoumaru as he sat down next to me. Souta smiled at us then said he would go get medicine for Rin while I bombarded Sesshoumaru with quesitons. I glared at Souta with a look that, I hope, told him that I hate surprises. Especially ones that come after I admit having the slightest of feelings for the person.

Souta smiled and left and I turned my attention to Sesshoumaru. Rin had latched herself to him by then. She had her head on his lap and her eyes were closed. I guessed that she was absolutely exhausted. After a plane or car ride, I would be as well. Then, being sick on top of it... I felt horrible for her.

I signed to Sesshoumaru my question of why he was there. He said that Souta had told him about the Andrew incident. He said that Souta expressed clear concern for leaving me alone while he went to work. Souta had requested that Sesshoumaru come over so he wouldn't have to worry about me.

Now I'm curious if Souta even knows that Sesshoumaru has saved me on several occasions. Or, perhaps, he just figured that having a demon that I got along with would solve things. I'll have to ask him later.

I then asked why Rin was with him if she was sick. I expressed to him that I was worried for her health. No matter how they got here, I knew it would be really hard on her body, even without her being sick. Sesshoumaru shrugged it off and looked down at the sleeping child in his lap. I must say, even if Sesshoumaru seems to be a heartless asshole of a demon, I think he'll make a great father. It's really clear how much he cares for Rin.

Sesshoumaru said that Rin had been listening to the conversation. She didn't seem to understand anything other than something was wrong with me and a sleepover here would make me feel better. Children are so adorably innocent, aren't they?

"She became very adamant about coming here to cheer you up. I did not wish to try to come with her here, or just not go and make her think me a horrible person... So, I came and brought her." Sesshoumaru paused and looked as Souta brought in the medicine. Souta gave him the medicine then left with a few of the things he had brought into the training place with him.

"I am curious what it is about you that she remembers so well. She has met many other women that my brother or father have brought around. Even the women I have brought around in the past seem to slip her mind. Yet she remembers you clearly..." Sesshoumaru looked at me and I looked away very fast. I've never seen him so... thoughtful. It scared me to think that he might see me blushing.

Of course, at the time, I had forgotten that he knew that I liked him.

Sesshoumaru instantly brought up that subject. He asked if I had meant what I said. I hesitated and slowly nodded my head. He nodded and didn't say anything romantic or heart-melting to me. Not a part of me was upset about that. I knew he wouldn't care for me, because he is the Lord of Ice. Also, if he had said anything like that, I think I would have had so many butterflies in me that I would have dissolved into a hundred of 'em.

He started to shift his seat and I picked Rin up in my arms. Then, as I was holding his human daughter, I realized I couldn't tell him what I had intended to. I wanted to let him know that I didn't mind letting Rin sleep with me. I could only imagine how awkward it might feel for a male demon to have to sleep with a female human child.

Without thinking, I told him that she could sleep with me. I don't mean that I used my hands. I mean my voice came out and said it. Sesshoumaru was surprised and I was even more shocked than he was. Slowly, he put his emotionless mask back on and said that he appreciated it.

My voice didn't fail me yet.

"Why is it... around you... I don't have any problems talking..." I managed to murmur. He smiled then said that perhaps it was something in my heart or in my brain that I had to learn to understand on my own. I nodded my head and took his human daughter to my room. He followed me, just to help me take care of Rin I assumed.

I set Rin down in my bed and turned the fan on. Then I pulled the blankets over her body and took the medicine from Sesshoumaru's hand. I woke Rin up, and she seemed happy to see me. I have her the medicine, but she said she wouldn't take it because it tasted funny.

"Rin, please take the medicine. I will be leaving in a moment and Kagome will take care of you. If you don't take it, she will be unable to let you stay in her room. You'll be too ill..." Sesshoumaru said. I looked at him then at Rin. She was swallowing something. I looked at my hand and was shocked to see that the pills were gone without me noticing earlier.

Rin asked if I would stay with her, and I nodded my head. I sat on the bed and Rin cuddled up to me. Sesshoumaru watched for a moment before I asked him (with my hands this time) where he was going.

Sesshoumaru replied that he had some important business to attend to. He still had to get things from Souta's car and place them in another guest bedroom. Then it hit me that he was staying for a while. Why had Souta selfishly asked Sesshoumaru to come!

I asked Sesshoumaru why he decided to come. He narrowed his eyes and let out the faintest hint of a smirk. I couldn't believe that Sesshoumaru was letting me see something as rare as a faint smirk.

"There are reasons I will explain later." He simply said. As he started leaving, I cleared my throat. I wanted some sort of answer before he left to take care of things. He turned to me and let out another faint smirk.

"If you must know, I felt fear for your well-being. After all, Andrew is not someone easily dodged. Especially with a few friends he has started making." Sesshoumaru said. I stared at him and then looked at Rin. What in the world was he talking about? It must be natural for him to be mysterious.

"Explain it to me when you're done." I managed to say. Wow. I had spoken three times in one day. Sesshoumaru left the room without giving me an answer and I looked down at Rin. She was in deeper sleep than a hibernating bear. I slowly eased myself off the bed and turned on my laptop. I would speak with everyone very soon. This time, Souta would be welcome to actually speak to them.

I signed onto the messenger and opened up a conference for all of us. Sesshoumaru wasn't online, but as soon as he was, I would surely invite him to join us. After all, he's usually with us when we speak.

While the messenger was loading up, I sat on my bed next to Rin. I figured that she would feel more comfortable if, in the back of her mind, she knew that someone was right next to her. It would also help Sesshoumaru to know that I wasn't just abandoning my care for his daughter.

My mom used to say that we all have a paternal instinct in us. Some people never have theirs come out until they have children of their own. Some never have it until they have siblings. Then there are the few people who have the paternal instinct when they are around any child.

Mom was so smart before... But enough of dwelling on the past. That's only a formula for another depression attack. Here's the conversation, now.

Poisoned is Sesshoumaru (but he won't be on in the beginning). HolyDemon is me. DamnHand is Miroku. SpiderBack is Sango. HumanPuppy is Inuyasha. TouchandDie is Souta... And I think that's all we'll have today.

TouchandDie has joined the conference.

DamnHand has joined the conference.

HumanPuppy has joined the conference.

SpiderBack has joined the conference.

HolyDemon: Hey, guys... Sorry I wasn't on yesterday.

SpiderBack: Don't worry about it, Kagome. Your brother spoke to us while you were asleep. He gave us a brief idea of what happened and then started asking us intellegent questions to understand our brain or something...

HumanPuppy: Hey, Kagome... What is your brother's name anyway?

TouchandDie: My name is Souta.

HumanPuppy: Do you have miko powers like Kagome does?

TouchandDie: Yes, but hers are stronger than mine... She has hardly even trained with them and she can beat me without problem.

DamnHand: I am proud of you, Kagome. It seems that there is some good to balance out the bad.

HolyDemon: How... ?

SpiderBack: Sorry, Kagome. I kinda told him about what happened.

HolyDemon: So that means that Inuyasha knows now?

SpiderBack: Why do you say that?

HolyDemon: Is there ANYTHING that those two don't tell each other?

HumanPuppy: Yes, I know... I'm sorry that I even accused you of being a whore to begin with. That was a bad call onmy part.

Obsession has joined the conference.

Obsession: Hi, everyone.

Poisoned has joined the conference.

SpiderBack: Who is Obsession?

HumanPuppy: Well... That's... Obsession is my friend from school. He helped me get back at Kikyou for cheating on me.

DamnHand: So, 'Obsession', what is your real name?

Obsession: Andy.

HolyDemon: Well, nice to meet you, Andy.

Obsession: And to you as well, Ms...

Poisoned: Higurashi.

HolyDemon: Fora moment, I was wondering if you were even there, Sesshoumaru.

SpiderBack: Higurashi is her last name. Would you like her real name?

Obsession: I would appreciate it. It feels too formal to speak to her as 'Ms. Higurashi.'

Poisoned: For your life, that is all you will refer to her as. Her first name is irrelevant to you, fool.

HumanPuppy: Sesshoumaru! Shut up!

Poisoned: Little brother, you can make me shut up.

HumanPuppy: How am I supposed to do that when you're in ARIZONA?

Poisoned: That is not of my concern.

SpiderBack: So, Andy... How did you and Inuyasha meet?

Obsession: Chat room. Turns out we life near each other. He spoke briefly of his hatred towards Kikyou, so I helped him plot his revenge on her.

Poisoned: Among other things.

DamnHand: Andy... What is your last name?

Obsession: Williams.

DamnHand: How was your flight?

Obsession:What?

DamnHand: I work for the airlines. I would like to know how your flight was and if the peanuts were stale enough for you.

SpiderBack: Miroku... You and Sesshoumaru are being awfully heartless to poor Andy here.

DamnHand: What am I doing that is heartless, my dear Sango? I am merely asking him how his flight was. It seems that he had a few flights in a row, and that can be tiring.

Obsession: It was tiring. I think I will go to bed to recover from the jet lag of it. Good night.

Obsession has left the conference.

Poisoned: Bastard.

HumanPuppy: Sesshoumaru, just leave!

Poisoned: If you aren't careful, little brother, I will come home early and make you and Andy suffer living hell.

HolyDemon: Not that it isn't interesting to watch you two fight, I am going to get off. I feel bad for being on the computer with a sick child in my custody. 'Night!

SpiderBack: 'Night, Kagome. Try to be back before the next school week.

After I finished speaking, I looked over at Rin, who was still sleeping peacefully. I got up carefully and got a stuffed animal from her luggage that Sesshoumaru had brought in during the conversation. He said it was her favorite, I believe. I gave her the small bunny to cuddle as I got into bed once again. Now, I'm going to bed. Good night, Mr. Diary...

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No, this isn't right at all. These feelings are all false. There is no way things can possibly be going right after always going wrong… Things can't go right after going wrong for so long… I can't give into these feelings, no matter how right they feel…

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I told you guys that I would change the story to normal view in a while because something will happen that makes it nearly impossible for Kagome to write diary entries. I believe that you have a chapter or two that will be normal. Sooo... Enjoy Kagome's ADD while you can.

Remember that, before the chapter, I told you that I got sick on Sunday (second day in my three-day weekend). Well, Monday I was sick, but I still participated in swimming with my cousins. Now, today is Tuesday an I wa supposed to return to school. Well, almost all day, I've had a fever of over 100 degrees. I would have worked on the chapters more, but I couldn't; I was sleeping almost all day. So... Forgive me if I dont update soon. I have to finish the chapter, and I can't even muster up the energy to turn the computer on.

How pathetic...

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