Summary: Kagome moved from Japan to America when she was in seventh grade. She stopped talking in eighth grade, and no one knows why. Now, in eleventh grade, Kagome will undergo a series of events that will dramatically change her...Kagome's POV.

Rated M. Why? Because my mind has many bad things in it and I don't know what I might use...

Dates Written:
May 29th, 2006
May 31st, 2006

Oooh. I can't take the excitement of knowing what will happen when all you guys are clueless :squee:

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The Games We Play
Entry Twenty: Speaking of Home...

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Day Twenty: Friday

This sucks. I feel so sad that everything stopped earlier than I had hoped. Then again, I guess it couldn't be helped...

Crap. Forgot that I have to tell the story in order. I keep forgetting about that... Don't let me forget to tell you about the 'tingling feeling' before I finish writing this diary. I have a few things that I need to mention to you before I forget about them.

I woke up this morning with a bunny stuffed animal on my face and a little girl in my arms. I slowly stretched and walked out to get soem breakfast. All I had on was a large T-shirt and my underwear. After all, it was seven in the morning. Souta wouldn't be awake that early, and Sesshoumaru was likely to be sleeping in since he didn't have to take care of Rin anymore.

I came out to find out that Sesshoumaru was not asleep like I had assumed. He had a book open in front of him and he seemed very content. Well, until I came into the room, that is. He looked up at me and I am pretty sure I knew what he was thinking. He proably saw my pajamas and thought 'are you trying to seduce me, worthless human woman?'

I smiled and cleared my throat. I took a deep breath in then forced myself to believe that Sesshoumaru had to reason to pick on me.

"I didn't think anyone would be awake." I told him with my voice.

"You're speaking."

"Yes... I think that I can get my voice to work. I had one reason for not talking, and now that reason is useless." I explained. I walked into the kitchen and began to search the fridge for some food. There wasn't enough milk for me to have cereal, but there were things to make some pancakes (if you use water as a substitue for milk).

I began to make it, and Sesshoumaru and I spoke. He said that he appreciated me taking care of Rin last night. He said that he hadn't been able to get much sleep since she grew ill.

"Although demons can go long periods of time before becoming tired, I was starting to feel the effects of exhaustion. Not having to worry about Rin each time she coughed helped me sleep enough." He said. I nodded my head and finished making the pancakes after a while. We actually had a nice discussion while I was cooking. I guess I should tell you (it's kinda important, because it gave me butterflies.)

"So, Ms. Kagome... What was your initial reason for not speaking?" He asked.

"Well... I was so afraid to tell people what happened about me being raped... I was terrified of what people would think. I found out that I came close to telling people quite a lot. Since I was pretty sure that it would be horrible if they knew that I wasn't a virgin anymore, I decided that I needed to take care of the chance of me letting it slip. So, I quit talking so I couldn't tell people what happened...

"As you can see, that didn't work. I ended up telling almost everyone before the school year was out." I said. Sesshoumaru came up and started watching as I made the food. I could tell he was smelling it. Judging by the growl of his stomach, he hadn't eaten since Rin came ill. I even asked him about it.

"Seeing food made Rin feel worse. So, while I was with her, I did not eat. Demons may be able to push a few meals off, but it doesn't mean we don't get hungry. Many people assume we're stronger than we are." Sesshoumaru explained. I nodded my head and gave him a plate of pancakes. He took it and said thank you.

Souta came into the kitchen and I handed him a plate. He thanked me then went back into his room. He hasn't been a morning person since before I can remember.

After Souta came in, Rin came in. I gave her a plate and she ate it happily. It seems that the medicine that Souta had worked really well. I don't think Sesshoumaru knows this, but Souta had also used some of his miko powers to help make the medicine help heal Rin faster. I think he has taken a liking to her.

It's hard not to, you have to admit. After all, when a little girl is just so cheerful and kind towards and around you, it's impossible not to become attached.

Rin went back into the room to play some games on my laptop. I ate breakfast in the kitchen and then Sesshoumaru brought his plate and Rin's plate to me. I washed them quietly until Sesshoumaru struck up another conversation. Who would have guessed that the Lord of Ice didn't like to have silence in the room?

Not me, at least.

"We must go home today." Sesshoumaru said. I looked at him and instantly felt kind of upset. What made him think that he could just tell me when we were going to go home? I wanted to spend more time with my brother!

Just as I was about to snap at him, I stopped myself. Sesshoumaru doesn't demand that people do things unless there's a reason. Even though he seems awfully in love with himself, he won't make people do things for his convenience. He's actually got a heart somewhere behind all that bloody ice.

"Why?" I asked. I wouldn't argue. Especially since it was early in the morning. Neither of us were quite ready to argue. As I mentally listed the reasons why, I realized neither of us were dressed to face the day. Sesshoumaru had no shirt on, while I had a man's shirt on and almost nothing else.

Gee. I think that anyone who looked in on our situation would just assume we were 'together' last night. Ummm... Yeah... That made me feel more urgent than ever to change into real clothes.

"I cannot explain the reason to you, but it is in your best interst to leave here today. I have tickets bought and we must leave by noon." Sesshoumaru said. I nodded my head and smiled faintly at him.

"Will you promise to tell me why later on?"

"I will, Ms. Kagome." I smiled and then started putting the dishes on a towel to air dry. As I walked away, he grasped my wrist. It wasn't a forceful grasp that made me think he would hurt me. It was more of a way of getting me to stay longer without using words... I sound like I'm writing a romance novel! What the fuck is wrong with me!

I turned around and Sesshoumaru seemed very concerened and undecisive. I asked him why he had stopped me and he bit his lip with a fang. I'm sure it didn't hurt him, even though his lip started bleeding. Why am I sure? He kept biting it instead of stopping.

"Yesterday, you had told your brother that you had feelings towards me. I asked if that was true, and you replied that it was." He paused for a while and I thought that maybe he had forgotten what he was going to say afterwards. Sound like something I wouild do.

"Yes... What of it?" I asked him.

"I could not get myself to tell you at the time... The truth is that I may return those same feelings for you." He said. I tried to be serious about it. I tried desperately to put on an emotionless mask. It didn't work. I started grinning and blushing like a fool. Then I hugged him. I can't believe I hugged THE Lord of Ice.

The only thing harder to believe is that he hugged me back.

So, after we had finished our hugging scene, I thanked him. I said that if he hadn't gotten me to feel more calm around men (mainly him and Miroku), then I would have neverstarted talking again. He said that he was glad he could help in some way.

I went over to the guest room I was in and started packing things. Rin watched me and said that her bunny made her feel all better. I smiled at her innocence. Then she gave me the bunny and said that I would need her bunny to make me feel all better soon. I looked at her with curiousity and raised eyebrows.

"What are you talking about, Rin?" I asked her. Rin twiddled her thumbs after she had gotten onto the bed. She looked nervous, like something would happen to her if she told me what she meant.

"Well... Kagome, you started talking. I had a dream that you were talking. But, in the dream, bad things happened." Rin said. I smiled and ruffled her hair. I guess she doesn't realize that it's just a dream. Dreams are never accurate and the events in dreams never occur.

"I'll be okay, Rin. Don't worry about me. You need to keep your bunny so you'll be able to get better next time you get sick." I said. I offered her the bunny and she just said she wouldn't take it. She said she had plenty of other stuffed animals that could make her feel better. She said she looked in my suitcase, and I had none.

Children are just too cute sometimes...

So, Rin helped me pack up as best as she could. I think that child is more likely to have ADD than me. When we finally got done with mine, she helped me take it out to Souta's car. Souta said that he would take us to the airport so we wouldn't waste money on a taxi.

I sat in front, Sesshoumaru sat in back, and Rin attached herself to Sesshoumaru. Souta drove us to the airport, and I thanked him. He said that he was glad to have someone come over and see me for a little while. He also said that if he had known Sesshoumaru helped make me talk, he would have had Sesshoumaru come with me on day one.

Sesshoumaru thanked Souta, too. I was going to ask why, but Sesshoumaru said that Souta's little amount of miko powers had truly cured Rin. I smiled at my brother and the man I had started trusting. Perhaps... Perhaps that there is something good to come out of pain.

After all, if I hadn't been raped and gone mute, then I would have never even considered Sesshoumaru to be as kind and caring as he is. I also wouldn't have had a reason to come down and see my brother.

From now on, I think life is going to be much easier on me. I should hope so, since it has been going good already. After all, what person (or God) would be so heartless as to come in now and take away everything good in my life?

So... Stupid ADD. I totally forgot that there was a subject before I started to babble. It was... Oh yeah, coming home!

So, I told you where everyone sat and all. So, Souta drove us to the airport. Then he took us to the gate and waved goodbye to us. I watched him as long as I could, then Sesshoumaru said that we had to actually move if we wanted to get to the plane. I smiled at him then followed.

When we boarded the plane, they had no more coach seats left. My first thought was 'well, at least I'm stuck with Sesshoumaru'. Then they had extra seats in first class. Unfortunately, the seats weren't next to each other. However, as soon as we were able to get on and meet a few people around us, we were able to rearrange the seating.

Rin sat against the window, Sesshoumaru sat in the middle (and didn't seem to mind), and I sat in the aisle. The plane took off and I checked to see that there was a barf bag for the descent. Then I slept nearly the entire trip. I didn't want to deal with the whole ear-popping thing that I had on the way up.

When we landed, I was about to get sick. Then Sesshoumaru told me a trick that managed to keep my bile inside me. He said that, if you chew gum, it is supposed to keep your mind busy enough so you don't vomit. I tried it, and it worked.

When we landed, I was tempted to start kissing the floor again. Only this time, I had two other people traveling with me. I can only imagnie how much they would be embarassed if I had done that. I'm sure Sesshoumaru would have encouraged Rin to act like they didn't know me.

We walked to baggage claim and picked up our things. My suitcase didn't show up, surprisingly. I didn't care, although Sesshoumaru seemed to be a bit more worried than I was. They said that the next plane coming in from Arizona would be about noon tomorrow. Sesshoumaru looked at me and said that he would take me to get it tomorrow.

I instantly asked him, as we went out towards my car (I guess he called a taxi... ?), why he would take me. I told him that I was perfectly capable of driving myself. He looked at me and I saw something in there that I haven't seen before.

Of course, this is Sesshoumaru. If you ever see anything in his eye other than what should be there and the occasional piece of dirt, then you're bound to be shocked.

But, what I saw in his eyes looked like concern or depression. I can't quite place my finger on it, but it made my heart slow down and I began to feel sad when I saw it. He said that he wished to take me for reasons it would be wise not to tell me. I tried to pry him for the information, but he wouldn't tell me a thing.

"I would hate to worry you. Often times, the fear and paranoia of something is worse than the event itself." He said. Great. So, you don't tell me what it is, but you imply that it's going to be bad? Way to help me not get paranoid. I can't believe he wouldn't actually tell me.

I drove him home and he and Rin went inside. I told him that he would have to accompany me when I went to people's houses to show them that I can speak again. When he asked why, I said it was because I wasn't allowed to go to the airport alone. I planned on doing that immediately after.

I didn't tell him that it was just a trick to get him to come with me.

He said that he would as long as Rin made it to school. I nodded my head and then drove home.

Now, as soon as I'm done putting the internet conversation in here, I'm going to get some sleep. I'm too tired to say anything that I have done afterwards.

Poisoned has joined the conference.

HumanPuppy has joined the conference.

SpiderBack has joined the conference.

TouchandDie has joined the conference.

DamnHand has joined the conference.

Obsession has joined the conference.

HolyDemon: Hi, everyone. A lot of people have been coming recently, huh?

Poisoned: So it seems.

SpiderBack: So, Kagome... How are you doing? Is your brother being nice to you?

HolyDemon: He was.

DamnHand: Was?

TouchandDie: You make it sound like I'm not here.

DamnHand: Sorry... I didn't see your usename in there with the mixture of the rest of them.

TouchandDie: Don't worry about it.

HumanPuppy: So, why do you say he was?

HolyDemon: I came home today.

SpiderBack: Why? I thought you liked being with your brother...

HolyDemon: You can ask Sesshoumaru that... BUT that's beside the point.

HumanPuppy: Then what is the point?

HolyDemon: I want all of you to be home tomorrow until I come by. I have something to show you all.

DamnHand: Can't you just show us now?

TouchandDie: Not quite. I believe I know what it is, and it would be much better if she showed you herself.

SpiderBack: Alright then.

Poisoned: Well, everyone... It is time to get offline and sleep.

HumanPuppy: What makes you think you can tell us what to do?

Poisoned: First of all, because I'm a demon and none of you are full demon.

Poisoned: Second of all, because I'm a senior and the rest of you are all juniors or lower.

Poisoned: Third of all, because I have managed to learn every embarassing thing about you guys since you were six. It's amazing how loud Inuyasha can talk and how much you all tell him.

Poisoned: Now, everyone. Sleep.

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No, this isn't right at all. These feelings are all false. There is no way things can possibly be going right after always going wrong… Things can't go right after going wrong for so long… I can't give into these feelings, no matter how right they feel…

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Poll Question:
Regarding Kagome... What should happen to her? Should she and Sesshoumaru get together? Should she move again? What should happen? I know everyone will say that she needs to be happy because of how hard her life has been. But, that won't happen. I need some more drama before she can finally have a decent life. So, guys, let me know what you want to happen and I'll take your ideas to heart.

To everyone who commented about Andy... Damn you guys are smart! Someone even thought that they were slow for getting it. Well, I think that everyone who got that is pretty damn smart! I hadn't even mentioned anything along the lines?

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